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It was past early morning, and when Lu Shiqing was soundly asleep, he heard the sound of his cell phone ringing beside his pillow. It didn't take long, and he hung up quickly.

He habitually picked up his phone and glanced at it. In his blurred vision, he saw Chen Fang's name on the screen.Lu Shiqing rubbed her eyes, sat up to try to wake herself up, worried that Chen Fang had something urgent to find him, so she quickly called back.

"Hello." Chen Fang quickly picked it up.

"Hello? Brother Fang?" Lu Shiqing's voice was still nasal and obviously anxious, "Did you call me?"

"Ah." Chen Fang didn't answer directly, as he tacitly said, "I'm so loud that you're going to sleep."

"No." Lu Shiqing cleared his hoarse sleepy voice, "What's the matter? Are you still outside so late?" He heard the sound of wind blowing into the receiver.

"I worked overtime tonight and just left. I accidentally pressed the wrong button on my phone...it's okay." Chen Fang paused, and then said, "Go to sleep, it's okay, I'm going home, I'll be with you tomorrow Call up."

"... Oh, good." Lu Shiqing put down the phone, a little dazed, the consciousness that hadn't fully awakened from sleep didn't allow him to think about it, and fell asleep again after lying down.

Chen Fang stood at the exit of the station in the urban area, put the hung up phone back into his pocket, his hands were hanging powerlessly by his sides, the blood oozing from the wounds in his palms had solidified, and a few pieces of fine crystal ball fragments were embedded Inside, didn't have time to deal with it.

He was calmed down by the knife-like wind, and secretly reflected on his impulsiveness just now, he shouldn't have called Lu Shiqing so late.

In fact, it can't be considered impulsive, after all, it has been more than an hour since he packed up the pieces of the crystal ball, ran out of the house, bought the nearest bus ticket to the city, and stood here.

In the middle of the night in the urban area, there is a kind of cool and bustling, and the light reflects Chen Fang's thin shadow on the snow, and he is stepped into the pit again.

The direction of the footprints was unclear, revealing confusion, Chen Fang didn't know where he could go, walked aimlessly, and arrived at the door of a hospital by accident.The words "Emergency" revealed a red light, making Chen Fang's eyes red, as if the next drop that was about to rush out of his eyes was not tears, but blood.

The nurse on duty found Chen Fang who was standing blankly at the door, and took him in to help him treat his wound.The debris of the crystal ball was cleaned out, a small pile of fine pieces, and the disinfected povidone iodine seeped into the wound, which hurt a little.

Chen Fang said "thank you" and smiled, realizing that he still knew the pain, but he was not thankful for it.

Walking out of the hospital, the lights of the stores along the road were all dark, and the only one with a lit plaque was a dilapidated small hotel.

When Chen Fang walked in, the sensor bell at the door rang, and the snoring behind the counter was interrupted. The fat woman opened her eyes impatiently, glanced at Chen Fang, typed on the keyboard without saying a word, and took the same word without saying a word. Chen Fang handed over his ID card.

It's funny, no matter how hasty it is, every time Chen Fang goes out, he has to pack all his documents and necessities in the bag he carries with him.This is a habit that he has developed without knowing when. It seems that his subconscious mind made him ready at any time. Once he decides to run away from home for a certain time, he will never go back.

He only opened the hourly room for three hours, and was glanced at by the fat woman, as if he was dissatisfied.But he didn't care about these things. He only felt tired when he arrived in the room, but he was unusually sober. When he closed his eyes, various images appeared.Sometimes it was the crystal ball, sometimes it was Lu Shiqing, and sometimes it was Chen Rao's hideous face when he smashed the crystal ball to the ground.

Chen Fang was lying on the bed with his back leaning against the heating system in the room, and a slight chill leaked in from the loosely closed window, just like his dilapidated home.He shivered, but he didn't have the strength to reach out and pull the quilt, so he curled up, clutching the small Christmas tree model in his pocket.

He originally wanted to keep the fragments of those crystal balls, maybe there is still hope to put them back together, but he felt that the hope was really slim, and some of them stuck into his flesh, stained with his blood, even if they were put together, they would become dirty It's rotten, so I just left a small Christmas tree model as a thought.

He stayed like this for three hours, no one came to ask him to check out, but he still consciously threw himself in again before the darkness was torn from the sky.

Lu Shiqing's house doesn't seem to be far from here. As Chen Fang walked, he saw the landmark building that Lu Shiqing told him about last time, and followed his memory to the gate of Lu Shiqing's community.

He didn't know why he came here, maybe he came to find Lu Shiqing, but he didn't make up the reason for his sudden visit.And at this time, only a few houses in the tall buildings were lit. Chen Fang saw the darkness in the windows of Lu Shiqing's house, and knew that it was absolutely impossible for him to wake up so early.

Chen Fang looked at the time. At five o'clock, he decided to wait for Lu Shiqing's house lights to come on or call him four hours later. By the way, during this time, he could come up with a reasonable reason that would not make Lu Shiqing worry.

Lu Shiqing turned over on the bed, picked up his phone and looked at it. There was no news, but he felt unreliable as if he was suspended in midair.

Almost half asleep and half awake all night, he analyzed Chen Fang's tone and voice when he called him several times. He didn't find anything strange, but felt strange everywhere.

Chen Fang said last night that he would call him tomorrow.

It's already tomorrow, but it's only six o'clock. Calling at this time will probably affect Chen Fang's sleep.

But Lu Shiqing couldn't fall asleep by himself, got up irritably and rubbed his bird's nest-like hair, dragging his shoes back and forth in the bedroom.

He glanced out the window, the sky was just about to turn fish-belly white, there was a layer of snow on the ground, and then the sky turned blue-gray.Feeling bored, Lu Shiqing walked to the door and patted the chandelier switch by the door frame with one hand.

The room suddenly lit up.The next second, the phone in his hand rang.

Lu Shiqing was taken aback by the vibrating fuselage, saw that it was Chen Fang, and smiled crookedly, lamenting that the two of them really had a good understanding.

"Hey, brother Fang." Lu Shiqing said quickly.

"You woke up so early today." Chen Fang's voice was a little soft, half swallowed by the wind.

"You too." Lu Shiqing pressed his ear to the receiver, and the wind became more and more obvious. He frowned and asked, "You went out so early? What's the matter?"

"There is something... I want to ask you, is there anyone to accompany you during the New Year." Chen Fang said very confidently, a little nervous, as if he was not sure if this was an answer to Lu Shiqing's question, and he really wanted to get Lu Shiqing's answer. Shiqing's answer.

"It's still the same as in previous years. It's impossible for my mother to come back, and it's even more impossible for my father." Lu Shiqing first answered Chen Fang, and then returned to his own question, "Why are you asking this suddenly? What's the matter?" ?”

Chen Fang didn't answer right away, as if he was gathering courage, he paused for a moment.

"Hello?" Lu Shiqing only heard the wind in the microphone, and asked eagerly.

"I...can I come to celebrate the New Year with you?" Chen Fang said.

"Are you coming?" Lu Shiqing suddenly thought of something, opened the window and looked out, and asked on the phone: "Where are you? Did you come?"

"Ah."

While Chen Fang gave the syllable of affirmation, Lu Shiqing looked away from the gray air, and saw a thin figure motionless at the gate of the community, like a seed falling in the blue-white snow.

"I'm downstairs." Chen Fang's voice in the cold wind finally brought a warm smile, "I saw it, you are watching me from the window."