Ambiguous addiction

In the evening, after Ye Xi got off work, he talked with an old client who owned a restaurant about an investment plan that he recently came to consult with. It happened that that day was the restaurant's celebration, and it closed after lunch. Ye Xi, who came over to discuss business, was also lucky enough to have a meal, and was even arranged to sit next to the boss.

When the dinner was almost finished, the matter was about to be settled. The boss was very hospitable when it was a happy event. He kept pouring wine for Ye Xi and tried to persuade him to drink it. less than.

Ye Xi pushed it a few times but didn't push it away, and he was too embarrassed to be a disappointment when he was in a good mood, so he had to raise his glass and drink it. Unexpectedly, this kind of wine has a delicate fragrance in the mouth but has a strong aftertaste. After drinking two glasses, he felt I stopped drinking when I was a little drunk, and replaced the wine in my cup with tea mixed with water while the boss went to another table to toast with the employees, and the color was almost the same.

Although Ye Xi has not stayed in the current company for a long time, but he is highly valued. He has a handsome appearance, a humble attitude, and a serious work attitude. What is more, Ye Xi's way of dealing with the world is mature and neat, not like a 25-year-old person, but also He has the courage and charm that a 25-year-old man should have, so he is favored by customers.

When the boss came back after paying respects, his face was already flushed, and he couldn't distinguish the seriousness of his movements. He patted Ye Xi's shoulder roughly and said, "Then I'll leave it to you this time, Xiaoye."

"It's no problem, just leave it to me." Ye Xi smiled politely, and quietly avoided a little distance, otherwise he would be nailed to the floor if he was photographed a few more times.

"How about going to the bar to continue drinking together later? They've already booked a place."

"Ah, you are too polite, I really want to join in the fun, but I already have an appointment, so I really can't go." Ye Xi rolled up the sleeve of his shirt and looked at his watch, "It's almost time now Now, I have to go first, you guys have fun."

After Ye Xi left the hotel, he walked to a nearby fruit shop to buy a box of strawberries, and then walked back along the same road to pick up the car. He sweated a little and got drunk before getting in the car.

By the time he reached "tobecontinued", the low twilight had dipped below the horizon, and the sky was completely dark.There was another heavy rain in the afternoon of the first day of August, but it subsided quickly, and by this time the moisture from the ground had evaporated.

The roads in the bustling city are full of hustle and bustle, even the sound of the summer wind shaking the leaves is covered, but the glass door is like an enchantment to separate the noise, leaving only a little bit of tranquility in the whole city All gathered inside.

Ye Xi put the strawberry in front of Lu Churan's screen, and Lu Churan, who was concentrating on putting the students' better voice examples into the courseware, jumped up on his seat in fright, pulled off the earphones and turned around. Ye Xi lowered his head and smiled at him, "Boss, what's the Wi-Fi password here?"

Lu Churan also smiled, pulled away the chair next to him to sit down, found a big bowl of strawberries and washed them, and asked him, "Have you eaten tonight?"

"Well, I just came here after having dinner with a client."

As soon as Ye Xi approached, Lu Churan smelled the smell of alcohol on his body, and looked at him sullenly, "You're looking for death, aren't you? How dare you drink while taking medicine? Drunk driving?"

"No, no, I came here when I was almost sober, and I don't want to drink because I need it for work." Ye Xi was caught off guard by Lu Churan's lesson, and subconsciously shrank his neck, showing an innocent expression.

"What is this lump?" Ye Xi saw the coffee cup next to Lu Churan's computer, and glanced at the latte art inside. In the middle of the light brown milk froth was a white heart that was not very formed and slightly biased. Lu Churan just asked Xiaotong to teach him how to use the espresso machine to make it. As a cafe owner, he doesn't even understand coffee latte art, which seems a bit unreasonable.

Lu Churan's expression seemed a little frustrated and a little bit damaged, so he couldn't help but want to laugh, and he replied following Ye Xi's words, "I freshly pulled this lump, do you want to try it?"

So Ye Xi's expression became a little complicated, he blinked slowly, and said insincerely, "Mr. Lu's heart is particularly abstract, and he combines Fauvism, Impressionism, and Expressionism."

Lu Churan laughed out loud, turned away and ignored him, continuing to work on the courseware.

Ye Xi sat next to Lu Churan and didn't dare to disturb him while he was doing business, so he opened his phone to check Moments, and suddenly saw the content posted by Qi Nian on the homepage, [Speaking teacher is a high school alumnus with the same constellation as me and a college classmate] He is a professional senior, but he is a male god who beats me after college and has a beautiful British and American accent and can speak French, but this way I don't want to be abused in his class.Can't disappoint the male god in the slightest. 】

The attached photos are two candid photos of Lu Churan, judging from his clothes, they were taken today.

Ye Xi raised his eyebrows, his eyes shifted from the mobile phone screen to Lu Churan's profile at work, and he sighed inwardly that real people look better.

Under the photo, a kid who had been an intern at Ye Xi's company replied, [Fuck, so handsome! Real male god!Capital letter!I haven't licked enough. Is there a picture of him? 】

Qi Nian replied, [No more.Male gods don't post on Moments, and don't have photos of their lives. 】

The kid came back again, 【Then hurry up and ask the male god to post on Moments!Shouldn't Yan Hao be showing off everywhere to attract hatred? 】

Qi Nian snickered, 【Yan Hao doesn't care about the hatred of uglies.And I don't do such wretched things to the male god, just lick it silently, anyway, there are still [-] days before we can meet again. 】

Speaking of which, Ye Xi hadn't had much contact with Qi Nian since he came back from Hong Kong. He didn't expect to meet him again because Qi Nian became Lu Churan's student.

During the few days in Hong Kong, Ye Xi asked Qi Nian to go out for dinner several times alone, Qi Nian did not refuse, and even offered Ye Xi to take him to the gay bar to see him.

However, in the process of getting along alone, Ye Xi could feel that the other party was avoiding his intimacy, and this kid later spoke to him very frankly, meaning that he also likes men, and his affection for Ye Xi does exist. Yes, but it just feels a little wrong, and his view of love is allornothing, so he doesn't want to continue to develop in that direction with Ye Xi, and there are not many people around him who know his orientation, so I hope that Ye Xi can get along with him. To be friends who talk to each other, a gun/friend cannot be a best friend.

Ye Xi's reaction was naturally accommodating and leaving a little room for it, but people who can't be ambiguous and can't sleep are not worth too much communication, so after returning from the internship project, the contact with Qi Nian has become much weaker. , Occasionally like each other in Moments, and even fewer private chats.

"Lu Churan." Ye Xi called him, and he responded with a single voice of "um" and raised his eyes to look at Ye Xi, and heard Ye Xi ask, "You have a student named Qi Nian?"

"You know him too?" Lu Churan's tone was very surprised, but his expression didn't change at all, as if he didn't really care about such things in his heart.

Ye Xi didn't care too much and answered vaguely, "Well, a friend."

Lu Churan's expression suddenly became a little meaningful, and there seemed to be a bit of pity in his slyness. He only met this student in class today. During the conversation, he felt quite speculative and he had many similarities. I really didn't expect it. A flower of desire and love touched by Ye Xi...

Ye Xi froze for two seconds and quickly comprehended his expression. He realized that in Lu Churan's eyes, all his friends were "friends" on the bed. He became angry and couldn't explain it, so he threw a pillow at him, which was caught by him. .

He bit his lower lip in embarrassment for a few seconds, retorted in a softer voice, and was anxious to confess what was in his heart, but unconsciously groaned, "I haven't, I haven't slept with him! He came to our company before Practicing interns!"

"Oh, does this have anything to do with me?" Lu Churan dragged his voice out and spoke lightly, smiling innocently, as if Ye Xi's embarrassment just now had nothing to do with him.

He got up and poured a glass of warm water behind the bar, put the glass into Ye Xi's hand, leaned on the back of Ye Xi's chair with his long legs and stared at him, "Drink water."

Ye Xi raised his head and felt the heavy pressure in Lu Churan's eyes. After looking at him for a while, he couldn't stand it anymore, so he drank the whole glass of water without making a sound.

After drinking Shuilu Churan suddenly reached out and patted his head and said, "Good boy." That gesture looked like he was petting a dog.

Ye Xi was a little ashamed and angry, and when he turned to put the cup on, he stole three strawberries from his bowl and stuffed them into his mouth, making his cheeks bulge like a squirrel hiding chestnuts.

Lu Churan's eyes were immediately glued to his unconsciously cute appearance.

Ye Xi was still unaware of his cuteness, and asked him vaguely, "Can you still poke French?"

"I took one course in college, but I didn't speak it very well. It's okay to scare people who don't know it. I also took Japanese for a few semesters. There are many similarities between Japanese and Chinese, so I can learn better than French. .”

Ye Xi nodded, and said seriously: "I can speak a little Japanese, that's all."

Lu Churan looked at him helplessly, "Can you show some face, don't talk about what you have learned from pornography."

"You found out, but I don't just watch porn, I also watch anime sometimes." Ye Xi smiled and scratched his head, as if he was a little embarrassed.

Lu Churan fixed his eyes on him, and suddenly stretched out his hand to caress his face. Ye Xi immediately settled on his seat, his smile froze, and he stared at him with wide eyes. It's still very hot, and you should still be a little drunk, although your face doesn't look very red. In fact, you just don't know how to blush, so you are shameless all day long."

Ye Xi felt that his face suddenly became hot again, and all the words he wanted to say were blocked in his throat and he couldn't say a word.

"Drink more water, there is honey in the bar, drink it yourself, you can hangover."

Ye Xi nodded, got up with the cup and went to the bar to find honey.

He found that Lu Churan seemed to like to force him to drink water, which reminded him of the time when he drank a bottle of water for three yuan in three days in elementary school because he wanted to save money.

People are like this, the more they have nothing, the more they want something, so people who have no water to drink tend to get thirsty more easily. Ye Xi often wanted to drink water and couldn't get it.

Because the school's drinking water tastes like the pot-washing water in the canteen, and no one in the school will drink it except for the extremely poor students, so Ye Xi dare not drink it and does not want to drink it.

But he was thirsty, and sometimes his lips were so thirsty that they were dry enough that he would bite the skin of his mouth with itchy teeth, often bleeding when biting, and there were bloodstains on the lip lines, as if he had just sucked blood.

Thinking of it seemed very sad, Ye Xi smiled bitterly in his heart, he wondered if no one really cared about him when he was a child, and whether his childhood memories were all miserable, it seems that it was not the case.

He can still remember the kindness of others to him, but it may be that the bad memories are too common, so the slightly better ones are especially precious and clear.

What Ye Xi remembers the most is the memories of his grandfather. When he was in elementary school, he would go home for dinner during the holidays. His grandfather would secretly give him money and tell him to keep it so that his uncles and aunts would not find out. He spent so much money, but he also remembered that his grandpa told him sorry that he couldn't take care of him with wet eyes.

At that time, Ye Xi said very sensiblely, "I know, grandpa doesn't need to worry about me, he has to take care of himself, I can take care of myself."

He knew that grandpa didn't lie to him, and he didn't want to shirk responsibility. He could understand it, because grandpa had to go to the hospital for reexamination when he had a gout attack not long after, and his legs and feet were not flexible enough to go in and out and needed help, so my aunt resigned from her original job. He took full-time care of the daily life of his grandfather and two cousins ​​at home. Since then, his grandfather has never been able to secretly give him money.

In fact, Ye Xi is not too greedy, as long as he has enough money, he has always been content with life, and he has no extravagant hopes for a happy and warm family, or how many family members who dote on him and take care of him meticulously. Unmoved by the river god's golden ax and silver axe, he wanted his own iron axe, but even so, God didn't treat him a little bit for rewarding his loyalty and kindness, but only reminded him to drink when he was thirsty. Shui's insignificant concern and greetings were not left to him.

What he has always just wandered aimlessly, used the inexhaustible freedom after class, silently watched other people's water bottles biting his own mouth, and then licked his own blood without feeling pain, that's all.

Ye Xi came back to his senses, his eyes sank as if he had fallen into a deep pool and the temperature faded away. He didn't bother to think about why Lu Churan reminded him to drink water. He only felt that some long-lost feelings suddenly disappeared. He made it up inadvertently, he just wanted to be more polite to the person who made up for him, "Lu Churan, I will invite you to the spa after work later?"

"Spa? I came here as a good boy, so I don't go to that kind of place." Lu Churan's attention was still on the computer, her brows were slightly frowned, and her indifferent expression was unintentionally a little disgusted.

"What, Mr. Lu, he came from a decent place. You have never seen the world full of unscrupulous things, so you call him that kind of place." Ye Xi gritted his teeth, feeling that dealing with this hard-to-please man is really really difficult. A little tired.

"Well," Lu Churan tried hard to show a state of perfunctory consideration, but turned around and shook her head, "I haven't been there, I don't want to go, go home early, your windows are not closed, it's not good to be missed by thieves It's... hmm?"

"What's the matter?" Ye Xi followed Lu Churan's gaze behind him, glanced back, and turned back to ask him.

Lu Churan squinted his eyes, the road was too dark, and the distance was a bit far away, he still couldn't tell, "Look at the car on the opposite road is Ji Er, I'm short-sighted and I can't see clearly, but I can tell A silhouette is an individual."

Ye Xi had long felt that Lu Churan's gaze was a bit blurred and sexy when he looked at him sometimes, but he didn't expect that this person was just short-sighted and couldn't see clearly, so he suddenly felt a little sentimental.

He turned around and took a serious look at the opposite side. Ji Er got out of the car, said something to the people behind him, and then the driver followed him out of the car and pushed him back. It seemed that there was some dispute with Ji Er.He turned back and smiled and said to Lu Churan, "Just...Ji Er and his ex."

"Oh, then leave them alone, I don't like to care about Ji'er's affairs." Lu Churan suddenly had a mischievous childish look on his face, and the eyes that looked directly at Ye Xi narrowed the corners of his eyes.

I don't know why the store was so deserted that day. Maybe it was because there was a football game near the gymnasium. People were either watching live TV near the gymnasium or at home, and they didn't go out.

So the two of them sat until nine o'clock, and Ji Er still didn't come back, so they packed up their things early and closed the door.

It's not too late to return to Lu Churan's house, so Ye Xi suggested to watch some movies before going to bed. He took out the disc box of "Five Hundred Days with Summer" from the wooden shelf, "Would you like to watch this?"

Lu Churan adjusted the projector and stood beside him, glanced at the cover and put it back without hesitation, and said a lot without taking a breath, "Don't look, although the heroine is beautiful, she is not as good as that The male protagonist keeps messing around and says that he doesn’t believe in love because you think too much. In the end, he marries someone else and tells the male protagonist that I don’t believe in love just because you are not true love. When you meet the right person, you believe in love. Well, that's not the category of bad fuck anymore, it's revenge against society, I don't watch it."

How much hatred is this, can you memorize the plot after watching it once?

Ye Xi felt a little guilty about Lu Churan's evaluation of the heroine, shut up and dared not answer, and then watched Lu Churan take out the box of "Ghost Shadows" next to it, his back stiffened, and he swallowed secretly. Spit, "Watching horror movies?"

"Are you afraid?" Lu Churan asked.

"I'm not afraid. What are you afraid of? It's just special effects. I used to watch horror movies when I lived alone, but I watched a lot of Hong Kong movies. Domestic horror movies are always said to be hallucinations or psychosis at the end. , because it must conform to the worldview of natural science.”

Ye Xi sat on the carpet, took out a cigarette from his trouser pocket, and held it in his mouth. Before he could find out the lighter, Lu Churan quickly took it away. He looked at Lu Churan in a daze, because Lu Churan However, his hand speed was too fast, and his mouth was still slightly open and pouted vaguely as if he was a little bit kissing.

Lu Churan quickly glanced away from his lips and then turned away, and asked him solemnly, "Smoking on the carpet is as wicked as farting under the quilt, haven't you heard of it?"

Ye Xi didn't dare to refute, and was silent for a long time without speaking. He felt that his eloquent personality who was good at confusing black and white seemed to run away from home when he met Lu Churan, which made him very depressed. He lowered his eyebrows and was choked speechless.

When the weird sound effects of the movie came out, Ye Xi began to feel uneasy again, moved unnaturally and subconsciously spoke, "Well, you know, when I watched "Damn 3 Ghosts" before, I cried at the end .”

"Really, scared?" Lu Churan responded to him flatly.

"No, it didn't scare me. That movie didn't feel scary at all later, and suddenly it became sensational. There was a mysterious little girl who had been fleeing with the heroine in the ghostly world, and then she revealed her true identity step by step. The child who was killed by the hostess years ago has been forgotten by the hostess, so she appeared in the ghost. She has never forgotten the hostess, and she has been wronged and doesn't understand why the hostess doesn't want her, and then she cried and called the hostess' mother , that scene was really poignant, and then I didn’t know why I started crying..." Ye Xi focused on introducing the plot to Lu Churan in the direction of Lu Churan, and didn’t even glance at the ghost video that was playing on the projection screen from the corner of his eyes .

Lu Churan nodded expressionlessly, then suddenly turned to him and asked, "Do you have GV?"

Ye Xi's eyes lit up in an instant, and his tone was brisk and a little excited, "Yes, yes, are you interested? I have European and American movies, Japanese and Korean movies, and a few threesome movies...don't look at it like this. Look at me, those 3Ps were sent to me by someone else, I don’t speak so heavily.”

Lu Churan interrupted him indifferently, "No, you are so noisy, I can't get into the show, if you are afraid, go to the room and watch the GV and masturbate yourself, I won't laugh at you."

Damn, what do you mean by "If you are afraid, go to the room to watch GV and masturbate yourself", and "I won't laugh at you", stop looking down on people.

Ye Xi was a little restless at first, but when Lu Churan said it, he decided to oppose him and stayed quietly by his side to accompany him to read the whole Ghost Story. He couldn't help but squeeze his palms while watching Thinking angrily, if one day the initiative of the relationship between me and you is in my hands, I will let you watch cartoons with me every day to torture you to death.

Ye Xi really didn't like watching horror movies, so even if he was serious, he wouldn't watch them, but Lu Churan was sitting next to him, and if he listened carefully, he could still hear his warm and even breathing.

So Ye Xi didn't feel scared, but he would be distracted from time to time by the person next to him, and that person probably didn't know it.

He intentionally sat back a little against a huge back cushion to make his posture look particularly comfortable. Looking at his back and the back of his head from behind, the things in his mind were chaotically interspersed between past memories and future fantasies. I don't know when the movie will end.

Lu Churan turned off the projector and packed up the disc box. When she turned her head and saw Ye Xi's sleepy eyes staring straight, with a ignorant expression, she couldn't help but leaned over to tease him, and touched his full forehead with her palm. Pushed back his soft hair, and then messed up the hair on the top of his head, "What's the matter, are you scared out of your wits? Coward."

Ye Xi wanted to stand up and fight back, but his waist was a little soft after being pressed against the back for a long time, and he couldn't use his strength. It was as if he was held down by Lu Churan and couldn't move. He had no choice but to grab Lu Churan's wrist, and said calmly to tease, "Yes. Didn't you just hug me to sleep when you were frightened?"

"I was so scared that I found a place to put you. There should be vacant beds in the mental hospital." Lu Churan stopped fighting with him after being grabbed by the wrist, stood up and kicked him, "Let go."

Ye Xi got up with the help of Lu Churan, her legs became numb after maintaining the same position for too long, she lost her footing and swayed, almost bumped into his arms, and almost knocked her straight nose against his mouth.

Ye Xi clenched Lu Churan's wrist even tighter as if he was afraid of falling down. He lowered his eyelashes and curled his lips into a chuckle. The hot air he exhaled sprayed on Lu Churan's neck. Seeing the faint scent of shower gel on his body, she let go of her fingers and whispered "good night" in his ear, then turned and went back to the room.

Lu Churan stood there for a while as if nothing had happened. The place Ye Xi had clenched tightly still hurt a little. Before the moment Ye Xi bumped into him, he had never seen Ye Xi so close. Those beautiful eyes were close to him. Even the thick and black eyelashes can be clearly distinguished.

I don't know if he was suddenly frightened, but Lu Churan's heartbeat lost its rhythm inexplicably.