There is a kind of love that is insincere

A thin figure ran past my eyes as he ran to another child.

"Lele, I will protect you in the future."

The boy glanced at him, then looked up at the sky, and replied after a while, "If we can be together."

"Of course, we'll be together forever."

Lele looked at him, "Not necessarily, who knows what will happen in the next second."

"Even if we separate, I will find you. Because Lele is my elder brother, and I am Lele's younger brother."

Lele was stunned for a moment, then smiled bitterly, "You have to remember what I said today."

"What if I forget?"

"I'll take revenge on you, for example..." However, the child named Lele didn't continue talking, but just flicked his forehead and said softly, "I'll tell you after this happens."

"Ah."

The sky was getting dark, but it was actually the end of the dream, "Bai Yuanyi, let's go home."

Where is that?

I slowly opened my eyes and looked at the clock beside me. It was not past twelve, but I had that illusory dream that haunted me for six years as usual.I think I have this kind of dream because of the lack of parental care, and of course it is also related to a car accident I suffered when I was young.That car accident took away all my memories of ten years when I was a child. It sounds a bit ridiculous, but I really couldn't remember what happened in the past, and my parents never mentioned it to me, because they were afraid that I would not remember it well. Good person or thing.

I got up and got out of bed, poured myself a glass of water, stood in front of the window, looked at the bright moon, the endless emptiness obliterated me.This is Jinghui City, a city that is unfamiliar to me.My parents don't know why they want to come here to develop, so I just follow their rhythm, transfer to school and leave get out of class, and live every day numbly.

Now I am ordinary, boring, and nothing outstanding.The high school I was in was not as good as I thought, not as good as the junior high school, at least I played freely.

I lowered my head and closed the window, went back to bed, and forced myself to sleep, otherwise I would doze off in class tomorrow.

The nightmare is calling me again, he is calling, Bai Yuanyi, you fool, why are you still awake?But I suffered from insomnia. Looking at the starry sky outside, my heart became extremely heavy.I couldn't sleep, so I opened my eyes wide and tried hard to discover the scene in the night, but there was nothing, nothing could fill my empty heart.

In the middle of the night, my mother came into my room to see if I had kicked the quilt, and then walked out of my room with a strong sigh.I don't understand why my mother visits me every night. Does she really care about me?So why have I never found what I really need?

The morning arrived as scheduled, and after waking up, my mother had already made breakfast for me, and even stuffed 100 yuan into my hand, "Yuan Yi, my mother has something to do at noon today, so I can't come back to make lunch for you, this is your lunch money. "

I held the money but it felt hot, and then my mother hurried out, probably late for work.

As soon as I saw her leave, I didn't eat the breakfast she left for me, but went straight to school.I reject my mother's kindness to me, and always feel that everything she has done for me is guilt for me.

I went to school by car, and when I entered the class, many students were already sitting in their seats.After I greeted them, I pretended to endorse.

In fact, my mind is seldom in class, but I am thinking about what is missing in my heart, but what is missing?

I entered the class at the same table, and when I saw me, I secretly asked me, "Is the video I sent you good yesterday?"

I smiled, "Didn't you watch it yourself? Ask me?"

He shook his head, "I'm still waiting for you to tell me about it after reading it."

I shrugged and said, "That's a pity, I didn't watch it."

"No way, you don't even have the guts to look at that kind of scale?"

I looked at him, "Do you think I'm you? All my mind is on that kind of thing?"

He muttered, "Come on, just pretend, keep pretending."

I smiled, "You're looking for a draw!"

He stuck out his tongue, put down his schoolbag, and took out his book to read, but after a while, he talked with the people behind him again.It turned out that he was not my deskmate, but the teacher saw that I was not talkative, so he arranged for me to be such a lively person.At first I thought he was cute and normal to me, but after getting familiar with him, he revealed his true nature.He is an otaku and loves to gossip. I enjoy listening to him talk about what happened in school every day, but I really can't stand him telling me about men and men, which makes me suspect that he has that tendency.

After the third class was over, I listened to my deskmate discussing some handsome seniors in the school to the people behind me. It was great to be able to talk to others about his topic for three classes, leaving me speechless.

I want my ears to be quiet and out of class.But I hadn't taken a few steps when the grade director opened the door and stopped me.

I was so frightened that I couldn't settle down, so I heard him say, "Student, go upstairs and find Zhuo Luoyin, tell him not to come here at two o'clock in the afternoon, and come to me after the second class in the afternoon or during the third class break." Come on, bring a pen and paper."

He was talking fast, and I'm still not recovering from the fact that he grabbed me, he has finished speaking.

"Do you remember?"

I blinked and nodded dumbly.It's over, I don't remember what he said at all.I wanted to ask him if he could say it again, but when the office door closed, I swallowed the teacher who was about to shout out again.

I went upstairs silently, because I didn't want to go, and I didn't know what to say, but I decided to go because I wanted to see Zhuo Luoyin, who was called a stunning beauty by everyone.

But which class does Zhuo Luoyin belong to?I thought to myself, it would be impossible to search for each classroom one by one, so I had to stop a passing senior.

"Hello senior, do you know which class Zhuo Luoyin belongs to?" I said secretly complaining about Zhuo Luoyin's name, it was really hard to remember.

He looked at me a few times, and I thought it was my expression that was wrong, so I gave him a friendly smile.

"Are you looking for Zhuo Luoyin?"

I nodded along the way, but my action aroused his pity, and his expression was wrong, I found it very strange.

"Junior, you can give up, Zhuo Luoyin doesn't like men, and it's just like you, so forget it."

I was stunned, holding my breath in my throat for a while, wanting to spit it out but unable to, wanting to take it back but afraid of internal injury.I stared at him, "Say it to me again."

He shook his head, "I'm telling the truth, so don't dislike it. There are too many people who have confessed to him, including men, but none of them are possible."

I was speechless, and wanted to ask him, which eye did he see that I was going to confess?Am I gay?

"I'm not."

"To explain is to cover up, I understand."

My nerves jumped, and then I resisted the desire to swear, and let out a twisted smile, "Just tell me which class he is in! No need to talk so much nonsense!"

He looked at me like he was saying you were hopeless.I looked at him too, and I wanted to say keep your eyes open, I don't like men!

"Senior Class Two and Six, but you failed to confess later, don't blame me for not reminding you." After he finished speaking, he shook his head and walked away.

I looked at his back and felt a little headache, I didn't have a love letter in my hand?How could he see me as a confession?Could it be that those who approach Zhuo Luoyin are all there to confess?Then the age director also approached Zhuo Luoyin earlier, could it be... Confession!

This should be impossible!I shook my head, deleted the strange thoughts in my mind, and walked to the second and sixth classes of high school.

I used to hear my deskmate say that there are many people who like Zhuo Luoyin, but I was surprised that some boys also like Zhuo Luoyin.Fortunately, I don't think homosexuality is disgusting, and I don't object to homosexuality, and Zhuo Luoyin shouldn't be gay, right?

I came to the gate of Class [-], Grade [-], and hesitated for a while. I don't know what I was hesitating for?

At this time, a few boys walked up to them, and they were chatting and laughing. One of them was handsome, but his smile was faint and cold.A group of people entered the class one after another, and when I looked up, I happened to see this boy, who was grabbing his sleeve by accident.

He stopped and turned to look at me, frowning slightly.

I blushed, "Senior, can you call Zhuo Luoyin for me?"

He didn't speak.

Don't ask me why I didn't think about whether he is Zhuo Luoyin, but directly asked this question, then I can only say that my intuition tells me that he is not Zhuo Luoyin.

He glanced at me, his eyes indifferent.I saw him suddenly disgusted with me, let go of my hand, but still smiled at him.It's okay if I don't laugh, but when I smile, there is a little more disdain in his eyes.

He didn't answer me, walked into the class, came to the window, and rubbed the head of the sleeping boy.

"Luo Yin, there is a boy looking for you, probably to confess his love."

"Huh?" Zhuo Luoyin opened her eyes, glanced at him, and walked towards the door shaking with a smile.

To be honest, I have never seen what Zhuo Luoyin looks like, I just listened to my deskmate discussing there, when I saw him today, even I was fascinated by such a beautiful face, of course it was only the first time I saw him, if he was a woman, I would I believe he must be a big beauty.

He raised his eyebrows, his eyes were lazy, his eyes were slightly squinted, as if he hadn't adapted to the light, and his thin lips were lightly pursed.

I didn't look at him much, so I silently looked away. In front of such a beautiful person, it would only show my inferiority complex as a man. I really can't imagine how the boys in their class are immune to allow such a stunner to exist.

I caught a glimpse of the man in front of me, he looked at me, frowning, wondering what he was thinking.I blinked and felt that he was also good-looking, not as beautiful as Zhuo Luoyin, but standing alone in the distance, he was very shining.

I swallowed my saliva, looked up at Zhuo Luoyin, and he looked at me with a gentle smile.

"That Zhuo Luoyin, I...I, I..." I hesitated for a long time but couldn't utter a complete sentence.My face turned red unconsciously, it was a different feeling from facing that boy, it was very subtle, like the astringency of meeting a stranger for the first time.

Zhuo Luoyin smiled, leaned against the door, and stared at me, "Don't worry, speak slowly."

I was nervous when I heard it, and felt a little overwhelmed, but what can I say?Could it be that I just want to see what you look like?

"The grade director of the second year of high school asked you to find him." Well, forgive me for using this as an excuse, otherwise I would not be able to explain to the grade director, and I hope the grade director will not blame me.

He smiled, "You just want to say this?" He smiled vividly, and his beautiful eyes sparkled.

I was slightly taken aback, not knowing why he would ask such a question, and nodded.

"Oh, I see, thank you, classmate."

I saw that he was about to turn around, and the boy didn't seem to have any worries, but I suddenly grabbed Zhuo Luoyin and asked in a low voice, "Senior, are you gay?"

Zhuo Luoyin was startled and didn't answer, and I didn't want him to answer, so as not to be embarrassed.

The boy saw that Zhuo Luoyin and I were still talking, and came over, he put his arm on Zhuo Luoyin's shoulder, and looked at me with indifference, "Student, Luo Yin doesn't like men, but your long It’s not too bad, and don’t think about eating swan meat.”

After he finished speaking, my face turned pale, and I clenched my fists unconsciously. How did he see that I came to confess!Could it be that the five words "Confession to Zhuo Luoyin" were written big on his face!And what he said was too irritating, he even compared me to a tortoise, so he is a polar bear!

Zhuo Luoyin's expression changed, and she bumped into him.He thought that Zhuo Luoyin wanted him to get rid of the other party, so he added a little contempt in his tone, "You are a sophomore in high school, and you exposed your sexual orientation before you graduated, aren't you afraid that you will be rumored to be gay in your grade! I don't want to think about you like this It will bring trouble to Luo Yin, he has no interest in associating with someone like you!"

I glared at him, denying the fact that I thought he was handsome, I only felt that his words were mean and incomparable to Zhuo Luoyin, but when he said this to me, my heart hurt!

I said angrily, "You tell me that again?" I clenched my fists secretly, very angry, uncomfortable for some reason, and even my heart became abnormal.

I suppressed the strangeness, and suddenly wondered if the guy who came to confess to Zhuo Luoyin was told by this boy that he wanted to beat up this arrogant polar bear!

Zhuo Luoyin wanted to stop this embarrassing conversation, but the boy raised his eyebrows and looked at me coldly, "What? Am I wrong? Aren't you a disgusting homosexual!"

"You're gay!"

what--

The rest was my miserable cry. I wanted to punch him in the face, but he grabbed my hand and threw it back forcefully.

My face turned pale, my wrist seemed to be broken by him, it was painful and uncomfortable, but he was so strong, if Zhuo Luoyin didn't hold his hand in time, my arm would be dislocated today.

Zhuo Luoyin frowned, "You are a bit too much!" Zhuo Luoyin looked at me after speaking, with embarrassment.

The boy has nothing to say, isn't he helping Zhuo Luoyin drive him away?Why is he going too far? "He wanted to hit me first, and I was acting in self-defense."

Hearing what he said, I immediately came up in anger. I wanted to scold him, but I didn't want to cause trouble. If he retaliated against me in private, I would be finished.

Zhuo Luoyin whispered, "He didn't come to confess to me."

The boy was dumbfounded, turned his head to look at me, his face changed again and again.

Zhuo Luoyin turned to look at me and said with a smile, "I'm sorry, classmate, my friend speaks freely, don't mind."

I saw his good-looking face, and my anger towards the boy was slightly reduced, but he was not very angry.

"It's okay." Although I wanted to slap myself a bit after I said it, I didn't want to embarrass Zhuo Luoyin, and he didn't do anything, he could only say that I was unlucky to meet this boy.

I glared at him again, turned my head and walked away, and the pain in my heart dissipated.

Seeing the other party disappear, Zhuo Luoyin's smile dropped sharply, and she stared at the boy, "Why did you say those things before you figured out the situation?" He frowned slightly, wondering if this junior would tell this story in the grade, but At that time, he really wanted to shut his mouth, say something nonsense, and didn't look at his face.

The boy felt a little helpless when he received Zhuo Luoyin's gaze, he just wanted to help Zhuo Luoyin get rid of those people who confessed, so he didn't think that the student in front was not here to confess to Zhuo Luoyin.

"How do I know? I still think you want my help?"

"When did I say I wanted your help?"

"Isn't that what you meant by elbowing me in front of me? Isn't that it?"

The boy's words made Zhuo Luoyin start to doubt the tacit understanding between the two of them, he obviously wanted him to shut up at that time!

Zhuo Luoyin glanced at him, didn't say much, and went downstairs to the second grade office, leaving behind a depressed boy.

I went back to work angrily, my deskmate looked at me, "What? Who messed with you?"

I shook my head and said after a while, "Do I look like a toe?"

He thought for a while, "It's not like, but it's kind of silly."

I didn't speak, I read the book, but thinking about that boy, my chest started to hurt again.

who is he?I still don't know!I wanted to ask my deskmate, but I hesitated.Just as I was about to ask, the teacher entered the class to prepare for class, and then I forgot to ask.

After lunch at noon, I went back to work from outside and passed by the basketball court. I saw many girls and boys watching, and then I knew that there was a class competition in the third year of high school today.I glanced slightly, there were Zhuo Luoyin and the boy on the field, and he focused on dribbling and shot a precise three-pointer, causing the girls to scream.

After Zhuo Luoyin received the ball, the girls shouted even louder. I think they were too enthusiastic, and they were all desperate three girls.I shook my head and walked back to class. When the first class in the afternoon was about to start, my deskmate came back and asked me, "Did you go to the basketball game in the third year of high school?"

"After a few glances, that's it."

He exclaimed, "It's just like that? Didn't you see that Zhuo Luoyin is here too!"

"Saw him, but so what?"

"Don't you think he's handsome playing basketball?"

"He is beautiful, not handsome, but he just has a lot of stupid fans."

My deskmate was silent, and then said, "I'm actually his fan too."

I was speechless, "Sorry, I didn't expect you to worship under his beauty."

He snorted, "He is the school grass, others secretly call him His Royal Highness the Prince."

"Come on, how old is this, and you are still called His Royal Highness? Then should I call you Your Highness Princess?"

My tablemate blushed and said, "What nonsense are you talking about!"

I'm just joking, why is he so shy?Could it be that his real identity is a girl?

I smiled and didn't talk anymore, the class bell will ring after a while, and the time will be wasted by me again.After school, the head teacher came into the class and asked who could help him correct the paper, and my deskmate immediately raised his hand in response, "I'll go."

At that time, I was in a daze, so I went with him without thinking much, and I realized his intention later.Our homeroom teacher not only took care of our sophomore class, but also took care of our junior and sixth graders, so my deskmate was willing to do this drudgery for the sake of Zhuo Luoyin.I vaguely know something, but I don't plan to reveal it, but why should I stay?

I corrected the paper silently, and only scored according to the answers given by the head teacher, without any other emotions.

My deskmate finally corrected Zhuo Luoyin's paper among dozens of papers, but he didn't get the total score in the end. I saw this and asked, "Did he not do well in the exam?"

He shook his head, "Full score, but I don't know how to write [-] points to make it look good?"

The corner of my mouth twitched, "Why are you so concerned about this?"

"I want to write a beautiful [-] points, so that it can match his paper."

I don't speak, let's correct the paper silently.When I was correcting the last paper, my heart stopped beating. The characters on it were very silky, but the name written by this person was very powerful and the pen was resolute.

Yu Yueshui?This is his name?Why is it called Yuyue Shui?Is there anyone with the surname Yu?I thought about it, and felt a sense of long-standing disobedience.But he didn't get a perfect score, because he didn't do the last question. If he was asked to write the answer, he probably got the same full score as Zhuo Luoyin. I scored 98 and completed the work.

I looked at my deskmate, "I've finished changing the paper here, let's go."

My deskmate shook his head, holding the Zhuo Luoyin paper, "I'll check it for him again later."

I think he didn't want to check it, but just wanted to take a look at Zhuo Luoyin's handwriting, does he think about others when he sees things?

I looked out the window, the sun was setting, and there were still people playing basketball. His figure was deeply imprinted in my mind, and the gap in my heart was slowly filled with the shaking of his figure.

My deskmate reluctantly put down the paper and said to me, "I've finished it, I can go home now."

I hurriedly looked away, "Then let's go."

Let me escape from the suffocation of the original pain.

I thought that from that day on, Zhuo Luoyin and I would never see each other again, but I saw him again when the school held club activities, and he was still the president of the club I wanted to apply for.It's just that I have the heart, but I'm powerless, because there are so many people in the Tianbao group that I can't squeeze in.

I sighed, and was about to turn around and leave, but I heard his soft voice, "Students, don't squeeze, and line up one by one. This time, our club only recruits 50 people, so the requirements for newcomers will be higher."

Zhuo Luoyin's voice is deep and magical, but I don't like his gentle appearance.I looked at him and suddenly wondered who would he like?In other words, what kind of person is worthy of him?

I was slightly dazed, and when I blinked again, many people rushed to grab the registration form.I smiled, a little mockingly, and at the same time thought that if I didn't report to this agency, which one should I report to?Why is high school life so troublesome?

I decided to go to other clubs, maybe there is one I like, passing by the hip-hop club, I saw the boy from that time, he glanced at me, coldly, didn't even look at me.I feel a bit uncomfortable, but does a guy like him still like hip-hop?

I bowed my head and walked quickly, wandering around slowly without being in the mood, and finally returned to the reading club.I glanced at the busy crowd over there, and thought I should read the book and sign up, which seemed impossible.In fact, there are quite a lot of books on the shelf at the side, most of the people who came to sign up for the society should not want to read books, but for Zhuo Luoyin, I really don't understand the charm of Zhuo Luoyin?

I covered my face with the book, but peeked at the hip-hop club. The boy was still standing in the distance, still indifferent, with a cold face. I frowned slightly, and he just turned his head, looking at me from a distance.

I panicked, and hurriedly looked away, completely covering my face with the book.

I didn't do anything wrong, what's wrong with you?

I pretended to read books and waited for the opportunity, only to find that these books were some novels, most of which were about youth inspiration and encouraging students to study.To be honest, I have no interest in reading books, just to pass the time when I am bored.

Zhuo Luoyin glanced at a familiar figure, and after thinking for a while, he realized that the other person was his junior from that day?He originally wanted to ignore the other party, but seeing the other party reading so seriously, he suddenly became interested in this person.

Someone came to me, I was aware of it, but I didn't look at him.

"Do you want to borrow it back and read it slowly?" Zhuo Luoyin asked, but he was taken aback after asking.

I turned my head and looked at Zhuo Luoyin, "Okay."

It would be fine if I didn't say it, but once I said it, I got scared, glanced back through Zhuo Luoyin, and sure enough there were a lot of people looking at him and me, those people had envy and jealousy in their eyes.I thought that although Zhuo Luoyin was extremely charming, I didn't dare to provoke him, so I should stay away from him quickly, so I pretended I didn't remember him, and asked, "Are you?"

Zhuo Luoyin smiled slightly, "Have you forgotten me so quickly? Didn't you come to look for me last time?"

He reminded me so much, and I was embarrassed to pretend, "Oh, I remember you, you are the senior, you seem to be called Zhuo Luoyin, right?"

What I said was quite idiotic, probably people would remember Zhuo Luoyin once they saw him, but I don't want to have too much contact with him.If I hadn't just passed by the grade director that day, I might not have known who Zhuo Luoyin was, and I still haven't remembered what the grade director asked me to tell that day.I looked at him, and suddenly thought that a slight smile is very charming, if only I had such a beautiful face as Zhuo Luoyin, but unfortunately I don't.He asked me to stare at him, wondering, "Why?"

I said humbly, "It's nothing." Then I covered half of my face with a book.

He looked at me with deep eyes, but I didn't feel his gaze. I continued to read and wanted him to leave quickly, but he was still standing next to me, so I was suspicious, "Senior, don't you go to deal with club affairs Is it?" I see that many girls over there are still looking this way, I think they should be looking forward to contacting and talking with Zhuo Luoyin.

He picked up a book and flipped through it, thinking about other things, his voice revealed a little tiredness, "And the vice president."

"Oh." I nodded, not knowing what to say at this time.When facing him, I feel a little strange, and I can't tell what kind of feeling it is, is it more sacred to talk to Zhuo Luoyin?