Religious Faith

The wind at night is cool, and I didn't know how long I slept until I was woken up by a blow of cold wind.

It was still dark, but the surrounding area was quite quiet.

My mind was dizzy, and I couldn't get up when I wanted to get up, as if my strength had been drained. Not only that, but there was pain in every part of my body from skin to bone.

Heizi also fell asleep, and fell to the ground, curled up in a ball.I called him: "Heizi, don't sleep, wake up."

He let out a long "hmm", then sat up slowly, patted his face, closed his eyes and asked, "What's wrong...it's so cold..."

"We're outside, let's go home."

"Ah?" He opened his eyes, touched the ground, was taken aback for a moment, and said, "Why are we here?"

"I fell asleep after drinking too much."

"It's strange... I can usually drink two catties of liquor without getting drunk..." He helped me into the car, and when he opened the door, the light in the car was on. He looked at my face and said in surprise: "Fuck! What's wrong with your face? gone?"

I frowned: "What's wrong..."

He pulled down the mirror in the car and said, "Look for yourself."

The person in the mirror had disheveled hair, swollen cheeks, and large red spots on his face, which was terrifying.I was startled and blurted out: "Fuck!" I turned to him and asked, "What's wrong?"

"This... hives, right?!" He went around, got into the car, and said, "Go to the hospital."

I have hives not only on my face, but also on my body. Heizi is right, this is hives.

Because of too much physical exertion, I took a bath with the injury, was blown by the wind, had great mood swings, drank alcohol, and slept outside at night. Various factors caused fever, which indirectly caused hives.

After the doctor gave me the medicine, Heizi took me to a private clinic.

The injury on my body must be treated, but it is not in the hospital, because the doctor can definitely see how it was done, and the injury in the lower part also needs to be treated, but what will the doctor think when he sees it? ?I used to go to the hospital because I didn't understand. The doctor's expression was very cold, and there was some sarcasm in it, and he was very aggressive. I was already in a bad mood, and I didn't go because of my pride.Heizi found out later, he stared and asked, "Do you know how serious this infection is! Why didn't you tell me, I'll take you to find a place! How can you go to the hospital except for major surgery? Isn't it shameful! "

The "major surgery" he refers to is the kind that requires surgery, such as something inserted too deep, which cannot be solved by private clinics.I said weakly: "How can I tell you...I said I was fucked by someone? Heizi, where do you tell me to treat?? We didn't know each other very well at that time...How dare I say..."

He poked my forehead angrily, and said, "Why are such words coming out of your mouth so awkwardly!"

The clinic he introduced to me has two rooms, one is used to receive ordinary patients, and the other is used to receive people like us.

The doctor knew us very well, and he didn’t talk nonsense when he saw us coming. After asking about the condition, he helped to deal with it very quickly. After the treatment, we gave him the medicine prescribed by the doctor. I hung the water.

"This week, you persevere. You can't touch the taboos, you can't take a bath, keep warm, and you can't use cosmetics. This will be fine soon. Otherwise, it will turn into stubborn urticaria over and over again. When the time comes But it’s not easy.” The doctor at the clinic said.

"Thank you." I nodded to him and said, "Got it."

So I asked Li Ge for another week's leave. Li Ge was silent for a while and said, "What's the matter with you? You have asked for leave too frequently recently." He seemed a little unhappy.

"Nothing." I said.

"...Okay, take good care of it, and come to work as soon as possible."

"understood."

I didn't go anywhere that week except to see Li Jinze, I just stayed at home to recuperate from my injuries, but I stayed in the hospital most of the time.

In those few days, I would take books to read to him, and it seemed that I didn’t feel tired from reading from day to night.I read "Sou Shen Ji" and "The Moon and Sixpence". "The Moon and Sixpence" is his favorite book. He has read it no less than five times, but I can't read it very well, because I am not interested in Western literature at all. I still like Chinese stories, and I can accept Asian stories at most. For novels written by human beings, such as "Snow Country", I felt that I had surpassed myself after reading it twice, and after reading "The Moon and Sixpence", I felt that I had already flown into the sky.

How did that line come from?Want to fly into the sky and stand side by side with the sun? ? ?

But speaking of The Moon and Sixpence... I asked him once: "Do you want the moon or sixpence?"

"It depends."

"Then do you think I'm the moon or sixpence?"

He gently put down the book, pondered for a while, and said, "Neither of them."

"Huh? Then what am I?"

He said quietly: "You will never be included in my choice, you are my instinct."

I have also bought children's books, such as "The Little Prince", such as "Black Cat Sheriff". I bought "The Little Prince" at a bookstore, but I saw an old bookstall on the way here for the comic strip of "The Black Cat Sheriff". Long" and "Lotus Lantern".

The comic book was read quickly, and I said: "Remember it, maybe we will live in seclusion in the mountains and open a kindergarten in the future? Then I will leave all the coaxing to you."

... Live in seclusion in the mountains and open a kindergarten? ?Something seemed wrong, but I didn't bother to think about it, so I shook my head and picked up the little prince.

"I read this book when I was in elementary school, but I never understood what it meant, and when it comes to expression techniques, after all, foreign children's brain circuits are different from ours since childhood; but I understand what he is talking about when it comes to feelings, and they all I think it’s nonsense, but I think everyone has published books, so it must not be so simple, and I stumped myself, which is why I can’t understand..." I sighed, and said: "Everything It is said that this is a masterpiece of childlike innocence, but how can the childlike innocence of an adult be the same as that of a child? If it is really the same, it can only show that the adult has a problem with his brain. He is so old but his IQ is only at the age of ten. Are you right? ?”

In the future, by chance, I talked about this book with Mr. Zeng, and I said: "The psychology of foreign children is different from that of Chinese children. When I was as old as the little prince, I didn't know what a rose is. Look at 'Monkeys fishing for the moon', 'Kuafu chasing the sun', 'Nuwa made man', this is the right one."

"Don't be so superficial, who told you to just read the story? The important thing is to see the essence through the phenomenon." He took a sip of tea.

"It's not a child's world to be so complicated."

"It's for adults, and the children are all going to listen to Monkey Fishing for the Moon."

I sighed and said, "You have to grow up when you are young, and you have to be young again when you are old. Which one is the true meaning that people are pursuing? I think life is really like a circle. Walking around represents the meaning of your life." experience, in the end we have to go back to the original point.”

"Many people die before reaching the origin, so they will tell the world before they die that this road is straight and has no end."

"Then you also think that everything in the world is round?"

He shook his teacup and said, "I describe the world as a gossip. When blackness reaches its depths, it becomes white, and when whiteness reaches its depths, it becomes black. Black and white depend on each other, and black and white are distinct." The real things that originated from this book are always full of wisdom, which makes people search up and down, and they are happy."

"This is Taoism."

"I am an atheist. I don't believe in Buddha and Allah. I only want to believe in the way I think."

Black to the depth is white, white to the depth is black...

I put the book aside, and then went to change the water for the flowers on his bedside. When changing the water, I asked, "Do you like "Reminiscence of Things Past"? I remember you mentioned it before, how about I Shall I read that to you tomorrow?"

He is always quiet and not noisy.

I smiled and said, "Okay, it's settled, I'll read that to you tomorrow."

At this time, the phone rang suddenly. I looked at the number of the caller, and then I pressed the answer button when I left the ward.

"It's me, Ah Wen."

"I found that person's residence, when will I do it?"

"Ah..." I thought for a while and asked, "What time does she get off work?"

"05:30 in the afternoon, but I heard that I have to work overtime tonight."

"Well, keep an eye on where she's going after overtime. If you're heading home, call me right away, and I'll be there soon."

"Understood, Brother Wen."

I hung up the phone and smiled mockingly.

How could I have forgotten you...?

The author has something to say: Huobai left a message: Brother Xian is just a supporting role, this is my second male lead! (⊙_⊙) Well, I wanted to talk about it in the next volume, but I couldn’t hold back.

Yesterday (4.19) a friend raised a question: what is self-realization?

Then, in the process of explaining to him, I suddenly came up with the phrase "the depth of black is white, and the depth of white is black", and I had an epiphany.Sure enough, talking to people about the true meaning of life can stimulate one's philosophical potential after being refined, and use it as inspiration→_→

But this is a novel, so you don't have to take it as a creed; you don't have to argue about a correct answer, because there is no correct answer to this kind of question.