Be Dazai's mother

I am now in a place called Yayuan.

Yayuan is not as noisy as a big city. It is a quiet and peaceful place, surrounded by many woods and mountains, and you can vaguely see something moving in the grass, probably some small squirrels.Walking through the rows of trees, you can also hear the chirping of birds.

Looking at the surrounding scene while holding the luggage, I don't know why I have a sense of déjà vu nostalgia.

Why do you feel this way?I thought about it in confusion, but I didn't care too much in my heart, and threw this doubt aside.

Maybe I saw it in my sleep, don't people often have similar questions?Why is the scene in front of me so familiar, as if I have seen it in a dream.Some people have speculated that we may all be dead now, and the cognition in front of us is just a revolving door, so seeing things that we have never seen before will have a feeling of deja vu.

I couldn't figure out this kind of mysterious thing and didn't take it too seriously, thinking it was just my own illusion.

My name is Haruko Nakatani... No, it should be Sachiko now.In fact, I was supposed to be erased by the golden rabbits. I don’t know why they let me go, probably because of the order of the golden kingdom Changlu Dajue.

I don't quite understand what he's thinking, maybe because I don't need to care about such a small person.But since the pharmacist told me last night that the King of Gold had noticed that something about me was related to ghosts, but he didn’t tell me, and the nurses and doctors around me didn’t reveal it too much. There is an old man in Chengfu.

If you think about it, there must be a reason for every move of a person of that status, but this is not something ordinary people like me can understand.

Speaking of Mr. Medicine Seller, I don't know if he was found who sneaked into my room last night.However, there was an understanding of the King of Gold in his tone, the two of them probably knew each other.

Getting back to the topic, since the person "Nakatani Haruko" has been dead for more than ten years, the golden rabbits can only arrange a new identity for me, and the name of the new identity cannot be the same as the old identity. Renamed Sachiko.

As for the surname, it will be Xiaoniao. It would be great if I could become free, not be bound by the world, and be happy at the same time.

After getting my new identity, I came to Yayuan with a sum of money that the Golden Rabbit kindly gave me. Because of what Mr. Yaolang said to me last night, I always felt that I might have left something important by accident. here.

"..." I covered my mouth with my hand, thinking about what I shouted last night.

It seemed to be "Ah what", but the moment I just read it, I couldn't remember what I just said, and Mr. Yaoyao refused to tell me. It was a headache.

But the Golden Rabbits are really kind people, they not only gave me a new identity but also gave me a sum of money, although it is not a lot, but at least if I save it, I can use it for a month, which solves my urgent need.

It is precisely because of this money that I was able to come to Yayuan.

For some reason, as long as I think of coming to Yayuan, I feel a surge of excitement in my heart. Maybe... I really forgot something very important.

Of course, the most important thing is that Mr. Yaolang said that Huimei, who has turned into a monster, will make her home here. Although it is not easy for ordinary people to find her, I am afraid it will only take me a while to find her.

Is it really that amazing?

I thought so, and then I saw a woman who seemed to have known me not far away.

I silently looked at Emi who was standing under a tree and looked at me in disbelief, and sighed silently in my heart.

Ah, it's really so amazing.

"Haruko——!!" Emi galloped in front of me like a runaway wild horse—forgive me for describing this, but other than that, I really don't know how to describe it.I haven't seen her for more than ten years, and the weak and gloomy Huimei in my impression seems to have become a lot more lively.

Huimei threw herself on me directly, holding my hands so hard that she wanted to pinch me to death, she shouted happily: "Haruko! It's not fake! It's really Haruko!"

"Hui Mei." The words on my lips turned into a dumbfounding mood at this moment, I rubbed her head, and said amusedly, "Just like a child."

But it's also thanks to Hui Mei's enthusiasm, otherwise I wouldn't know what to say for a while, after all, I owe such a big favor.

Huimei laughed a few times, with tears in the corners of her eyes unknowingly, she rubbed against me, and said in a crying voice: "...It's really you, that's great."

My heart seemed to melt, and I said helplessly: "Oh, I thought you wouldn't recognize me, but I didn't expect you to recognize me with just one glance."

"How could I not recognize you." Huimei leaned on my shoulder and said softly: "After all, you are the only person who has ever given me tenderness."

"..." I was silent for a while, sighed slowly, and patted her head.

After hugging me for a while, Emi let go of me after she stabilized her mood, and asked suspiciously, "But aren't you already dead? Why did you appear here?"

I talked to Huimei about my affairs, looked at her constantly changing expression, and saw those places on her body that were different from ordinary people out of the corner of my eye. I felt that Huimei was no longer a human being.Of course, no matter what she is, as long as she's still Emi, nothing else matters to me.

But I was too calm.

I walked away for a while God thought.His overly calm attitude seemed to be that he was accustomed to the existence of ghosts.

But I'm pretty sure I'm just an ordinary person, and I've never seen a ghost before.

After digesting the information over there, Huimei said with a dazed expression: "So it's not that I didn't help at all. I regretted that I couldn't help you so much before."

I looked at Huimei suspiciously, not knowing what the heaviness in her tone was, but I just smiled and said, "You really helped me a lot."

I grabbed her hand and said guiltily, "I don't even know how to thank you."

Hearing Mr. Selling Medicine Lang say that Huimei has actually been guarding my side after death, even when I fell off the overpass and was run over by a train, she saved my life at the risk of my soul collapsing, and my heart ached .

It can be said that the reason why I am still standing here is because of Emi.In comparison, I actually didn't help Huimei much before she was alive. At most, I just warmed up with her briefly, and I couldn't even prevent her from being hurt, let alone prevent Huimei from dying.

Perhaps because she could see what I was thinking, Huimei shook her head and said: "For me, who used to live a life that was worse than death, it was because of your existence, Haruko, that I felt that the world might not be so bad. Such a gentle person."

"...how should I put it?" Huimei touched her cheek shyly, and said, "Maybe it's because of this that I'm not completely immersed in hatred, and now I can properly have my own life. "

Seeing that she is indeed doing well now, I couldn't help showing a happy look.

Huimei glanced at me, sighed, and said: "Oh, if there is any regret, it is still that matter. I really want to be your child, but it is a pity that for you now, you can be regarded as your own child." only one."

I froze for a moment, and looked at Emi blankly.

It's a pity that Huimei, who was too regretful, didn't notice my expression, she just said: "Ahhh, if only I could have self-awareness at that time, maybe I can ask you to promise me to do it before you meet that person. what about your child."

"Wait." I interrupted Huimei's words with my hand, and asked suspiciously: "Excuse me, Huimei, I want to ask what you are talking about?"

"Huh?" Huimei looked at me even more confused, and suddenly she said as if she remembered something: "Speaking of which, why did you come here alone?"

I blinked, and realized that my brainwaves and Huimei's might not match, I said: "Speaking of which, Mr. Yaolang seems to have said that I lived on other people's bodies for nearly ten years, but I don't remember this at all." memories of time."

I rubbed my head with a headache and said, "For me, I just lost consciousness after being run over by a train. It has been more than ten years since I really had self-awareness."

"So..." Huimei showed an unbelievable expression, and her voice became extremely soft, so soft that I could hardly hear what she said: "You don't remember anything?"

"Yeah." I nodded in response.

Emi looked at me silently. For some reason, I felt that she had become a little strange at this time, and her eyes, which were always soft, seemed to hide black vortexes.

At this time, Huimei seemed to be facing a difficult choice. Her eyes showed pain and struggle, but her expression was still calm, so calm that it made people feel like the rain was coming.

"...If." Huimei said in a low voice: "If I say that I hope to be your child now, Haruko, can you promise me?"

I opened my mouth, and suddenly felt a twitch in my heart, numb, not painful but somehow unbearable.

I don't think this is an embarrassing request, not to mention that I have a very good relationship with Huimei, and I also have a deep affection for her.Not to mention that Hye Mi saved my life, I wouldn't even be able to stand here and talk if it wasn't for her.

With a pale face, I suppressed the discomfort in my heart, forced a smile to Huimei, and said, "I always feel that I can't imagine that Huimei and I will become a mother-daughter relationship, but since you have said so——"

"Idiot!" At this moment, Emi suddenly bumped my head with her head.

Now she is not the soft and weak little girl before, this bump made me dizzy, with tears in my eyes, I covered my red head and stared blankly at Emi, speechless.

Hui Mei closed her eyes and said as if she was very angry: "You can't say such a thing!"

She clenched her fists and said unbearably: "The child who is the most important to you can't be given up no matter what?! You can't promise to be someone else's mother..."

Hui Mei suddenly choked up a sob while she was talking, she covered her face and let the tears drip from the cracks in her hands, she said: "Although I really want to be your child, I don't want to take advantage of your tenderness. At this time, you will only agree to my willful request if you lose your memory, but if you regain your memory, you will not agree to me when you think of the most important child that you should never forget anyway."

"If you promise me now, you won't be able to forgive yourself when you recover your memory. Because you are the type who always blames yourself, but I don't want you to be uncomfortable." Huimei said, tears kept flowing dripping.

I was at a loss and reached out to try to comfort Emi, but Emi just wiped the tears off her face indiscriminately, then grabbed my shoulder and said loudly.

"Let's go to Yokohama!"

"As long as you see that person, you will definitely think of everything."

I stared blankly at Emi, her voice seemed to come from far away but my mind went blank.

"Because that is an important thing for you that you will never give up no matter what. It is the responsibility and life you once shouldered."

Following her words, a vague figure suddenly flashed in my mind.

He turned his head and shouted at me with a smile.

--"Mother".