Be Dazai's mother

Now I am squatting in a corner, looking at the monster not far away, I fell into hesitation.

The drug seller helped me stop the monster who was guarding the door just now, and bought me precious time.But after I ran out, some monsters still came to me.

After I was almost caught, I finally got smarter and found a corner to hide.I cannot be caught.I have nothing to do with humans, let alone fall into the hands of monsters?Once caught, there is absolutely no way I can escape.

I held my breath and desperately thought about what to do next.The drug seller only gave me 10 minutes, and I must not waste these 10 minutes.But if you just run out like this, it won't work.

When I was thinking, things suddenly turned around-the ghosts probably gave up this place because they couldn't find me, turned around and left.

Before I could cheer for it, a familiar figure suddenly appeared from around the corner, and she walked towards me without hesitation.

The moment I saw her face, I couldn't help calling out her name: "...Sayuri."

Sayuri slowly showed me a soft smile, and she also called my name: "Sachiko."

She approached me and asked as if she couldn't understand: "Why did you run away? Sachiko, your goal should be the same as ours. Kill Master Xiuzhi and let him wander in this room as a dead person In this way, this illusion will not be shattered, and you will be able to be with Master Xiuzhi forever."

Her voice was a little sweet and seductive, and Sayuri said: "It's so dangerous outside, even if you two run out together, you will die very easily. In that case, it's better to stay in this illusion. We can never be apart."

What Sayuri said was really touching, but I still shook my head and said, "I refuse."

"Why?" Sayuri asked puzzled.

"Because this is not a choice I can make alone." I said seriously: "No one can easily make a choice for others."

"I can't, and neither can you." Sayuri's expressionless face was reflected in my eyes, and I sighed, and said, "And... if possible, I hope that child can go to the outside world and be able to See as much scenery as you can.”

This world is so vast, there is no doubt that you will meet someone who can bond with that child and treat him tenderly.

The smile on Sayuri's face disappeared immediately, she stared at me expressionlessly, and said in a cold tone: "Ah, yes, Sachiko, you are different from us."

"Although I can feel that your body belongs to a dead person, you have a very strange aura that belongs to a living person."

"I'm so envious. Why are you still alive?" Sayuri laughed again, but the smile was mixed with pain and jealousy. She said, "Obviously I still want to live."

Her voice was filled with intense hatred and jealousy.It is the hatred of one's own destiny, the envy of the dead for the living being able to survive.

I am deeply saddened by this.

During the day, they don't remember what they have died, but follow the scene before they were alive, maintaining this seemingly never-ending illusion.

They thought they were alive, but they were dead.It's just that a seemingly small disaster was suppressed, and the desire for the future of a dozen people, their whole life, and their joys, sorrows, and joys all disappeared.

No matter which one of them, they were originally living people.A bit nagging but very kind to her, Miss Asami who was very beautiful when she was young, but was abandoned by the wrong person, gave birth to a child by herself, and raised it by herself.Originally, she and her younger brother depended on each other for life. After her younger brother died, she decided to marry the rich man who must live a good life. She is beautiful and emotionally intelligent Sayuri.Serious and rigid, the old housekeeper who likes to find faults but waits for his son to come home until he is old.besides...

They could have lived well in the first place, but a mere disaster took away their hope and turned them into wraiths after being killed.

How fragile life is, it can be easily destroyed.

"I... feel bad about it," I said.

This is real.In any case, it is extremely unfortunate that innocent lives are brutally taken away.This kind of misfortune has happened more than a dozen times in this room, and these dozens of people have turned into resentment because of their desire for life after death, and their personalities have been infinitely distorted.

But even with all my sadness and sympathy for them, I will not let that child be a victim.

I looked at Sayuri seriously, all my timidity disappeared at this moment, and I said: "But even so, that child doesn't have to die."

"Then do we have to die?" Said Baihe seemed to have heard some incredible words, her voice rose instantly, and Sayuri said frantically: "Obviously I have been desperately wanting to live well, to live with my brother , but all my struggles and efforts were useless, and I just died so easily."

"That's it...dead." When she said this, Sayuri's expression became as bewildered as a child's: "Why do we have to die?"

Sayuri's voice was full of deep confusion, and the overflowing emotions almost overwhelmed me, making me breathless.

"..."

I looked at her sadly and said softly, "No one is born to die. You are, and so is the child."

"...and your brother too."

Ahh, what the hell am I doing.Knowing that the dead brother is a topic that cannot be easily brought up to Sayuri, I still said it.

Obviously we are not in a relationship that can easily discuss such a topic, but I still said it.

Maybe it's because of the subconscious feeling that Sayuri is not angry about her own death, but angry and resentful about her brother's death.

Whether it's me or her, or Sayuri's younger brother who starved to death in the snowy night, our lives are too fragile in the whole world, so easy to disappear like snowflakes.

"..." Sayuri fell silent, what was she thinking, I couldn't know.

It's just that she suddenly sighed as if she was very tired, and Sayuri said softly: "... let's go."

I opened my mouth, and before I could say anything, Sayuri said in a calm tone: "Because Master Xiuzhi... that child is very important to you, isn't it? Just like my dead brother is very important to me." It's just as important."

I knew it would be inappropriate to continue saying anything at this point, so I just spoke my mind.

"Thank you, Sayuri." I said so.

I have been taking care of you since the first time we met, and I have to trouble you until the end. Thank you very much.

Sayuri didn't comment on my words, she just asked calmly: "Are we friends?"

"Of course." I said firmly.

Sayuri opened her mouth, this time she said in an extremely weak voice that seemed to disappear in a second: "Then will you forget me?"

"I won't forget you," I said.

Being forgotten by your friends makes you feel lonely, doesn't it?So I will never forget you.

"I'll never forget you, I swear."

Sayuri closed her eyes, and when she opened them again, the despair in her eyes had disappeared.

Yes, she was such a determined person.

"Goodbye." I bowed to her, turned and left.

"...Goodbye." Sayuri's voice came from behind.

After parting from Sayuri, I calculated that there were only about 10 minutes left, and I had to find Master Xiuzhi during this time.

But I don't know where the child hid. Could it be that he doesn't want to see me?

Master Xiuzhi, Master Xiuzhi, my most important Master Xiuzhi.

Where is he now?

Accompanied by the screams of the ghosts, the cries of the people who were killed even though they wanted to live, and the people who became grudges because of their hatred, I ran forward vigorously.

I'm just an ordinary person, and I can't save everyone like the protagonist in the story and achieve a perfect ending.Even if I have to hurt others, I want to protect the one and only thing that matters.

But, where is my young master Xiuzhi at this moment?

Suddenly, I thought of a place.

Thinking of this, I got rid of the ghosts following behind me, and came to Master Xiuzhi's room. The room was still empty, full of a kind of loneliness and dead silence.

I was silent, walked slowly to the closet in the room, and opened the door.

The small young Master Xiuzhi, covered in scars and bandages, was sitting curled up in the closet.Because I opened the door of the closet, the dim light from outside shrouded in, shining on his pale and immature face.

Young Master Xiuzhi, who seemed to be falling asleep, turned his head to look at me, he showed a shallow smile, and said helplessly, "Oh, I got caught. Are you going to kill me next? "

"Sachiko." He called my name.

I looked at such young master Xiuzhi, I couldn't hold back, half kneeled on the cold ground, and hugged him tightly.

"Let's get out of here together, just the two of us—" I said.

"Let's go see the cherry blossoms together."