Ambiguous addiction

His nose was blocked, so he could only breathe through his mouth. Ye Xi got up from the bed and touched the bedside lamp, got up and went out to find cold medicine.

This medicine took three pills at a time, every time he either poured too much or poured too little, this time when he shook the medicine bottle, half of the medicine came out in an instant and a few pills spilled on the ground, he was so irritable that he almost poured the whole bottle of medicine They all fell to the ground, but they held back. If the pills rolled everywhere, Lu Churan would definitely be angry.

Will Lu Churan still be angry with himself, or will he ignore him at all and treat him as if he doesn't exist? When will he come back? He will definitely come back. After all, this is his home, as long as he stays here and doesn't leave, he will definitely be able to wait he comes back.

Ye Xi put the extra medicine back one by one, vaguely whimsical, although cold medicine also has a sleeping effect, but it seems that he has never heard of someone who committed suicide by taking cold medicine, and heard of people who committed suicide by taking sleeping pills Convulsions and foaming before death, that would ruin the image, and if you can't die, you will be sent to gastric lavage, it hurts to think about it... Even if you die, you have to find an elegant and decent way to die, alive Time is useless enough that death can't seem so useless.

Because he was very hungry and had no appetite to eat, after taking cold medicine, he took a stomach medicine and a painkiller, and then went back to bed to sleep. His mobile phone had long been dead and was left on the bedside table On the morning, no one disturbed me and slept until twelve o'clock at noon the next day.

Probably because of crying too much, Ye Xi's face was swollen when he woke up, especially his eyes, the good-looking outer double eyelids were swollen into stupid-looking swollen single eyelids.

After he made a cup of black coffee and drank it to reduce the swelling, he looked haggard again. At first glance, he looked like a starving malnourished person, and the previous painkillers had expired and he started to have stomach pains, so he went back to the website again. One stomach medicine and one painkiller were swallowed.

I tell too many lies, and when I tell the truth, others will not believe it. A three-year-old child can understand the story of the wolf coming, but he makes the same mistakes again and again. There is no way, who made himself an uneducated child.

Even if Lu Churan still chooses to believe in him this time, so what can he do? Even if Qi Nian doesn't come to expose his hypocrisy, he will soon be compared to other normal people.

Lu Churan is so smart, so he naturally knows that he deserves better, and he can continue to lie in the mud by himself. No one will love him, and there will never be one in his life. Only when he is alone can he have his share. .

If Lu Churan wanted to love others, would he be able to live alone until he died?

At three o'clock in the afternoon, the warm afternoon sun penetrated into the room obliquely, forming reflections on the floor.

Ye Xi suddenly heard a knock on the door, jumped up from the sofa and walked to open the door in a hurry, but was dizzy because of the lack of blood supply to his head after sitting for too long, and almost tripped over the coffee table because his legs were weak.

He opened the door and looked at the people outside with wide eyes, not knowing what expression to make on his face.

"Brother Ye Xi, how are you... how are you?" Lu Yage was obviously stunned for two seconds when he saw him, and then burst into a warm smile, which was almost the same as the smile on Lu Churan's usual face , He couldn't help being in a trance when he saw it.

Ye Xi didn't answer, and turned sideways to let Lu Yage in.

He didn't know what to answer, "Not good", usually people who say bad when others say hello are expressing that they need to talk, but he doesn't want to talk about anything.But did he say "okay", did he lie to others at such a time, so in the end he didn't say anything.

Lu Yage sat on the sofa, took the water Ye Xi handed over, said "thank you", paused for two seconds, then looked into Ye Xi's eyes hesitantly, "Uh, that... Brother Ye Xi, My brother... went to Japan, and when he came back tomorrow morning, he asked me to come up and clean it for him, and he really didn't leave me the key so he asked me to clean it, luckily you are at home... Haha."

Ye Xi's lowered gaze turned up, and his eyes widened suddenly. He couldn't hide the surprise and joy in his eyes, and asked her, "Lu Churan, Ming, will you come back tomorrow? Do you mean tomorrow morning? What time is it?" arrive?"

"Well, yes." Lu Yage smiled as if he was relieved, "The plane tomorrow morning will arrive at the airport here at two o'clock in the afternoon. I heard that he will spend two more days with Brother Ji'er and the others." He came back, and then he seems to have changed his ticket."

"I, I will move out after your brother comes back." Ye Xi's high mood gradually sank, and he looked at each other a little at a loss, "Your brother, did you tell me to leave now?"

"No, how could it be? My brother let me come up without giving me the key. He must have known you were there. He didn't even tell me not to let you live. Why do you have to leave when you live well? , isn't it convenient to live here?"

Ye Xi's heart was pounding, as if it had stopped for a day and night and then came back to life. He bit his dry lower lip and shook his head without speaking.

Lu Yage couldn't wait for his response, so he talked about other things, "Well, I fell in love recently. I went to dinner with my boyfriend one day, and met the man who had an affair with me before, and then he fell in love with me that night. Posted a pure text circle of friends that only I can see, saying that I’m sorry for hiding a lot of things from me, he likes me with all his heart but can’t give me fair treatment, he blames himself, hopes that I can get happiness and allows him to miss me from time to time, In the end, he said that if he likes me in the next life, I can be his girlfriend... Then I was very flustered after watching it."

"What are you panicking about? Think about it. At this point, this man would rather post this kind of wretched Moments than openly explain it to his girlfriend and then stay with you. He still has to be indecisive. What is there for you to pity?" Ye Xiqing asked. His voice was very hoarse with a strong nasal tone, he probably had a bad cold and he hadn't spoken for a day and a night, "Men always say this to the third party, 'I can't divorce my wife'" but I really Love you''Can I marry you in my next life'."

Lu Yage's face became very embarrassed. I didn't expect Ye Xi to dismantle that man's beautifully groomed obscene behavior so straightforwardly. He nodded in silence for dozens of seconds, "Yes, no matter the reason. What is it, cheating is cheating. But I am speechless, and he also told me that I hope every time I see you is beautiful, I almost want to tell him that I am Haier."

"Pfft." Ye Xi was amused by Lu Yage, his eyes were so smiley, "Is it really okay for you to say that you are Haier, that's a couple of same-sex cp, and they hug each other without clothes all day long. "

Seeing that he finally looked like he was smiling, Lu Yage heaved a sigh of relief, and laughed for a while, then his expression tightened, "Actually, that was all before, and he told me something even worse later, Said that he wanted to disappear because he loved me, and said that if I didn't want him to disappear, he would always be there. This is really... Is he going to take an automatic backup? I'm a girl with a boyfriend, who does he think Are they all as dishonest as him?"

Ye Xi's face changed, and his eyes were a little distracted. He also said such words before when he was ambiguous with others and made others tempted and wanted to withdraw. He was ambiguous. He pondered for a few seconds and replied, "A man would say The words that please you are just that he is mature and smooth, but it does not necessarily mean that he loves you. The more calmly he can please you, the more it means that you are easy to deal with in his heart, and you have been considered by him almost thoroughly. Know what you like to hear and say it to you on purpose. If he really loves you, he will be a bit unscrupulous and naive, because it is actually a bit embarrassing to express his true and unmodified emotions, and he often feels that he has not done enough Not good enough, worrying about gains and losses..."

I do the same with your brother.

"...You say this kind of man is so mean. When I talked to him, he told me that he couldn't let go of the past. When I ignored him, he came to love me again. He loved me so much that he was ashamed and hoped to disappear in front of me. And I hope I can't bear him to disappear." Lu Yage smiled wryly.

Ye Xi's face turned red inexplicably, as if he had been slapped twice, it was so hot that Lu Yage's words seemed to slap him in the face, no, it wasn't Lu Yage's words at all, it was his own words from before. All kinds of actions are slapping myself in the face.

That's right, people like him are so cheap, others are so disappointed that they can't bear it, so they die shamelessly and want to say that they like to talk about love. Why do you think you deserve to be forgiven?

Normal people will ignore him as I persuaded Lu Yage, see his cheap and ridiculous tricks clearly, stay away from him, and don't accompany him to be cheap, why do the cheap people become themselves and hope to be understood and trusted ?

Lu Yage saw Ye Xi's face turned strange again, thought for a while, and asked him tremblingly, "Brother Ye Xi, my brother...is he treating you badly?"

"No!" Ye Xi replied a little excitedly, repeating it several times as if someone had pressed the replay button, "No no no no."

Lu Yage nodded reassuringly, "Well, I don't think he is this kind of person either. He is just not used to expressing things and likes to keep things in his heart. He can't say nice things, but he won't treat people badly. of."

"He is very good to me, I am sorry for him."

"Don't say such things, you are very good to him, I can tell." Lu Yage smiled at him and comforted him, "Actually, my brother is rarely angry with anyone, so if you are He scolded, which means he cares about you very much. Oh, it seems that I am shameless to explain to him like this?"

Ye Xi lowered his eyes and said nothing, Lu Yage scratched his hair embarrassingly, looking a little cute, "But if I don't speak for him, no one will speak for him. You also know that he is not good at defending himself. He just watched It’s just mature, and there’s a shy and timid child living in my heart.”

"Brother Ye Xi," Lu Yage called him, and when he looked over, he put on a very solemn tone, "Even if you still don't believe my brother, it's fine if you still don't like him in your heart. Just take it as a lie to him, at least give him a little hope, let him feel that his unrequited love for you may have results, and he will be able to persevere."

Ye Xi's eyes suddenly turned red, and Lu Yage also felt his throat tighten, "Please, love him a little bit, don't make him too sad."

When Ye Xi sent Lu Yage to the station, it was already 04:30 in the afternoon, the kindergarten was on holiday on Saturday, and the afternoon without "Tomorrow Will Be Better" at 04:30 seemed lonely and quiet.

Ye Xi let out a long sigh, rubbed the corners of his eyes that were reddened by the wind, he didn't even know that tomorrow will be better, maybe tomorrow won't be better.

Tomorrow the owner of the house he lives in will come back, and then kick out this bad guy who hates him by living in his own house, and he will become a truly homeless and helpless person.

But as long as he can be a little bit happier, it doesn't matter what I do.

Lu Yage waited until the bus drove away before he dared to take out his mobile phone, and dialed Lu Churan's phone number in Japan, what are you cleaning, brother Ye Xi has made the house clean, so why do you need to clean it? It wasn't that Lu Churan called in the middle of the night last night and asked her to come over after school to see how Ye Xi's brother was doing, and to talk to him so that he wouldn't be alone at home thinking about it.

Lu Churan quickly answered the phone, "How is it?"

"Brother, I came to see my sister-in-law as you ordered. He is fine, but he looks worse than left-behind children."

"Why are you calling me so affectionate? I didn't forgive him..." Lu Churan's tone was cold, and after a pause, he asked again, "Did you tell him that I will be back tomorrow morning?"

Lu Yage gritted his teeth and snorted, "I said it, you can say it yourself if you have the ability, a pair of arrogant dog and man!"