Religious Faith

When I got home, I put my wallet on the coffee table and sat on the couch waiting for him to come back.

It's been a long time since I talked to him, and I'm really nervous to talk to him.I looked at the sweat on my palms and shook my head slightly to calm myself down.

When he got home, I said bluntly, "That..."

He glanced at me.

"...Here, here you are." I shoved the wallet with the box into his arms awkwardly.

He said softly, "Thank you."

I pursed my lips and said again, "I... want to learn guitar."

He didn't speak, maybe he didn't want to, because he still wanted me to learn the violin.But after that incident, there was a bit of estrangement in our hearts, so he didn't have to say some things.He didn't want to support me or reject me, so he chose to remain silent.

But the next day I saw that there was obviously a lot more money on the table, which should be for my tuition.

I found a place where I could teach guitar, and the guy who taught guitar was a young man named Mike.Mike, 27, is eight years old. He has small eyes, double eyelids, a high nose bridge and fat nose tip, slightly thick lips, and a tall man. He wears brown glasses, a woolen hat, a gray fleece jacket, and a black shiny cotton vest. Thick whitish jeans and a pair of slightly yellowed white sneakers.He still has a stubble of stubble, and he seems to speak in a fashionable way, but he is actually a ruffian to put it bluntly.

As for why he was looking for, this is a beautiful misunderstanding.Because I'm not Li Jinze, and I still have contacts, I walked for a long time and found a broken building with a sign: teach guitar.

This is my ability...

I was face to face with him, and we both sat on chairs with our legs crossed.

He likes to swing the guitar, and he teaches very casually. Sometimes he just plays and sings by himself. His voice is deliberately hoarse, as if he is imitating Li Zongsheng.

I asked him, "Have you ever had a band?"

"Of course, I used to have dreams too."

"and after?"

"The lead singer went home to farm, the bassist went shopping for vegetables, the drummer went to play, and now I'm teaching students."

I:"……"

"I'm just your student, and I have to go to work after teaching you."

"........."

He looked at my expression and smiled disdainfully: "What do you think? Seeing that your whole body is from Nike and Adidas..." He took a closer look: "Yo, these shoes are the latest model, and they cost thousands of dollars. Bar?"

I made him talk a little boringly, teaching guitar, teaching guitar, saying these things: "There are more people who dress better than me, so what's the matter."

"Don't be humble."

I replied sourly: "I'm sorry, I only have this to wear." This is the truth, Li Jinze will always buy me these.

He clapped his hands: "This is really cool."

"Do you teach or not?" I'm tired of continuing this topic, how do you want me to answer?To put it bluntly, it's just for wearing, don't act like you haven't seen it, okay?

"Okay, okay." He plucked the guitar, and suddenly remembered something: "You learn this to make music?"

"Ah."

He smiled again, a little helpless: "Not every band will become GALA. At the beginning, the four of us only had 500 yuan to spend every month... But, I wish you success."

What the hell...?It's miserable. .I don't care.

He said again: "But you are fine, and the family is rich. Seriously, if you become famous one day, don't forget about me."

"..." I asked him, "Do you teach or not?"

"teach!"

In fact, sometimes I really don’t want to learn from him, because he is always like this, saying something and nothing, which makes me very helpless.

Not long after, I also signed up for a competition, which was very famous. After the audition, he told me to wait for the notification, but he didn't tell me whether I was promoted or eliminated.Later I learned that there were people like me, and they couldn't find the person in charge.We know that auditions are all scams. In fact, people have already made an internal decision, but this is something for later, let's not mention it for the time being.

In a trance, winter is here.Winter in Beijing is very cold, and the wind blows like a knife.In late December, I went home through that small alley as usual, and there was a band formed by several people in the alley that day, their instruments were still displayed outside, and people hid at the base of the wall, smoking and joking.

A woman whistled at me: "Is that a guitar you have, dude?"

I looked around and they laughed: "There is no one else but you."

I nodded and said, "Well, it's a guitar."

A short, skinny man stood up, threw away his burning cigarette butt, and walked towards me wrapped in a dirty khaki down jacket.He said, "Brother, make a friend."

This person is called Lao Dao, 30 years old, jobless and homeless.They are a band and he is the leader and drummer.

……

pity!At the beginning, I didn't know people clearly, and I had a heart with dreams, but I didn't have the ability to carry dreams and know people.Facing such a hooligan and his "perfect tongue", I can only surrender.

Let me tell you so much first, hehe, it will take a long time, we will talk about it slowly later, and now I will tell the story.

In fact, I didn't have a good tongue. At that time, I had never been in contact with this society. I thought this society was full of Li Jinze.A group of them are very poor and dirty, and Li Jinze has wronged me so much, so he always dresses me well, and this gap is reflected when I meet them face to face.

To be honest, I was still a little disdainful at the time.Don't scold me yet, I'll just ask you, now a gangster comes over, with booger and eye feces hanging on his face, his hair is greasy and frizzy, the wind can't blow it, snowflakes fall on his head like dandruff.At this time, he stretched out his hand full of mud between the nails to shake hands with you, and he said to you "brother, make friends", if you were me, what would you think?

Okay, even if you still scold me in front of the screen and call me a snobbery, it's not easy for others... Hehe, sorry, I still look down on him.

I was a little disgusted, so I avoided it a little bit, and didn't reach out for a long time.

He couldn't hold back, so he pretended to straighten his hair, and said, "Well... it's been a bit hard recently, and it's all about working hard for dreams."

Ladies and gentlemen, I would like to say something here.In Beijing, there are a group of young people who are fighting for their musical dreams.They only earn a few hundred yuan to a little over a thousand yuan a month. In order to make ends meet, they travel to and from venues every day to perform. They live in very poor places, eat steamed buns and drink cold water every day, which is very bitter.The only thing that supports them to persevere is their dreams, their music dreams.Fame and fortune to them is just a way of affirming their efforts.

That is a group, those who are famous, you all know, those who are not famous... either give up like Mike, or continue to struggle... Although I don't know when they will survive until the sun rises, maybe they will one day sooner or later To become Mike, you may have to fight like this for the rest of your life, but there are very few of the latter.When a group of people withdraw, there will be a group of fresh blood to replace them, and they continue to fanatical for their dreams.

I explain it in advance because I am afraid that everyone will misunderstand, and I am afraid that when you think of this group in the future, you will think that they are a group of people who have nothing to do and live a dirty life.Actually not, they worked very hard for their dreams.So at the beginning, I also thought that Lao Dao and the others were such a group of people, so I was defenseless after he said a few words.

OK, I know I'm digressing again.If you make a mistake, you will make a mistake. I also want to tell you that when judging a person is good or bad, don't focus on the brilliance of the group he belongs to, but look at the person.And there is... If you love someone, please don't hurt him, and kidnap him for your so-called love.

I really want to talk about the past and not digress -- at least I won't digress until this matter is finished.

I started to believe his words, and then he said to me: "We are short of people, do you want to join?"

I can use it as a springboard to join in and exercise myself.It would be great if everyone can succeed, if not, I will continue to work solo.

"Welcome, we'll make it," he said.

They introduced themselves.

Lao Dao, male, captain, drummer, 24 years old.To be honest, I was a little surprised, how could he be 24 years old at 30 years old?

Xiaolong, male, bass player, 22 years old.

Ah Xiang, female, lead singer, 25 years old.The one who greeted me.

A Fen, female, keyboard player, 23 years old.

That's all I know.

Then they asked me all kinds of questions, and I almost didn't tell where my grandma's house was.

All teammates, all teammates.

I asked them, "When is the rehearsal?"

They froze for a moment, and Lao Dao immediately realized: "We have a performance recently, it will take a few days."

"What show? Are you guys still rehearsing? Can I go?" I asked them.

"No, there is no extra money for you when you go."

I said, "It's okay, I don't want money."

"Next time, let you go next time."

I said, "Okay, leave a call."

Only Lao Dao gave me the phone number. He said that I don’t need to give me other people’s, as long as he arrives first, he can find them, and they are together.

Later, when I was about to leave, Lao Dao stopped me.

"Huh?" I turned around.

He rubbed his hands and said, "Pay the entry fee first, we need to pay for the activities."

"Okay, how much?" I was very straightforward.

They were stunned again, and Lao Dao spoke first again: "One thousand and five."

I brought more than that money, so Li Jinze was really generous to me.I gave them the money and left, no questions asked.To be honest, I really don't pay much attention to the money.Now is a special period, I know that money has to be saved, but it is only a formal "knowing", or "understanding".I have never been short of money since I was a child, and I am used to spending money lavishly, and now he has not changed my problem, so I understand it, but I forget it when I turn around, and I still spend it.

In fact, God has given me many opportunities so that we can be together peacefully, live a happy life, and there is no time to rein in the precipice, but I haven't...

The author has something to say: the climax of the article is coming, please prepare the music, Ania's "EL'alba Verrc", listen to it when watching Chapter 23 and Chapter 24, these two chapters are foreplay.