The one at home has a big temper

"Why do you want to break up? Why can't you even give me a normal reason? Is it because I'm not good enough? Is it because I care too little about you and take care of you? I won't talk about Han Lin all day long. Where am I not?" Well, I can change it. If you are tired and don’t want to cook, I can do it too. In the future, I will wash clothes, I will water the flowers, and I will feed the rabbits. Don’t leave, okay?”

The louder you speak, the more you reveal how much guilt and anxiety you still have in your heart.

Su Qingse's arm holding Lin Jinshu's waist gradually lost strength, as if he was out of joint, he let go of that person one by one, Xu realized that his appearance of begging like this was too humble, compared to embarrassing Lin Jinshu and Su Qingse himself suffered even more. After all, he never had the confidence to think that someone could stop for him.

Everyone seems to be taking it for granted.

So he took two steps back and suddenly knelt on the ground with weak legs. Su Qingse lowered his head and his shoulders trembled slightly. He stretched out his hands to cover his face and burst into tears.

On the one hand, he despises such a cowardly and incompetent self, and on the other hand, he can't control his extreme emotions.

He's just sad.

Very very sad.

She has always been kind to everyone or things around her with the most sincere sincerity. Su Qingse longs for an equal relationship in the process, and it doesn’t matter whether it’s Han Lin or Lin Jinshu. Whether it is a friend or a lover, he has always been the one who gives the most unreservedly and the most heart-to-heart.

But the choice is yours to make, not anyone else's business.

Because even the best people will leave when they come to him, so it's his problem, right?

Su Qingse felt it was difficult to breathe.

Lin Jinshu gritted his teeth and wanted to flee, but he really couldn't turn a blind eye to the people behind him. He put his finger on the doorknob, even if he was a little bit cruel at this time, he could end all this, but he was tempted first. People are themselves, and those who cannot do it are also themselves.

From the moment he took this step, he expected to be defeated in front of the other party. Lin Jinshu had never liked someone so much.

At the age of 17, he infiltrated the enemy as an undercover agent. Whether it was before or after that, he never wanted to fall in love because he was ready to die in the line of duty at any time. He Er said a lot in order to hide his identity. It's a lie, but Lin Jinshu said "don't harm others" with 12 sincerity.

He started thinking very early on, I can't go up to the sky, I can't get down to the ground, maybe one day the bullet will bloom in my head, and I will be gone. I will leave an orphan and widow, and let him drag the family alone How hard it is to live with mouth!

Because I didn't think about it, I didn't feel that there was anything wrong with going into the den of thieves alone, until the day when the black mamba suspected plotting, clutched his wound and fled all the way to the first hospital in the city, Lin Jinshu ran into the hospital in the dark In the garbage dump in the back alley, his eyes were blackened due to excessive blood loss and he couldn't tell where he was going. He could only find the smelliest and smelliest trash can with his nose, and then he fell with his feet upside down as soon as his head sank. planted in.

The strong putrid and sour smell made him feel sick for a while, and Lin Jinshu was in a daze. At that time, his legs were weak, his body was weak, and he had difficulty breathing, but he was stunned by this nauseating smell. Stay awake for a while longer.

Later, when it was dawn, light could be seen coming in from the plastic bucket. It should take about 10 minutes for someone to find me and save me.

He still wants to live, even though he is doing a job with the tip of a knife, Lin Jinshu still wants to live, he still has a good life, he has not been in love, married, and has not successfully completed the task, I haven't done a lot of things yet.

No different than He Er, Lin Jinshu has a physical rejection of darkness. Once he is in a dark place, the string in his mind will be completely tensed immediately uncontrollably, and his fingers will always be in the shape of a fist. The toes are also ready to charge at any time.

After staying up in the bucket all night, finally seeing dawn, when he was relieved, and the wound that he pressed hard with his fingers showed no obvious signs of still bleeding, Lin Jinshu closed his already sleepy bed little by little. eyes.

He wants to sleep.

I had a dream that day. In the dream, there was no heaven, no clouds, no flowers, no rivers, and even no fresh air that people could breathe normally.

In the deepest part of a certain bottomless place, there is only a narrow and empty stinky ditch, and at the moment I am hanging on a small nail full of rust, and I am stepping on a dirty and dark stinky ditch. The escaping black mouse kept uttering an annoying 'chee chi' cry, stepping hard on the slippery and muddy stone wall under its feet, digging the black mud between its fingers.

Lin Jinshu was exerting force all over his body, as if if he let go of his hand a little bit, he would fall into the abyss, his body would be smashed to pieces, and then he would never recover.

"Take it easy and relax."

A person who dared not calm himself down even when he was unconscious, suddenly one day, he heard someone whispering next to his ear, 'Don't be nervous, relax', that person seemed to be guiding, but also seemed to be Consolation, after speaking, I did not forget to pat Lin Jinshu's tight calf, and then sat down like a child, and patted his clenched fingers lightly.

That was Su Qingse.

Lin Jinshu was seriously injured and the first person he saw when he opened his eyes.

It was also the person who he wanted to harm at the first sight and decided to harm.

"sorry."

Lin Jinshu stood still, he turned around and walked in front of Su Qingse, bent his knees and hit the ground, stretched out his hand and hugged the person into his arms hard, hugging him hard.

Su Qingse was still crying, although it was very quiet, but every uncontrollable sob of pain that overflowed from her throat was like a loud slap on Lin Jinshu's face.

It's all his fault, so what's wrong with others?

------you're awake?Is your head still hurting?Is there any discomfort on your body?Do you want some water?eat apples?

Lin Jin was so lucky, he always stretched out his legs tentatively for a walk around the gate of hell, said hello to Lord Yan, and then ran back after struggling on his own. The day when he opened his eyes, the sun was very bright, and the bright sunlight came through the window As the light came in, he still had an oxygen cylinder in his mouth, and he could hear his heavy breathing between each exhale and inhale.

Su Qingse was sitting beside the hospital bed, quiet and peaceful, with fair skin, picturesque eyebrows and eyes, and the years were peaceful.

Holding the pen with her slender fingers, she lowered her head and was probably filling in the medical records. Seeing that the person opened her eyes, Su Qingse raised her head and asked him casually.

Later, Lin Jinshu found out that when the nurses took turns to eat, they would occasionally find this very talkative doctor to help take care of the patients. This doctor is very kind, gentle, amiable and understanding. Financial constraints will also pay for medical expenses out of their own pockets.

Lin Jinshu has been in the gutter for so long, and he has never seen any kind of person, but he is the first one who is as clean and clear as Su Qingse.

"sorry."

He stretched out his hand and pressed Su Qingse's head into the socket of his neck, tears streaming down his body, Lin Jinshu just repeated this sentence again.

Within the tight arms of others, Su Qingse just reached out and grabbed the clothes on Lin Jinshu's back tightly.

"Don't go, okay?" Still in a humble begging tone, Su Qingse raised his head, a few strands of hair on his forehead were wet with fine sweat, and his eyes were dark red, "You said you liked me, yes You gave a birthday present, saying that it was from a patient with severe amnesia who loved you very much, so after the patient regains his memory, what he said before will not count?"

Su Qingse grabbed Lin Jinshu's finger, the term 'heartache' was completely concretized, anyway, this was the first time he was in a relationship, he didn't want to let this person go so vaguely.

"If you are married and have a boyfriend who has already dated, I can accept these reasons. You have to say something, how can this be so...... Even if It’s just that after waking up, I feel that I don’t like me, I don’t love me any more...”

"How could I not love you."

how is this possible.

Lin Jinshu's blood surged, and he hugged the man in his arms. He just looked at Su Qingse's pitiful look, and he held his face with both hands, and then was pulled by all the impulsiveness and irrationality to bow his head and kiss him. Hold each other's tight lips.

Due to the oppression of height and weight, Su Qingse was pushed back. Subconsciously, he wanted to reach out and press the floor to support his body, but who knew that after the arm dangled in the air for a while, finally Still hugging Lin Jinshu's neck.

The tears flowing down his mouth made the kiss slightly wet, salty and bitter. Su Qingse opened his eyes. Even though Lin Jinshu's face was infinitely enlarged and blurred in front of his eyes, he still insisted on wanting to do it like this. I want to see a little bit of sincerity in the other person's eyes, even if it's only a little bit.

Accompanied by the gradually heavy breathing and Su Qingse's slender body that was about to slip into a puddle of water.

They went from the living room to the corridor to the bedroom, until they both jumped into the double bed room where they had slept together for a long time but had always abided by the rules. Su Qingse never left Lin Jinshu even half a step from the beginning to the end. , his hands, always insisted on tightly hugging the man's neck, as if he was afraid that Lin Jinshu would run away if he let go.

His eyes were still swollen, and the tip of his nose was slightly red. Lin Jinshu held Su Qingse's face with one hand, and kept trying to wipe away his tears with the other hand. It's okay if you don't wipe it down, but if you wipe it, it will get more and more risky.

He opened his mouth and wanted to say something to coax people, but he didn't know that Su Qingse opened his mouth first.

"do not say sorry."

"I don't want to hear it, and I hate hearing these three words."

"Let's not talk anymore." Stretching out his hand to rub the top of Su Qingse's soft hair, at that moment, Lin Jinshu suddenly decided that since he couldn't escape in this life, he should take him with him.

So he leaned down a little bit and hugged him tightly, "I won't go, then you promise me that no matter what happens in the future, you must trust me unconditionally, and no matter what others say, you will absolutely, absolutely, absolutely not You can take half a step away from me, okay?"

Su Qingse didn't understand, but he still nodded obediently.

Reaching out to take off the hat on the man's head, only then did he realize that not only his cheeks, but also some slight bruises on his forehead, he stretched out his hand to carefully touch the scar, Su Qingse was sensible and didn't ask anything.

"I'm lighter, you relax."

"En." Su Qingse responded lightly, and then lived up to everyone's expectations and was so nervous that he straightened his body into a spring bed.

The author has something to say: Let me see who wants to get in the car?

Hahahaha, don't think about it, it is impossible for A Jiang to have a car.