It's okay to sit

The kang was burned on the mountain.During those days, I used to nest in the warm corner of the kang, with my back against the earthen wall, wrapped tightly around my body, and opened half of the window to look at the blue sky.

It was said that it was that period of time, but in fact it was not a few days.

The sky is light blue, like a cat's eyes.The color of the sky does not change often, but the color of the horizon often changes.I have seen lavender egg yolks, dark blue and light red. I never thought that there are so many colors in the sky.So much that I feel that the colors in the world are all borrowed from the sky.

Early in the morning of the third day, Chen Que came to see me.

When I saw her, she was still a little girl, little Chen Que, Prince Huai's favorite jewel, his little daughter.

Because Duke Huai liked her very much, so—although he had many daughters and daughters under his knees, he only called two of them Bao.One is her brother of the same mother, Chen Xiangyuan, the heir son of Duke Huai, nicknamed Er Dabao, and the other is her, Chen Erbao.

My father didn't intend to be an undercover agent from the beginning, he really wanted to serve the country by serving as an aide to Duke Huai.At that time, my whole family moved out of the big house where the clan lived together, and lived in a side courtyard of Prince Huai's mansion.At that time, Ji Li was very young, only one or two years old. My second brother had to take an exam and read books behind closed doors every day. I was the only child who had the most leisure time in the family.

I wasn't called Zhao Sheng back then, and my mother hated calling me a dog every day.

Chen Que also accidentally discovered that a dog lived in a corner of her house.It was spring, she flew a kite and fell into my yard. I caught her goldfish and told her that if you give me the hairpin on your head, I will return the goldfish to you.

She rubbed her head: "Where is the hairpin?"

Chen Que was born very pretty, and she was already a very outstanding girl when she was a child.

I walked over, holding the kite in one hand, and poured out my mother's straw label from my sleeve with the other, and with a twist of my wrist, stuck it in her hair.

I said you touch it again.

She touched again.

"Hey, this isn't mine."

I handed her the kite and said, that is for you too.

After she left, I was still thinking, where did this girl come from, she is so beautiful, her eyes seem to be able to speak.

From then on, she often came to play with me, and it was only then that I discovered that she was an active person.She climbed trees and beams, shot sparrows with a slingshot, and fled into the grass to catch crickets.And I can only play tricks, tease the neighbors and aunts, and bargain with small businesses and peddlers.

"Huh? Dare you stay at home every day? That's so boring."

She is one year younger than me, but she is about the same height as me.Boys always grow slower in those days.I refuse to do outdoor activities with her because she always bullies me by saying that runners can jump faster and taller than me.I have been thrown into the river by her, thrown into the deep mountains, and I sat on the branch of a tree and did not dare to come down, hugging the big tree and crying all night.

When we met, she always said to go outside to play, and I said, why don't we just sit in the room and read a book for a while.

The two of us were angry. At the beginning, she always threw the grass label back and said that she would never play with me again. In the end, she snatched it back and put it on happily.

Oh, remember what my grandpa said, the one who wields a sword is the least powerful?I was very wronged at that time, but even though I was wronged, I stepped on several stools and secretly took down the old bow and arrow.

I went back to Prince Huai's mansion with a bruised nose and swollen face. Chen Que asked me what was wrong, and I said it was fine.They were so grateful that they knelt down and called grandpa, and then gave me a bow.

She was smiling like something.

At that time, Chen Que was a very kind girl, just take the things I gave her as an example.She has whatever she wants. When I went to her room, I saw her jewelry piled up like a hill, but she insisted on wearing the straw label I gave her; I also saw the exquisite bow from her father's army, carved with flowers. There are engraved ones, all kinds of materials, but every time she goes out to shoot rabbits with her brothers, she still uses the old bow that I salvaged from the top of the dusty old bookcase.

Oh, wrong, this can't be called kindness either.

All I can say is, she likes me.

Yes, she likes me, and I like her too.The two of us are not like some kind of concubine in a storybook, but our parents objected, and then we both turned into butterflies or hung southeast branches or something.Because her father loves her terribly, and my family's conditions are not so unsuitable.

So we two are engaged.

I don't know if that age is considered a child relationship, anyway, we have known each other since we were very young.

As soon as her mother grabbed her to go to the school, she wailed and howled: "I don't want to go! I went to see my father-in-law! I'm nervous! I can't learn it! I want Zhao Sheng to teach me!"

When it's really hard and I teach her, she will doze off one after another.After waking up, he rubbed his eyes and said, "It's okay, as long as there is one person in the family who can read. Can you run away? I don't know, so you can read to me. I feel sick and sleepy when I read."

If the relationship between the two of us is really let me say that I can say that three days and three nights are not the same-I have drawn her face in a picture of us being promoted; she has thrown praying mantises and grasshoppers into my clothes; Born in the north, she closed her eyes tightly and pulled my arm to dare not make a sound when she was on the boat for the first time. In fact, I was even more scared, so I hugged her shoulders; she always smelled of sweet plums. The fragrance is not divided into spring, summer, autumn and winter; because of her good health, her hands are very hot in winter, so she always covers them for me.

There was also that time when I was sick and fell asleep dizzily. Occasionally, when I opened my eyes, I suddenly felt a black shadow flash past, and the person who slipped in said that it was me--at that time in winter, she remembered that when I was sick, I ate pot buns. The meat was good, so I secretly woke up the two master chefs in the kitchen and lightly lit a fire in the middle of the night to fry a few pieces for me.

I was so moved that tears welled up in my eyes.

Halfway through the meal, she told me that it was a badger she had beaten on the mountain with her own hands.

I threw up.

Chen Que was even more sad than me, saying that he forgot that I don't eat wild game.She just thinks that what she makes will taste better to me.

As he spoke, he began to cry.

I said don't cry, don't cry, crying makes my heart melt.

Anyway, the next day I was beaten solidly, and my mother woke up early in the morning to find that I was sleeping soundly holding Chen Que.Chen Que reached out and touched me, and the fever was gone. As soon as she rolled her eyes, she burst into tears and told my mother that I bullied her.

I couldn't argue with that at the time, she was fully armed and well dressed, and I only had a single shirt, and I knelt in the ancestral hall for a whole morning.

When I was a teenager, I was still very happy. She tormented me to death, and I willingly let her torment to death.

Probably determined with all his heart, and he will be with the other party in the future.At that time, Chen Que belonged to her, and then I belonged to her.

but.

But finally.

Finally still.

Chen Que, I don't think she's old.Although I haven't seen her for many years, I still feel that she is not old.

"You close the windows, and you'll get rheumatism if you act like this."

She urged me, and leaned out half of her body to close the window.After closing the window, I climbed onto the kang with my legs sideways and stood side by side with me.

Also snatched my blanket.

"Is the swelling on my face gone?" I asked her gesturing.

"It's gone. I told the doctor, don't call me if the swelling doesn't go away, I won't come, it's too ugly." Chen Que leaned towards me again, "Hey, you don't know if you don't go out. Cold." She was shaking, and I subconsciously wanted to hug her shoulders, but as soon as she moved, I grinned in pain.

She seemed to see through my attempt.

"Hey, save it, it's just your little body."

After she finished speaking, she hugged me from behind.

"I just opened the window and saw a few small animals, and they went into the woods." I nested comfortably, and the two of us were so familiar.

Chen Que's activities seemed to have calmed down, "How about it? I'll give you two. Do you want to eat pot-wrapped meat? I will do it."

My unscrupulous energy came up again: "Should we talk about the child next step?"

"What are you talking about? I want to reconcile with you. I will return all the children's house money. You get out and become your official."

Chen Que answered fluently, but gradually became nasal.

"Don't," I said slowly, "don't drive me away, I'm a poor teacher. Without your great career, where can I go to eat? Eh, ah, what are you crying for?" I said Enduring the pain, he took out a handkerchief from his pocket and handed it to Chen Que, "Come on, wipe it off."

She pushed me and just cried silently.

"What should I do? Will you feel better if I kneel down for you?"

"meeting."

"Okay, kneel." I really wanted to kneel, but she held my shoulders.

"Well, okay, if you don't kneel, you don't kneel. Erbao, can you stop pressing my wound?"

She tilted her head to look at me with red eyes, "Where is the wound?"

"All over."

"You should."

"Yes, I owe you."

She looked at me, "I heard from him that you would rather be beaten to death than say a soft word."

Although I am curious about who he is, I still have to answer the question first.

"Yes. I figured it out. My grandson said 99 out of [-] sentences were wrong, and one sentence was right. He said you look like a ghost or a ghost. I have to come out. I have suffered enough. But if you want to find me, whether you want revenge or vent your anger, you can come anyway, because you are Chen Que, so I can pay you my life. Because I owe you."

Chen Que was stunned for a while, sniffing, "It's quite touching. You just have a good mouth."

"Well, I can live ten years longer without this mouth."

"You are poor."

Words cannot be floating in the sky all the time.

have to pull back.

"Who was the one who hit me?"

"You haven't seen him, he is the son of my father's subordinates."

"Create another mountain with you, and then take your surname?"

"What, his surname is Chen."

I nodded.

Chen Que wiped away her tears and returned to her normal state, "I'm married to him."

"Oh, pretty good."

"What's the matter, I can't help it. When my father was defeated, he saved me." Chen Que pinched me and raised her eyebrows, "I'm so sad. Do you know how much I like you?"

I realized that this is a question, and I should answer it.

She paused, obviously for me to answer.

OK, then I will answer.

"How much do you like me?"

"I still can't let you go." She looked at me with calm eyes, but she seemed to be hiding thousands of words, "Zhao Sheng, do you know that ten years ago, I hated you to death, I caught you If the people who live here are a little bit like you, I will cut them into pieces. I can't listen to the word Zhao, and I can't suppress the fire in my heart when I hear someone say what you said. However, After ten years, the second ten years, I found that I don’t hate you anymore. I just miss you very much. It’s been 20 years, and we’ve been together for less than 20 years, but I think we’ve reached the end of life with you It's gone." At the end she sighed, "Thinking about you now, you are not a good thing, but I just can't forget you."

I didn't know what to say, "Then he has a big heart. No wonder he saw me and beat me to death. I guess if he wasn't tired, I would have been torn apart by now."

"Are you married yet?"

"No."

"Then do you have someone you like?"

"There are many."

Chen Que has always been very brave, but this time he stopped to ask me, as if mustering up his courage.

"Is there me?"

I really can't lie to her, "I used to have you."

But I really can't lie to myself.

The last sentence may be very clear, but this sentence is only light.

Like a sigh, the kind I can't even hear myself.

"And you."