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Lu Shiqing recalled all the places where Chen Fang might be.

Every corner of the school, the hamburger restaurant where Chen Fang worked, the sea-crossing bridge they went to, the small pine forest, and every shop in the student street, he took the trouble to find every place and asked everyone who might have contacted Chen Fang People, the answer they get is "don't know".He also went to the police station to report the case, but was rejected on the grounds that "the time interval was less than 24 hours", so he continued to search elsewhere, and returned to report the case 24 hours after Chen Fang's last message.

Neither worked.

He even knocked on the door of Chen Fang's house according to his memory.Chen Fang did not lead Lu Shiqing to formally recognize the door, but Lu Shiqing came once, and he clearly remembered that Chen Fang missed the figure of a strange man in a suit walking out of the door and the dilapidated iron gate behind him.

Behind the door stood a woman with curly hair and red lips, Lu Shiqing had seen her before, on the rusty outdoor stairs.After the woman said something incomprehensible to him that day, Chen Fang became upset and asked him if he was an alpha.

The woman appeared at Chen Fang's house, and when she saw Lu Shiqing, she pursed her lips and smiled, with a playful expression, as if she was watching some funny show.

From the slightly drooping corners of her eyes when she smiled, Lu Shiqing seemed to suddenly understand where the inexplicable sense of familiarity came from.

blood.

She is Chen Fang's mother.

"Do you know where Chen Fang has gone?" Lu Shiqing repeated the most frequently asked question these days.

"Are you the person who was waiting for him downstairs that day?" Chen Rao asked while leaning on the door frame.

"Yes." Lu Shiqing didn't hide anything, the most important thing was to find Chen Fang, "What's the matter with him? Where did he go?"

"Don't worry." Chen Rao sneered, "He is an omega, and there are many places he can go. Shouldn't you be an alpha from such a wealthy family?"

It took Lu Shiqing a few seconds to understand this sentence.

Chen Fang's mother knew that he was an alpha, and Chen Fang was not actually an omega as he told himself, and Chen Fang had indeed disappeared. His mother was not worried, even if she knew where Chen Fang had gone, she probably wouldn't. will tell him.

"I'm sorry to bother you." Lu Shiqing knew that there would be no results if she continued to ask, so she turned and left.

He didn't know what kind of mentality he should have now, and he couldn't think of any missing places for him to look for again. He just walked aimlessly on the street step by step.

He walked very slowly, as if he was not as eager as before, but that wasn't calm, it was just that his body was stiff with cold, and even moving his feet was exhausting himself.

The problems that can be considered in the mind also become very limited, and one idea appears over and over again.

omega.

Chen Fang lied to him.

But he didn't want to condemn anything for being deceived, or he didn't have the qualifications.

They are all lying, and they are all being deceived.

Lu Shiqing suddenly regretted it.From Chen Fang's occasional evasive eyes, untimely turtleneck sweater, several direct or indirect inquiries about his body smell... He seems to have been vaguely aware that Chen Fang has a secret that he doesn't want him to know. Because of a guilty conscience, I haven't looked into it.

If only I had the courage to disregard each other's lies and secrets at that time.

Maybe now there will be a little more possibility for him to get Chen Fang back.

But no.

Lu Shiqing once felt that Chen Fang was lonely, but later felt that Chen Fang was forced to do so, so he was willing to be the only one who looked at Chen Fang.

But it's easier than you think to escape the gaze of only one person.

So Lu Shiqing didn't dare to close her eyes, for fear of missing the moment when Chen Fang returned to his sight.

He started having trouble sleeping all night.Sometimes he could see Chen Fang when he closed his eyes, thinking that Chen Fang was back, but when he opened his eyes, the scene suddenly changed, and there was nothing in front of him.

The thoughtfulness that time does not stop for anyone, continues to pass by without stopping, as if the traces are washed away, everything will return to normal.

Lu Shiqing was sitting on the seat writing papers, and sometimes he would turn his head to look at the seat beside him. He still kept the same appearance as when he came back that day. The papers, paper and pens were spread out, but there was a thin layer of dust on them. .

No one could see that there was something wrong with Lu Shiqing. He still studied, ate, and slept, but there was no one around him, which made him reticent now.

It's just that he has become a person, but in fact, it seems that nothing has changed, as usual.

And Lu Shiqing's usual life was when Chen Fang was still there.

Zhou Fan proposed to have dinner with him, Lu Shiqing said "it's okay, thank you", and served a bowl of free soup from the cafeteria that he never drank, and usually put it on Chen Fang's dinner plate.

At night when school was over, he walked out of the school gate with the flow of people, rode his old [-] bicycle to the hamburger restaurant in the commercial street, then went to the old street, and finally returned to the dormitory against time.The familiar weight was gone in the backseat, but he didn't find it easy.

He skipped class every night to sit by the sea-crossing bridge.

If Chen Fang was in a bad mood, would he still come here? Lu Shiqing thought that if this was the case, she could still be with him.

Nothing has changed.

Lu Shiqing didn't dare to change.

It has already exceeded 21 days, and new habits can be formed, but Lu Shiqing dare not.In case, in case Chen Fang came back suddenly at a certain point, he couldn't make Chen Fang feel that it was alright without him.He is so important, Lu Shiqing is unwilling to divide half of his life and reshape it again, unwilling to change everything, he has to reserve a place for Chen Fang, waiting for him to come back.

Lu Shiqing stood up from the steps beside the sea-crossing bridge, looked back at the place where there was nothing, put his hand in his trouser pocket, and pinched the fabric pocket containing two ring rings.

Come back quickly, I still have a gift I want to give you in person.

Lu Shiqing rode his bicycle back to school, passed sideways through the gap in the fence, and bumped his head in a moment of distraction.

Not too painful, not seen by anyone, not ashamed.

But he really hoped that someone would come and laugh at him at this time.

But no.

The wind was very strong on the empty playground, the air was cold and oppressive, as if it was going to rain.

When Lu Shiqing hurried back to the classroom, the first evening self-study was over.Several people gathered together to talk as usual, and when they saw Lu Shiqing entering the door, they were silent for a moment, then lowered their voices and continued to talk.

"Hey, do you want to tell Lu Shiqing?"

"I can not……"

"No, I think he's fine now..."

"But after all, he and Chen Fang..."

"What's wrong with Chen Fang?" Lu Shiqing didn't know when he stood behind the crowd, the expression of Mo that hadn't changed in the past few days was like shattered ice, falling apart along with the pretended calmness.

Several people in a circle were silent, and finally one person couldn't bear to see Lu Shiqing's appearance, and hesitantly said: "Well, Sun Han went to the hospital with a fever tonight, and when he passed by the police station, he seemed to see Chen Fang and get out of the car was taken inside..."

Lu Shiqing didn't bother to listen to the words, turned around and ran out of the classroom again.