Ambiguous addiction

Lu Churan took out a can of Coke from the drink freezer before coming out to lock the store door. Ye Xichu was waiting for him outside, his whole body was wet and he couldn't help shivering when the wind blew him away. A burst of scalp tingling.

Ye Xi handed the car keys to Lu Churan, opened the co-pilot's door and sat in, Lu Churan walked around to the driver's seat, and turned up the air-conditioning vent in front of Ye Xi's seat when starting the car.

They kept silent tacitly, and neither of them took the initiative to mention how to interpret this matter deeply. Anyway, the result of Lu Churan's consideration is already obvious, that is, he compromised.

Lu Churan thought to himself, emotional kidnapping is wrong, but being able to be kidnapped by such a good-looking person with such painstaking efforts, and the other party's terms of exchange are not too presumptuous or profitable, so occasionally compromise like this and be kidnapped. It doesn't seem to matter if you tie it up.

After returning home, Lu Churan took out a large soft and dry towel from her neatly packed closet and threw it on Ye Xi's face.

Ye Xi was thrown back a step, buried her face behind the fluffy towel, pursed her lips and smiled contentedly, there was a scent of softener in her nose, and she heard Lu Churan say, "Give me the keys to your house, you go Take a shower, I'll go down and close the window for you" and obediently handed over the key.

When Ye Xi took a shower and came out of the bathroom, he smelled a sweet smell in the kitchen. He raised his eyes and saw Lu Churan standing sideways in the kitchen, holding a small milk pot in his hand, he didn't know he was cooking. What, I can only hear the sound of boiling and floating upwards along the white steam in the pot.

He slowly wiped the water from his hair, and was about to ask, when he saw Lu Churan turn off the fire and pour something from a small milk pot into a cup. He turned around with a flat expression and handed the cup to Ye Xi, beckoning him to drink it.

Ye Xi didn't speak, just held the cup and blew on the hot air and took a sip. Then, frowning slightly, he stuck out his tongue reluctantly and said to Lu Churan, "It's so sweet and spicy."

"Boiled ginger with cola can prevent colds." Lu Churan explained, followed Ye Xi's gaze and gave him a fixed look. Ye Xi instantly lost the confidence to refute, and lowered his head, sipping ginger cola, listening Seeing that he reprimanded him not too angrily, "Don't die, I went to the rain again before I recovered from my illness."

The double taste of sweet and spicy is entangled, and as the warm liquid slowly blooms in the taste buds, Ye Xi smiled with the corner of his mouth curled up, and there was a dimple on the side of his face, feeling that those things were falling into his body in the drizzle. At this moment, the cold air was slowly dispelled in the warm stomach.

He shook his head, not knowing whether it meant "I don't want my life" or "I don't want my life", but he just kept smiling and occasionally glanced at Lu Churan secretly.

At the end of the day, he still didn't say a word until the moment he covered the quilt, but he felt some real and sensible feelings of no longer lacking and lacking. Those feelings could not be translated into words that could be accurately described by him, but for him is enough.

After a night, the clouds disappeared and the rain faded away, the morning sun was slowly rising, and the gentle wind swayed gently in the midsummer sun.

"Are you going to have breakfast here before going out?" Lu Churan lowered her head and dug the passion fruit pulp into the honey water with a spoon. When she asked, she didn't even raise her eyes to look at the people next to her, and mixed Ye Xi's honey water well. I just went to make my own cup.

"No, I'll just go out to eat, and I don't need to bother you." Ye Xi was absent-mindedly playing with his mobile phone, his eyes sweeping over Lu Churan intentionally or unintentionally, what he wanted to say in his heart was "Is it really possible", but rational Tell him this sentence cannot be put into practice.

Any relationship needs to leave a blank area, and now the distance is close enough. If you take a step forward, it may be difficult to retreat completely.

Ye Xi was able to stay at Lu Churan's house as he wished. In theory, he could of course send more intimate signals to Lu Churan without any scruples, but in reality there is no such need. .

He has almost never lived with others so closely that those who stayed overnight in the past were just for one night, and the one who stayed at the teacher's house when he was a child was not considered to be living with others, it was just a boarding house.

He didn't know how to deal with the situation of staying with a person every day, so he didn't dare to bother Lu Churan too much, and wanted to keep a safe distance between himself and the other person.

And he doesn't want the bond between them to look too deep, after all, if you have too close a relationship with anyone, you have to use your feelings to repay it, and he doesn't have such redundant and useless things in his heart, let alone it's just ambiguous It's just a prelude, not even the ambiguity itself.

After Lu Churan finished drinking the honey water, he followed Ye Xi downstairs to his house and opened the window for him. The disgusting smell in the air seemed to be offset by the lingering aroma of coffee grounds.

He added some water to the pot of green plants, and the little thing looked green and full of vigor, with broad green leaves leaning outwards at different angles, facing the direction of the sun and being transparent. Seeing the direction of the veins clearly, the unblocked light passes through the gaps between the stems and leaves and is smashed into mottled light spots on the ground.

After he pushed the French window open, he casually glanced down and then stood still behind the window, his reserved and indifferent eyes suddenly softened, as if softened by some picture in his memory.

Ye Xi saw that he was standing there in a daze, so he leaned over to him and asked him what was the matter. He boldly used his eyes to trace the profile of Lu Churan's profile outlined by the backlight, sinking in from the well-defined jawline along the graceful neckline. Slightly conceals the nape of the neck under the shirt.

Lu Churan pondered for a few seconds, then suddenly stretched out his hand, holding Ye Xi's wrist and moved it behind the glass of the floor-to-ceiling window. There was a spectrum of sunlight refracted by the glass.

He lifted Ye Xi's palm to the middle of the path that blocked it falling to the ground after being refracted, turned to look at him, and said with the corners of his eyes bent, "Look, it's a rainbow."

Ye Xi's eyes were glued to those clean and sharp eyes, and he almost couldn't move away. He was in a daze for a while, and asked as if he didn't realize it, "What?"

"One year when I was young, my sister and I were at home during the summer vacation. She was only three years old and had just entered kindergarten. The best way to say it was to be called brother. One morning at this time, she was watching the Teletubbies and I was... I also forgot what I was doing at the time, and then I saw a colorful light strip on the window sill of the room, so I held her hand to catch the light strip and said, 'Look, it's a rainbow'."

When Lu Churan was talking, Ye Xi looked down at the rainbow in his palm, that small strip of colorful light lay shining brightly in the center of his palm, with distinct heat that made his palm itchy.

But he was distracted thinking in his heart, why he held hands with Lu Churan for no reason, he was implying something, but the palm of his hand was very warm, so hot that his heartbeat was a little out of order up.

But Lu Churan let go of his hand as if he could hear his heart, Ye Xi just came back to think about what he just said, and couldn't help smiling with the corners of his mouth curled up.

He thinks that Lu Churan is quite silly, but also very cute. Is this a childlike innocence or an old man's nostalgia?have no idea.

But there is also a kind of tenderness between a mature man and a big boy in it, like a song drunk before the flowers under the moon, thinking that there is no trace but it is close in front of you.

"I also had a little brother when I was a child, but he didn't hold my hand to look at the rainbow." Ye Xi paused, seeing Lu Churan's expression seemed to be very interested in what he said, and continued, adding the cause and effect. The time went back a long time, "My mother died when I was very young, and my grandparents refused to have me, so I was sent to my grandpa's house, but my grandpa lived with my uncle, and usually took care of my uncle's two children." This child has no way to take care of me, so I can only pay some tuition and miscellaneous fees for me, so I live in my class teacher's house, and the little brother in her family always kisses me, and after the kiss, I want me to kiss him back."

Lu Churan's expression was a little playful, and he suddenly realized, "Oh, so that's how the Panshan Highway was built..."

"Maybe." Ye Xi smiled, "He is the first boy I can remember who likes me."

"First love?"

"It's not first love, I don't have first love." Ye Xi's tone was relaxed, but his words were filled with clear disappointment, "I don't like him approaching me at all, and I have never regarded him as a friend. I am annoying, but I dare not disobey him, otherwise he will sue the head teacher for something wrong with me, and I may be driven away, and then I will really be homeless."

Lu Churan wanted to look into Ye Xi's eyes, but he lowered his eyes and stared at his palm, "So when I was young, I was always thinking about how to grow up and become a useful person quickly, without relying on anyone. People who can live on their own don't even have time to look up at the sky, and have never seen a rainbow."

"If it's something that makes you sad if you think about it, don't think about it. Those childishness and innocence that you missed before, it's okay for me to make up for you now. I'll show you the rainbow." Lu Churan patted him on the head , pulling his thoughts back to reality, "Send me to class, pay the rent."

Ye Xi raised his eyes and replied with a smile, "Okay."

Lu Churan’s summer vacation class schedule is different from usual. It can be said that summer vacation will be a little more tiring than the beginning of school, because there are [-] consecutive days of class at the same time. There are classes from early to evening, but there will be more vacations accordingly.

So after his weekend break, a small class of five students started, and the class lasted for three consecutive weeks from 9:11 am to [-]:[-] am every day.

The campus of Lu Churan’s new class is very close to Ye Xi’s company. Ye Xi was driving today, and Lu Churan had nothing to do in the co-pilot, so he played with his mobile phone rarely, and clicked on the message from Lu Yage ,【I went to a bandshow yesterday, it happened to be hosted by him, and my roommate also came, talking to me about him all morning, I think her phantom limb is about to bleed...]

【This girl, can you speak more politely? 】Lu Churan replied a few words depressedly. Although he knew that his sister would only speak in front of him or his girlfriends so blatantly, there was no lower limit, but he still felt that it was a bit rude for a girl to do so.

Lu Yage directly ignored his nagging words, and continued on his own, [I have chatted with him for more than four months, and we walked downstairs in the dormitory together on 5.20 that night, but my roommate from high school From the very beginning, I had a deep affection for him, which directly caused me to panic after having an affair with him for so many days. 】

[I have never understood what you are panicking about. Even a lover who likes a friend needs to consider only 'the relationship between this friend and himself' and 'the pressure this relationship will bring to you', let alone you now Not even a lover who likes a friend.You and your roommate won't have any interaction after graduation, so they can't be considered friends at all. As for that man, he's not her lover, he's just an unrequited love. 】Lu Churan patiently analyzed the complex relationship between the three of them, and pointed out the core of the problem.

[...That's right, my roommate usually steals my skin care products to use, and on the day my little hamster died of illness, I played LOL in the dormitory and laughed until twelve o'clock without a word of condolence. I didn't regard her as a friend at all. , but even so, my roommate would hate me if I was really with him. ] When Lu Yage was reminded like this, new hatred and old hatred surged up all at once, and he replied a little depressed, and then added, 【However, he didn't show it very clearly, even if we have a little feeling for each other, we will meet up , and never moved the topic that way, I think he doesn't have any sincerity in liking me, I'm still looking at the situation. 】

Lu Churan mercilessly ruined Xiaoqingxin, and directly exposed the difficult life, 【Then you just hold back, or come to me to take the TOEFL IELTS test and go abroad to change the environment, so as not to pick up and eat in the pile of small trash in your school of.He can chat with you casually for so long without showing any sign, he feels like an old hand, I don't interfere with you, but I remind you to pay attention. 】

Lu Yage gave him a huge roll of eyes back.

Ye Xi's car stopped at the gate of the campus where Lu Churan was attending class, and Lu Churan put her phone back in her bag.

"Go to the store tonight too? I'll pick you up."

Lu Churan said "hmm", took out Ye Xi's medicine from the hidden compartment in the bag and patted it on the top of his head, "Don't forget today, if you get sick again, I will suspect that I am abusing patients. "