door to happiness

Just as he likes Li Xiangyu, Xiao Bo likes Li Xiangyu's father and aunt very much.Every day, I would pester my aunt to tell the story of the mountain spirits and wild monsters in the countryside. Every night, I would touch Li Xiangyu's father's beard and say that he resembled Li Xiangyu very much, he was carved out of the same mold.This kid, I don’t know why he has so little eyesight. He is as delicate as an orchid, as elegant as a plum when he is quiet, and as euphemistic as a typical small bridge and flowing water in the south of the Yangtze River; as rough as a rising sun, his bronze-colored face is even more majestic. The torrential river is unstoppable, which is a typical northwest unrestrained.

Xiaobo occasionally goes to see Xiangyu's mother with the adults. At that time, Xiangyu's mother always picks him up and kisses that fair face all over.At this time, Xiao Bo would always wipe the saliva off his face and say innocently: "Brother Xiangyu, I was licked thin by my aunt just now, you have to pay for it."

At this time, Xiangyu would always tease him: "Oh, I'm so skinny! Brother must pay, how do you pay?"

"As long as Xiaobo eats Oreos, he will gain weight. Brother Xiangyu, buy me Oreos."

At this time, the people in the room always burst into laughter.Xiangyu always responded: "It turns out that my Xiaobo wants to eat Oreos, okay, as long as Xiaobo is obedient, brother Xiangyu will buy it for you."

If there is an old family, it is like a treasure; and if there is a young family, it is equivalent to having a living treasure, it is simply the pistachio of the family.In these two families, Xiao Bo played the role of such a pistachio, and he never tires of it.Xiangyu's father likes him, and Xiangyu's mother likes him. I don't know if it's because of him, but Xiangyu's mother doesn't seem to hate me—at least, she never embarrasses me face to face.

When they look at Xiaobo, it should be the mood of grandparents looking at their grandchildren, right?Every time Xiaobo appeared, Xiangyu's mother would smile enviously.This is a longing for the future, but, Li Xiangyu's child, Li Huanyu's child, she probably won't have a chance to hold her again.

A series of test results have come out, the cancer cells have begun to spread, and the best time to remove the lesion or do radiotherapy has been lost, and now the only thing that can be done is chemotherapy.Cancer cells are controlled by chemical drugs, but the side effects of this type of chemotherapy are enormous, and the devastation is no less than that of the disease itself.Of course, the family did not tell Li Xiangyu's mother these words.But I believe that after seeing the scene of Liu Lei's mother dying, she should already have a score in her heart.

Liang Yan came as usual, and went out with Li Xiangyu.Whether it is true or false, at this time, I can no longer care about it.

Tomorrow, his mother will start chemotherapy, and no one knows what it will be like.

Li Xiangyu peeled the orange and handed it to his mother.Liang Yan pinched her shoulders and smiled lightly. The "family" seems to be enjoying themselves.

I closed the door and left the ward.The winter wind blew across my cheeks.The wind in this southern country is not like the severe cold in the north, but it is wrapped in a damp southern poison, which penetrates the coldness of the heart.

Luo Qi shuttled around the hospital, and when she saw that I was bored, she pointed at me, asked me to help her with this and that, and comforted me whenever she had time.She knows that I am sick and need to be cured!

"One happy and one sad, which one do you want to hear?" Holding several bottles of medicine, she looked back and smiled.

"Then be happy, I've been melancholy enough recently."

"You and Xiangyu probably can achieve a positive result. I think his father is quite enlightened. After all, he is a teacher."

"Don't you still have her mother?" I retorted in a low voice.

"This is worry."

"It's not nonsense, if you say it, you don't say it."

"She," Luo Qi stopped suddenly, "I may be heartless when I say this, but it's true. Just understand it in your heart, and don't tell Li Xiangyu. Damn, there are not many days left. Liver cancer In the late stage and spread, very few can survive a year. I asked the brothers in the hospital to read her case, and they all said that the optimistic treatment would only last six or seven months. Can’t wait for the new year to start.”

Like thunder and thunder, it almost knocked me down.I have always known what kind of disease cancer is, but I don't know that it is a disease that castrates so quickly.She probably thought that Li's mother's departure was Xiangyu's misfortune, and I was lucky, but she didn't know that I was unwilling to accept such an ending.

Not to mention that Li Xiangyu made such promises in front of his mother, even if his mother didn't leave a last wish for him to get married before leaving, just seeing him heartbroken and crying, I can't bear it.In my opinion, this is by no means "one joy and one sorrow", "mixed joy and sorrow", but God's final blow to me and Li Xiangyu.

"Life and death, sometimes you have to be careful." Luo Qi patted me on the shoulder, "When you are like me, watching the patients come in and out every day, watching the corpses wrapped in white cloth and sent to the morgue, you will I feel that life and death are just such an ordinary thing. I will die, you will die, and everyone will die. Those who go will go, and those who live have to live. Let me explain to you first, and do a good job of psychology Jianshe, don't wait until that day, Li Xiangyu collapses, and you collapse too——At that time, at least you have to support him!"

These cruel but philosophical words, I absolutely can't think of coming from the mouth of the angelic Rocky, but such is life.

A person is in a mess in the cold wind, and his heart doesn't know where to fly.

Under the banyan tree, I sat on my knees with my chin resting on my knees, staring at my shoes alone in a daze.How many steps do these feet have to walk to complete this short but long life?

"Are you in a daze again? I think it was a mistake for you to know Li Xiangyu. Before you met him, you were sunny and free and easy, but now you are very depressed. I really regret that I mentioned Li Xiangyu to you at that time, and I regret taking you to Li Xiangyu's house. "

Hearing human voices, I looked up, and it was Zhang Lan who was speaking.I saw Zhang Lan and Liang Yan at the side.The two sat down on either side of me and both sighed.

"Thank you, Liang Yan. An Xiaoyun is so powerful, I didn't expect you to criticize her body to pieces. Her aura is so big, I have suffered from her, and I can only bow down. I only know that you are a literary talent. I didn’t expect you to be an acting school. From now on, you can take the road of acting. If you become famous in one fell swoop, don’t forget me, Bole.” In order to prevent Zhang Lan from saying that I was depressed, I tried my best to pretend to be optimistic.In fact, I arranged the dispute between Liang Yan and An Xiaoyun that day - Liang Yan was invited by me to act.

"Because I acted in my true colors, that's why it's wonderful." Liang Yan lay on the edge of the cold flower bed, "The marriage between my aunt and my parents was a big blow to me. Last time I saw me in the county, I knew what I was doing when I went back. My parents actually fought, used a knife, and were hospitalized. I went to see them. Do you know how ruthless I am? I told them in the hospital: "If you want to beat me, I will kill you immediately. I will collect the body." '. Such an arrogant and domineering daughter, such a cold and ruthless Liang Yan, you have never seen it before, right?" She forced a wry smile, probably because of her helplessness towards life.

"Marriage? I don't even dare to think about it. I'm tired of the days of fighting and fighting and dying. I don't expect marriage anymore, but if the other party is you or Li Xiangyu, I think, I I'm still willing to try it once. You are gentle and kind; Li Xiangyu is a gentleman. I seem to have a special intimacy with you two. So, I am willing to marry him, even if he can't forget you in his heart. There is no need to forget, didn't we promise to be friends for life?"

A banyan leaf fell with the wind and fell on her face, covering her eyes.At that moment, I thought of the idiom "one leaf blinds the eye".Yiye blinded him and couldn't see Taishan, he was just confused by me and Li Xiangyu's appearance.She probably doesn't know how difficult it is to be a same-wife.How difficult it is to have a threesome in the relationship, she probably has no way of knowing.Unless, there is no love between these three people.

I've heard that many people "married" and each took what he wanted.The premise is, "whatever you want"!Maybe Li Xiangyu and Liang Yan got married, which provided a cover for us, we got what we needed, but what about Liang Yan's needs?Obviously, this is not true.It's just Liang Yan's unrealistic thinking after "one leaf blinds her eyes".

However, her love for Li Xiangyu still surprises me - what a sacrifice it must be to be able to do this.

Zhang Lan rested her head on my lap, looking at the dark night sky, seemingly in thought.

I don't know why, I miss Cheng Hui very much tonight, and I miss the comfort of the leather suit in his BMW.

Even though it was twelve o'clock in the morning, he still drove here.

Lying in his BMW, listening to classical music quietly, he felt his whole body gradually relax.I don't know when, for me, Cheng Hui has become such a friend who can relax at any time.In front of him, I seem to be able to let go of my defenses, cry heartily, and laugh heartily.

"Tired from work? Did the boss make things difficult for you?"

"No."

"Did you argue with your boyfriend?"

"No."

"Did your parents force you to fall in love?"

"No."

He smoked a cigarette and was depressed for a long time: "Starting to struggle between two relationships, have you lost your way?"

"His mother is sick, probably dying soon." After saying this, I felt as if I had a sense of guilt, as if I was cursing his mother.Heart, is so painful.

"When I was 19, my mother died." He took a deep breath on his cigarette and flicked ash into the ashtray, "I cried so much that it seemed that all the tears in my life were shed on that day I even felt like my heart was going to tear and my whole life was going to end. I cried looking at the messy kitchen and the pile of laundry that no one washed. That’s when I really knew that I Mom is gone! We always think we can't take it, but we can take it. Life is not a big deal, as long as you don't make yourself crazy. You know, excessive anxiety is a disease !"

Yes, it was a disease, lovesickness, Rocky said.

Yes, that is a disease, anxiety disorder, as Cheng Hui said.

It's a disease, you go and treat it.But why am I the only one who thinks this is not a disease?