The one at home has a big temper

Lin Jinshu couldn't sleep all night.

After talking on the phone with Han Lin, he went back to the room and saw that Su Qingse was already covered with a quilt, lying on his side in a resting posture, the man's face was ugly, his eyes were closed but his teeth were clenched tightly, like this , it seems that he is trying to hold back something.

---What you said may not be the reason for his illness, but it is definitely the last straw that broke the camel's back.

Knowing that he had done something too much, so at the moment his heart was full of boredom, Lin Jinshu wanted to sigh, but he was afraid of being heard by Su Qingse.

I walked around the edge of the bed a few times, wanting to have a nice chat with the other person, but seeing that person's every expression and every movement was full of resistance to himself, Lin Jinshu had no choice but to stretch out his hand He pulled up the quilt again for him, then hid in the bathroom of the master bedroom dejectedly, smoking cigarettes one after another.

He didn't dare to turn on the light, because the sense of light would also affect the other person's rest. Lin Jinshu sat on the toilet seat and quietly looked at the cigarette in his fingertips. Faint light.

From ten o'clock at night to seven o'clock the next morning, I watched the dark gray floor tile under my feet gradually illuminated by the rising sun outside the window, and there was only the last cigarette left in my hand, and I was still there. More than half was drawn by myself.

Lin Jinshu turned his head, his eyes were suddenly stung by the sunlight, he took a mouthful of cigarettes, but couldn't stop coughing violently.

"Cough cough...cough cough cough...cough..."

Su Qingse usually does not let him smoke, because smoking is harmful to health.

This person seemed to be waiting at the door. After Lin Jinshu coughed twice, he was afraid of waking up people, so he held his breath and wanted to go to the living room to cough for a while, but he didn't know that he just opened the door of the bathroom. The man Su Qingse had already been standing there with his hands folded against the wall, waiting for him.

Lin Jinshu was stunned, he was so frightened by this man that he even forgot to cough.

Su Qingse looked up at him expressionlessly, then approached slowly, then stretched out her hand, and patted his back lightly and repeatedly.

Only then did Lin Jinshu remember coughing, he hurriedly lowered his head and coughed out the smoke that had choked into the intake pipe for a while.

"Come out, I have something to tell you."

Seeing that people stopped coughing, Su Qingse lowered his eyes again. Although he lived alone and lonely in the past, the color of his eyes has never been so dark.

Lin Jinshu hurried to catch up, "I also have something to say."

"Let me speak first."

Ignoring it and not looking back, Su Qingse sat back at the dining table, put away his cautious appearance before, and opened his posture, as if he wanted to negotiate with someone.

Lin Jinshu had a strong bad feeling, but following Su Qingse's footsteps, he went to the seat and sat down.

Su Qingse was holding a card and a key in his hand. He imitated how Lin Jinshu returned the things yesterday, and put the things on the table one by one.

"Let's break up."

Lin Jinshu was stunned, "?????"

"Sorry, I was a little emotional yesterday. I calmed down today and thought about it myself. I don't have the qualifications or position to ask you to stay. Anyone who is married can leave, let alone we are just dating. ?”

"But didn't we say we'd better not separate?"

"You went home yesterday because you wanted to break up, right?"

Lin Jinshu gritted his teeth, he wanted to explain, but was interrupted by Su Qingse before he opened his mouth, "You just need to answer me yes or no."

"Yes."

"Actually, I should thank you. At least I came back and didn't disappear without a word. I made it clear to my face that this is a man's responsibility and duty. What's wrong with you doing what you should do?"

"Don't think so."

"If I hadn't cried or made trouble yesterday, and just nodded and agreed quietly, you would have opened the door and left, right?" Su Qingse raised his head. Although he was very calm in his heart, at the moment he met Lin Jinshu's eyes, he was still My eyes hurt uncontrollably, "I'm sorry to keep you in such a way, I shouldn't do this, how can I exchange my self-esteem and other people's sympathy for such a trivial love?"

"It's not sympathy."

"I'm really sick, I know it myself." Su Qingse put his hands under the table and clasped them tightly, "I'm not a pessimistic person, I've always wanted to work hard To live a good life, but I can't help myself to think about some things that I shouldn't think about at all. When I get sick, I will cry, make trouble, and even break things or hurt myself, but I have always been obedient They are cooperating with treatment."

Pointing to the small bottle on the window sill, Su Qingse said, "Probably when I was in high school, I don't know the reason, maybe it's because I don't have friends, maybe it's because of too much pressure, so my emotions are often on the verge of collapse , I want to control, but I can't control the kind of collapse. It's very uncomfortable when I get sick, but after I calm down, there is no big problem. The small bottle was originally filled with sugar, and Han Lin gave it to me. After eating, I will use it to fill medicine."

"You are." Lin Jinshu said cautiously, "What's wrong?"

Su Qingse smiled, "Manic depression."

Lin Jinshu didn't understand these things, but he knew it was not a good disease.

"I know you called Han Lin yesterday. You don't have to blame yourself or feel guilty. It has nothing to do with you. Even if you're not here, I used to get sick from time to time. Most of the time, I just need to calm down and take some medicine. Just go to the hospital and chat with the doctor, I will continue to work hard to live, I will not hurt myself, just go away at ease."

"I'm sorry, I don't know, I won't leave, we won't be separated, didn't we agree yesterday?"

"It's okay, I'm fine." Su Qingse smiled weakly and humblely, he reached out and pushed the key and bank card in front of Lin Jinshu, "This is the breakup fee, I bought the house a few years ago , although it is far from here, but fortunately the location is not far away, you can take it away, if you want to sell or live, you can dispose of it at will. I have not confirmed the money in the bank card, but it should not be less. If you think it is not enough, you can mention one to me A definite number, but I don’t have much money, so don’t say anything like 500 million to 800 million. I can’t afford it even if you open your mouth. As for the car, I only have one. If you want a new car, you If you are optimistic about it, transfer the bill to me to pay, if you want the one downstairs, you can drive away by yourself."

"Can you listen to me?" Lin Jinshu reached out to grab Su Qingse's fingers.

The other party didn't respond, his fingers were icy and cold, he didn't resist or accept, he just froze and didn't respond.

"I don't want to listen to you anymore." Carefully and resolutely withdrawing his fingers little by little, Su Qingse said, "These things are not given to you for free. You can break up, and you can get the breakup fee." Okay, I just have one request."

"You should be very clear about the places I often walk around here. Don't come near here again, and don't let me see you again."

Su Qingse pointed in the direction of the door, and said, "Get lost!"

The farther you roll, the better the roll.

So Lin Jinshu "scrolled", he "scrolled" downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes, vegetables, fruits, a bag of rice, pork and beef bones, and then he carried a few bags full He 'rolled' back the big bag.

When I went out, I was afraid that Su Qingse would replace my fingerprints, so I hesitated whether to order home delivery, but then I thought that this person is so troublesome, he would definitely not change it, so I walked to the door and took my finger One poke, and sure enough, there will be two beeps, and the door will automatically unlock.

Su Qingse was quietly watering the balcony with a kettle, and when Lin Jinshu walked in as if nothing had happened, his eyes were calm, but his fingers froze and continued to drop The water poured out completely sold out the emotions in my heart at the moment.

"I just watered this flower last night. When you water it in the future, poke it with your finger first. If there is enough water in the soil, you don't need to water it a second time, otherwise they will also be drowned."

After putting the things back into the kitchen, Lin Jinshu came out to take the kettle in Su Qingse's hand. He carried the flowerpot into the trash can to pour out the excess water, and then handed over the thin bottle that Han Lin gave to him. It was replaced by the star bottle that he just bought when he went out. When the pills were poured into his hands, the weight was heavy. His hands were shaking, but he still put them back carefully one by one.

"I'll go to the doctor with you this afternoon, okay?"

"......" Su Qingse started sideways, with a hint of sneer at the corner of his mouth, he said in a steady tone, "No need."

"I was wrong. I will never talk nonsense about breaking up again."

"I don't want to hear that."

"Don't be angry, forgive me."

Su Qingse turned around and wanted to go back to the room. Lin Jinshu hurriedly grabbed his hand and pulled him back. He reached out to hug Su Qingse, and when he felt the other party's hand pushing him, he hugged him even harder. How tight.

"Anyway, at least the moment you proposed to break up, you really wanted to separate from me, right?"

"no."

"No?" Su Qingse thought it was ridiculous, so he raised his questioning voice a little higher, "Lin Jinshu, can a man take back what he said casually?"

"I have said so many things, including loving you, liking you, protecting you, and wanting to be with you for the rest of my life. None of these words are more than breaking up. Besides, you said the word breaking up, I It’s about the last time I’ve come here, if you insist on saying this, then let’s live in another place, won’t it be fine if you don’t come here in the future?”

Su Qingse was speechless, he just struggled hard in the man's arms, as if he was angry, so his legs, feet, knees, elbows, he used the greatest strength he could use all over his body.

Lin Jinshu was pressing down on him, Su Qingse still made him feel a little bit difficult in his arms like this, if his hands were heavy, he was afraid that he would hurt, if his hands were light, he was afraid that he would run away, the two of them came and went, pushing back and forth Seeing the opportunity, Lin Jinshu pressed Su Qingse's shoulders and pushed him against the wall behind him.

This person was delicate and frail, and he was afraid that his bones would hurt him if he pressed against the wall, so Lin Jinshu had no choice but to support the other's vest with his palm, carefully protecting him.

"Yesterday you asked why, but I couldn't tell you. Today I want to say, can you give me another chance?"

The author has something to say: There is a fairy lady who drew Dr. Su's portrait, if you are interested, you can go to my big eye boy to see it.