Jinnian

Dream, this word seems to always have a vibrant color like a newborn sun. It belongs to the shining stage of young people, it belongs to the spirited youth who guides the country and inspires words, and it belongs to generosity and self-sufficiency. The elite talents in the world belong to the poor and hard-working, smart and talented men who do not fall into the blue sky.However, no matter which one it is, it is impossible for a person like Gu Chen to have something.His dream has long been wrapped up by the wind and waves of life and discarded to which corner.

During Qiu Luo's pale apology that night, Gu Chen suddenly realized that he was really far away from the world he used to be. When this distance extended from his heart to Qiu Luo's distressed eyes, he seemed so at a loss.However, what can be done, life is not a fairy tale, it is not a fact that can be easily changed by crying and laughing.

So, when they woke up the next day, they all tacitly stopped mentioning this matter, and Qiu Luo sent him to the clinic after breakfast and left.In fact, Gu Chen also understands that Qiu Luo has never been such a sentimental person, but they are no longer young, facing the overlapping of the past and the present, there will always be a little weakness and confusion inadvertently.

Before leaving, Qiu Luo said to him: "Gu Chen, I used that ballad you sang to me as a lullaby for the children, and they liked it very much." Gu Chen in the early morning narrowed his eyes slightly.

He thought he didn't remember.

The small town at night is the most attractive. The stone arch bridge leans on the clear water, looking elegant and exquisite from a distance.Pedestrians on the bridge come and go, most of them are old people. They take a leisurely walk, chat, and play chess. The lines on the bluestone board are like the track of their lives. They walk step by step, like rings of annual rings. , rich and serene.A young man walked quietly in such a crowd, his eyes were gentle, his back was lonely, it seemed that he was out of tune with the thickness of this place, but his steady steps and gentle smile seemed to be the most appropriate footnotes of this natural beauty.

"Whatever is not obtained, but what is in the past is always the most correct. The former accident person, you who forget your worries, do you remember it. Joys and sorrows, old and sick life and death, it is not a legend. I hate the stage, or the stage Let me and me, not me and you... Dot the heartbroken words, the sound of wind and rain again and again, it seems that an old friend is coming... When will we meet again, where will we meet again, and say that tonight is really warm..."

Gu Chen stopped, and there was a burst of music coming from the other side of the river. The lingering Cantonese song was clearly cheerful, but the lyrics were sad.

"No part, fate, endless memories, but life is short. One kind of lovesickness, two bitter loves, half a lifetime to talk about...

Before the farewell, the unknown relative, that day was so good.Hold your hand, but break up again, love so much.

Ten years later Shuangshuang, ten thousand years later will be right, I just hate not seeing it.

Ten years later, Shuangshuang, ten thousand years later, we will be right, I just hate not seeing..."

The cool night wind was blowing, and the crowd didn't seem to notice that the man suddenly stood still at the moment when he heard the song. After the song ended, he suddenly woke up like a dream, but the loneliness in his eyes was extremely sad.

Gu Chen smiled wryly, he had listened to so many Cantonese songs before, but never understood the lyrics, even if that person sang it to him, why did he hear this song so clearly today? How are you doing today?

The night wind blew past the corner of his eyes, he stretched out his hand, and touched a trace of cold water droplets, he walked back slowly, letting the tears on his face rage in the dark night.

Thousands of miles away, the heart of the old man is still there?

Compared with the tranquility of the small town, the prosperity of the city can be described as bizarre.Lu Chuxiu was invited to a certain occasion at night.It was an official business banquet, and the people sitting there were either the old or the fat, and they were all people who had flourished in the imperial city. A few years ago, these people thought that he was a young man who was not qualified, and he was not qualified. He will criticize a few words in the open and in the dark, especially during the period when he was competing with the third child, he was often suppressed, but now, the position of the Lu family at the helm has made a group of old men who are more than ten or 20 years older than him bow their heads and bow their heads. What fun!

Lu Chuxiu drank a few glasses of wine slowly, and squinted his eyes to listen to these old foxes carefully talking about a certain leadership team in politics. Why is it so easy?What's more, if he really wanted to join in, he wouldn't look for these hozen.The reason why I can come here today is nothing more than because there are a few good men in the officialdom, and he sat here to save face, this group of people is good, they really treat him as a living Bodhisattva!

After hearing some nonsense, Lu Chuxiu lost interest and left early.However, there was an episode in the middle of the dinner. A certain dog-like elite took advantage of the toast to hint at him. Lu Chuxiu glanced at him. He looked good and spoke well. He seemed confident in himself and could come On this occasion, the worth is similar, and he probably wants to go to the next level, but he just ignores it.Leaving aside that he is not interested in others, there are countless hints he receives every day. He has seen all kinds of beauties and men, and this temptation is too cheap.

The so-called "elites" are nothing but senior male prostitutes, and everyone wants to take shortcuts for their own interests.There was a smile in the corner of his eyes, but it was cold to the bone. Every time at this time, the shadow of that person would rush into his mind unprepared, messing with his mind. After drinking two glasses of wine, he left disappointed.

The higher the position, the more you can see the despicableness of people's hearts.He urgently needs some beautiful things to support himself to go on. There was once a person by his side, even if he didn't say anything, he was willing to accumulate blessings, wisdom and good fortune for him as much as possible. He admitted that he was not a good person, but he would do it for him That person disciplines himself and tries to do something good.But now, using his own strength to resist the undercurrents and rocks that may be encountered at any time, he is very afraid, afraid that one day he will join the tide of life.

Looking at the rapidly passing scenery outside the window, many vivid memories in his mind suddenly began to jump uncontrollably, his eyes gradually lost focus, and the chaotic night scene turned into a large piece of colorful scenery. float by.

The night wind blowing through the window of the car brought out many flavors of the past.

Like every night, like every pain.As if falling into a boundless dark endless hell, he once again began to recall the intoxication of conquest.

"Xucheng, I regret it, Xucheng...I fucking regret it!...Acheng..." Empty wine bottles were thrown everywhere on the ground, and the man on the sofa Holding the mobile phone and shouting at the top of his lungs, his head was pressed tightly against the fabric sofa, like a wounded lion, irritable and fragile; his hoarse and intermittent roar sounded miserable and seemed to be Expressing some impatient regret, those voices seemed to shout out all the fear and heartache that had been buried in their hearts for many years.

The phone was quiet for a while, and a quiet and elegant voice sounded: "I'm here to find you, Ah Chu."

Lu Chuxiu's mind was confused, and the voice on the phone seemed to be as distant and vague as thousands of miles away. He lay quietly on the sofa, his shirt was more than half pulled away, and his tie disappeared. Some mottled spots appeared on his tough face. Tears, some deliberately sealed memories in his head seemed to start to wake up, like a yellowed old book unfolding page by page before his eyes, the door was pushed open in a haze, and he saw a handsome man in a black windbreaker coming.

"Ah Chu..." Xu Cheng looked at him hastily.

Lu Chuxiu also looked at him in a daze, they looked at each other quietly, Xu Cheng called him again uncertainly: "Ah Chu..."

The voice was so far away that even the echo was 11 years late.Lu Chuxiu showed a faint smile, as if he saw another figure walking towards him: thin and stern, stubborn and gentle.

14 years ago.

14 years ago, Lu Chuxiu was 17 years old, Xu Cheng was 17 years old, and Gu Chen was 15 years old. At that time, they had just entered the second year of high school, Wenyang No. 306 Middle School, Liberal Arts Class [-].

Their life plans 14 years ago were very precise and certain: Lu Chuxiu would go into business, Xu Cheng would go into politics, and then they would each marry a dignified housekeeping wife at an appropriate age, have a lovely child, and then they would make a doll Dear, let each other's lives come to a perfect end.

No matter which node may change on this long life track, they have all firmly believed that the final ending of life should be like this!Even if Lu Chuxiu knew from the very beginning that he was an out-and-out gay, even if the girl Xu Cheng had a crush on for many years didn't like him, even if they had never been able to truly control their lives once!

However, these will not become obstacles, let alone bargaining chips that can make them give up their bright future. Those hopeless desires are nothing more than youthful and frivolous ignorance at best!When one day you can inherit a wealth of wealth and control an entire business empire, you will not regret that you did not boldly disclose your sexuality; You wouldn't care about the fact that the girl you had a crush on for many years didn't marry you when you started dating!

They know how to weigh the pros and cons, choose a camp, what is the future?No one knows better than these two people who came from business families and political groups.

Even when they were just a kid.

Therefore, the appearance of Gu Chen is a disaster for Lu Chuxiu, an unpredictable and unavoidable "disaster".

Wenyang No. [-] Middle School was a model high school in the city at that time. Apart from the teachers and equipment, the playground and classrooms were the most envied by students from other schools.The playground covers a vast area with green grass and well-equipped classrooms. At that time, it was still an ivory pagoda that many students dreamed of.

Of course, no matter how good it is, this is just an ordinary high school, not a so-called noble school.

But the extracurricular education that Lu Chuxiu and Xu Cheng received was often beyond what ordinary students could think of.

They all like to play basketball after school in the afternoon. There is a large row of basketball hoops next to the playground. The field is wide and the view is far away.Therefore, many students stayed in groups to play basketball after school, and the infinite hormones in their youth were condensed in the three-pointers one after another!The tall figure under the setting sun is youthful and full of vigor and vigor!

At the end of the two rounds, a few people were sweating profusely sitting on the floor drinking water and frolicking. Xu Cheng took a sip of water and said, "Ah Chu, take your schoolbag today."

Because there are too many people staying on the playground to play basketball after school every day, everyone’s schoolbags will be less if they are mixed, so everyone puts their schoolbags in the classroom after school, and they will pick them up when they are done playing. The playground is close to the carport and an appointment is made. It's my turn to go back to the classroom to get my schoolbag. Anyway, Xu Cheng is the class monitor and he has the key, so everyone is not afraid of being late.Today is Lu Chuxiu.

Lu Chuxiu groaned, continued to drink water, and then the others continued to talk about evening homework, games, girls, etc. In fact, no matter what a 17-year-old boy talks about, the topic will eventually turn into girls, just like 17-year-olds Like the girls in my life, chatting with each other eventually turned into exchanging secrets.Boudoir Newspeak can never get around the sensitive word of the opposite sex.

However, in a group of people talking about their partner, talking about the girl they have a crush on, and asking where each other is going, all kinds of flattery, laughter and scolding are indispensable, but there is no lack of joy and excitement.Adolescent boys are full of curiosity and exploration like children, but they have to pretend to be calm and old-fashioned like adults. The cute and slapstick expressions happen to be the youthful attitude that people want to recall most when they reach middle age.

Among the group, only Lu Chuxiu and Xu Cheng talked less, and everyone was used to it. For one thing, everyone used to be in the same class, and they were half-familiar with each other after getting along with each other in the first year of high school. But in fact, the school will ask students to make a clear choice of arts and sciences when they first enter the high school. In the second year of high school, those who are willing to continue studying literature will stay in the class, and those who want to study science will be assigned to the science class, so I go to the last class. There are always more old students, and most of the people sitting here are used to it before.Everyone knows that Xu Cheng, the monitor of Class 306, is elegant, with a strict family style. Although he has a gentle temperament and few words, he has top grades and looks like an orchid and jade tree. He is a rare modest man among boys.

And Xu Cheng's childhood and good brother Lu Chuxiu was a sophisticated, indifferent, unapproachable young master of an aristocratic family. Of course, what most people thought of as "aristocratic family" at that time was nothing more than "rich".In an ordinary university, if you are not from the same circle, you can hardly tell the family background just by looking at the appearance, at most it just feels that someone's family is well-off.In addition, Lu Chuxiu Xucheng himself is a low-key person, and rarely has a deep friendship with his classmates.Therefore, even if he is taciturn and silent, in the eyes of most of his classmates, he is just an ordinary boy, not an arrogant and domineering second-generation ancestor.

But even so, his indifference and aura around him will always give people a chilling feeling, and his pair of perennially calm eyes always give people the illusion of a young and mature shrewdness, and this complexion has gradually become sharper and more mature after puberty. A mature boy often makes many girls stop in a daze, but he always treats them coldly.

His world always seems to be a little less intimate and normal than ordinary people.In particular, as we all know, Lu Chuxiu extremely dislikes outsiders approaching him, regardless of gender.But this doesn't make people alienate him. On the contrary, because of this strange "cleanliness", a large group of girls are willing to come closer. That age, appearance, and grades seem to be the best catalyst for love.What's more, this young man is born with an aura that makes people look up to him!

The boy under the setting sun walked leisurely and looked indifferent.The empty teaching building also stands coldly in the orange light as before. No one knows that a special but long love here is about to kick off.