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Heavy rain.

Lu Shiqing crossed the playground, getting drenched all over quickly.The rainwater fell into his eyes and then flowed out. The corners of his eyes were red, but he didn't seem to feel it, and he went straight to the gap in the fence.

The bicycle was a little slippery on rainy days, and when Lu Shiqing stepped on the pedals, he stepped on the pedals, as if he was afraid of delaying the few seconds, he rode the bicycle very fast as revenge.

Because of the rain, there were no people on the street. There was a car parked in front of the police station, and the raindrops hit the glass with a muffled sound.

Lu Shiqing saw the police car from a distance and hurriedly speeded up.

It might be the car that brought Chen Fang, and it was still parked at the door, which meant that Chen Fang hadn't left yet.

The brakes were a bit sluggish, and the bicycle slid on the ground for a while. Lu Shiqing was pushed forward by the inertia, and almost hit the stone steps beside the road.

The bicycle was randomly thrown on the side of the road, Lu Shiqing's ankle was scratched, and a cut was made. The blood was diluted by the rain before it could seep out, and the water stains left behind dyed the edge of Lu Shiqing's socks pink.

As soon as Lu Shiqing entered the courtyard of the police station, the glass door opened and closed, spewing out a thin shadow, causing Lu Shiqing to lose consciousness of action and stand there.

As if aware of a fool standing in the middle of the yard who was soaking in the rain, the shadow at the door raised his head.

Lu Shiqing and Chen Fang are separated by a few steps, but they seem to be separated by light years.

"Brother Fang." Lu Shiqing opened and closed his lips, his voice became so hoarse for some time, and his voice was drowned in the sound of rain.

Chen Fang still seemed to be able to hear it. He paused, as if he was very tired. He raised his foot and walked forward for a short distance before retracting it, as if he had been taught since he was a child that he should correct mistakes in time.

But Lu Shiqing ran over the moment he saw Chen Fang lift his foot.

He only thought that if Chen Fang continued to move forward, the eaves would not be able to cover him, and he would get caught in the rain.He usually pulls his collar so high that he is afraid of the cold and gets sick easily.

Lu Shiqing ran to the steps, feeling that his vision was blurred by the rain dripping into his eyes, making him unable to see the light in Chen Fang's eyes when he was looking at him, so he hurriedly wiped his eyes with his hands.

Still failed.

Chen Fang lowered his head and didn't look at him.

"Ah, that's right, Brother Fang." Lu Shiqing seemed to think of something suddenly, wiped the water on his hand on the same soaked skirt, went to catch Chen Fang's hand, and reached into his trouser pocket with the other hand to find that Little Budai, "I have a gift, I've been waiting to give it to you in person."

In fact, the gift can be given at any time, but Lu Shiqing is anxious to let Chen Fang wear it at this moment, as if putting this small ring on his finger can trap people so that they can't leave.

The pocket was soaked and felt a little sticky. Lu Shiqing was slow to find it. Just as he was holding onto the string that sealed the cloth bag with his fingers, before he could pull it out, his other hand was hanging in the air, feeling lost.

Chen Fang shook off his hand, opened his lips slightly, and it took a long time before he made a sound: "I don't want it anymore."

"...It's okay." Lu Shiqing smiled, retracted the hand that was hanging in the air, and rubbed it on the wet pants, "I don't like it, there are other things, I bought all the special products I promised to bring you. Alright, put it in the dormitory, you come back with me..."

"I don't want any more." Chen Fang interrupted him.

All the things prepared were rejected, Lu Shiqing didn't know what to say for a while, and it took a long time to think of something that Chen Fang might like: "...What about me?"

Chen Fang's eyelashes fluttered a few times, and he bit his lip, as if he was afraid that the answer would accidentally break through the barrier and escape, but he still didn't speak in the end.

The forced smile on Lu Shiqing's face cooled down quickly, and the wet clothes seemed to be frozen, sharply stinging the skin and heart.

The pain woke him up, he couldn't pretend to be dull anymore, he couldn't continue to treat the dozens of days when Chen Fang disappeared as if he didn't exist, he couldn't put together the gaps in time as if nothing had happened .

He seemed to have lost half of his time and memory, and was hidden by Chen Fang.

"where did you go?"

"An omega has many places to go."

This sentence again.Lu Shiqing heard exactly the same thing from Chen Fang's mother.

It's just that when Chen Fang said it, it seemed that he didn't want people to believe it, and it was even more disturbing.

"Well, omega." Lu Shiqing subconsciously avoids the important and ignores the important, and feels that the suffocating weight of any sentence on his heart is not light, but they can't avoid it.

"I lied to you, I'm sorry." Chen Fang sighed heavily, "Didn't you also lie to me?"

"Then I also apologize to you. I'm sorry. I'm an alpha. I lied to you." Lu Shiqing's voice was trembling, and he didn't know whether it was because of the cold or other reasons.

"You are an alpha." Chen Fang paused for a long time before continuing, "I hate alphas."

"You hate Alpha." Lu Shiqing seemed to have known it for a long time, and even nodded in agreement, and asked him again: "Then do you hate me?"

To hate, or not to hate.

Chen Fang lowered his head even lower, but he didn't give an answer.

Seeing Chen Fang's silence, Lu Shiqing seemed to be glad to have escaped from death at a critical moment, and then asked: "But you said you liked me, don't you remember?"

"But you are an alpha." Chen Fang answered with only these few words over and over again.

"So what about alpha?" Lu Shiqing was a little irritable. He brushed back his rain-soaked hair, took a few breaths, and tried to make his voice as calm as possible, "I like you, I love you, put it on." Brother. Love is not fake."

"...Yes." Chen Fang said vaguely, the affirmative answer sounded like he was denying something.

"What, is it?" Lu Shiqing lowered his head to meet Chen Fang's eyes, and even wanted to hold his face up with his hands, but Chen Fang took a step back to avoid it.

"It's...fake." Chen Fang slowly raised his head, looked at Lu Shiqing with empty eyes, his face was expressionless, only a gentle voice spit out a sharp knife: "You are an alpha, I am an omega. I carry information every day Always by your side, you lose your sense of smell and can't smell it, but it will give you an illusion... thinking that it is love, thinking that you are in love with me."

Lu Shiqing didn't speak after listening.

He didn't know how to refute.If someone else said that about him and Chen Fang, he would probably have to reason about it, or even greet fist directly.

But it happened to be Chen Fang.

Word by word, he personally denied them.

"Pheromone." Lu Shiqing's forehead became hot, blue veins popped out, and his glands became hot, releasing the pine fragrance suppressed by the blocker drug, and he hugged Chen Fang involuntarily, "Yes, pheromone, it will give people illusions Really? This is my pheromone, can you believe in this delusion, like me, that you love me?"

"No! Don't! Let me go!" Struggling, Chen Fang hit Lu Shiqing's chest with his fist, and accidentally caught the gland where the pine fragrance came from on the back of his neck, scratching the skin.During the struggle, Chen Fang's sleeve jumped up, revealing a section of white cloth, which didn't look like a sleeve, and he quickly pulled the sleeve to cover it in a panic.

Lu Shiqing didn't notice Chen Fang's strange movements, nor did he feel pain in the back of his neck from being scratched.

He only heard Chen Fang say no.

He couldn't force Chen Fang, restrained the pheromone, and watched Chen Fang escape from his arms.

Retention and rejection seemed to be a game of mutual suppression. Lu Shiqing's cards were almost empty, and the last bit of chips became insignificant, but Lu Shiqing pushed them all to Chen Fang.

"We still have a lot of things to do together." Lu Shiqing didn't even dare to look into Chen Fang's eyes anymore, as if she just lowered her head and said to herself, "It's agreed to take the college entrance examination together, go to the capital together, travel, buy a house... There is also a birthday. Ah, I still have a birthday wish for you, and it will definitely come true, so should I waste it?"

"Then I will make a wish now...forget about me, and help me realize it."

Lu Shiqing heard Chen Fang's wish, and then heard Chen Fang's footsteps, which got farther and farther away, and finally only the sound of rain remained.

He remembered that Chen Fang said that wishes were very precious and he wanted to keep them, but he didn't expect to keep them until this moment to cut his heart and gouge out his flesh.

And things that are a thousand times more difficult than cutting out the heart and gouging out the flesh.

He also vowed to promise Chen Fang that his wish would come true, trying to use this to keep Chen Fang.But Chen Fang was willing to use up a wish, and used Lu Shiqing's promise to let him go.

Lu Shiqing seemed to be unable to keep up with Chen Fang anymore, and could only turn his head with all his strength, and saw Chen Fang's back resolutely walking into the darkness.

He still got caught in the rain.

But no one tried their best to find him in the rain.