door to happiness

"Here, let me show you something!"

He turned on the computer and showed me something, which was his novel "The Door to Happiness".He said that I will be the only reader of this novel, and this is a secret that only belongs to the two of us.

"Look here!" he pointed to me. "Actually, that's how we first met. I fell in love with you on that morning!"

Looking at the delicate words, fluent writing style, and exquisite characterizations written by him, I seem to have returned to that vigorous morning ten years ago.

In fact, that morning was no different from any other autumn morning, even in the years to come.The clear sunlight shines through the lush Dangui forest, stimulating bursts of mellow cinnamon, which is as intoxicating as vintage wine.On such a morning that aroused the hearts of young people, I was dressed in white, sitting on a stone chair, holding my beloved guitar, and playing gracefully.The rhyme flows, mixed with the bright sunshine, flowing among the beige flowers.

On such a beautiful morning, a handsome young man rested his chin on the balcony, staring at him with a distant mind.

"You know, just such an involuntary lookout made me stuck in the mud and couldn't extricate myself. For many nights, I sat quietly in the Dangui forest, sulking with myself. I thought I would Feeling ashamed, panicked, and blamed for a boy who was insane. In those days, I spent days and nights in the library looking for all the words related to 'gay'. As a freshman, I didn't even put I am familiar with the classroom, dormitory, and campus diaries, but I have already written down the classification of all the books in the library, so I can easily find a certain book I want.”

He fell on the bed, staring at the ceiling, lost in thought.I seem to see the shy boy who avoided everyone in the library ten years ago and quietly flipped through the materials.

"You know, you always came to Danguilin to play guitar at that time, you were like the most beautiful nightmare. I expected him to repeat day after day, but I was afraid of this repeat day after day. One day , you suddenly ran to the fourth floor. I thought you had found out that I was spying on you, and I was so nervous that I didn't even dare to take a breath. I looked at Dan Guilin as if nothing had happened, and didn't even dare to look at you. I was afraid You noticed something strange about me. I really wanted to step up and pat you on the shoulder and say, 'Hey, buddy, which dormitory?' But I was so nervous that I couldn't even move my feet, because I was afraid that you would find out I'm a nasty 'gay'."

"It seems that my battle was successful!" Thinking of my original intention of going to the boys' dormitory building, a happy smile appeared between my brows.

"Fight?"

"I went to Danguilin just to see handsome guys and seduce handsome guys!" I whispered to him, "I went to the fourth floor that day, and I was looking at you. But I was afraid that you would find out, so I turned around in a hurry. I only went later. , but you moved away."

"There is no way, you come to Danguilin every day and always appear in front of me, which makes me in a trance every day, and I can't do well in class, so I had to move out of school. But, you are like a ghost Impenetrable. One day, I went to Gao Yong, looking for An Xiaoyun's contact information, and found you playing on the basketball court. The gradually extinguished fire suddenly rose again, burning hotter and hotter. Because During that period of time, you and I were in a trance all day long, and didn't talk much to our classmates. In addition, Liu Lei submitted the manuscript behind my back, and the manuscript won an award, and Zhang Lan and the others pestered me. I was depressed, so naturally I didn't want to talk to them. So some people thought I was arrogant and gave me the nickname "Arctic Ice Wolf". Can calm down."

"That's how you got your nickname 'Arctic Ice Wolf'!" After hearing his story, I laughed so hard that my stomach ached, "Then you have to thank me, not me, you wouldn't be so cool nickname."

"In order not to let myself think wildly, and to earn some living expenses, I went to work part-time. I didn't expect you to be lingering, and you actually appeared at my work place. But that day made me determined to identify with myself, and slowly approached You. My intuition tells me that you may also be a man who likes men."

"why?"

"You were always looking at me secretly and throwing the MP3 there on purpose. This intention was too obvious."

"Throwing?" I was a little embarrassed, "I didn't throw it, I 'dropped' on purpose."

"Brother, if you want to act, please be professional, okay? Before you leave, get up, take the earplugs out of the earholes, pick up the bag and leave directly. Your hands have already touched the headphone cable, how could you not Realized, how could it be thrown? Isn't this 'throwing' what is it?"

"Okay, my acting skills suck!"

"It's not that your acting skills are bad, it's that you are too simple—stupid! I thought you would come to me to get back the MP3, but after so many days, you didn't come to me! I thought my guess was wrong, but you The look in my eyes that night was very ambiguous. I waited for a few more days, but you still didn't come. "

"I'm waiting for you to send it back."

He turned over on his side and glanced at me: "It seems that you are not innocent, you are really stupid! An outsider picked up such an expensive MP3, who will send it back to you? It is only me who does not want to break up with you Because of fate, I foolishly sent it back to you."

"Okay, I'm stupid, I admit it!" I had no choice but to admit it.

He stroked my head and kissed me lightly: "I only like you because you are stupid! You are so cute and have connotations! Liang Yan came up with the post 'Looking for her' in order to motivate me to go to the literature club to find her. In fact, this kind of trick doesn't work for me at all, because my philosophy of life is "don't care about the dog, if the dog bites me, there is no need for me to bite back", but you are interested I rushed to settle accounts with them. After that incident, I am even more sure that you like me."

"How do I get the feeling of 'I'm in your hands'? You're a big liar—and a pretty successful one!"

"If you say you are stupid, don't believe it, you really have something even more stupid!"

"Really? Tell me!"

"Remember the day I held an umbrella for Liang Yan? We went to the cinema to watch a movie together. Do you know what a stupid thing you did? You actually looked at me in front of Liang Yan, and even came to kiss me , and stretched out my tongue. Our Jane is really performing erotica in front of her! I have always been afraid that others would discover the secret of my liking for men, so I was always careful, but you are so blatant. "

"I concealed it well, didn't she still not find out?"

"Fart! You are a person who is behind the times! Within a few days, Liang Yan found me and said that you may be gay and like me. Let me control my senses and pay attention to my attitude, otherwise I may not even You can't even make friends. She is afraid that you will be hurt, so I pretend not to know."

I exclaimed: "Then... how is that possible?"

"You are exaggerating so much, who can't see it? In front of her, you want to touch my muscles. Brother, this is something a young girl with a young heart will do. Besides, Liang Yan is Lu Zimei's sister, Lu Zimei It seems that I knew you were gay early in the morning. As for how Lu Zimei knew, then I don't know."

"It's because of Qi Fei. Forget it, don't mention that."

"You are not only slow-witted, but also cowardly! You took me home and teased me in the bedroom. I thought there would be some passionate story, but it turned out that there was loud thunder and little rain, and nothing happened. "

"Ah? I didn't expect you to be so sullen! But, you are so hungry, why didn't you take the initiative to pursue me? If you took the initiative at that time, I might obey."

"I was still in the period of self-knowledge at that time, so I would hesitate and hesitate. If Gao Yong had given me An Xiaoyun's contact information at that time, I might have gone to An Xiaoyun on impulse, so there would be no later story."

"Then it seems that Gao Yong is really my benefactor, I should treat him to a good meal!"

"It was the day you confessed to me in Taikoo Cang that really made me recognize myself. I always knew that you liked me, but I just didn't want to say it because I was still hesitating. That day in Taikoo Cang, looking at the sunset like that , listening to that kind of story, I seem to feel that I am Qi Fei——I really want to replace Qi Fei to change this ending. But you are as cowardly as ever, and you don’t even have the courage to confess. At that moment, I was very lost. Only then did I realize how much I care about you. I cared so much that I have completely recognized myself and stopped wandering. I thought, if you don’t take the initiative, then I will take the initiative. Otherwise, I’m afraid this relationship will be difficult to maintain , so, I took the initiative."

"It's true from this point of view. It seems that at the critical moment, you always take the initiative. It's the same with the MP3 thing, and it's the same with the confession thing."

"You always think that you are infatuated and love crazy, as if you can give everything for me, without complaint or regret! In fact, that is just your illusion. You are not wise enough, and you are always head-on when you encounter problems, hurting a bunch of people; You are still suspicious, and you never trust a person firmly. Although you don't say it, it is all written on your face. You wish I would ignore all the men and women and just revolve around you. "

"It turns out that I am such a person in your heart!" I felt a little lost in my heart, but I had to admit it, even though I didn't want to admit it.

"But, you are brave and persistent!" He grinned. "I never thought that Tongai would have a perfect ending, until I saw you bravely come out in front of your parents, until you saw your grandma's love and support. Grandma gave me confidence. On that day, I was firm and The thought of you getting old. Even when Liang Yan and I were discussing the marriage contract, I still never changed this thought."

"Speaking of engagement, I really want to know why you escaped from marriage. Tell me about this legend!"

"Then—you just listen carefully!"