Lovely Allergen

When I was a child, I read a piece of news about an orphan who was reported after the disaster. Words such as "good-hearted people from all walks of life", "benevolent deeds" and "giving love" were constantly mentioned in the news.

At that time, he sat obediently in front of the TV, but what he thought was "I am like him".

The words in the news report seem to be engraved in his heart. Whenever he sees similar news, he will compare it with himself, and then quietly lament his luck in his heart.

Later, he involuntarily regards everyone who treats him well as a "good hearted person", regards everyone's care and love for him as "kind deeds", and then tries his best to repay the love of others.These behaviors have been engraved in his bones and become an inseparable part.

But among so many kind-hearted people, those who Le Zhishi most wanted to repay but could not repay were the parents of the Song family.

On the one hand, he hoped that he could dedicate happiness and warmth to them forever, and on the other hand, he caused irreversible harm to them because of his selfish love.The two contradictory wishes pulled at him in contradiction, almost tearing him apart.

Standing in the living room, Le Zhi thought angrily that he might have really behaved badly this time, illness and panic had confused his mind, and even he himself didn't know what he was talking about.

Obviously you can be firmer, obviously you can stop crying.

This living room is too familiar to them, as if there are phantoms of happiness remaining in every corner.When I was a child, Le Zhishi and Song Yu sat in front of their parents' knees to build Lego blocks. The four of them sat in front of the TV and competed for different channels. In winter, they snuggled up under the same XL blanket. How many times to clear the supper.

Now they are scattered in the same space, the very close heart is separated by the cold air, everyone is sad and silent, counting down like years.

I don't know how long it took, like an auditory hallucination, Lezhi heard Song Jin's voice, which was difficult and hoarse.

"it's all my fault."

After hearing only one beginning, Lin Rong was already sobbing.

"No." Le Zhishi's heart ached, "Uncle Song..."

Song Jin sat in front of the sofa, his back seemed to be ten years older, "I am busy earning money every day, and I want you to live a richer life without any burden. When I get home, I just want to have a good chat with you , to be a decent parent, because our shoulders are actually the expectations of two families. Unexpectedly, after so many years, I don’t know anything about the two children I raised. Sometimes I look at you, I feel really good, I don’t have any regrets in my life, these two children are so good, so good, I am very proud of myself, I even think that in the future... I can stand up a little harder when I go to see Leyi. "

His voice was a little trembling, and he stared blankly at the black screen of the TV, as if Leyi was right in front of him at this moment, and he could wrap his arms around his shoulders, just like in the past, "I can tell him, watch me raise your son Well, maybe it’s better than what you raised yourself.”

Song Jin shook his head, "Fortunately, it's just a dream. If he really knows about it, he might think I'm ridiculous."

His smile gradually stopped, "I... Later, I felt more and more wrong. Why didn't Song Yu go home all the time? Why was he always alone? Obviously, it wasn't because he couldn't find someone to accompany him. She never fell in love once, and she has a cold personality. There is nothing to say about it. I can't figure out why Lele didn't go home when she went to college. "

Lin Rong listened and covered her face with her hands.

"Do you know? Xiaorong and I, we look forward to your two coming back every weekend. She cooks a big table of dishes on weekends, and then the two of us eat them face to face. We can't finish them. We thought, yes It's not that we haven't done well enough or cared enough about you, but we just want to see if we can pay more attention and plan more for your future."

Song Yu lowered his head and clenched his hands tightly.

"But you come back once in a while, and you seem to be very happy, so I can't figure it out. I can only convince myself that you have grown up and have your own ideas. This is normal, isn't it." He laughed self-deprecatingly Laughing, "The result turned out to be like this. Who would have thought that my eldest son fell in love with my 'little son'. Even TV dramas dare not act like this."

He nodded to himself, muttering to himself, "It's good, it's better to know earlier, so as not to be kept in the dark all the time, and worry about planning for you, I don't think it will be necessary in the future, so as not to delay A good girl from someone else's family."

"If I say now that I can accept you, it would be a lie. No one can accept that their two children are together suddenly. There is no one around who doesn't know about your relationship. If you go out, whoever doesn't say something about the old Song's family Two sons. Okay, now you two are going to be together, how embarrassing it is for you to go out holding hands now, people say you are two brothers, how do you explain it, after the explanation you leave, why do people talk about you behind your back...these You can't even hide."

These words are not pleasant, but they are all from Song Jin's heart.

"I have an old face, it doesn't matter, if they want to say that our family is in chaos, that Xiaorong and I taught it, there is no way but to accept it. But your life is still very long..." After saying this In a word, he once again fell into a long silence, as if he had lost his strength.

When I opened my mouth again, every word seemed to be sawed and ground bit by bit with a blunt knife.

"When you walk on the street, you may be scolded and disgusted, and laughed at. No one cares about you... How clean your love is is as good as it is. People with prejudices see you no differently than seeing a patient."

"Don't talk about Song Jin." Lin Rong almost couldn't listen anymore, she sat beside him, half leaned on him, and hugged him.

"I want to tell." Song Jin took a deep breath, with determination in his tone, "You have to let them know what they are doing, what I said is nothing compared to what they will face in the future. Don’t meet in the future, regret it, and feel that you can’t stand it, then this family will really break up by then.”

"I'm already a failed father, and I don't want you to fail in the future." Song Jin got up from the sofa, his back looked very tired.The man who used to be able to hold Xiao Lezhi in one hand and hold the young Song Yu in the other hand, now that he is no longer confused, but sadly confides his confusion about the two children and his anxiety about their future.

Song Yu thought, he made his father ten years old overnight.

"I see that you already want a way to go to the dark, forget it, your life is your own, no matter how much we try to help you, no matter how much we write, we want to lead you to the Kangzhuang Avenue, it will be a waste of effort .So be it."

After speaking, Song Jin walked around the sofa, without looking at Song Yu or Le Zhishi, and walked towards the door of the house.

Lin Rong turned around and called him anxiously: "Song Jin, where are you going?"

He put on his coat, opened the door, and the cold wind rushed in.

"I went to buy a pack of cigarettes, panicked, and came back after smoking. If you want to go back to school, you can go back."

He took a step, then paused.

"Lele."

Lezhi looked in his direction.

"You..." He sighed, "When you want to leave, why don't you think about me and your Aunt Rong. We raised you so much, and in the end you will repay us by separating your flesh and blood, right?"

These four words stabbed Le Zhishi's heart fiercely.

"Forget it."

The door closed, but the sound was very soft.

Le Zhishi remembered what Aunt Rong once said. She said that at the beginning, Uncle Song smoked a lot because of the pressure of starting a business.Later, I took him home and found out that my child had asthma, so I endured my addiction and quit smoking for 16 years.

Regardless of whether Le Zhishi was at home or not, he never touched him once.

There were only the three of them left in the house, Song Yu turned his back and couldn't see his expression clearly.Lin Rong couldn't stop crying, Le Zhishi hated her crying the most, and walked towards Lin Rong as if she couldn't control her steps.

Standing in front of Lin Rong, seeing her covering her face and crying, Le Zhi called her Aunt Rong sadly and begged her not to cry anymore.

"Cry again...your eyes will be swollen tomorrow."

Lin Rong covered her face and shook her head, feeling powerless. After a while, when she looked up at Le Zhi, "Lele, is there really no other way?"

Looking into her eyes, Lezhi wanted to give her an answer.

But he seemed to lose his voice and couldn't speak a word.

It was Lin Rong who finally gave up.

She lowered her head, crying softly, repeatedly asking "Why did it become like this", maybe it was Le Zhishi and Song Yu, or maybe it was herself.After a long time, she finally stopped crying a little bit when she really believed that all this had really happened.

"It's getting late, and I can't even go back to the school dormitory now." She sniffed, stood up with the armrest of the sofa, walked towards the stairs, stopped again, and said to the two children, "Go wash the toilet." Face, rest early."

Listening to the sound of Lin Rong's footsteps going upstairs, each sound seemed to be stepping on Le Zhishi's heart.

Only he and Song Yu were left in the room.When I returned home from Lezhi, I was standing at the entrance, only to hear Song Yu say a few words.He has been accepting everything in silence, like a criminal waiting for the final judgment in silence.

Le Zhishi walked towards him and stood in front of him, but was a bit afraid to hug him.They stood in this house like two people crucified on two crosses, equally guilty, but unable to touch each other.

"Song Yu..."

Song Yu didn't reach out to hug him, but just raised his hand, tore off the antipyretic patch on his forehead, and touched it.

"Why don't you wear a little more when you come out?" He just said.

When Le Zhi thought of the tingling pain in his dream, he felt that he had really grown up with the person in front of him.

Even if they are not of the same mother, they are like two intertwined trees, if one is cut off, they can still live in the other's veins and roots.

"Go and wash up." Song Yu patted his head, "Go to bed early, so that you can recover quickly."

No matter how reluctant Le Zhishi was, he finally succumbed to Song Yu's decision, went upstairs alone, and entered his room.In the dark room, Le Zhishi was silently leaning against the door panel. His low fever made him a little dizzy. In his blurred thoughts, he prayed that Song Jin would stop flustered after smoking tonight, and that Lin Rong would stop worrying about them. She shed tears and prayed that Song Yu could really let go of the burden in her heart.

Nights are always extremely difficult, like a long, aimless and shaking shot in a film, which makes people feel confused and wants to stop, but he doesn't have the ability.

Lying on the bed, Le Zhishi suddenly wondered if this could be his own nightmare.

He used many methods to verify the reality of this moment, but the severe cold made his perception drop, making it difficult to distinguish.

Suddenly, he heard a knock on the door and thought it was an illusion.But in the next second, Lin Rong came in.

"Aunt Rong..."

She put the warm water in her hand on Le Zhishi's bedside table, and put down the cold medicine in her hand.

"Take the medicine and then sleep." She lowered her eyes, and when she didn't look at Lezhi, she spoke very softly.

Le Zhishi's heart felt hot, and the tip of his nose was sore. He nodded hard, picked up the water glass and the medicine, and swallowed the cold medicine obediently without saying anything.

Lin Rong sat by the bed, clutching the quilt unconsciously, but held back, until Le Zhi couldn't help hugging her, and finally couldn't bear it any longer.

"You little white-eyed wolf, you don't know how to raise him. I love you so much, but you want to leave me?" She clearly said harsh words, but she cried again, and the tears fell on Le Zhishi's shoulders, softly Hit him, and complained about his ruthlessness like a little girl, "What do I want your money for? You are not around me, why don't you think about it, what if Aunt Rong gets sick at home by herself? Who will accompany you?" I'm going to the hospital, who will watch the store for me when I'm too busy."

"I thought about it, I..." Le Zhishi hugged her tightly and shed tears, "I thought about it before, I wanted to visit you secretly, go to the gate of Yanghe Qizhe..."

"No conscience, really no conscience. I treat you as my baby." Lin Rong couldn't stop crying, she could only shake her head on Le Zhishi's shoulder, and let Le Zhishi coax her until she really couldn't do it anymore. After crying, he stood up, touched the wet spot on Le Zhishi's shoulder, took a deep breath, and looked at Le Zhishi's face for a long time, as if he would really disappear one day.

When she had seen enough and was about to leave, when she took the cup away, she saw the group photo of Le Zhishi's family on an outing beside Le Zhishi's bed, touched it, then finally stood up, and walked to the door alone.

She opened the door and left, but couldn't help turning her head back, and said to Le Zhishi with sobs.

"Go and sleep with brother, I'm afraid he won't be able to sleep tonight."

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The author has something to say: [1010 (No.11 draft)]

To future lovers of Lezhishi:

Hello, nice to meet you, I am Le Zhishi's elder brother.You must be wondering why you received such a letter.Take it easy, it's just my rainy day.Because I was not familiar with him in the past, I almost made a big mistake when I met him for the first time. In order to prevent such a thing from happening to you, I will make a good idea and write down such a sentence of "Docating with Lezhi" "Manual" to inform you in advance of some things you may need to know.

First, Le Zhishi suffers from a severe wheat allergy.So he can’t eat foods containing wheat, I hope you can take good care of him, I’m sorry, maybe you also need to do some corresponding dietary taboos when eating with him, it’s troublesome.Because his allergic symptoms are very serious, ranging from rash and diarrhea to severe asthma.

So, if you can, I hope you can carry his medicine with you. It is a small box and does not take up much space, just in case.Because in addition to allergies, excessive exercise, colds and major mood swings are all likely to trigger his asthma attack, and without medicine, it may kill him within minutes.But most of the time he will bring his own medicine.It would be great if you are willing to learn first aid for asthma, I can teach you if you need it, it is very simple and not difficult to learn.

He sometimes has trouble falling asleep during thunderstorms, which may affect you, but in fact he is just a little afraid of thunder, as long as there are people around him, it doesn't matter.

These are his allergies and fears, but apart from these, there are almost no flaws in Lezhishi. Since you are in love with him, I don’t need to repeat his advantages.He is very gentle with everyone, and I believe he is even more so with you.

Although his biological parents passed away very early, he grew up under the care of everyone in our family. You can also rest assured about the part about the original family. Le Zhishi has never hurt others. He has a soft and kind heart. Heart.This world is so big, he only chose you, I believe you must also be a very good person.

May you be happy for a long time.

Le Zhishi's older brother, Song Yu.

Saved from the summer four years ago

(Don't cry, you will slowly recover later and get better, Zhichu doesn't write be)