It's okay to sit

"Have you ever thought about finding me?"

This is a good question.

I suddenly wanted to tell her how I have come all these years.Tell me that I have to fight against the constant exhaustion deep in my heart every day, tell me that I have thought about thousands of ways to die but I don’t have the strength to die, tell me that my pain is no less than hers.

Tell me, I've looked for her.I really did.

"Forget it."

Chen Que waved her hand, "I feel very comfortable seeing you. At least I know you are still alive."

"You always knew I was alive?"

Chen Que nodded without any hesitation, "Yes, I know you've been in the Imperial College. I know you're now," she stared at me, making me hairy, "I know you like little boys now. Actually, I really want to ask you A question of why, but I also feel that you are such a rare person, so you must have your own reasons."

Hey, this discussion has become a long story.

"That child is very clean." When I think of Tang Yunzi, I feel warm all over.Unknowingly, there was also joy in his tone, "He is very stupid and stubborn. When I look at him, I always feel that I can still live this life like this, and it seems to see myself when I was young. It's just that I have never been upright. Not as deep as him."

"I'd love to see him."

I said in my heart that if you still don't let me go, I will see you in two days.

The mountain was very quiet, so quiet that my whole body was empty all of a sudden, and my mind went blank.

It is also possible that he was beaten stupid.

But there was one thing that really woke me up.

"When I go back this time, I will tell him all the accumulated words."

"how?"

"It's not easy to live once, so why should I hide it?"

I moved, but it was still too painful to lift my arm.I pushed Chen Que, "Come and help me, there is a rope around my neck, help me untie it."

Chen Que moved his hands and untied the emerald pendant around my neck with three strokes.

These are two jadeite beads that have been drilled and strung together. The jade itself is not a good species, but it is very moist.

"Good stuff, send him?"

"Send it to you. Keep it in mind."

Chen Que received it in his arms happily, "You didn't have this thing with you when you were a teenager, when did you get it?"

"He's been nice to you?"

"It's pretty good, I'll offer it."

"Recently received."

Chen Que and I looked at each other and smiled tacitly.

"Thank you."

If she is having a bad time.

I will tell the truth.

The truth is, this is something my mother gave to my daughter-in-law. It was originally a pair of earrings.I have carried it with me for 20 years, and today it finally returned to its original owner.

It's time, I have to go.

But not to Qingqu.

I'm going back to Renqing, to find my little friend Haoer.

Go to him and tell me everything I suppressed.

Enough said.