Clear Feather of the Ring

Long Tianyu held the piece of paper and leaned against the head of the bed, the past slowly emerged in his mind, the past that he didn't want to recall shook off the dust covered by the years, and finally he was able to see the light of day again.He began to think of the absent-mindedness that often appeared on Yi Qing's face after he was hospitalized, the strange words that his mother forced him to kneel in front of his father's grave the night after he was released from prison, and the night before Yi Qing's birthday when he came to find him. The unprecedented initiative he showed when he was young, he also remembered the sadness in Yi Qing's eyes when he opened the hotel door and looked at him...

At that time, how desperate and helpless should he be to want to use this method to force himself away? !

Before, he never thought about these things carefully, he just wanted to forget them completely, because it hurt too much, hated him too much, and resented him too much.Thinking about it bit by bit now, all the details that I had neglected were all exposed, and each one was slapping my face fiercely.

He once thought that he was the only one who hurt, hated, and resented, but in fact, Yi Qing should be more painful, hated, and resented than him, right? !

Did he hate me the way I hated him, hated me for not being able to stand in front of him when my mother spoke ill of him?Hate me for forcing him to go abroad?Hate me for ignoring him for so many years?hate me shameful revenge? ...

Thinking of this, his eye sockets became moist, and the hot air rushed straight up.Long Tianyu folded the paper again and put it in his trousers pocket.He casually flipped through the books stored inside, all of them were in French, and he couldn't recognize any of them.I flipped through the pages one by one, and when I reached the bottom, something knocked my finger.He reached in, pulled out the bottommost thing, and held it in front of his eyes, it was a photo frame.

He turned it over and saw the front of the photo frame. At that moment, everything became clear.Tears dripped down, blurring the smiling faces of him and Yi Qing standing side by side in the photo.

He didn't expect that after so many years, he still kept this photo.As for himself, even his only self-portrait was burned by himself.

The unglued photo has been corroded by the years, and it has shown signs of turning yellow. He wiped away the tears on the frame with his hands, and stared blankly. After a few seconds, the face inside was covered with tears again. He rubs again, looks again, rubs again, looks again...

He always hated him for being so ruthless to himself, but he didn't expect him to be even more ruthless.

That night, he sat on the bed, holding the photo frame foolishly, laughed while crying, and cried again while smiling.

He cried, because of everything he and Yi Qing had experienced after being separated for so many years, and because of himself resenting Yi Qing for so many years was nothing but a misunderstanding.He laughed, Xiao Yiqing had never betrayed him, Xiao Yiqing loved him from beginning to end, until now, he still is.

He was crying and laughing, and wanted to go to Yi Qing right away, hold him in his arms, say sorry to him, tell him not to go, this life, the next life, the next life...we must always be together.

Thinking of this, he immediately took out his mobile phone, wanted to call Yao Yao, and asked her to book a ticket to France for him.However, when he looked at Yao Yao's name on the phone, he suddenly woke up again. He and Yao Yao will get engaged in four days.

How can get engaged?He loves Yi Qing, and Yi Qing still loves him.

Can't get engaged, I'm going to find Yi Qing, I'm going to bring him back, I'm going to beg my mother, I'm going to kneel in front of her, begging her to promise me to be with Yi Qing.

The next morning, before dawn, he came out of the bookstore and drove to the hospital.He wanted to make it clear to his mother right away that he didn't love Yao Yao, he loved Yi Qing, and always had.He wanted to tell his mother that he had canceled the engagement, and he was going to find Yi Qing.

On the way here, he imagined all kinds of situations that might happen to his mother after hearing the news about him, whether it was crying, making trouble and hanging himself, clenching his teeth and not letting go, or moving out of his grandparents and father He has already made up his mind about the old way of talking about things. Regardless of whether his mother agrees or not, he will go to Yi Qing and stay with Yi Qing.

He came very early, and when he entered the ward, his mother hadn't woken up yet.Long Tianyu closed the door gently, and wanted to go to the garden to smoke a cigarette, but before he could walk out of the corridor, he was stopped by the nurse on duty.

"Mr. Long, Dr. Zhao called you over, it's about your mother's condition."

Long Tianyu kicked the cigarette case in his hand back into his pocket, and followed behind the nurse.

After talking with Dr. Zhao, Long Tianyu came out of the room with a pale face.As soon as he went out, he leaned against the wall next to him, raised his head and inhaled heavily.He took out the cigarette case, his hands were shaking, he smoked it for a long time without smoking a cigarette, and finally he kicked it back into his pocket, went to the bathroom, and flushed the cold water under the faucet for a long time. Calm down.

The tumor in the mother's body has already deteriorated and is in an advanced stage. She has been receiving drug treatment in the hospital after the Chinese New Year.But because the cancer cells in the body had already spread and metastasized, the medicine didn't have much effect at all, and the mother's body was collapsing at an alarming rate.

Years ago, the doctor told him that his mother might not survive this year, so he was asked to prepare mentally in advance.He had thought about his mother's death, but he didn't expect it to come so soon.

Dr. Zhao just talked to him about the fact that his mother had a brief shock last night. If the special nurses hadn't discovered it early and rescued her in time, her mother might have died like that last night.

"Your mother is very strong. At that time, the situation was urgent. We were responsible for the rescue at the first time, and we failed to notify you in time. After the rescue was over, when I told the special nurse to notify the family, your mother stopped her and said she didn't want you to worry."

After hearing Dr. Zhao's words, Long Tianyu felt that he was really an unfilial son.At that time, when my mother was being rescued with all my strength, what was I doing, messing around with my brothers in the bar, or feeling sad at Yi Qing?

In the first one or two years before his mother got sick, he was busy with business and spent only a few days with her. Even so, he never heard a single complaint from his mother, and he was always worried about himself, calling the nanny at home from time to time Send all kinds of soup to the company.In his heart, he always felt that his mother was such a strong person, she was not afraid of anything, she could overcome everything, even illness, she would be able to overcome it.

Unexpectedly, this time, she couldn't bear it.

"Her situation is very unstable now. You must be mentally prepared at any time. If you can, spend as much time with her as possible." Dr. Zhao kindly urged.

Long Tianyu stood in the bathroom for a while, calmed down, his face turned red, and then went out.As soon as he entered his mother's ward, standing at the door, he saw his mother half lying on the bed, pulling Yao Yao who was standing by the bed, and the two were talking intimately.

Her hair has already fallen out due to chemotherapy, and because of Aimei, as long as there are people around, no matter how uncomfortable she is, she will wear a wig.Long Tianyu stood at the door, looking at the happy look on his mother's face, his nose was sour, and tears welled up.

He quickly turned his head away, quickly wiped his eyes with his sleeve, and then called to his mother, "Mom, I'm here."

"Hey, son, why did you come so early? Didn't Yang Yi and the others throw you a bachelor party last night? Did they play all night? Why didn't you catch up in the morning?" Long Mama saw Long Tianyu coming in, He quickly waved to him and let him come over.

Long Tianyu walked over, stood in front of her bed, bent down and stared at her carefully for a while, couldn't help but his eyes were sore again, and hurriedly stood up before his mother noticed his abnormality. Straightforward, and asked: "Mom, do you feel better today? Is there anything you want to eat? I'll ask someone to buy it."

"No, I'll be fine if I eat from the hospital." Long Ma pulled Yao Yao's hand over and shook Long Tianyu, "Look, this is when your dad and I got married, and your grandma passed it on to me. wedding ring. I asked someone to take it and change it to Xiao Yao's size, does it look good?"

She didn't notice the abnormality on Long Tianyu's face, she was very excited, and kept showing Long Tianyu the hand of Yao Yao wearing the ring.Long Tianyu glanced at it, it was an emerald ring, the jade was very rich, it was passed down from generation to generation by the Long family's ancestors, it was quite old, and it was very valuable.Although my mother still has many more precious jewels than this one, this one is my mother's favorite, and I am only willing to wear it on important occasions.

"Mom, isn't this your favorite? Yao Yao and I bought the engagement ring a long time ago, you keep this one." Long Tianyu looked at Yao Yao and motioned for her to return the ring on her hand to her mother.

After hearing what he said, Yao Yao was about to go to get the ring on her hand, but was stopped by Long Ma, "What are you talking about, kid? This ring was originally passed on to the daughter-in-law of the Long family. Mom has been looking forward to it for a long time. It's the day to hand over the ring. Xiao Yao, you just keep it, don't listen to his nonsense."

Long Tianyu stood there, and in his trouser pocket was the agreement signed by his mother and Yi Qing. He held it tightly, seeing the smile on his mother's face, and felt pain in his grip.

"Why are you looking at Mom like that? What's the matter?" Long Ma took Yao Yao's hand again, the two looked at the ring and talked and laughed for a while, then raised their heads and asked Long Tianyu.

Those words that he had held back all the way and wanted to say to his mother, the feeling of having to confess to his mother no matter how difficult it was, were all blocked in his chest when he met his mother's eyes, and Long Tianyu clenched his hands. Holding the piece of paper, crumpled it into a ball, lowered his head: "It's okay, I'll go outside to get some air."

He walked out and rushed to a cubicle in the bathroom. Before the door was closed, tears fell and fell on the white tiles of the cubicle, like a continuous rain.With his right hand propped against the wall, he violently unbuttoned the top buttons of his shirt with his left hand, then strangled his neck tightly, gasping for breath.He felt a suffocation-like dizziness, and a sharp pain in his chest as if he was being nailed. He opened his mouth and wanted to shout, wanting to shout loudly, but his body was so uncomfortable that he couldn't even make a sound, he could only feel the pain. With his mouth open, he kept beating his chest over and over again, letting the tears burst on his face.

Yi Qing, he was chanting his name in his heart, Yi Qing, Yi Qing, Yi Qing, Yi Qing... Every time he said it again, the pain in his heart increased, it hurt so much that he bent his body against the wall in pain , slowly squatted down, pressed his chest hard, and curled up into a ball.

He loves Yi Qing more than anyone else in this world, even more than his past self.How much he wanted to find Yi Qing again, and double the pain he had suffered in the past seven years to love him and love him.How much he wanted to be with Yi Qing, and slowly fill up the missing seven years of their time with each other every day, every month, and every year.

The man he loved the most in the past years, the man he most wanted to hold in his arms and love for the rest of his life, the man who hurts his heart when he thinks about it now, the man he wanted to love but could no longer love.Yi Qing, forgive me for knowing too late, forgive me for having no way out.

He has no way out, his mother is dying, she can't bear such a blow anymore, he can't just take care of himself, and continue to be so unfilial.

The pain of this reality made him crouch in the toilet cubicle without any image to speak of, weeping silently, like a fish that has been thrown ashore to dehydrate, breathing with all his strength, struggling with all his strength, but still Unable to escape the fate of dying, desperate and helpless.

The author has something to say: In fact, there are still so few people who come here to read it. If it weren't for the support of readers in other places, Jinjiang really feels like it can't go on.Sometimes I also look at articles with high click-through rates on the top list, wondering why so many people support other people's articles.

It's just a small complaint, I hope it won't affect your mood. I have been here for more than half a year. Even though there are no people, I still work hard.Today, I will be self-willed to express a little emotion, but I won't do it in the future.

I will continue to update here, no matter who is watching or not, I will not let you fall into the trap.

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