Religious Faith

I told him about it when I got home that night.

He frowned, and then said, "Just spend the money, don't contact them again."

"Why...?" I also frowned, why does he deny me every time.

"Be good," he said.

"If I knew it earlier, I shouldn't have told you!" I was a little angry: "Why is it so difficult for me to do what I want!"

"I don't think they're good people."

"Actually, you just love that one thousand and five! You say you don't care, but you are afraid of spending more money! You are selfish, petty and hypocritical! You are authoritarian and stubborn! You are stubborn!!" I lost my temper at him, from the book he bought me Li learned to have a sharp tongue and then deal with him again.I don't know why, even though it was so difficult during that time, and obviously he was so tired, why did I intentionally break his heart?why……

We always hurt the closest person, I hurt him in the name of love, I broke his shoulder and told him it was because I cared about him.He couldn't tell what he was suffering from, and I always confidently asked him for more... for the "love" I gave him before.

Later, the sociologist told me that I must have failed for a long time, so I really wanted to succeed and thought hard.And at this time someone came out to stop me, no matter who it is, I will treat him as an enemy, this is the only way to grow up, everyone will experience it, but my situation is special than others.

Although what he said made sense, I still felt that I was unforgivable and unforgivable.I said I thank him for his comfort.

Li Jinze was angry, he said: "You don't know what to do!"

"You are all right! Hehe!!!" I said the last two words word by word, with a heavy voice.

I went back to the bedroom and closed the door with a bang.

I was still up late at night, when there was a knock on the door, two short, gentle knocks.

I ignored him.

He knocked on the door again, and I reluctantly asked, "What are you doing?"

"Open the door," he said softly.

"If you have anything to say, just say it."

"Good job."

I half-deadly opened the door, and he was standing outside the house with a plate of sliced ​​apples in his hand.

"Try it? It's sweet." He smiled at me.

"..." I closed the door, and he hastily pressed his knee against the door, and asked, "Can you save face?"

"Don't eat."

"Hey, hey," he said, "husband??"

I laughed when I heard this: "What the hell do you want?"

Seeing that I stopped stabbing him, he loosened the hand to close the door, he squeezed in and said seriously: "I just want you to taste the apple, it's so sweet."

"Just give it to me, you go out." I pretended to be angry.

"We haven't talked for a long time. For the sake of peeling an apple for you, can you give me a favor and say a few words?" He sat on the edge of the bed and gently held my hand: " Let me see, have you soaked your hands on the construction site before?"

"..." I had a sore nose, and asked him in a low voice, "How do you know it's blistered...?"

He sighed, stroked my hair, and said, "Silly boy..."

Silly boy, I go to see you every night, you are so tired and sleep so dead, how did you notice me coming in?

He sat me next to him and asked, "Can you tell me why you're in the band?"

"To exercise myself."

He asked softly: "Chengcheng, tell me the truth, do you really love rock and roll?"

I am silent.I don't love, I'm for red.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he asked again: "Or, is there any other reason?"

I still didn't speak.He is a very smart person, so he knew it well. He said: "Chengcheng, don't do things you don't like, and don't do things too utilitarian, otherwise you will lose badly."

Unconvinced, I turned my head aside.

"...Chengcheng, we are a lot worse now than before, but we can still live. You don't understand, as long as you are okay, I don't care..." He hugged me and stroked me Back said: "If you are for me, then there is no need. All my hopes for you are based on your safety. I don't ask you to be famous, I just ask you not to have accidents." He gently Kiss me: "OK?"

I always think of the scene he did with her, and I take a deep breath and say, "No."

He froze for a moment, and he asked, "Why?"

"You believe me, I will be popular."

"..." He let go of me, lowered his eyes to think for a while, and then said, "Then let's talk about your...partners, can you tell me about them?"

I thought he meant to accept it, so I told him everything, including my psychology when facing them: "So I thought they were not doing their jobs properly, seeing their unkempt appearance, I didn't expect that hard work would be so difficult, but success I'm sure you'll be very happy!"

He said, "What do you know about them?"

I told him their nicknames, ages, and division of labor. He frowned slightly and asked, "That's all?"

"Hmm."

"What about the name?"

"Old knife, little,"

He interrupted me: "It's not this, I said my real name."

"Huh? Then I don't know."

Hearing this, he sighed heavily and said, "Chengcheng, do whatever you want, I'll let you do it. But I tell you, stay away from them, or you will be hurt by them."

I looked at him vigilantly, it turned out that he still didn't give up.He first pretended to support me, and then slowly asked me to give up... Saying that letting me go is just his tactic to delay the attack, and then he will thwart my will little by little, and finally I still have to obey him obediently.

I pushed him away violently: "You go."

"Listen to me, if you really want to play rock and roll, I'll help you find some serious music,"

"Enough!" I yelled at him, "You don't have to worry about me!" I didn't want to bother you, so I didn't want to learn the piano. I will only ask you for a short time to learn the guitar, and then I will Go to gigs and make money.If he helps me find a band, it must be very good, and the price will be high, so what's the point of me doing it?

"Jiang Cheng..." His voice was a little anxious: "Did they threaten you?"

I pushed him out: "I don't want to listen to you! You go!"

The peace talks ended in failure, and I have never had a good temper with him since then.Thinking about it now, I really don’t understand. I told myself that I loved him, but I was obviously bullying him... I knew he cared about me, but I deliberately stabbed him...

God, how did things turn out like this? !

So it was only later...! ! !

……

My hands were shaking so badly that I couldn't type, I yelled, then fell to the ground and broke down in tears.He came rushing from the study when he heard the sound, and when he left in a hurry, his right leg would limp a little bit, a slight limp, unlike me staring at it all day, I couldn't notice it.But it is a thorn, every time I see it, my heart hurts, it hurts like crazy, it hurts like crazy.Seeing me like this, he hugged me up first, and then quickly browsed the computer.He stroked my hair and comforted me softly: "It's okay, Chengcheng, it's okay..." I cried in his arms, and I said, "Go...don't be so nice to me..."

He gasped in distress: "Stop writing, we won't write, okay?" He hugged me and stroked my back: "Chengcheng, listen to me, it's okay, we've all made it through, it's okay... ..."

I cry.

There were also tears in the corners of his eyes, and he said, "Don't be like this... I don't blame you, I never blame you..."

"You scold me, I beg you, don't be so nice to me..." I said, "I'm a sinner, I can't bear you like this."

He was so distressed that he couldn't add it: "Silly boy..."

"Only you are so kind to me," I said while crying, "You can forgive me for whatever I did wrong, no matter what I did... Li Jinze, you are the only one who treats me like this in this world..." My heart hurt so much, I cried and asked him: "But, in this world, who has ever treated you fairly?"

……

We went back to the Cold War again, and a few days later I got a call from Lao Dao, who said he wanted me to come to the xx warehouse compound on xx Street at [-] o'clock in the evening, and we had to rehearse.

He also said: "You bring something to eat, we have to rehearse late and have a late-night snack."