Jinnian

"What are you doing?" A cold voice with a hint of anger suddenly sounded by the door, Gu Chen was startled, and the book in his hand fell.He turned around in surprise, the boy by the door was standing quietly under the setting sun, behind him was a large piece of warm and lazy orange light.

Perhaps his gaze was too stern, Gu Chen stared at his eyes and suddenly froze, and reflexively said: "Ah? I didn't do anything?"

Lu Chuxiu glanced at the messy pile of books on his desk and frowned slightly. He didn't have the habit of making the desk look like a pigsty, and when he first entered the door, this guy was standing in front of his desk and didn't know what to do.So he looked up at the silent boy who was not wearing a school uniform standing in front of him, and said in a bad tone, "Hey, how did you get in? What class are you in? What are you looking at in front of my desk?"

"Uh, this is your table?" Gu Chen asked without any focus.

Lu Chuxiu raised his eyebrows, and looked at Gu Chen without saying a word, Gu Chen said with some embarrassment: "Well, I'm a new transfer student, I accidentally knocked over your desk when I was moving it, I'm sorry..." Lu Chuxiu He was sitting in the last row, and he looked at the window, and sure enough there was an extra table in the penultimate row.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Gu Chen continued to pick up the fallen books.When he was halfway through picking it up, he saw a copy of "A Journey to the West". He vaguely remembered that he had seen it on Uncle Min's bookshelf, so he looked it up a few times curiously, but he was caught by the master.

"I don't like other people touching my things." The cold voice sounded again, Gu Chen was squatting to pick up the book, when he heard this, he put down the book in his hand and picked it up, his face flushed for a while, feeling that this person was still It's really inexplicable.Just as he didn't know how to respond, Lu Chuxiu suddenly squatted down, took the book from Gu Chen's hand, and said calmly, "I'll do it myself."

Gu Chen glanced at him in embarrassment, and found that the expression on this man's face was not too gentle, so he stopped talking and went to his own place to pack up the textbooks, but the fragrance from the tip of his nose unexpectedly made him look at the boy more. Two eyes.

Lu Chuxiu neatly put the other books into the desk, then looked at the "Westward Journey", and finally put it in the desk of Xucheng at the same table. This kind of documentary book that loves the party and the country is definitely the book of the little Xucheng. Politicians love to read, so he won't turn it over. He probably put it in accidentally when clearing the table one day.After finishing everything, he looked up at the window, the short guy was still busy cleaning up, his profile was clean and thin, he was pretty good-looking, but unfortunately, when Lu Chuxiu looked back, the clothes were so cheap that it made people feel disgusted appetite.

"Hey, what's your name?" Lu Chuxiu took other people's schoolbags and stood at the door and asked.

"My name is Gu Chen." The boy turned his head and said with a smile.

"Gu Chen, lock the door when you leave later, do you have the key?" Lu Chuxiu didn't become polite at all because of his smile, his voice was still so cold.

"Oh, I have." After finishing speaking, he watched the young man's tall body disappear through the door.

This was their beginning. No one felt that their lives were different because of the appearance of each other, and no one thought about the intersection of each other in the future, because from the beginning, they were people from different worlds. They looked at each other Their eyes never meet, their clothes, their habits, and their living environment are very different, and this difference cannot be changed by two underage children.

There is a reason for Lu Chuxiu's anger, he doesn't like others touching his things.Therefore, even the seats are always sitting in the last row of the classroom, eliminating the need to deal with people around.This unreasonable habit is only the source of his sensitivity to gay identity.Because of his different sexual orientation, he pays great attention to his private space, especially in adolescence.Whether it is due to psychological or physical considerations, Lu Chuxiu maintains a strict spatial distance from others, and does not want to make himself appear in any untimely embarrassment.Moreover, since he was in high school, he has lived outside by himself on the grounds that it is convenient for him to go to school.

He is a born gay, such an identity is embarrassing for a prestigious family like the Lu family. After all, homosexuality was still illegal in Chile in 1996. Although it was not illegal in China in the 90s, it was It is also absolutely shameless behavior.Even many people have not heard that two men or two women can live a lifetime.Although Daxia has a long history of masculinity, people never treat it as a normal culture and a normal way of life.

Even comrades themselves are terribly disgusted with their own orientation.It didn't take long for Lu Chuxiu to realize that he liked men to accepting this fact and struggled psychologically.He is a man whose vision has been developed and cultivated, and the existence of homosexuality is not a surprising discovery at all.However, he never thought of acknowledging this identity. As the eldest son and grandson of the Lu family, he has the duty to marry a wife and have children to revitalize the family business.Therefore, whether he wants to or not, he is bound to dedicate his life to this family.In fact, he is also happy to open up a vast territory on this lush land.Compared with this vast and great cause, homosexuality is an extremely small existence, why should he struggle?

Of course, he also has his own plans.Taking advantage of his youth and favorable living environment, he can have as much fun as he wants!He enjoys the pleasure of having sex with a man, and enjoys the comfort of releasing himself on a man!He also likes touching, hugging, kissing between men, and the feeling that he doesn't need to be responsible.Everyone is looking for pleasure and excitement, no one will admit their feelings, and they themselves will not take love seriously.They seem to be monsters living in the dark, why bother to prove themselves?When the day comes, we are all one of the common people.Lu Chuxiu is such a person, he will not suppress his nature, but he will never play the game of love.

Therefore, his identity has never been known to any insignificant people except his good brother Xu Cheng and a bunch of young masters in the circle.When he came out to Xu Cheng for the first time, Xu Cheng, who has always been moody and indifferent, was really taken aback. After struggling for a long time, he finally asked: "Ah Chu, you... are you really interested in girls?" Didn't feel it? Or just like everyone else, wanting to change things?"

In fact, many children from rich families in front of them also liked this kind of gameplay. However, compared with those who were cold and unscrupulous, he and Xu Cheng could be regarded as having a sense of proportion.

"I really don't feel it." Lu Chuxiu told the truth.

Xu Cheng didn't give up: "I remember you used to go to the venue to see girls."

Lu Chuxiu also said without concealment: "Pretending, but I can't get tough."

Xu Cheng didn't speak for a while, and then looked at him with a complicated expression after a long time.Lu Chuxiu said: "I just want to make it clear to you today. After all, we will stay together for a long time in the future. However, if you can't accept it, I have nothing to say if you don't want to be brothers with me anymore."

"Ah Chu, we have been together since childhood, I have never seen anything wrong with you, even if you like men, I will not break up with you!" Xu Cheng said to him with a smile.

"That's good." Lu Chuxiu breathed a sigh of relief, Xu Cheng is his best friend, and it's easier for him to talk to him.

"Oh, it's a pity that our country doesn't have the regulations for two men to get married. It's probably troublesome to have children. Besides, it's not easy to find a boy who is a good match for you. Brother, I'm worried for you!" Xu Cheng said melancholy, faintly The eyebrows are all tangled together!

"Marriage will still be concluded, and children will be born." Lu Chuxiu said calmly.

"What do you mean, you...?"

"It doesn't matter, doesn't it? I have enough time in high school and college to live as a comrade for seven years. When I take over the family business, I will turn back to the normal Lu Chuxiu. No one will know that I used to be gay." He's a gay, so what if he knows, what they recognize is strength, the position of the helm of the Lu family." When Lu Chuxiu said this, he kept looking at the mountains in the distance of the playground, although his eyes were hazy with firmness and maturity, but Xu Cheng could still hear a hint of sadness and helplessness.

"If you still want to get married, but if you don't have feelings for girls, how will you live together in the future?" Xu Cheng asked worriedly, he was at a loss when he thought of Lu Chuxiu's future.

At that time, no matter how young and mature, he was just a child after all, but he was pure and sincere in thinking about his brother's happiness.

"Which aspect are you referring to?" Lu Chuxiu asked intentionally, looking at Xu Cheng narrowly.

"You bastard!" Xu Cheng tilted his head and slapped him.

Lu Chuxiu hid and smiled and said, "You haven't become a revolutionary cadre yet, why do you sound like a veteran cadre? Are you from the same generation?"

"Fuck off! Say it quickly!" Xu Cheng was embarrassed by what he said.

Lu Chuxiu calmed down, and said indifferently: "Physically, there are many cheats for this method, let alone this. As for spiritual compatibility, I don't expect it. Even if I am not gay, marriage may not be the master. So, this There is no difference at all, a man is still a hero in the business field, and when I conquer my business empire, do you think I will be happy?" Lu Chuxiu finally left Xu Cheng with a complacent and smug expression.Even after 14 years, Xu Cheng never forgot the fearless and vigorous immature face when he was young.

However, when Lu Chuxiu built his business empire 14 years later, he said to Xu Cheng, "I regret it."

I regret.For the first time, he admitted his ignorance back then and the guilt in his heart.And this kind of remorse has been tormenting him non-stop during the past three years. The fragments of life in the past nine years are like a reincarnation and gift of life, but he is dissatisfied and discards them like shoes.Now, the joy at that time was as dazzling as a slap in the face that woke him up severely.

When Gu Chen locked the door, it was already dark, and the weather in early October turned cold quickly. He quickly felt the chill while riding the bike, so he quickly accelerated his feet.

Although S City is full of high-rise buildings and prosperous shops, it was still a ruined scene in 1996. Some small businesses, private newspaper offices, and old furniture factories settled down in some remote suburbs, and the small alleys and small alleys further away It is the settlements of row upon row of workers, farmers, and migrant households. Although the environment is worse, the rent is cheap, and the normal turnover of life will not be affected at least.Therefore, it has become the best choice for many people who live at the bottom of their lives.

Gu Chen and Yu Min lived here. Yu Min was a colleague of Gu Chen's mother and a reporter for a newspaper here. In fact, when Gu Chen's mother Gu Weishuang first came to S City, she did find a very good one with her university graduation status. However, after giving birth to Gu Chen, there was a lot of rumors about the unmarried pregnancy in the agency, so she finally resigned and came to work in a newspaper office in such a remote area. People ridicule things, and troubles in life come one after another, no matter how arrogant Gu Weishuang is, he has to compromise with life.

Yu Min was the most simple and honest man among all the people she knew. His wife died and he lived alone as a widow.But he is humble, even when she said to him: "I don't love you." That man just smiled softly and said: "I know, but you still have Xiaochen." , but you must not let your children have no household registration and be cast aside by others.But she, Gu Weishuang, is definitely not someone who uses men to live her life. She made it clear when she chose Yu Min. It's just that this man is too kind. He devoted his whole life to this mother and son. Gu Chen was raised by him alone, but he never let him call himself "Dad", but he gave Gu Weishuang the absolute right to choose independently!Sometimes, it is not a good thing for people to live too clearly!

However, I have to thank these two great people for giving Gu Chen a complete childhood.The time when they lived together was the happiest time for Gu Chen.Although the newspaper office is remote, it is a decent job anyway. The two can live a better life with just enough salary. Later, the society develops too fast, the newspaper office is getting poorer, and their life is gradually stretched. Gu Chen is not unhappy, but the most terrifying thing in life is the impermanence of fate, the passing of life.These misfortunes made this poor child grow up rapidly overnight.

"Hey, Uncle Min!" Gu Chen looked at the man standing in front of the gate looking around from afar, and he parked the car in front of him panting and said, "Have you been waiting for a long time? I didn't realize it was getting dark until I came out! Just leave now..."

"It's not too late, have you packed your things? Have you got all your books?" The man in his 40s had a gentle complexion, a calm temperament, and the temperament of a scholar.

"It's all packed, and I can go to class tomorrow." Gu Chen said with a smile, with a childlike look on his unopened face.

"That's good, come on, I'll take you today, I'm tired from riding for a long time." Yu Min put her bag in the car basket and got on the car first.

Gu Chen immediately sat on the back seat. He was really tired from riding for a long time. Yu Min was of medium build and slightly thin.Normally, it would not be too difficult for Gu Chen to lead him.Along the way, the two chatted and chatted and then went home. They lived in the house left by Yu Min's parents. The house was closer to the newspaper office, and the security environment was cleaner.The house was originally a one-story house, and the warehouse on the left had only four rooms. Yu Min rented out the warehouse, and the remaining three rooms, a kitchen, a bedroom, and a bathroom were just enough.When Gu Chen was still young, he built another room on top of the house. Gu Weishuang, who lived for Gu Chen's mother and son at that time, left and let Gu Chen live alone. After all, the child had reached puberty.The house is not big enough to live in, and the stairs are built outside for easy access.Usually, Gu Chen eats and takes a shower at Yu Min's place, and goes to his room to do his homework.

"You go back first, I'll go buy some food, there should be nothing in the refrigerator." When he was almost at the door, Yu Min remembered that Gu Chen had been patronizing Gu Chen to go to school for the past two days, and there was no food at home.

"Oh, then I'll go back first, Uncle Min, slow down on your way!" Gu Chen jumped out of the car, took Yu Min's bag and walked back first.

It was almost completely dark, and from time to time on the road, you could hear the collision of shovels and pots when cooking, and the rough voices of men who had just got off work shouting for food in the distance. In the chaos and noise as usual, The deep "Xiaochen" seemed special and harsh.

After hearing this, Gu Chen's body suddenly froze, and when he turned his head and saw the tall man in a well-dressed suit, his face instantly became very ugly.