Be Dazai's mother

Rumor has it that there is a monster named "Guhuo Bird".She is the obsession of a woman who died in childbirth turned into a monster.

If there really are monsters in the world, I must be haunted by the girl that Mei obsessively transformed into.

The bird full of black resentment wrapped around me tightly, pinched my neck tightly with its sharp claws, and whispered to me in a voice full of resentment like weeping.

"Why..."

"Why can you survive without saving the child?"

"Why can you pretend that nothing happened and start over? How can you use such a ridiculous name as "Sachiko"?"

"Why..."

Vaguely, it seemed that a voice like "Ebaliu, Ebaliu" could be heard.

In addition, there is an extremely low sound, which is almost inaudible but can be heard accurately.

"Why would you even want to be the mother of another child?"

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At this moment, I am standing at the Central Primary School, which is the school where Master Xiuzhi attends.

Of course, no matter how shameless I am, I am not the kind of person who would go to Master Xiuzhi's school to cause trouble for him like a stalker.

It's just that young master Xiuzhi is seriously ill, and he hasn't come out of the hospital yet.Although I heard that the fever has subsided, the general condition has also been controlled.But the doctor still recommends a temporary rest for a period of time.

There is no way, the master who is too busy can only call the principal to ask for a long vacation for Master Xiuzhi.And in order to express his apology for causing trouble to the school, the master asked the butler to bring the maid to bring some gifts over.

I am the chosen maid.

At this time, the housekeeper was in the principal's office, and he didn't know what he was talking about.Bored, I was standing under a tree outside the office, shivering a little coldly.

Although they are trees, in winter, these trees become dry branches.After staring at it for a long time, I felt that those branches were like the sharp nails of a female ghost, and I couldn't help but feel amused by my wild thoughts.

Early this morning, the housekeeper called me over, saying that he wanted me to bring a gift and follow him to Master Xiuzhi's school.

I was so shocked that my brain went blank for a moment, thinking that I was still in a dream.

I don't know if it was the last time I left a good impression on the housekeeper in Master Xiuzhi's room.He seems to have a good face towards me, and he usually takes extra care of me.

If anything, the other maids seemed to hate me even more.

I realized that I was squeezed out openly and secretly. Although I felt that it would be easier for me to be alone, I still felt a little bit lost and uncomfortable.

Sayuri has always been nice to me.Just because of the words of Miss Asami who saved my life, I gradually alienated her.

The topic is a bit far away, the first time I came to Master Xiuzhi's school, I was so excited that I almost jumped up.I feel like a bird in a tree, too happy to sing.

We went by car.The steward and driver sat up front, and I was in the back seat with those presents.The Tsushima family was not short of money, and this was another gift of apology, so it was naturally extremely generous.I can't handle these gifts alone.

At the same time, sitting in such a nice car, I was too cautious to move around, for fear that I might not do something well.

Seeing this, the young driver teased me and said, "The car is not a monster, so don't be so nervous, Ms. Sachiko."

Even the butler, who likes to keep a straight face on weekdays, showed a little smile.

I blushed in embarrassment at the way I looked like a country bumpkin.

The driver's name is Yamashita Renta, and he is a very familiar person.He came over to say hello to me a few days ago.I don't dislike people I know well, but I do feel a little bit resentful towards him because of the embarrassing situation I'm in right now.

"Don't be shy." The driver said: "To tell you the truth, the first time I drove such a good car, I was quite scared. I was afraid that I would damage something, and the master would ask me to pay for it. Instead, I almost hit it because I was too nervous. The roof is gone. I made a big mess in front of the master, and almost thought I was going to be fired."

He said that, but it resolved my embarrassment just now.I laughed out loud.

Yamashita Renta is not only a driver but also a half bodyguard.He was extremely tall, and he sat in the cramped driver's seat like a bear on a wooden chair.It's just that this doesn't hinder his skills, the car drives fast and stable, maybe this is the reason why the master didn't fire him?

The housekeeper seems to like Yamashita Jinta very much, and he always has a good face when treating him.At this time, I heard him joking with me and did not reprimand me aloud.

I overheard other maids whispering that it seemed that the driver looked like the butler's son who had been forcibly conscripted to fight years before and then died.

The journey to Master Xiuzhi's school was a bit long. During this time, we chatted for a while.Of course, even while chatting, I don't forget to look at the scenery outside the car all the time.

As long as I think of Master Xiuzhi commuting to and from school looking at such a scene every day, I will have the illusion that I am accompanying him while looking at the same scene.

I don't know exactly how long it took, but when I came to my senses, we had already arrived at the Central Primary School.

The snow was still falling, and the housekeeper and I took gifts together, walked through the long ramp, and walked into the gate of the primary school in the city center surrounded by "long" snow-covered branches on both sides of the ramp.

At this time, it was class time, and the sound of immature children reading came from the school.There are many trees planted in the school, and there are a few crystal snowmen piled up around the playground.Some snowmen look cute, while others look out of shape.The words "Downtown Elementary School" were written in paint on the wall next to the gate.

Passing through the classrooms where the students are, and passing through the trees that don't know what flowers will bloom next spring, I came to the principal's office with the housekeeper.

After completing my task and putting the gift on the desk, I dutifully stood under the tree outside the principal and waited.The steward needs to convey something to the principal for the master, and that's not something I can listen to.

I don't know what the butler and the principal said inside. They talked for a long time, and they didn't finish talking until the bell rang for the end of get out of class.

The children flocked out to play outside. The cold weather did not seem to bother them, but made the children more excited.

The children's sharp and carefree laughter sounded in the vast playground. They grabbed snowballs on the ground and threw them at their friends, with pure and soft smiles on their faces.

Standing under the tree, I felt that all this was far away from me, as if there was a wall separating me from this world that only belonged to children.

It suddenly occurred to me that Master Xiuzhi probably wouldn't be running in the vast world like them.He doesn't look like the lively and active kid.

In my imagination, he is more like the kind of child who would hold a book and sit by a window seat and quietly immerse himself in the world of books.

Just when I was thinking this way, a childish voice suddenly came from beside me.

"Are you the maid of the Tsushima family?"

I, who was timid and immersed in my own world, was taken aback. When I looked towards the source of the sound, I found a little boy who didn't look as tall as my waist standing beside me.

He looked emaciated, like he was malnourished.About the same age as Master Xiuzhi.There is a kind of childish and arrogant straightforwardness in the tone.

I blinked, squatted down, looked straight at him, and said, "Yes. My name is Sachiko, Kotori Sachiko. Do you know Master Shuji?"

"I'm that guy Tsushima's classmate. My name is Fujii Hiroki." Fujii Hiroki grinned, revealing his broken teeth.He is in the teething period, and some of the teeth in his mouth are empty, which looks a little funny.But when I think of this as a symbol of continuous growth, I feel that this picture is a bit cute.

Speaking of which, Master Xiuzhi, who is also a child, has neat teeth.Could it be that the tooth that fell out last time has grown back, and the next tooth that fell out has not yet fallen out?

I don't know much about it, but I just thought about Master Xiuzhi who lost his teeth.

"Pfft." I covered my mouth and laughed softly.

It's so cute, change your teeth quickly, and grow up quickly.The replaced teeth should become strong and healthy, just like the future life.

Be strong and brave, and live healthy and healthy.

"Hey!" Fujii Hiroki stood on tiptoe, stretched out a immature hand and shook it in front of me, and said with some dissatisfaction: "Are you listening to me?" got annoyed.

I came back to my senses, put my hands together, and said softly: "I'm really sorry, I've lost my mind a little bit, can you forgive me, Hiroki-kun?"

"Ah, by the way, can I call you Hiroki-kun? You can also call me Sachiko." I said with a smile.

Hiroki-kun looked at me, nodded slightly, and called, "Sachiko."

I responded, and pushed the hair from my ears back with my fingers, and then asked, "Why does Mr. Hongshu know that I am a maid in Master Xiuzhi's house?"

"Except for him, there are not many young masters from rich families, and Tsushima just didn't come to school." Hiroki-kun said so naturally.

Although he looks like an ordinary child, the boy named Fujii Hiroki seems to have extraordinary acumen.

My heart is a little itchy, and I can't help but want to ask about Master Xiuzhi's situation.So I said: "May I ask, what is the situation of Master Xiuzhi in school?"

I delusional myself.Hmm, Master Xiuzhi must be a quiet kid with excellent grades, he must be the kind that the teachers like best.It's just that maybe you don't have any friends?I don't know if a person will feel lonely in school.

I know almost nothing about Master Xiuzhi.So I can't help but think, how does he live in a place that I can't see?

"Tsushima?" Fujii Hiroki blinked, and then said something I didn't expect: "That guy is always pretending." It is very worth celebrating that I seem to have gained Fujii Hiroki's favor, He crossed his arms and told me something that he didn't even tell anyone else like a little adult.

"He looks smart, but always pretends to be a clown." Hiroki-kun didn't have any scruples, but said in too straightforward words.

"But I don't hate him. Although that guy is strange, he is not bad in nature." Fujii Hiroki said: "And that guy will definitely be very popular with women when he grows up."

Fujii Hiroki nodded and said, "Women have nothing to do with men who are gentle and in deep pain like themselves?"

He squinted, pointed at me, and looked at me with a somewhat funny expression.

To be honest, if the person who made such a look and said such words was an adult woman like me, I would definitely feel a kind of empathy.But when it comes from a child who is not even taller than my waist, and the expression on his face is trying to imitate the youthful and exaggerated adults, then I really just want to laugh.I'm pretty sure that what Hiroki-kun said just now has most likely been heard from an adult or read in a book.

This is normal, creatures in early childhood will always unconsciously imitate those around them.It is also an instinctive learning.I don't think it's funny, I just think it's really cute.

I tried my best to keep a calm face on my face, knowing that a child of this age would not like to be treated like a child.Either way, that feeling of being powerless and disrespected is really bad.

Especially since he is still a classmate of Master Xiuzhi, I certainly hope to make a good impression on him.

So I replied to him with a serious expression, "You're right, Hiroki-kun."

Hiroki-kun seemed a little happy, and kept saying, "You are such a good woman."

Although I know that a child like him can't tell what is a good woman from a bad woman. After all, for them, people who are good to them are good people, and people who are not good to them are bad people, but I still feel a little shy. Scratched his face.

Although I have lost my memory of what happened before I died, I have recently been able to recall some obvious preferences.

Like I used to be very afraid of children.No, or rather, I still have a vague fear of children even today.

Because most of these creatures do not have absolute distinctions between good and evil, the world in their eyes is actually very pure.And this also causes many children to have a kind of innocent evil, and even hurt others unscrupulously because of this.

But I think, Master Xiuzhi is different.

Of course, I'm not saying that the kid is a good person, or a saint, or a god.What's more, even if it is a god, there is no law that states that the god must save the world.

Although I think he is a good boy like a god, if I have to say that he is a normal, ordinary person with a will, then it can't be better.

That's fine.Not someone's god or monster, just a serious, gentle and pure ordinary person.

He is a human being, truly alive in this world.Even if it is a bit out of tune with most people, it seems that something has been missing since birth, but it is still a human being who feels sadness and pain.

He lives in this world, he is breathing, his heart is beating, and there are countless possible futures.He will definitely meet many people in the future.Maybe most humans are selfish, arrogant, and hopeless, but there must be someone who is gentle, someone who can bond with that child.

I so hope and believe so.

The bell for class rang.Although I really didn't want to go back to continue class, Hiroki-kun still waved to me and said, "I'm leaving, I hope to see you next time."

"Me too." I smiled and watched him go away.

At this moment, the butler just came out of the office. He stared straight ahead and said to me, "Let's go, Sachiko."

I responded and said, "I see." Then I followed his footsteps.

Before leaving this school, I took one last look at it, it looked quiet and peaceful.According to what Hongshu-kun said just now, I heard that Master Xiuzhi may be a little out of place, but he is not someone who will be bullied.

Then what happened to the scars on Young Master Xiuzhi's body?

Just as I was thinking this way, the housekeeper suddenly said to the driver: "Go to the hospital and visit Master Xiuzhi along the way."

After saying that, he looked at me and said, "Sachiko, you're coming too."

The author has something to say: For the views of ordinary people in this chapter, I refer to "Delinquent Boys and Christ" by Mr. Ango Sakaguchi. If you are interested, you can read it.

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Next chapter to see Shuji.

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