Ambiguous addiction

Lu Churan felt that Ye Xi liked her, but this kind of love couldn't withstand being touched, and even a glance would hurt her, so she could only hide in the dark to spy a corner.

When the two lips parted, the two were still hugging, but Lu Churan felt Ye Xi trembling. He didn't know whether it was fear or nervousness, but trembling in such a safe movement of hugging must have felt extremely uneasy.

Ye Xi's aura has never been so weak, and the frivolity and arrogance of him who are easy to do a job and have a chance to win seem to be completely shattered.

Lu Churan didn't know why he was like this, he felt a little distressed, but he knew that he couldn't ask, he could hug and kiss, but he couldn't look or ask.

Ye Xi still hugged him tightly in a state of extreme uneasiness, it was already very difficult, if he asked one more question, Ye Xi would have to leave, he would rather choose not to know anything than let him go.

He is a timid little animal, as long as he doesn't talk about his feelings, as long as he doesn't question his heart, he won't lose control and run away.

Lu Churan's eyes gradually got used to the darkness, he touched the single sofa in the living room half by feeling and sat down, pulled Ye Xi's wrist and also sat down, hugging him vaguely, letting his chest rest on his chest. with his own back.

Sitting on his lap, Ye Xi appeared to be a little taller than him. When he turned his face to talk to Lu Churan, the tip of his ear accidentally touched his soft and hot lips, and it became a little hot.

Ye Xi felt a little itchy, flinched slightly unnaturally, turned around and stretched out his arms to hug Lu Churan's neck, pressed against his forehead and murmured hesitantly, "You...do you miss me?"

"Think." Lu Churan replied honestly, he could still feel the warmth of the smile in Ye Xi's eyes in the gloom.

Ye Xi leaned his head against his face and felt the warmth of Lu Churan's hand touching his face. He felt as if he was in the dark, embracing the light.

Can you just look at me, don't be alone with other people, don't eat what people share with you, don't tempt people.

But he couldn't say a word of these words, these words were stuck in his heart and he was about to collapse, he was about to shed tears, but he just couldn't say a word, because they were too true, he knew lies well, But can not bear the truth.

So Ye Xi felt aggrieved the moment he spoke, he sighed heavily, like a child who can't get a candy back for all the toys, "Don't ignore me."

"Okay." Lu Churan still only had one word, but Ye Xi's trembling gradually subsided after this simple word.

Ye Xi hugged Lu Churan in this posture of rubbing ears and temples, and his voice was slightly nasal, "I now feel that I may not be as bad as I thought."

"why?"

"You are so clean, and you are still willing to hug me, who smells like alcohol, not because I want you to hug me selfishly, but because you are willing to treat me well, so I may have done something amazing."

Lu Churan was amused by this childish words, reached out to rub the back of his head, and asked him softly, "Your complexion has changed a lot, have you eaten well these days?"

Ye Xi nodded, shook his head again, and curled his lips. The rotten mood that had grown and withered in the past half a month surged and disappeared, "Eating fast food or going to restaurants outside is boring. The fast food restaurants near the company I ate it again, it was salty and oily, and MSG was added. Every day, it was either roast meat or meatloaf rice. There was no root vegetable. I always served it with leeks, or enoki mushrooms. Anyway, they are from the seeyoutomorrow family. .I have eaten a box of stomach medicine in two weeks.”

While Ye Xi was speaking, Lu Churan quietly pulled out his shirt from the waistband of his trousers, picked up the hem of the shirt and reached in from below, touching his belly.

Ye Xi was frightened, swallowed his saliva, subconsciously tensed up nervously, faint lines of abdominal muscles appeared on the flat abdomen.

Lu Churan frowned, and ordered in a dissatisfied tone, "Relax, it's not like I don't want to touch your abdominal muscles."

When Ye Xi thought about it, this was the first time he was coaxed and relaxed by a big man in his arms when he grew up. He used to coax others like this, so he felt a little embarrassed for a moment, his cheeks were hot, but he still listened to the words and relaxed. , leaning docilely in Lu Churan's arms and letting him move, his heart beating in his chest.

Lu Churan put his hand on his belly and rubbed it lightly, the warmth of his palm was ironing the skin of his belly, his fingertips were as gentle as touching some fragile wound, without any erotic meaning, just very Pure love.

Ye Xi felt that he must be like a dog lying on his back with his belly rubbed at this moment. Fortunately, the power went out and it was pitch black and he couldn't see clearly, otherwise his face would be red and bleeding.

He has never felt so at ease in the dark except for sleeping, and it seems that the darkness has swallowed his shame bit by bit. No matter what he thinks, says, or does, he doesn't feel so embarrassed. Usually, he needs to summon up courage to The true emotions expressed can also be retracted freely.

Ye Xi felt that something was wrong with him, but he couldn't tell exactly what was wrong, as if everything was wrong.

Because now he wished he could go back to kindergarten immediately, and then pointed to the nose of the fat little idiot who said he had no father, no mother, and no love, and said, "Did you see my brother Lu! I am also loved by someone! "

Didn't everyone say that being with mature people will make you mature? Why do you become more and more naive after you stick to someone who is more mature than yourself? Your mind tends to return to five years old, and it can't be any higher.

Ye Xi secretly smiled contentedly, but Lu Churan felt a little uncomfortable, his palm lingered on the spot on Ye Xi's stomach, and asked him, "Why do you get stomach pains so easily?"

"When I was growing up, I was always hungry and developed gastritis. When I found out, it has become chronic." Ye Xi said, "My uncle withheld the money my grandfather gave me, and spent some of the tuition and miscellaneous expenses. Part of the homeroom teacher pays for my boarding expenses, and the rest is used for my living expenses, but it is not enough at all. Usually I can only save enough money for breakfast on the third day after being hungry for two days. It was better in elementary school, because the school provides lunch between classes , but after junior high school, you have to endure five classes until lunch time without breakfast, and you can only grit your teeth and endure it when you are hungry and dizzy. You can’t fall down like a little girl. Ugly."

Lu Churan listened silently, her breathing became slow, as if her heart would start to throb if she breathed hard.

Although the person in his arms is a bit perverse and eccentric now, on the surface he is intimate with others and keeps a distance in private, but at that time he was still an ignorant child, with unknown curiosity and kindness towards this huge world, so he would not be caught Treating him so harshly, pouring sophistication and reality into an age he shouldn't have to bear.

"What do you want to eat, I'll make it for you." Lu Churan kissed his lips lightly.

After being compensated, Ye Xi's emotions began to rise, and he replied without hesitation, "Steam egg custard."

"...I'm very afraid that you will be abducted by bad guys with a bowl of steamed custard when you go outside." Lu Churan withdrew her hands from the bottom of her clothes, hugged the person in her arms tightly, and felt Ye Xi squeeze the hot little She rubbed her face against the side of his neck.

"Hahaha, then you have to steam the fish. You have to cut the scallion leaves into very thin shreds and put ginger shreds in it to steam together. It's delicious when dipped in soy sauce with fish flavor. Don't put onions, because eating onions will cause bad breath. I want to eat steamed pork belly with black bean sauce, boiled okra, and clam tofu soup, oh, and the cheesecake you made." Ye Xi buried his face in Lu Churan's neck and whispered his request, Lu Churan Ran's tone was as if no matter what he said was not an exaggeration, he instantly indulged in this feeling of being cherished.

"These are the things you like to eat?" Lu Churan's leg was a little numb from him, so he helped him up and sat in another place, raised his hand to touch his face, and felt his eyelashes brushing against his fingers "Speaking of which, I've known you for so long and we haven't gotten to know each other yet."

"Aren't you not too concerned about things that have nothing to do with you? You don't even ask me. I have nothing to say." When Ye Xi changed his sitting position, intentionally or unintentionally, he pressed the part half against himself After a while, he bit his lower lip and smiled secretly, "Then how do you want to know?"

Lu Churan clicked his tongue, "Do you know me very well? Can someone who has never been in love stop being so sensual/lustful with yellow accents? Can he blush when he touches his little hands purely?"

Ye Xi was so hurt by him that his heart was in full bloom, and his words were full of lingering smiles, "You were the one who reacted first."

"You've been touching me while you're sitting here, isn't it weird that you don't respond?" Lu Churan paused, and then said, "It doesn't mean that I think so."

"..." Ye Xi was a little hurt when he heard this answer. He had been ambiguous with so many people before, and no matter whether he ended up in bed or not, he had never heard anyone who said he didn't want to have sex with him. The self-awareness that has always been subverted.

Seeing that he didn't say a word, Lu Churan touched his face again, and he kissed his palm, "Then when will you be able to stay at home for dinner?"

"It's fine today. I'm done with my work and I can go back to my usual schedule. Will you cook for me every day? When did you learn to cook? Why do you know how to make cakes? Why are you so good? I Every time I cook, I am afraid that if I am not careful, I will poison myself, and when I fry a poached egg, the oil will splash on the back of my hand and blister."

"When I lived abroad, I realized that I could only rely on myself, so I learned how to do everything."

Ye Xi hooked Lu Churan's neck and talked to him for a while, feeling his breath approaching her again while she was talking, and when she was waiting for his kiss with her eyes closed, the electricity was suddenly turned on, and the lights in the lounge suddenly turned on rise.

Lu Churan squinted his eyes uncomfortably, the light in front of his eyes was blurred and blurred, and he couldn't open them.

In the dimness, he saw Ye Xi shrouded in a light yellow light, the shirt was rumpled in front of him, the top button of the collar was undone, exposing a bit of collarbone, it had a honey-colored luster that made people want to bite, that exquisite There was an inconspicuous blush on her face, her eyes were closed and she waited obediently and quietly for her kiss, and there was a vague expectation between her stretched thick eyebrows.

It was a picture that he couldn't complete with his imagination alone in the long darkness, which made his heart beat out of rhythm in an instant.

What is that like, like a baby waiting to be loved.