Ambiguous addiction

The only way to get tridofemptionistoyieldtoit. –OscarWilde

The only way to get rid of temptation is to give in to temptation. — Oscar Wilde

Ye Xi was sleepy and tired at first, but after secretly kissing Lu Churan, he suddenly woke up, vaguely thinking that he had done something strange, as if his body was completely out of control, It is also as if the body is completely controlled by the mind and is not subject to rational constraints.

Lu Churan, who is so close at hand, is a temptation to Ye Xi, and the only way to get rid of the temptation is to give in to the temptation.

But the sense of out of control of succumbing to temptation made him feel uneasy from the bottom of his heart, so uneasy that he wanted to escape the temptation at cosmic speed and return to balance.

So he moved away in embarrassment, rolled up the quilt and wriggled step by step. He felt difficult to breathe, and his face was hot. After escaping from Lu Churan's arms, he broke free from the shackles of the quilt and got out of bed.

Lu Churan opened his eyes only after hearing his footsteps moving away, his hands and feet were so numb that he almost lost consciousness, he breathed gently, looked sideways at the messy bedding with Ye Xi's residual warmth, waiting for the chaos The feeling faded away from my thoughts.

This kind of confusion is very strange, it seems to be vague and vague for a moment, leaving only a bunch of blanks, and it seems to follow the strange, familiar, mottled and vivid past like a shadow, but he can't remember where the traces of this heartbeat are in his memory.It probably never existed before, Ye Xi brought it.

Lu Churan didn't sleep well all night, and wanted to beat Ye Xi to the bottom of the bed holding back his stomach, but he raised his blood-recovered arm, touched his lips with his fingers, and somehow suddenly became angry again. I couldn't get up anymore, as if the mystery had been solved in front of me, and I fell silent when I was not confused.

Twenty minutes later, Lu Churan came out of the room as if nothing had happened, with a calm and calm expression on his face.

Lu Yage also just came out of the room, walked to him silently, leaned over and rubbed his forehead on his shoulder to say good morning, Lu Churan raised her hand and rubbed her shapeless long hair to show respond.

Ye Xi seemed to have lost his memory, and played with his mobile phone on the sofa calmly, half of his face was hidden behind the mobile phone, and he didn't even dare to glance at Lu Churan from the corner of his eyes.

Lu Churan soaked three cups of honey water and put them on the dining table, one for each person. When Ye Xi reached out to take it, Lu Churan asked him, "I'm on vacation today, and I'll give it to her when I go out to eat with Lu Yage later." Go home and go to the store in the afternoon, are you coming to see me after get off work?"

The investment project that Ye Xi was in charge of was already preparing to raise funds, and he would be too busy for the next two weeks, so the general manager specially gave him a day off, letting him rest at home to recharge his mind in advance.

He felt that he should stay away from Lu Churan before he calmed down, but Lu Churan was tempting him to approach, so there was no other way but to approach him.

Ye Xi raised his chin and looked directly into Lu Churan's eyes, then dodged away as if he was scalded, drooped his eyelashes, sipped honey water, cleared his throat, "I have nothing to do on vacation today, where are you going?" Anyone can follow you."

Before Lu Churan could see Ye Xi's eyes clearly, he turned his eyes away. Lu Churan only saw his long eyelashes drooping and fluttering slightly, leaving a small shadow in the fundus of his eyes, settling the noise The bewilderment that surfaced afterwards was hidden.

Lu Yage pursed his lips and looked back and forth between the two people in the delicate atmosphere, and poked Ye Xi enthusiastically as if he pretended not to understand anything, "Brother Ye Xi, let's go have some snacks, I saw it in the circle of friends recently There is a shop that does amazing dim sum, and there is a five-layer Napoleon cake that looks delicious."

After speaking, he excitedly called up the photo from his phone to show Ye Xi, Ye Xi nodded and smiled at her, "Okay, I invite you."

The boiling water soaked the tea leaves, which permeated the orange-yellow tea color. The water vapor curled up from the mouth of the pot like smoke, and the tea fragrance flowed in the air secretly.

"I want to eat Napoleon, shrimp dumplings, pineapple buns, chicken feet in abalone sauce, Brother Ye Xi, what do you want to eat?" Lu Yage sketched on the menu and handed it to Ye Xi.

Ye Xi glanced quickly, there was nothing he particularly liked, but there was one he was quite interested in. He pointed to a certain column of the menu and said to Lu Yage, "I want to eat this little piggy bun."

"Hahahaha I was hesitating whether to order this just now, I was afraid that my brother would call me naive with a look of contempt." After Lu Yage finished speaking, he sneaked a glance at Lu Churan.

Lu Churan drank tea silently, and looked at her with a forced smile, which meant that you knew it too.

"Childish is naive, he has a generation gap with us, don't worry about him. I saw on Weibo before that someone ate a quicksand stuffed piglet bag, pierced his nostril and squeezed it hard, as if a yellow snot was flowing all over the place, haha Haha, I don't know what the stuffing of the piggy buns is." Ye Xi licked his lower lip with a slightly excited expression.

Lu Yage laughed so hard that he couldn't help covering his mouth, "Hahaha, you have a strong taste. I admire you very much. Last time my dad actually posted that picture to our family's wechat group, and my mother complained all night. I recently And I saw lazy egg buns, that’s right, that’s the one, the chocolate sauce is squeezed out from the butt, wow, hahahaha, it’s so disgusting, I want to try it.”

After listening to her sister, Lu Churan made up the picture in her brain, her face was so painful that she couldn't look directly at it, she silently wanted to sit at the next table, and pretended not to know the two people who were eating at the same table who were already laughing so hard that they were about to collapse together .

But he couldn't help but glanced at Ye Xi. Although he loves to laugh, he is so warm that it is unreal. He seldom laughs like this without agreeing with anyone, like the sun falling from the gaps in the clouds after the clouds and rain. clean.

As soon as he looked into Ye Xi's eyes, he couldn't look into his eyes again. Ye Xi seemed to be deliberately avoiding his eyes, but whenever he felt that he was looking over, he only asked him to count his eyelashes.

Lu Yage fiddled with the Napoleon shortbread with whipped cream and fruit on the plate with a fork, watching Ye Xi poke the nostrils of the piggy bag with chopsticks, but nothing came out, a little disappointed.

"Brother Ye Xi, after listening to what you said yesterday, the more I thought about that man, the more suspicious I became. I really felt that there was something hidden about this matter, because he was really good to me. It doesn't seem like he doesn't like me, and I didn't either. So stupid that I can’t even tell if other people have feelings for me. But, he recently traveled to Japan, and it doesn’t look like he went with his family because he only sent pictures of himself, and occasionally he took two copies of food Yes, I just wonder if he actually has a girlfriend..."

"Then do you have any mutual friends with him? Did you know him before college? Actually, you can verify it. You both got admitted to this school in the same city. If you don't have a big circle, you probably know each other." Ye Xi squeezed After a long time, I became a little impatient. I tore open the piggy bag and found red bean stuffing inside.

He tore off a small corner with a little stuffing on it and tasted it. It was so sweet that his eyebrows were wrinkled. He threw it in the bowl and didn't want to eat it. He even drank a large cup of tea to wash away the sweetness in his mouth.

Lu Yage thought for a while, then hesitated to say, "It seems that there is a roommate of a friend from the same department who is a high school classmate with him. Let me ask. If someone says that he has a girlfriend, should I go to him to confirm it?"

"You don't have any evidence or evidence to deny it? What should you do? If you can, you'd better find evidence that he can't deny. But as you said, he always pretends that he is single in front of people in the university. Come to be ambiguous with you, even if there is conclusive evidence, he can pretend to be pitiful and say that he is in the wrong love, so that you are willing to save him without risking your own life. But I can also tell you that if a man can’t even choose his own love, he is half-hearted and procrastinating , then even if you save him, you will not be an exception and become his next wrong love."

Lu Yage nodded his head in complete convincing, "I've been taught, Brother Ye Xi is so amazing."

Lu Churan ate in silence without saying a word, looked at Ye Xi suspiciously, and looked at Ye Xi incomprehensibly, but his eyes fell on the piggy bun in his bowl, "You don't want to eat now?"

Ye Xi's expression was a little innocent, as if he was afraid that he would blame him, "I won't eat it, it's too sweet to eat."

"Wasting food, and saying that I'm easy to feed and not picky about what to eat." Lu Churan said to him with a bit of disgust under the corner of his mouth. Seeing that the buns hadn't been bitten by him, he picked up the buns and ate them.

Lu Yage glanced at him in a little surprise, but he didn't notice, frowned and ate the red bean piggy bun.

Ye Xi thought guiltyly, "I just said that to coax you to take me in", but it was the truth from the bottom of his heart, and it was not so easy to say it.

So he hesitated for two seconds and said ambiguously with his usual expression, "If you do it, I won't pick it."

Lu Churan didn't take it seriously, her expression was as flat as ever, she nodded and hurt him off guard, "I'll make some shit for you next time."

"..." Ye Xi turned his eyes away and curled his lips, and said to Lu Yage, "Your brother is also very harsh."

Lu Yage smiled from the corners of his eyes, showing his cute little canine teeth, thinking that you are a good match, but he smiled without saying a word.

The summer is bright and the afternoon sun is fierce and scorching.

After the three of them finished their snacks, Lu Yage didn't want to go home, but he didn't want to hang out in the sun, so he proposed to see the design exhibition of the graduates of the Academy of Fine Arts.

Lu Churan drove for an hour to the Academy of Fine Arts in the university town. Lu Yage regretted seeing the crowds outside the window and didn't want to get out of the car. It's here, so I still bite the bullet and buy tickets to enter.

The air-conditioning in the exhibition center is not enough. The sea of ​​people is full of different people's body odor and sweat smell. The heat is stuffy indoors and cannot be dissipated. The stagnant air makes it difficult to breathe.

"Brother, I want to visit the art exhibition and industrial design exhibition area. There are also underground and second floors on the first floor." Lu Yage lowered his head to study the map of the exhibition, and looked up to ask Lu Churan for his opinion.

Lu Churan nodded, stood expressionlessly at the entrance of the art exhibition and glanced at the dense crowd, feeling so uncomfortable that she couldn't speak.

Ye Xi followed Lu Churan silently, looked at Lu Churan worriedly, and fanned him with the exhibition map in his hand, "Are you okay? If you don't want to go in, you can let me know." with her."

"It's okay, let's go."

Lu Churan managed to pull himself together, the turbid smell in the air made him dare not even take a deep breath, he and Ye Xi accompanied Lu Yage, who was still barely cheerful, to see the art exhibition, and the faces of the three of them turned pale when they came out up.

Lu Churan ran to the convenience store outside the venue to buy water, and unscrewed a bottle of water for Ye Xi and Lu Yage with a wooden face for them to drink.

Lu Churan remained silent as if dead, Lu Yage could only chatter with Ye Xi non-stop, but she gradually lost her patience after being crowded, and she became depressed like a deflated ball.

The complexions of the three people became darker and darker as they walked around. Lu Churan suppressed the discomfort and walked with Lu Yage for an hour at the industrial design exhibition area that she was most interested in before she came. Finally, she couldn't hold back and took them out of the venue. Drive back to the city along the expressway to find a quiet place with few people to rest.

Ye Xi saw that Lu Churan was not feeling well, so he asked him to give him the car keys, and he drove, and then opened all the windows of the car to let the natural wind pour into the car. After a while, the feeling of lack of oxygen in the brain disappeared. Close the windows and turn on the air conditioner.

After arriving at the shopping mall in the city, Lu Yage went to the bathroom, while Lu Churan and Ye Xi waited outside.

Ye Xi felt that Lu Churan's complexion was still not very good, so he pulled him to sit on a bench for people to rest, and asked him puzzledly: "I used to think that you were a bit disinterested in the excitement, but I didn't expect you to be in a crowded place." The place will be uncomfortable like this. Why do you accompany your sister to visit the exhibition because you are afraid of crowds? Why do you force yourself to do things you know you don’t like?"

Lu Churan smiled weakly, and reached out to wipe the sweat off Ye Xi's nose, "We are family members. The family members I care about just need to spend more time and time to accompany them."

"I'm so jealous of your tone of being so big in a honey jar." Ye Xi glanced at Lu Churan, his eyes moved, and then he lowered his head and pinched the empty plastic water bottle until it crackled. Laughing, "I don't understand, because I have no family, I probably will never understand."

Children who grew up in a happy family can be clearly identified from their temperament. They can express their emotions confidently and clearly, and they can often say beautiful words such as "care and companionship". less than.

Even if you are traveling in the midst of beautiful things, you are often hesitating in your heart, thinking that you may have to pay the price of tears in the next second.

Even when he said coolly that he didn't care about other people's eyes, he still knew in his heart that it was just because no one knew about his past that he could still be a man with a thick skin, and the essence would not change.

What's so great about a person who can play with his emotions so thoroughly, it can only show how badly he has fallen, and the worse situation is that he dare not even fall like him.

Anyway, people who can encourage others can never encourage themselves, and only use reasons that they can’t comfort themselves to comfort others, everyone is like this.

"If you have somewhere you must go in the future, and you don't want to be alone, I will accompany you."

Ye Xi suddenly felt that his eyes were burning, and his heart started beating uncontrollably again. He silently turned his face away without answering.

Lu Yage came out of the bathroom and saw two men sitting on one side, one was looking at the other, and the other was looking elsewhere.

She almost forgot how long she hadn't seen this scene on Lu Churan. In the past, another person always looked at Lu Churan, but Lu Churan looked elsewhere.

The hottest time in the afternoon has passed, and after Lu Churan sent Lu Yage home, she drove Ye Xi to "tobecontinued" to find Ji Er.

Ji Er had just finished a magazine interview introducing single-origin coffee and was about to sit down and rest. When he saw Lu Churan and Ye Xi coming, they kept boiling hot water, grinding coffee beans and stacking filter paper. The twisted wrist was soaked by the steadily falling water column, and the coffee powder soaked warmly in the air.

Ye Xi watched curiously from the side, and couldn't help but praise him for being so handsome.

Ji Er smiled and thanked him, and wrapped the hair that fell when he lowered his head behind his ears, revealing his smooth forehead and gentle eyebrows. At the end of spring, the cherry blossoms are falling all over the sky, and the pink gurgling water is floating below.

He packed up the utensils, and suggested to Lu Churan and Ye Xi, "I was exhausted from the interview just now, and I have to make coffee for people, and I have to keep talking about this bean and that bean, and talk about coffee culture. , but also concave shape for people to take pictures, let’s go to the bar to drink after dinner later, get off work early, strike for half a day.”