Ambiguous addiction

The two stopped and went, talking and embracing at times. The short distance walked for half an hour, but it didn't feel long at all.

Lu Churan finally understands now that Ye Xi doesn't believe in love because of his past experiences, and he is powerless to change these experiences across history.

He knows that he probably won't get it, and he doesn't want to force it, but just let it go, so what he wants but can't get can only be given by himself, so there will be no regrets.

If you can’t like it, I don’t like it. It’s okay to stay here and accept my likes, right?

"I'll close the window for you, you go back and take a shower first." Lu Churan pressed the floor of Ye Xi's house and the floor of her own house.

Ye Xi shook his head, and followed behind him thoughtfully, "I'll just shut it down by myself, and I'll find some work materials that I need tomorrow, and you go back first."

"En." Lu Churan responded, the elevator door opened, and Ye Xi walked out alone.

He closed all the windows at home, went to the locker in the room to find all the customer information of his latest investment project, and found out the real estate certificate, and then sat on his smoky gray sofa in a daze .

Lu Churan left his side, and the grayness/emotions he had been full of finally couldn't bear it and dripped down, like a critically ill patient who was pulled out of the ventilator, and began to gasp in pain.

The more he thinks about it, the more afraid he is. He must be responsible for the loopholes in his project. It should be too late to get all the cash out as soon as the market opens tomorrow morning before the stock starts to plummet. After returning it back, Lu Churan's 120 million yuan may still be lost for no apparent reason because of him, even if it is conservatively estimated, it will be as much as 40 million yuan.

There is no one in this world who can treat him better than Lu Churan. He hopes that he can do something to make Lu Churan look happy. He is indeed a child with no parents and no love, so he doesn't believe it. He can't learn how to love others, and no one has ever felt happy because of him.

He is like a person who has been asleep for too long, and when he wakes up, he finds himself in the middle of a vast ocean, not knowing where to swim to reach the shore.

He used to be ambiguous with all kinds of people. Those people might say to him in bed, more, not enough, I like it very much, hurry up, go deeper, fuck me to death, but that's all routine, anyone can change it Said, it's not really because he is Ye Xi that he is particularly happy.

They are them when they are by Ye Xi's side, and they are no different from others when they return to the crowd, but Lu Churan is different, even if Lu Churan is far away from him, even if he is swallowed in the vast crowd, he will still It is Lu Churan, the North Star in the night sky that guides his way home, he is unique, unique, unique in the world.

Ye Xi stretched out his hand and rubbed his eyes, sat quietly for a while, then got up, turned off the lights, locked the door and went back to Lu Churan's house.

Lu Churan sat on the sofa and drank hot milk, and asked Ye Xi why it took so long to come up. Ye Xi didn't answer him, he had already packed Ye Xi's pajamas and towels, and told him to take a bath quickly. Ye Xi twitched the corners of his mouth when he came out to drink some honey water to soothe the wine, nodded, took the things and went.

Lu Churan sensed that Ye Xi's mood was a bit out of place. Before downstairs, he was smiling cheerfully and warmly, but now his eyes gradually lost the smile, just like when they first met, with a very pale smile on his face. The smile, but the eyes are clear and cold without any real meaning.

The warm water flowed down from the top of the head along the line of the body, and made a crisp sound when it fell on the tiles on the ground.

Up to now, Ye Xi had to admit to himself that the contest between him and Lu Churan ended in his complete defeat, but he did not lose to Lu Churan, but to himself, and then surrendered to him willingly.

Ye Xi used to be most afraid of others being tempted by him. Obviously, the beautiful and ambiguous relationship will turn into a relationship that is owed and repaid at the moment of being tempted. He doesn't have so many wasteful feelings in his heart to repay others, but this time Lu Churan hasn't asked yet. If he wanted it, he had already opened his chest and wanted to give it to him, and then he suddenly realized that he had nothing and what he could give him.

Nothing can be given.

Some things, such as material things, such as money, and even such as caring, are repayable. Once they come and go, everyone will be evened out and will not default on each other.

But feelings are not enough, if Lu Churan really likes him that much, he is even ashamed to stay by his side, because he is still cheating him of money.

Ye Xi was thinking, if he had never been close to such a clean person, he would not have known how dirty he was.

The bad things have been done, and it seems irreparable, but he wants to make up for it, and he wants to give Lu Churan back at least a little bit of good thoughts.

After all, what can I give him? What he wants is himself, so, should I promise him with my body?

Since he wants me, let him give it to him as soon as possible. As long as he doesn't think it's a waste to get me, then I'm fine.

Ye Xi came out of the bathroom covered in steam, sat next to Lu Churan, and took the honey water that he had already mixed. The pale yellow warm water left a mild sweet taste in his mouth.

He struggled in his heart for tens of seconds, his palms sweated from nervousness, and blood rushed to his forehead accompanied by alcohol, his face was flushed, and he asked hesitantly, "Lu Churan, you, do you really believe this?" Is that kind of thing? You meet someone, there is something called 'love' between you, and then you decide that he is someone worth staying with you for the rest of your life."

"I have no doubts." Lu Churan looked into his eyes with a firm tone.

Ye Xi's expression seemed to be about to cry, a little desperate and sighing, "You are too simple, you have never been deceived by a man, you don't know that some people in this world may deceive you."

"You speak like I'm your distant cousin. I'm also a man, and I'm three years older than you. I can tell if you're lying to me." Lu Churan smiled and shook his hand In the palm of my hand.

Ye Xi sneered, without irony, but rather a sigh, with a soft tone, "Do you know me well? How do you know that I won't lie to you? You've only known me for a few months, so how much do you know about me?" ?”

Only that which has been tamed can be understood.But I feel that we have tamed each other.

"I don't know you well, and I don't know if you will lie to me, but I am willing to trust you, as if you can entrust your trust to me." Lu Churan stroked his hair, and looked at him patiently and gently. He said, "If you want me to understand, I will understand you. If you want to be honest with me, I will listen to you."

Ye Xi read understanding from Lu Churan's eyes, as if saying to him, it doesn't matter if you don't believe in love, you believe in me, I believe in love, it doesn't matter if you don't have a heart, you take my heart away, I You Xin, although it may not have much temperature, but I just want to give it to you.

Ye Xi was still smiling, as always, but tears welled up in his eyes.

Lu Churan was startled, not knowing what he said wrong, he took his hand and got up, tightened him in his arms, and asked him nervously, "What's wrong? What happened?"

Shame, remorse, embarrassment, these things entangled Ye Xi silently, about to suffocate him.

It was the first time in Ye Xi's life that he wanted to go his own way so much, he didn't care about the audience's feelings and thoughts, he didn't play any pleasing roles, and he didn't violate the darkness in his heart. Even with his eyes closed, he knew how ugly he was now. "Lu Churan, you are so kind to me, you may regret it."

"I won't regret it in the future, it's not up to you," Lu Churan didn't mean to give in at all, "I will have the ability not to let myself regret it."

After the words were finished, the lips of the two touched, and it was unknown who initiated it first, anyway, they kissed eagerly, their lips and tongues were tightly attached to each other, vying for each other's breath.

There were still wet tears on Ye Xi's face. He was gasping for breath, his whole body became sensitive to Lu Churan's movements. When Lu Churan pushed his clothes up, he grabbed Lu Churan's waist. Help him take off his clothes.

Lu Churan was stunned for a moment, his eyes almost burst into flames, and eagerly called out his name in a low voice, "Ye Xi..."

Ye Xi replaced his answer with a deep kiss, and in the blink of an eye, he and Lu Churan tossed onto the bed.

I don't know if it's because his drunkenness hasn't dissipated or because Lu Churan is so sexy. Ye Xi's body is burning hot. Although it's the first time he's down here, he doesn't struggle at all, it seems to be a natural thing. , he just wanted to lie under Lu Churan's body and get his hugs and kisses.

Ye Xi stared at Lu Churan's pupils, and waited meekly for his action. The corners of his eyes were pink, and he licked his lips with the tip of his tongue, leaving a layer of seductive water, trying to mobilize Lu Churan with shameful words. Chu Ran's emotion, "This is the first time for me, you should be nicer to me."

Lu Churan's kiss was a little confused at first, but after hearing this, he suddenly stopped, and looked at him calmly, "Wait, it's your first time, I have no preparation here, so you can't do it like this." It's safe, forget it."

Ye Xi suddenly felt a ball of anger stuck in his chest, he grabbed Lu Churan by the collar suddenly to prevent him from getting up, his cheeks flushed from shame, and his eyes were fixed on Lu Churan, "Don't move."

He was about to die of anger, what do you mean forget it?Did you tell me to forget it after you took off your pants?Want to let go of the teasing?Who the hell did you learn this from?

"Don't talk nonsense, just do what you want," Ye Xi's breathing was a little short, he hooked Lu Churan's neck and raised his head to bite, unreasonably tore off Lu Churan's clothes and threw him off the bed, "I didn't If you say no, I will change places with you if you drag on any longer."

Lu Churan couldn't help laughing, fascinated by Ye Xi's impatient appearance, and responded to him without haste.

His movements were very gentle, he hugged Ye Xi in his arms and kept kissing, every kiss was full of love, the eyes that looked at him almost took his soul away.

Ye Xi didn't know why those people shouted so loudly before, anyway, he himself was too embarrassed to shout out, he bit his lip and waited for the initial pain to dissipate, and then the tide-like pleasure submerged him layer upon layer.

Ye Xi felt his throat was itchy, but he still endured it and didn't make a sound. Lu Churan didn't care if there was any sound, because just Ye Xi's chaotic breathing rhythm and weak humming made him so excited that he couldn't help himself.

He really delivered, and Lu Churan really accepted it, and he showed a happy expression as he wished. Tears flowed from the corners of his eyes, and Lu Churan kissed him.

This is the first time Ye Xi has been down below. When it was over, the bottom was sore and swollen, and his legs were numb and trembling. Lu Churan got up from him and left for a while. , and bent down to touch his hair and kiss his face.

Ye Xi thought that Lu Churan still wanted it, and he was too embarrassed to refuse to provoke him so thoroughly, so he took the initiative to wrap his legs around Lu Churan's waist again.

Unexpectedly, Lu Churan picked him up by supporting his waist, and walked towards the bathroom. He hugged Lu Churan back nervously, and asked hoarsely, "Do you want to do it in the bathroom?"

Lu Churan had an expression of not being able to understand what he was talking about, and frowned and asked, "What are you doing? Didn't you do it before? It's very late, you can only go to bed after cleaning up, otherwise it will be bad for you."

He blocked the rest of Ye Xi's words with one sentence, he really wanted to hold Lu Churan's face and ask, are you so reluctant to have sex with me?It's fine if you're pure and unpretentious, why stop others from being a coquettish bitch?

A soft towel was spread on the sink in the bathroom. Lu Churan carefully placed Ye Xi on it, asked him to lean back a little, and carefully cleaned and applied medicine to him with his fingers.

Ye Xi was so ashamed that he didn't want to be a human being. He looked up at the warm yellow light in the bathroom and bit his lower lip.

For a moment, Lu Churan didn't know where he pressed it. Ye Xi shuddered all over, and a strange sound came out of his mouth. His cheeks burned and he quickly covered his mouth with his hands.

Lu Churan looked up at him, "So uncomfortable?"

Ye Xi shook his head vigorously, and groaned, "Just lightly, just lightly."

Lu Churan lowered his head again. Ye Xi's shameful heart went into debt when his legs were separated, so he can already become calm in this situation.

He reached out to touch Lu Churan's hair, and combed his thick hair with his fingertips until Lu Churan hugged him again.

Lu Churan hugged Ye Xi, carried him back to the bed, stroked his back along his spine, stroked him like a dog's hair, Ye Xi arched in his arms, and called his name, "Lu Chu Ran."

"Huh?" Lu Churan's voice was right next to his ear, and his fiery breath caressed the thin hair on his ear.

"Lu Churan, do you like me?"

Ye Xi had never asked anyone this question before, because he didn't care about other people's answers, he didn't care whether there was an answer to this question, but now he couldn't help it. He couldn't help it in front of Lu Churan. Crazy, his heartbeat began to vibrate like a nerve again.

"I like you." Lu Churan said.

"Then don't go to my house to open windows for me again." Ye Xi said, the preface was inconsistent.

"Huh? Have you decided to live with me from now on?" Lu Churan looked at him tenderly, yawned lazily, and wrapped his arms around his waist in an extremely comfortable way.

Ye Xi kissed his Adam's apple, but did not answer.