Be Dazai's mother

A voice in my heart said: "Do you have to do this? Maybe you will regret it."

I said, "I might regret it if I don't do it now."

The voice said: "It's too late to regret now, and you can pretend that nothing happened."

I:"......"

Voice: "This is also impossible, so..."

I closed my eyes, erased the last sentence of self-persuasion in my heart, and said to myself: "It's too late, it's been too late since I first saw Master Xiuzhi."

I decided to find out the secrets of the Tsushima family by myself.

When night came, I stepped out of the room.Because I found one thing, that is, I was not attacked by "those things" a few days ago, probably because I stayed in my room peacefully at night and never went out.

As a lowly servant, I don't sleep honestly in the middle of the night, but walk around Tsushima's house without authorization. I don't need anyone to tell me what will happen if I am found out.

If I was the former me, I would have continued to live as before as if nothing had happened.But now I really can't continue to ignore everything in such a situation where I don't know anything.

I'm fine, but Master Xiuzhi is being chased by ghosts every night, how can I continue to ignore him?

... At least I need to figure out what is going on, just like the "form", "truth" and "reason" that Mr. Selling Yaolang said must be clear.

I came to the library.As one of the few wealthy families in this area, the Tsushima family still has a special library for the children in the family to read.

It is said that he directly bought a bookstore and moved all the books there. Except for some books that may not be suitable for children to read, which have been locked up by the housekeeper, the library has all kinds of books.

Of course, only the masters can use the library, and if the servants sneak in during the time other than cleaning, they will be kicked out of Tsushima's house directly.

But now I really can't control that much.When I came to the library, I didn't dare to turn on the light, for fear that the bright light would attract the attention of some people or "things", so I just held a very small light to shine on a small piece of things in front of me.

After I found the book I wanted that recorded ghosts and ghosts, I couldn't wait to open the catalog, looking for the existence of "Pillow Return".

Pillowback is a kind of monster, it will take away the other person's pillow while sleeping, and make people fall into nightmares.In some areas, some people think that pillows are zashiki warji.

Zashiki Doji?

With doubts, I turned to the page belonging to Zashiki Doji: Zashiki Doji is a kind of monster attached to the home in the form of a child. It is said that they will bring good luck, so some families will invite some mages to bring them Zashiki Warji is stuck in his own home.

I seldom read these, so I couldn't help but flip through them a few times out of curiosity, and I even found something about Shenyin.

After flipping through, I was still in a state of fog, as if I vaguely felt some important key point but didn't seem to feel anything.

I'm not good at using my brain, so I couldn't think of a result after thinking about it, so I had to give up in the end.

Just as I was about to put down the book and leave the library to explore other places, a strong light suddenly shone on my face, making my eyes narrowed. I made a small cry and blocked it with my hand. own face, trying to avoid that light.

"Who's there!" It was an old voice with a bit of sternness.

I was taken aback. Before I could explain anything, that person had already made a surprised voice: "Sachiko?"

I looked up and found that the person turned out to be the housekeeper—the person who can directly decide whether I can stay in Tsushima's house.

I was immediately trembling with fright. I am afraid that even if I am facing a ghost, I am not as scared as I am at the moment.

"What are you doing in such a place alone in the middle of the night?" The housekeeper frowned, and said displeasedly, "Do you want to be kicked out of Tsushima's house?"

I immediately said: "Please don't fire me! I'm really sorry, Mr. Tsuruta!" My eyes moved, and I lied in desperation: "I just want to read a book."

I lowered my head, choked up a sob, wiped away the frightened tears, and said, "I lost my father and mother because of the war since I was a child, and I haven't gone to school for a few days. Struggling to survive. Seeing that there are so many books in Tsushima's house, I couldn't hold back for a moment and thought of coming over to secretly read for a while in the middle of the night."

Tears are not fake.I did cry for the future of what I should do if I was kicked out of Tsushima's house, but the words were really deceiving.

Faced with my lie, the housekeeper didn't know if he saw through it. While wiping my tears, I could feel his scrutinizing gaze.

After a long time, I heard a tired sigh.

I looked up and saw the butler looking at me with a look that I half understood, and he said: "If my son didn't die back then, but got married and started a business, and had his own children, then his children should also follow the same path. You're almost old."

"Before he left, he smiled and said to me: 'Wait for me to go home, Dad.' But he never came back, that stupid son."

I froze for a moment, and suddenly remembered what I heard from other maids. About twenty years ago, the butler's only son was forcibly conscripted to fight.Only a piece of paper representing glory was sent back to the butler, not even the bones.

I don't know how to face this kind of embarrassing situation, even to comfort the housekeeper seems too intimate and rude.

In the end I can only choose to remain silent.

The housekeeper shook his head and said, "It's useless to say so much now. When a person dies, he is dead. There is no Pure Land of Bliss in the world. The most important thing is that people are alive now... If I die too, then there is no People are going to wait for that kid to come home. I'm so sorry for showing you the gaffe."

I waved my hand desperately and said, "No, I'm the one to say I'm sorry. I shouldn't have come here without permission."

The housekeeper didn't comment too much on this, but turned his gaze to the book in my hand, and asked, "What book are you reading? The one about Hundred Ghosts at Night?"

I said with some embarrassment: "I'm more interested in this kind of thing recently."

I subconsciously handed him the book in my hand, and that page happened to be the one that said "God's Hidden".

The housekeeper took the book and looked at the words "Most people will call the missing children "hidden from the gods", which means that they have been hidden by the gods." He shook his head and said, "The current book It's too careless."

I looked at him suspiciously, and the butler looked at the book with disapproving eyes, and said, "'God hidden' refers to being hidden by gods and monsters, but it is not only gods who hide people. Others are like Being taken away by tengus, fox spirits, Yamabashi, ghosts, and goblins is also a "hidden spirit."

Having said that, the butler added: "Speaking of which, there are some ghosts in the legend who will take children as sacrifices. It's really a crime. I don't know how sad it will be for parents."

I nodded with a vague understanding.After the butler took the book away, he asked me not to come out at night, and he would pretend that nothing happened tonight.

I responded and left the library.

Before leaving the library, I took one last look at the housekeeper. This serious, fault-finding, unlikable old housekeeper held a lamp and watched me go.

The light illuminated the small space, leaving dark shadows—but there was nothing behind the butler.

The moment I closed the door, my face was as pale as paper.To be honest, I admired myself for not screaming at the moment when I found out that the butler was gone.Fortunately, I didn't act strangely, otherwise I really don't know what to do.

But did you really expect that even the butler was a ghost?

...?

I suddenly realized something at this moment.

Mei who has been haunting me has become a wraith, and the master and housekeeper who have become ghosts. Only Master Xiuzhi is chased every night, but everyone else is safe and sound, except Miss Mami who wakes up in the middle of the night. People feel that the night is extremely quiet, and they can't hear any sound.

...this is because the others are living beings during the day and ghosts at night.

From the beginning, the only living person in this house was Master Xiuzhi!

I slowly raised my head and met the wraiths in the whole room.