The one at home has a big temper

---Aren't you afraid that I'm a bad person?

---you are not.

Regarding the hypothesis put forward by Lin Jinshu, Su Qingse denied it vehemently.

He's not, and he can't be.

Clasping the other's shoulder with his fingers, Su Qingse had just cried a while ago, and the red marks on his face hadn't dissipated yet, and now he was tossed by others until his whole body trembled in pain.

At the age of 30, he doesn't understand everything he should know or not. It's just that the other party told him to relax and not be nervous. He promised well, but his body can't listen to his own words like that. Su Qingse didn't know what to do. To cooperate with Lin Jinshu, he didn't know what he should do to let the other party get better experience and feelings in such close contact.

To keep one's partner in this way, to be honest, it hurts one's self-esteem.

Su Qingse felt pain and discomfort. He really wanted to push the person on him away. The words to stop had been squeezed from his teeth to his mouth, but he swallowed it back into his stomach. Gritting his teeth and enduring all this, he only accepted it with the greatest possible possibility.

Even if I really couldn't help a muffled hum that slipped out of my throat, or a fluttering "uh......" with a final sound, it can still stimulate Lin Jinshu to work harder. point.

There is still a six-year age difference between the two, not to mention that Lin Jinshu is now at the peak of his youth. If Su Qingse doesn't know much, then he doesn't know much either. It's the first time for both of them, so it's nothing Experience, can only rely on the instinct of a man to carry out activities.

At the end of all the intimacy, Su Qingse folded his hands back and grabbed the edge of the pillow under his head, Lin Jinshu (this place may be locked, so 'top') ', 'bump', let's just choose a word and substitute it in) Su Qingse's whole body is about to fall apart, the feeling of being forcibly displaced, even the simplest hum, in such a situation (Similar to crankshaft rotation, connecting rod transmission, and piston reciprocation), Su Qingse couldn't even make a complete word sound.

It hurts, but it also comes with an inexplicable sense of pleasure and great psychological satisfaction.

They finally, whole and complete, belonged to each other.

Lin Jinshu expended a lot of energy. When he lay down, he was speechless for several minutes. He only hugged Su Qingse's head and kissed his hair, then hugged Su Qingse tightly into his arms. It's like holding a rare treasure that I have never seen in this life, and may not be able to see it again in the next life.

After sleeping for a long time, when he opened his eyes again, the light in the entire room was dimmed.

Lin Jinshu stretched out his hand and touched his side. There was not even a trace of Su Qingse's warmth left in the empty bed. There was a "boom" in his head, and he hurriedly got out of the middle of the bed before he could react. He bounced up.

It's not a big deal, but Lin Jinshu has always been very confident in his vigilance. Before he went to sleep, the person was clearly in his arms, but after waking up, the person disappeared, and he didn't even notice it at all. possible?

I got up and turned on the light, and hurriedly put on clothes on my body, but I didn't know that the pants had just been pulled halfway, and I heard the faint sound of bowls being put in the kitchen.

Lin Jinshu pushed open the door and walked out. The lights in the room were dimly turned on, and there were only figures walking around in the kitchen. He went forward and stretched out his hand to pull the glass door open. Su Qingse probably noticed it, and in his hand Turning around while still holding the hot water bottle, the two bumped into each other, and the scalding hot water splashed Lin Jinshu's arm.

"hiss............."

The smoky hot water made people gasp, before Su Qingse yelled out, Lin Jinshu took the first step to block the body of the pot, and then carried him out of the kitchen out.

The teapot fell to the ground with a muffled 'bang', and the 'gulu gulu' rolled a long way before stopping, hot water spilled everywhere.

Su Qingse was quite frightened, he hurriedly wanted to check Lin Jinshu's injured arm, but he didn't know that before he had time to do it, the other party grabbed his arm and circled around two or three times.

"Are you all right? Did you get hurt? Is it too hot? Does it hurt?"

Su Qingse opened his mouth, but couldn't speak, "......"

"You too, what are you doing here in the middle of the night without sleeping?" After confirming that Su Qingse was fine, Lin Jinshu let go of him. He stepped on his slippers and entered the kitchen. First he picked up the teapot and threw it into the bathroom The bowl pool, and just took the mop to mop the ground clean.

Su Qingse froze in place, this feeling is very familiar, Lin Jinshu seems to have never changed, he didn't disappear for three days inexplicably, and he didn't come home to open his mouth to break up the first sentence.

Taking two steps forward slowly, Su Qingse reached out and hugged the man's waist.

"What's wrong?" Lin Jinshu hugged Su Qingse's trembling body back, he lowered his head and kissed the man's forehead, knowing that he had done and said too much in the morning, so now he is willing to speak kindly The soft voice coaxed people.

Su Qingse didn't speak, her mind was as calm as water, but being notified about breaking up, she still felt aggrieved no matter how she thought about it.

The soreness and swelling in the eyes hadn't been able to get over it yet, at this moment the nose was sore and he couldn't help crying again.

"Why are you crying again?" Lin Jinshu was so distressed that he reached out to wipe away the tears.

Just remembering what I said and what I did to others in the morning, I forced such a non-human person, his emotions were only one step away, and he was about to reach the brink of collapse. Thinking of such things, Lin Jinshu couldn't wait to smoke I have a big mouth.

When he got close, he knew that this person was inferior, sensitive and suspicious, how could he bear it.

Su Qingse raised his head, his lips lost their normal luster, and at this moment they were as pale as a patient who had just walked out of the intensive care unit.

His eyelashes trembled slightly, and tears welled up in his eyes.

"When you were sleeping just now, I didn't dare to close my eyes. Since I was a child, I have been very sensitive to the noise around me. Even the sound of the wind blowing the leaves will affect my rest, but on the day you left, I didn't know anything. I don’t know, I didn’t even hear the door closing, I was afraid that I would wake up after falling asleep, and there would be no one beside my pillow, how could it be like this?”

As if blaming, he asked, how could you do this.

"For three whole days, I didn't answer the phone or text. Do you know how worried I am about you? I haven't closed my eyes and slept for almost three days, and I haven't gone to the hospital. I just stay at home and wait every day. I even thought that before Everything that happened in the past few months was all an illusion. I even thought you were imagined by me. There is no one named Lin Jinshu in this world. Such a person to take care of me, protect me, it is me......"

"It was my fault."

Lin Jinshu held down Su Qingse, who was emotionally unstable, who was on the verge of collapsing after saying a few casual words.

"It's your fault, but why are you doing this?"

I thought about crying and fussing when we broke up, but such abnormal repeated breakdowns seemed a little abnormal.

Lin Jinshu hugged Su Qingse tightly, afraid that he would break free and do something else that might hurt him.

"Let me go. I'm just thirsty so I want to get up and drink a glass of water. I'm sorry for the burn. The teapot just broke. I'll go downstairs to buy mineral water and scald ointment for you. By the way, you still have What do you want to eat? Biscuits, instant noodles, jelly beans and French fries, you can buy anything you want. If you don’t want to eat snacks, there are many other snack bars downstairs, such as oden, barbecue, crayfish... …”

Just now he was screaming and clamoring to go out, but while talking, he suddenly and quietly counted the names of the food with his fingers.

"Su, Su Qingse?"

"There is also tofu brain, Han Lin's favorite food..." After a pause, Su Qingse closed his open mouth in embarrassment, and he suddenly covered his head with his hand , the pain kept humming in a low voice, "No, no, I promised you never to mention Han Lin again, I can't."

"You can mention Han Lin, he is your friend." Lin Jinshu anxiously grabbed the man's shoulder and shook it twice, "Su Qingse, what's wrong with you? Don't scare me."

"Are you hungry?"

"what?"

"Let me cook noodles for you, but I don't know how to fry eggs. Can poached eggs be okay?"

Lin Jinshu widened his eyes in surprise, "......"

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"I'm going to bed now, but I probably haven't fallen asleep." Lin Jinshu lowered his voice, and while he was talking with his mobile phone, he still didn't forget to glance into the crack of the door. Su Qingse's thin and straight back remained motionless Lying on the bed on his side, compared to the way of crying and shouting in the morning, the appearance of not saying a word at this time is even more frightening.

Han Lin also just woke up not long ago, Lin Zongjie didn't want him to answer the phone, but when he saw Su Qingse's name kept beating on the phone screen, he was afraid that his friend had something urgent to do with him, so he thought about it , and finally handed over the phone.

Han Lin's complexion is not much better than Su Qingse's at the moment, but after listening to Lin Jinshu's statement, he intuitively asked, "What did you say to him?"

"I......" Lin Jinshu held the phone tightly. He told Han Lin a lot about the symptoms of Su Qingse's abnormal emotions, but the words about breaking up with Su Qingse , but he still couldn't say it out.

Han Lin asked, "Did you hit him?"

"No."

"Is that scolding him?"

"nor."

Han Lin was silent, and he said after about a minute, "If you are free tomorrow, take him to see a psychiatrist. This is not a disease I can treat."

"Is this... a disease?"

"You can bet on mental illness and mental illness in advance. In addition, what you said may not be the reason for his illness, but it is definitely the last straw that broke the camel's back."

Lin Jinshu gritted his teeth, and then used his left hand to hold down his trembling right hand.

Han Lin probably sensed the oppressive and dull atmosphere on the other side of the receiver, so he said, "Of course, Su Qingse is a doctor himself, and your act of taking him to see a doctor cannot guarantee that it will not cause secondary irritation. If you are willing to Let me tell the truth, I can consider going downstairs tomorrow to consult the experts in our hospital who treat this disease."

"Can this disease be cured?"

"If the disease is not serious, you can adjust your mentality and cooperate with medicine to cure it, but if it is serious, it may be very troublesome."

"How troublesome?"

"It's probably you, maybe I'll never see his troubles again in this life."

"......" Lin Jinshu turned his head and looked at Su Qingse's back again, "I disappeared for three days and came back to tell him that I want to break up."

"reason."

"Is my reason important to his condition?"

"I don't know if it's important or not." Han Lin shrugged, "But you must have not explained it clearly to him. Su Qingse is very sensitive. As long as you don't make it clear about anything, he will think it's his own problem. Including that I might not say a few words to him today, and not ask him for dinner tomorrow, he will find problems in himself uncontrollably, he will think, did I do something to make Han Lin angry ? Did he know my secrets? Does he hate me? Why can't I do anything well. "

"That's my problem, not his."

"But the words 'has nothing to do with you' are not convincing." Han Lin lifted the quilt and stood up, "I'm going downstairs to ask the experts now, you should take a good look at your boyfriend, don't let him hurt you Own."

The author has something to say: it's a broken bicycle, let's make do with it.