Summertime

It's a pity, Su Xi's wishful thinking seems to have come to nothing.

Yes, Su Xi wanted to take revenge on Xizao for her neglect, rejection of her, and leaving without saying goodbye. She wanted to use Xizao's terrible attitude towards her to treat Xizao now. She wanted to see Xizao Zao's hurt look, she wanted to see Xizao's bewilderment, she wanted Xizao to experience her bewilderment and injury for herself.

Because she believed that if Xizao could come, it would prove that Xizao still had a place in her heart.

Su Xi's acting skills are not as good as Xi Zao's, and she will never be as ruthless as Xi Zao's.After one night, she had too many flaws, and she almost couldn't pretend anymore.But Xizao didn't care about these obvious and deliberate things at all, she was still the indifferent her, nothing changed.Su Xi thought that Xizao would be flustered, distracted, hurt, and painful, because everything in reality was too dazzling. Now she has a husband who loves her, a lovely daughter, and a happy family. Xizao is here It's nothing, there is no place for her here, she should regret it, regret everything she has done to Su Xi.

But Xizao didn't show anything, she still raised the corners of her mouth, that was her signature smile, that belonged to the onlookers, that cold, formal, irrelevant smile, Su Xi hated it The politeness and alienation, as if Xizao is still the Xizao who once wanted to leave her.

Su Xi originally thought that Xizao really cared about her, because when she saw Xizao standing at the gate of the garden hesitating, with a sad face, when she held Xizao's cold and wet hand, when she saw Xizao's shy Shy and shy, she really thought that Zizao was still the Zizao who only liked her.But when she was brimming with happiness in the dim hall, cutting the huge mille-feuille cake together with Tongtong, under the flickering candlelight, she caught a glimpse of Xizao laughing and applauding, singing blessing songs, Xizao looked as happy as the people around him at that time.When she was standing among the guests and pretending to chat with a group of friends she was not familiar with, from the corner of her vision she saw Xizao walking to the buffet counter, holding a plate and chatting with her side strangers whispering to each other.When the friends around started playing games together to add to the fun, Xizao easily blended into the noisy and boring atmosphere in the hall, screaming, clapping, and cheering.When the banquet was coming to an end, Xizao quietly gave the gift box in his hand to Tongtong with a face full of blessings. On his gentle face, the corners of his raised mouth were filled with endless joy and doting. Xizao said, Tongtong, birthday Happiness, it seems that she can say this weightless blessing to any birthday child without any sense of disobedience.

Without Su Xi, Xizao would not be embarrassed, distracted, or embarrassed, because Xizao was just like the people around her, they were just guests, and they only played the role of guests.

In the end, the person who should have been lost, distracted, flustered, hurt, and hurt turned out to be Su Xi.But at this family banquet, she couldn't show all her bad emotions, and she couldn't show weakness in front of Xi Zao, because she was so strong that she had never done this before.It's as if Xizao's inexplicable alienation became more and more obvious back then. Even if Xizao deliberately placed the distance between them getting farther and farther, Su Xi never asked Xizao face to face why she did this. She thought, Since you are so cold and ruthless, that's fine, I will accompany you, I will stay with you to the end, let's see who is the most ruthless in the end.

But in the end, Su Xi still lost, Xi Zao suddenly disappeared without a word, and she also regretted it.

At that time, Su Xi thought that Xizao's inexplicable awkwardness was just a whim game. After time, they would still reconcile as before, and Xizao would still spoil her, protect her, and treat her well in every possible way.But at that time, she didn't know that Xizao had really moved, the close friendship between them was no longer there, there was only a phone call that could not be reached, and there were endless thoughts and regrets, but Su Xi didn't know what she was going to do. regretting something.

But this time, Xizao was about to say goodbye again, Su Xi stood not far away, looked at Xizao and said "goodbye" to Mi with a polite smile.

It's never seen again.

Su Xi's expression was meaningless, but she couldn't put it on any longer, because she finally panicked.

Xizao was about to leave, and he hadn't looked at her delicate and smooth face seriously, hadn't said a few words to her, and hadn't really touched her, how could she have left!

Su Xi, who hastily removed the useless disguise, begged Xi Zao to stay, but Xi Zao didn't appreciate it, Xi Zao still raised the corners of her mouth and bid farewell politely. Xi Zao and Su Xi said the same thing she said to Mi , the same two words.

She said goodbye.

Xizao left without looking back, Su Xi stood there and watched her back gradually drift away, until she left the garden, she was no longer seen.

Could it be that this encounter arranged by God is actually a drama where people walk away for tea? She has come and gone once, reviving your heart that was so hard-pressed to be mediocre, stirring up countless ripples in the dead and dry water, Then suddenly, there was nothing, she just gave you the nourishment like spring rain, just a little bit, only a sign, but that weak momentum was poured by cold water because of her leaving at will, leaving a wisp of it useless It's as if all the excitement has come to an end, it is so short that people can't get enough of it, and Su Xi is too deep into the play, aftertaste, she wants to repeat the essence, but the protagonist on the stage has already appeared. For a play, the protagonist will look for another new place in the near future, build another new stage, and she will perform a new play for other audiences.

But Su Xi only wanted Xizao to be her unique actor, and she wanted to be Xizao's only spectator.

If she misses it again, Su Xi will regret it for the rest of her life, because she has already missed it once, and she knows what it feels like to regret. Up to now, the unbearable bitterness is still stubbornly attached to the tip of her tongue, and it has not disappeared for many years.

She would never believe that her reunion with Xizao for many years today would be a coincidence, so her indecision was swelled until the bursting desire at the beginning of the dinner when the thin figure disappeared at the exit of the garden Shot.

Su Xi hurriedly put down the goblet in her hand, and ran from the bright hall to the outside world under everyone's surprised eyes. There was no bright light there, and it was so dim that she couldn't see anything.

"Jujube!"

Su Xi hugged the lonely shadow not far from the garden tightly into her arms. Her heartbeat was so frantic, clear, and violent that it almost covered all the sounds in the dark night.

"We can still meet, can't we?"

Panting, swallowing, inhaling, heartbeat, and chest heaving, accompanied by high tension, anticipation, and even more fear, Su Xi had never felt such a long and painful wait until this moment.

"Ah."

In fact, the reply was only delayed for three seconds.

But after these three long seconds, Su Xi knew that there would be some new changes in her life, which would be a change she had been looking forward to for a long time, although Su Xi didn't know whether the changes were big or small, Its influence is good or bad, but Su Xi knows that this upcoming change is what she wants and what she looks forward to, and that's enough.

At half past ten at night, Mi's car made a beeping sound, and then the black Audi car backed up, braked, turned, then moved forward, turned right, and passed away.Millet sent Xizao home, while Su Xi stood at the gate of the garden, watching the two red and yellow taillights flickering in the dim air with hazy halos, circle after circle. The circle was blurred in the low night, and then gradually became distant and blurred, until it disappeared at the corner of another small garden in front of it.

But the bright yellow and bright red in the darkness didn't dissipate just like that. They seemed to have conspired, and then quietly sneaked into Su Xi's dream tonight, becoming the first scene of the wonderful dream.

Su Xi followed the red and yellow lights in front of her in a trance. She didn't know where the dim light not far away was going to take her. She seemed a little hesitant and panicked, but she followed step by step. Going up, it seems that something is going to take Su Xi to a place.

The projection hall in the movie theater was empty, and Su Xi seemed to see that the two beams of red and yellow light turned into a beam of projection light mixed with floating dust above the projection room.The old film tape was mechanically turning round and round in the dark, and black and white fragments danced on the huge white projection screen, fragmented, without a plot, without a beginning, without an end, surrounded by old-fashioned phonographs Messy sounds, human voices, object sounds, and the whirring sound of old machinery.Su Xi sat in the middle of the projection room. She was surrounded by a huge screen and chaotic sounds. Everything in front of her eyes flashed by and she was dazzled.

She saw two girls swaying to and fro and nestled in a corner of the dirty sofa, their eyes were blurred, their lips parted slightly, and in the mist, they swallowed the white gas from a huge hookah on the coffee table, she saw In the basement with turbid air, amidst the ups and downs of a group of strangers' screams, ear-piercing booing, and violent applause, the two girls approached each other, panting, sucking, sucking, and swallowing. The sticky tongues are entangled with each other, and the madness seems to have no end. She saw two girls twisting their flexible bodies on the dance floor. The deafening nightclub music made the heart rate fast and slow, almost suffocating, and the flickering colors , light, and neon lights make everything spin, the two girls dance close to each other, twisting their hot waists, approaching, entangled, pulling away, panting.She saw two girls on a messy double bed in a dark bedroom covered by heavy floor-to-ceiling curtains on a rainy day, as smooth as two herrings swimming in the sea of ​​flames, naked and naked. Rubbing, rolling, breathing, panting, entangled, the young and delicate skin oozes out the sweat of passion and lust, which is fragrant and moving.She sees two girls...