Ambiguous addiction

"Mr. Lu, have you ever been taught by the history section chief in our school?" It was already over, Lu Churan deliberately cleaned up slowly, and the other students left, only Qi Nian was waiting for him to clean up.

This time period is noon, even if it is not the teachers and students of this campus rushing out together after class, it will be the time for white-collar workers from other nearby office buildings to come out for lunch.

This kind of scene is like going back to the afternoon of the monthly exam in high school. As soon as the bell rang at the end of the exam, half of the graders would rush out of the classroom at the speed of a [-]-meter sprint to occupy the latrine, and the other half would go to the dining hall. Queuing for food, all in all, you need to queue wherever you feel you need it.

When Lu Churan was in high school, he didn't like to get together in the crowd. He felt that so many people crowded together, the oxygen was divided and it was difficult to breathe, and in crowded places, it was very difficult to mix the smells of different people. repressed.

So he always packs slowly, and then finds a good place in the study room of the library when there are few people. He can avoid crowding by doing things against people's inertial thinking.

"The head of the history section? The one surnamed Wang? Yes, he is quite good. It is said that as long as he leads the third year of high school, our school will be the first in the province."

"Yeah, yes, but what I want to say is that once I came out of the toilet and saw him passing by holding the computer after class, and then I heard him fart..."

"Huh? Then how did he react? Did he look at the people next to him? A friend of mine told me that he would look at the people next to him every time he accidentally farted in the elevator. Everyone would look at the ugliest one. No doubt."

"Hahahaha teacher, your friend is a little witty. At that time, there was no one around the teacher. He was the only one in the corridor. He pretended to look around, but I walked behind him and laughed so hard that my stomach twitched. Mr. Lu , it's raining outside again, you..." When the elevator door opened, Qi Nian was about to ask Lu Churan if he had an umbrella and if he wanted to go together, when he saw the other party answer the phone with a gesture of apology.

In the morning, the sun is still strong, but at this time the thick rain clouds gather in an instant. The weather in early August is like this. There will be a short and majestic heavy rain unexpectedly, and it will be sudden again soon. Stop and recover.

Ye Xi's mellow voice seemed to be dispersed by the sound of rain through the microphone, and there was a sense of haziness. Lu Churan subconsciously held his breath, and then unconsciously lowered his voice when he said it again, "Ah, I didn’t bring an umbrella... You are going to Hong Kong for a business trip in the afternoon? Why didn’t you tell me yesterday, did you decide on the spur of the moment... How long have you been going? Then you packed your luggage?... So soon... Huh? Come here now ……"

Qi Nian was at the side a little distance away, originally planning to wait for Lu Churan to finish talking on the phone before inviting him to go with him.

Walking in the rain is indeed a bit beautiful. If the rain is not so fierce, the artistic conception will be better, but if two people can squeeze closer under the same umbrella because of the heavy rain, that would not be a bad thing.

But at this moment, Lu Churan's tone on the phone seemed a little too gentle, especially the "Huh?" from the vocal cords and through the nasal cavity with his tongue against his palate, which made Qi Nian feel awkward beside him. Committed, a little scalp tingling, coupled with the faint smile on Lu Churan's lips, made him feel guilty for peeping at someone else's things after looking at it too much.

After Lu Churan hung up the phone, he looked at Qi Nian with an expression of enlightenment, "Qi Nian, you haven't left yet, haven't you brought an umbrella, do you want me to ask my friend to bring you an extra one, oh yes, that one A friend is..."

"No need, Teacher Lu." Qi Nian interrupted him, and waved to him with a face full of gratitude, "I have an umbrella, so I'm leaving now, I won't disturb you, see you tomorrow."

Because Lu Churan has been attending classes in this campus for the past [-] days, is about a kilometer away from Ye Xi's company on the same section of the road, and has about the same working hours, so he didn't drive his car every day after he got it back, but He and Ye Xi took turns sending each other to work.Ye Xi went to Hong Kong in the afternoon, so there was no way to send him back in such a heavy rain, so he proposed to come over and give him an umbrella.

When Lu Churan saw Ye Xi approaching from a distance in the rain, the faint smile in his eyes gradually became brighter.

Ye Xi met his eyes from bottom to top across the steps of the stairs, walked around his straight and slender legs without stopping, smiled deeper, and walked up to Lu Churan in a blink of an eye, covering his eyes with an umbrella. Him, "Let's go."

It was a bit noisy when the raindrops hit the umbrella, Lu Churan and Ye Xi walked side by side, they were silent for a while without speaking to each other, their arms rubbed against each other inadvertently through the fabric of their clothes.

Occasionally, low puddles with rainwater appeared on the uneven road. Ye Xi held the umbrella handle and passed it forward, covering Lu Churan under the umbrella, and asked him to step over it before walking. However, when he walked over, he would rather leave the umbrella by himself and let the umbrella follow Lu Churan's steps all the time, so as not to let him get caught in the rain.

Lu Churan silently watched his considerate actions and didn't say anything.

When he walked all the way to the bus stop, Ye Xi put away the umbrella, shook the rain aside and handed it to Lu Churan. After Lu Churan took it, he subconsciously looked into his eyes, "What about you? You didn't How will Umbrella return to the company?"

Ye Xi's tone was very relaxed, he turned his eyes away to see the rain that had subsided a little outside the awning of the station, his expression seemed to be a bit cool, as if he was used to getting wet and didn't care, "It's just a few steps, not much rain It's raining."

"Well, then be careful on the road, I'm leaving." Lu Churan's car came, and he wanted to pat Ye Xi to say goodbye, but somehow his hand got around his waist, and he let go as quickly as an electric shock. Xi's expression was very natural, as if he didn't notice it at all, and he smiled at him with the corners of his lips curled up.

The car was stuck on a main road connecting the financial high-tech zone and the old city. On the way, there was a station near Lu Churan's high school. There were many private cars parked illegally beside the station to pick up students from school.

When he and Ye Xi went out in the morning, they were stuck in this section of the road for a long time. Ye Xi glanced coldly at the high school, and said without emotion, "I hate this school very much."

Lu Churan's expression was slightly startled, feeling that Ye Xi hated him as an alumnus, and asked, "Why?"

"When I was in elementary school, my math teacher told my grandfather that my grades in the class could not keep up and I was slowing down, and asked me to go to cram school here on weekends. Our math teacher used to work part-time in a tutoring institution outside the school, and that institution was in this school on weekends. The class starts, you know what you say as teachers, you can’t lose at the starting line, and if you can’t keep up with the basics in elementary school, it will have a big impact on the future, just want to make extra money.” Ye Xi’s tone was a little disdainful, and he turned his face away , muttered, "Actually, my grades are not bad, I did it on purpose."

Lu Churan was stunned, as if he couldn't understand at all, "Huh? There is such a teacher? I have never met it. Why do you deliberately fail the exam?"

"Probably because I want to be cared about. I can't remember those things before." Ye Xi said, deliberately avoiding details that he didn't want to mention.

"Huh?..." Lu Churan turned to look at him hesitantly, sensed his emotional change, and changed the subject without a trace, "When I was in elementary school, my math teacher always told my mother that your son The grades are very good, go to the Math Olympiad class."

Ye Xi put on a disgusted look, "Oh, so you are the kind of child from someone else's family in the legend, who learns Olympiads every now and then and uses chickens and rabbits in the same cage to crush the IQ of normal children of the same age."

"Neither am I." Lu Churan quickly denied it, shook her head helplessly, frowned and said with an unbearable face, "Do you think that Mathematical Olympiad is simply a shadow of my childhood? I would dream that I was doing Mathematical Olympiad questions, and I paid the money but couldn’t understand the farts. After reading the questions, I looked at the blackboard blankly and doubted my life, then copied the teacher’s answers and then dismissed the class.”

Ye Xi was amused by him, turned his head to look at him, and felt that he was a little cute. There was something wrong with him. The 1.8-meter-six elders who were taller than himself, he always thought he was cute, maybe it was because of him. Eyes have filters.

"This is Ji'er and I's high school. He and He Shen were together in high school. Only I knew about it at the time, but then the whole world knew about it."

"Then I won't hate this school anymore because of the good alumni." Ye Xi and Lu Churan glanced at each other, with a shallow smile that was especially dazzling in the sun, "Ji Er fell in love with you early Can you not be affected, your self-control ability is very good, you haven't been in love until now, are you as innocent as me?"

"You are innocent, you tell me you are innocent?" Lu Churan looked Excuseme, and then said in a flat tone, "I have also been in love, but I haven't talked about it for a long time."

"Is it first love? It looks like it's been hurt deeply, is it a man or a woman, tell me to make me happy?"

"Childish, it's none of your business, just don't say it, I'll suffocate you to death."

After Ye Xi sent Lu Churan away, he returned to the company and went on a business trip with the manager. This decision was actually a temporary one.

During the regular meeting in the morning, the general manager said that he would take two people to the Hong Kong headquarters for a mid-year meeting and asked who would like to go with him. Ye Xi decided to go without much hesitation.

On the one hand, he really appreciates the working atmosphere of the people at the headquarters, on the other hand, he also thinks it's time to leave Lu Churan and give him some space.

He lived at Lu Churan's house for half a month, and met each other every day, from the first cup of honey water in the morning to the good night at night.

The distance is close enough, this kind of intimacy has reached the critical point where there is no room for imagination, so at the current stage, a little blank distance is extremely needed to reconcile.

Just sticking together is not enough to create ambiguity, there must be a signal of loneliness to prompt missing.

What is the beauty of ambiguity, that is, neither fulfilling him nor letting him go.

Keeping him away from him, but pulling him with longing from afar, is like flying a kite. When a gust of wind blows and your mood rises, you suddenly stop and watch it sink down.

Ye Xi stayed at the headquarters with the manager all afternoon. He brought interns here some time ago, and he got along with everyone in just a week, and everyone liked him very much.

The seniors appreciate his ability and are very optimistic about him. The female colleagues are obsessed with his face and cannot extricate themselves. The remaining ugly male colleagues seem to try their best to get closer to him in order to prove that they have the same masculine charm.

After the meeting adjourned in the afternoon, Ye Xi joined the dinner at the headquarters again. He is best at mobilizing the atmosphere in the crowd, and has always been the one who attracts the most attention under the spotlight. It seems that his vitality lies in this.

Crowded places, lively places, constant connections with strangers, only these things can cover up the unknown black hole-like loneliness and darkness in him, and make him a glowing star in the eyes of everyone.

It was already eleven o'clock in the evening after the dinner party, and he accompanied the manager back to the hotel where he was staying. Finally, he was left alone in the dead of night, and the phone screen lit up in his hand.

【Anson, I'm coming to Hong Kong, do you want to meet me? 】

The other party quickly replied to him, [Why did you come to Hong Kong suddenly, did you miss me? 】

【What do you think? 】

The other party said, [I'm coming here now, where are you? 】

Ye Xi sent the address, and Anson arrived in less than half an hour. After entering the room, he consciously went to the bathroom to make preparations.

Ye Xi was holding the whiskey glass, the strong malt aroma lingering in his nose, leaning against the hotel's floor-to-ceiling glass that was almost as high as the wall, his thoughts were immersed in the night of Victoria Harbour.

The cloudless night sky is like a pitch-black silk cloth, with bright city light spots inlaid in it, as if through the window, you can imagine the bustle of the flashy, purple, drunk and golden all night, and the noise in every corner, which is sleepless and drunk. It also seems to feel that I have become especially small and vain in this overwhelming hustle and bustle.

Ye Xi suddenly wondered, what would Lu Churan think of if he looked at this night, oh, he would definitely frown and turn his eyes away and say, "It's too high, don't look."

He couldn't help laughing out loud. Lu Churan's fear of heights was so severe that he had to call someone to help him when he changed a light bulb at home. He asked Lu Churan why he didn't live on the second floor since he was so afraid of heights. Then he said that mosquitoes are more terrifying than fear of heights. He is really a troublesome and difficult man.

It is precisely because of this that since he lived in Lu Churan's house, he has contracted out all the work of drying and collecting clothes every day, and Lu Churan has hardly stepped out of the balcony.

Thinking of the balcony, when I went back to pack my things today, I found that Lu Churan had a pair of dry and inconspicuous trousers hanging in the corner like rags. The style of the trousers was not ugly, but it smelled of inferior dye, and the fabric was too hard It must have been tricked into buying it on Taobao.

Lu Churan's taste is indeed better than many people's, and he can match well, which can set off his temperament well.

Ye Xi is sometimes not sure about his orientation because he is not aesthetically pleasing like other people he has met in this circle. The clothes he buys are either deadly expensive or deadly gay, or both deadly expensive and deadly expensive at the same time. Gay dies gay, anyway, I just can't figure out what is suitable for me.

As for the smelly, hard and low-quality trousers being left hanging in the corner, it is probably because Lu Churan got his head caught by the door that day that he bought them back.

Will his deadly rationalist who wants to analyze everything have such a hot-headed time?

Anson's hug from behind interrupted Ye Xi's thinking. As soon as Ye Xi put down his wine glass and turned around, his lips were kissed, and then it continued to deepen.

Ye Xi pushed him to the side of the bed, and with a little force, he brought him down into the soft mattress, propped up half of his body and pressed him, the lingering kiss rolled down, fell along the Adam's apple to the collarbone, the person in front of him Ye Xi's breath was filled with the thick scent of perfume in his neck, he couldn't help but slightly squinted his eyes and frowned slightly, as if he wasn't quite used to it.

Ye Xi shook his head, trying to expel the redundant thoughts from his mind. He felt that alcohol must have paralyzed part of his thinking, otherwise, how could he suddenly think of the fresh scent of shower gel in Lu Churan's bosom on others without warning? .

Ye Xi leaned closer to kiss the person in front of him again, but the smell of the perfume kept interfering with his thoughts, making him unable to get involved no matter what.

In the end, he got up a little bit unbearably, and half hugged the person with apology, "I'm sorry baby, I suddenly remembered that I have a very important meeting tomorrow morning, and I have a document to deal with, so I can't keep you tonight."

"Ye Xi, I'm ready, you can't..."

Ye Xi apologized again, facing the puzzled gaze of the person in front of him, he casually threw out a lie, "I'm sorry, I may have come here in a bit of a hurry today, I didn't have a good rest, I'm really glad to meet you, but I really have a headache and feel uncomfortable now, if I can't take good care of you tonight, I will feel very guilty, so forgive me for not being with you this time, okay?"

"Oh……"

"Put on your clothes, it's a bit windy at night, don't catch a cold."

After Ye Xi sent the reluctant Anson away, he took a shower in the bathroom to wash off the smell of perfume on his body, then lay flat on the bed wrapped in a bathrobe, staring blankly at the ceiling in a daze.

He suddenly wanted to ask what Lu Churan was doing, but he felt that such a move was unnecessary, and he didn't like Lu Churan, why would he interfere with what Lu Churan was doing when he was alone, he had no position to care about this man at all .

But what exactly is Lu Churan doing now?

Lu Churan, Lu Churan is very special, but not to that extent, you have to let yourself miss it like this.

Obviously that person cannot be hugged or kissed, and he is so reserved that he has to wear long trousers at home, wishing he would not show Ye Xi an extra piece of leg hair, and he was so indifferent before that he had repeatedly spoken out to drive him away, but these, all of his The combination of alienation and rejection didn't seem to compare to the concerned look in his eyes when he stuffed himself with water.

Drink water……

Ye Xi suddenly got up from the bed and poured a glass of water to drink. He stood by the table with the water glass and continued to lose his mind.

Obviously, the bored mood of that person at the door of his house and the personal attack of the slanted sword are still in his ears, but in a second, he remembered the soft voice when he held his hand and said, "Look, it's a rainbow." Expressions and warm palms.

Those childishness and innocence that were missed before, now I can make up for you, and I will show you the rainbow.

Why do you say such things to me? I am the one who takes the initiative to approach you and release the ambiguity. Why don't you accept it passively but give me another kind of kindness? I don't know what to do at all.

Ye Xi put down the water glass and opened the phone in a conflicted mood. He still resisted poking open Lu Churan's dialog box, but clicked on the circle of friends and saw the content of Qi Nian.

[Today, the classroom audio equipment was broken, and I thought I had to change the classroom, but the male god thought it was troublesome to read the questions himself, and the reading was better than the official recording, and the happiness came so suddenly. 】

Ye Xi turned off the lamp beside the bed, sneered expressionlessly in the darkness, and closed his eyes.