Religious Faith

"2011.10.20. Yin. Am I being too irritable to him? Maybe I should have been gentler at the beginning, and he would have listened to me. Chengcheng is not an ignorant child, it should be my way that angered him... If it is because of my improper education method that he can’t rein in time, then I will regret it for the rest of my life. So I want to change it, and I hope he can accept me next time. But he is still angry with me recently, alas, he still Little one, it should be fine in a few days."

So next time he took the initiative to talk about it, saying that he was giving me an apple, but he really wanted me to turn around.Unfortunately... he still failed...

I cried bitterly holding the diary.

There are still many places to spend money in the future, and it is impossible to sit and eat, so I went out to find a job the next day.

This job is to work as a waiter in a bar, plus commission and tips, it can earn about [-] yuan a month.This is much more than I have earned before, which is exactly what I want,

The application was very successful, and the supervisor immediately decided to go to work on time at [-] o'clock tonight, and ordered an additional set of work clothes and spent another [-].It was noon after everything was ready, and I was a little hungry.I went to the supermarket and bought a package of Wujiang pickled mustard, steamed buns and cold water, and I had a meal like this. After eating, I went to the hospital to see him.While walking on the road, I used my mobile phone to check the precautions for work. After reading it, I went to buy a cigarette and planned to give it to the foreman at night.

He was still sleeping, very quiet.If you don't look at the plaster bandage tubes all over his body, he might look like a sleeping prince who was stabbed by a spindle.I said, I will definitely cure you, just like you protect me, now I will protect you too.

With some time left, I went home and took a nap because I had to keep my energy up since I was working until [-]am the next morning.This is my first day at work, so there must be no mistakes.

People need to be smart, learn to observe words and expressions, and never conflict with the foreman and customers... I slowly fell asleep as I meditated.

In the evening, I arrived at the bar 10 minutes earlier. Before going to work, I only ate a steamed bun with mustard.Steamed buns are really a good thing. They are cheap and still very hungry. After eating one, I pour water, and when it swells enough to fill my stomach, I won't be hungry anymore.If you really feel that your taste buds are tired, then eat a piece of candy.In order to save money, I ate steamed buns like this for two months. Even though "with Wujiang mustard, eating is delicious", I still vomited.But at that time, I didn't have to be short on food, but I got a disease called "nausea when I see steamed buns", which was terminally ill and there was no cure.

The foreman is a woman, about 30 years old.She looks pretty good, with short hair and a good figure. She looks very capable in a small suit and high heels. Everyone calls her "Sister Wei".When I gave her the cigarette, she took it away without showing any expression, just said: "Do it well." Then she left.

She is a cool woman.She is sleek, sophisticated, cold, social and all-in-one.On the outside, it looks like a senior executive of a certain company, a female white-collar worker; on the outside, it is simply called... a night show agent.

She can smoke and drink with others and talk and laugh happily, or she can smash glass shards on the table without saying a word, and hold the bottle to tell others that this is not a place to make trouble.

In all fairness, there are many people who are better than her, but she was the first "social person" I saw when I stepped into the society, so I have a deep impression of her.

Her waiters didn't dare to make trouble under her nose, but that didn't mean they were all fuel-efficient lamps.I don't even look at what place this is, there are mixed fish and dragons.Newcomers are always marginalized, and later I got used to it and took it for granted, but this person has gone too far.

His name is Zhao Xingyan, he's in his early 20s, he's a gangster, he likes to bully newcomers, and he doesn't like me in particular.I don't know why.

On the first day of work, he competed with me to serve several tables of guests.I didn't understand it at the time, but when I saw him smiling contemptuously at me with a tip, I understood everything.

Well, he is an old fritter, and he has been around longer than me, so I don't want to fight him.I only do it for the salary, I want to take it back to treat my Jinze, I don't want to cause trouble.

The next day I was carrying the wine to deliver to the guest, but he came to meet me and bumped into me on purpose.I couldn't dodge in time, and the wine spilled all over my body.In the end, not only lost money, but also lost a white shirt.The foreman took a look at me and told me to concentrate on my work in the future, otherwise I would quit, and then she left.I was unwilling, but I could only swallow it back into my stomach.In fact, Sister Wei already knew what was going on, but she would turn a blind eye if she didn't get into trouble.After that time, I understood that Zhao Xingyan was deliberately looking for faults.

On the fifth day, Li Jinze woke up.

I said, "...I'm sorry."

After a long time, he said, "It's okay."

"It hurts, doesn't it..." I buried my head so low that I couldn't lower it.

Instead of answering me, he asked me, "Did you spend a lot of money?"

"...not much." I whispered.

He closed his eyes and sighed, "I'm the one who hurt you."

I'm most afraid of him saying that, it's obviously my fault, but why does he always take the responsibility on himself.I owe him, I owe him my whole life.It was almost time for work, and I said, "I have to go."

"Where?"

"Go to work," I said, "Get a job, work the night shift."

He looked at me for a while, his eyes were deep and pierced into my heart, I was terrified by his look, and left in a hurry.

I hadn't eaten that night, and I was so hungry that I finally got off work, when I suddenly remembered that there was nothing to eat at home.It happened that there was a table of guests who left not long ago, but there was still a fruit platter left. Before anyone cleared the table, I went to eat two bites to fill my stomach.Before I had eaten two bites, there was a sudden "wow", and my head felt cold.I closed my eyes, and there was a smell of beer. Slowly, the wine drenched my upper body.If you think about it with your toes, you will know who did it.

I took a deep breath, then stood up, wiped my face with my sleeve twice and left directly.The laughter behind him was even louder, Zhao Xingyan stood up laughing and bent over, he scolded while laughing: "Grandson, hahahahaha!"

It was still cold outside, and I didn't have a hat, so when I went out, the cold wind blew my hair and my hair froze.So I put on an "ice helmet" and went home. When I got home, the ice started to melt again, and my scalp itched like hell in the middle of the night.

I endured silently, expressionless, and I told myself that I only need to think about making money, and as long as Jin Ze is well, I can feel aggrieved no matter what I do now.I force myself, don't think too much.Maybe I've changed since then.But as for what it looked like in the end... Heh.

……

Li Jinze was always out of breath, and now he even had some problems with his spleen, which was caused by that night, and it was difficult to recover.

His body was swollen, his whole body was covered with blue, yellow and purple spots, and some places had festered, which made people gasp when they saw it.Especially his right arm and leg, which were almost twice as thick as before, and the skin was so tight that it hurt to look at it.When I wiped his body, I couldn't lighten it any more. Even so, he still couldn't help humming twice in pain.

We all know how his body is, and the price of this number may be "innumerable".The past few days he said very little, I was afraid that he would drive me away again because of his thoughts, so I was always terrified.

He was very silent.A person with strong self-esteem like him can only lie on the bed and be taken care of by others. He can't even take care of himself. Everything has to be done for him.When the nurse inserted the lower catheter for him, his face couldn't be more red, his eyes were gently closed, his lips were slightly pursed, and he looked like he was going to die.I was by the side that time, so I learned it, and I will do it from now on. His face was still red as hell, and his eyes were full of shame.

He knows his condition, although he never mentioned it to me, but he must have asked the doctor in private, I understand him.The right leg is useless, and the right arm will not be restored to its original state in the future.The spleen has been severely injured, and there is another hidden danger in the brain.Although it is only detecting bone fractures now, but it has been subjected to such a large external force... It's just that we don't know if he will have problems, or when he will have problems.

His attending doctor once asked me why he was injured so badly. I told him the process of his injury, especially after he heard the sound of the police car and Li Jinze fell down. He sighed: "The mystery of the human body Far more than the development of science and technology, people are really a wonderful existence. Human emotions can dominate consciousness, so that many things that science cannot explain. It stands to reason that he should be beaten to death in this situation, but He insisted on reaching the police car, and finally came back to life. Maybe his brain really won't have any problems..."

He also told me that people divide pain into ten levels, and the most painful is childbirth, but the pain he endured is no less than childbirth.

Today, he finally spoke his mind.He said calmly, "Jiang Cheng, leave me alone."

I wiped my hands for him.

He said again: "Leave me, you go home."

"..."

He turned his head, looked at the sky outside the window, and said softly, "It's almost Chinese New Year. They... miss you a lot too."

Tears rolled in my eyes.

He said, "Let's break up."

The five light words that came out of his mouth made me cry.

The author has something to say: Please prepare the music, Xiao Jingteng's "If Without You", and listen to it when watching "Chapter29".