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This winter is colder than usual.

On the afternoon of New Year's Eve, the sky was gray and suffocating. Finally, a heavy snowfall fell in the evening, and the black clouds turned into white snowflakes, which dissipated the dullness.

The students in the third year of high school did not have entertainment, and the boys who were the most active and fun in previous years did not use the excuse of New Year's Eve to make things up.The quiet self-study atmosphere in the class was as usual, as if everyone was so full of learning that they forgot that the New Year was coming quietly, or had no expectations at all.

It was snowing really hard.Chen Fang quietly opened the window to a palm-width gap, and the cold wind poured into his collar. He shrank his neck and saw a thick layer of snow on the eaves outside the window. He stretched out his hand out of the window, and the snow was gone. His knuckles turned cold.

The cold wind blew past Chen Fang, and his naturally low body temperature failed to bring any warmth to the cold wind. When it fell on the surface of Lu Shiqing's skin, he still felt a chill.He turned his head and saw Chen Fang's strange and cute behavior. He reached out to catch Chen Fang's finger that was submerged in the snow, and held it in his warm palm.

Chen Fang looked at Lu Shiqing and smiled, scratched his palm a few times, then turned his head to look at the snow outside the window.

The cold hands have warmed up, and even sweated a little.Lu Shiqing let go of Chen Fang's hand, got up and left the classroom, and came back soon, covered with cold air, squeezed two sticky snowballs, one big and one small, and came back, the melted water flowed down the road Shiqing's wrist dripped and wet the corner of the paper.

Chen Fang hurriedly took the snowball from Lu Shiqing's hand and put it on the eaves outside the window. The big end was placed below. When the snowball stood up, he found that the two stacked snowballs looked like miniature snowmen.

"A rough little gift." Lu Shiqing said while covering his hands, "Happy first anniversary, Brother Fang."

"Happy Anniversary." Chen Fang smiled, turned to warm Lu Shiqing's hands, and carefully looked at the two snowmen without noses and eyes, but there were two dry branches inserted inexplicably at the bottom, and asked Lu Shiqing: " What are these two sticks?"

Lu Shiqing clicked his tongue, as if complaining that Chen Fang couldn't even see this. He rubbed his butt on the stool, shook his hips twice, raised his eyebrows and said to Chen Fang, "That's it."

Chen Fang paused, but couldn't help but smile and scolded: "What are you thinking about every day?"

"You." Lu Shiqing quickly replied, and added, "Oh, and this." He swayed his hips twice as he did just now.

"...No shame or shame." Chen Fang was thin-skinned, his face was already red after such a conversation, like the most ripe apple in the cold winter.

The dean in charge of discipline strolled past the corridor, entered the classroom through the back door, and used his non-negligible presence to make those who were not interested in studying pretend to settle down. Lu Shiqing didn't speak, and lowered his head pretending to start the paper.

Chen Fang tilted his head and looked out the window. It seemed that a gust of wind was blowing through the window. One of the snowmen lost his balance and leaned on the head of the other.

If only the winter would not pass, the snow would not melt, and he would have this gift forever, Chen Fang thought.

But winter hadn't passed yet, and when the sun shone through the window the next morning, the two snowmen melted away along with the snow on the eaves.It turned into a pool of water stains and was dried again, but it didn't leave any traces.

Chen Fang sighed helplessly, wrapped the two dead branches in a tissue and put them in his pocket. On the day of the end of the semester, he took them along with the lanterns, candies and fireworks sticks that Lu Shiqing hung on the pine tree on his birthday. When I got home, I put it neatly into a box and put it away.

He scavenged waste in Lu Shiqing's world, and collected the objects he picked up as treasures. Only his barren world has value, and he is not everything.

Their first year was turbulent, but passed well.

It's hard not to look forward to the future.

As the Spring Festival is approaching, the owner of the hamburger shop where Chen Fang works has something to do at home, so he closes early to let everyone get off work early.

After Chen Fang said goodbye to all his colleagues, he stood alone at the door of the store for a while, and then pushed his bicycle slowly along the street in frustration.

Others are happy to leave work early because they have a home to return to, but he is not.

He didn't stay in the store at this time, he didn't know where to go, and he didn't know which strange alpha Chen Rao was hanging out with at home, but as long as they didn't end, he shouldn't and didn't want to enter the house.So he prefers to be busy, at least he only needs to think about the customer's order when he is working, and he doesn't need to think about the messy things he will face with Chen Rao when he returns home.

Pushing the car all the way back to the old street, only four or ten minutes had passed. Chen Fang regretted that he was still not walking slowly enough, so he had no choice but to lock the car. After hesitating for a while, he still stepped on the trembling stairs. sit down.

The wind wrapped in a biting chill and penetrated into the sleeves and collars through the gaps in the wall bricks. Chen Fang shrunk his body and kept breathing into his hands, which were so stiff that he couldn't even hold the mobile phone steadily, trying to keep a little warmth, supporting the next It takes an unknown and long time to spend in this embarrassing state.

Leaning against the wall to avoid the raging cold wind, Chen Fang was in a daze at the light and shadow of the dim street lamp falling on the opposite wall through the corridor.It seems to be snowing outside, and there are dense spots in the light and shadow, changing one after another, like the TV screen that could not receive the signal at home when he was a child, Chen Fang looked at it, but he didn't find it boring, after all, when he was a child, he could watch all day.

I don’t know how long I’ve been watching like this for a while, but there was a creaking sound from the door a few steps away, and a somewhat dragging footstep gradually approached, mixing the air with a pungent alcohol-scented alpha pheromone. A drunk who just crawled out of the love wine jar.

This kind of thing has long been normal, Chen Fang ignored it, just continued to stare at the snow shadow, felt that the snow seemed to be falling heavily, and the rapidly changing light and shadow made him a little dazzled.

Alcohol-smelling Alpha, with a big belly, walked across the corridor and was about to go down the stairs. He paused on the steps where Chen Fang was sitting, and kicked Chen Fang's butt with his toes.

Chen Fang didn't respond, and he didn't have the courage to move his arms and legs or look up. In the eyes of alpha, these ordinary movements would only be provocations, which would arouse the interest of wild animals in hunting and bring disaster.

Alpha, who had just satisfied his animal desire, seemed to lose his patience with the boring little prey very quickly. Seeing the little thing curled up in the corner and not moving, he sneered and went down the rusty steps. The heavy steps made the stairs tremble. It almost caused Chen Fang to experience a catastrophe.

Chen Fang didn't stand up immediately, and continued to sit for a while, suppressing the palpitations of the rest of his life, and turned his head to look at the door that Alpha walked out just now.

The door of the room was wide open, and the dim light reflected a figure on the ground.Chen Rao was wearing a blanket, half of his body was exposed outside the door, and he exhaled a puff of thick smoke into the air, his eyes looked at Chen Fang who was sitting on the steps intentionally or unintentionally.

She doesn't often look at Chen Fang like this, but whenever she looks at him, she is contemptuous and hostile as usual, as if someone owed her something, and she has nowhere to ask, so she puts the blame on Chen Fang. You can't tear the flesh out of him with your eyes.

Chen Fang has long been used to this look, but he still lacks the courage to face the sharp blade fearlessly.He lowered his head to avoid Chen Rao's eyes, and staggered his body at the door, trying to bypass Chen Rao and enter the house, but she blocked the way with her arm while holding his schoolbag.

"Omega is indeed a coquette, but it has a way of seducing alpha."

Chen Fang frowned, a little irritable, but he still didn't intend to pay attention to it. He put aside Chen Rao's arm and wanted to enter the house, but Chen Rao twisted his collar and forced him to face the curse, "Pretend to be pitiful, who will you pretend to be for? If it's a man, how many customers will my wife introduce you?"

"...Why bother?" Chen Fang asked back, "Everything is going to drag me, do you hate me that much?"

"Unbearable?" Chen Rao smiled instead of anger, and roared while laughing: "You said I was unbearable, you were born by me! I was born by this unbearable mother! How clean are you!"

Like crazy, Chen Rao grabbed Chen Fang's collar and dragged him back to the back room, pushed open the door of Chen Fang's bedroom, pushed Chen Fang aside, rummaged and scratched with his hands in a disorderly manner, and made a mess beside the bed.

Chen Fang didn't know what she was doing, but felt that she was inexplicably crazy again, turned around and wanted to leave, but heard Chen Rao's rummaging stopped, and suddenly burst out laughing.

"Don't think I don't know what you're planning. Want to get out of here, get up from the mud, get clean?"

Chen Fang turned his head and saw Chen Rao's face was covered with tears, but he was grinning ferociously, holding the crystal ball that Lu Shiqing gave him, and holding it above his head.

"Stop being delusional!"

The shattering sound of glass products on the ground cut Chen Rao's curse, as if the world fell apart, the surface and the sky were shattered, and hot magma gushed out from the gap, melting the barren planet and devouring the hope of life covered on the surface , exposing the mud that was originally decadent and gray.

The remains of the crystal ball collapsed and splashed all over the ground.

He too fell back into the mud.