Stop loss

Chen Qiye's life outside of studies is lacking and thin. He didn't know a movie called "Happy Together" until he left Zhejiang. He Baorong played by Leslie Cheung said to Li Yaohui played by Tony Leung more than once, why don't we start from scratch.

Li Yaohui agreed every time, but it was not love that started all over again, but the wear and tear of love, which finally reached the point of no return.

Chen Qiye was in Moscow at that time, and he and a friend named Tolstoy watched that movie at an independent cinema.Tolstoy was energetic and not proficient in Chinese, but this did not prevent him from watching and commenting, saying that Li spoiled He and that He was not cute at all, while Chen Qiye was calm and silent the whole time. Si Tai went back to the lodging together, and on the way, he stumbled and sat in the snow, covering his face and crying.

Chen Qiye hadn't returned to China for three years.

He was hoarse in the ice and snow, which was completely different from Jiangnan Tanzhou, as if he was regretting for a real person, saying, but he was still the one who left first.

That was one of the few moments when Chen Qiye lost control in front of Tolstoy, and that line in the movie became a safe word in their subsequent relationship.Tolstede and Chen Qiye returned to Zhejiang to meet Qin Ge himself, and then realized that it was not the movie itself that made Chen Qiye reveal his true feelings, but the boy who said similar words.Back in time, they were all just eighteen or nineteen-year-old students, and their world was limited to a high school in Tanzhou City—on the repeated road from the teaching building to the dormitory, Qin Ge met Chen Qiye. Said he wanted to start over.

Chen Qiye almost agreed.A heart stopped beating for two beats following that sentence, the light in his eyes flickered to an unbelievable degree, and then slowly extinguished.

"You just need someone to love you." Chen Qiye didn't say the last part, that person could be anyone.

Qin Ge didn't explain, and Chen Qiye didn't agree, and left after Qin Ge propped up his umbrella.He knew that Qin Ge was not a stalker, if Qin Ge could pull this face off, he would not be Qin Ge anymore.What's more, what matters in a relationship is what you love and what you want. If he is unwilling to get back together, the other party's entanglement will only make the trouble more and more ugly.

But Qin Ge didn't let go. The next day, a Ferrero appeared under Chen Qiye's table.As soon as Zuo Zewen saw something delicious, he came over and wanted to taste it. Chen Qiye slapped him on the back of his hand and at the same time dispelled his idea of ​​stealing it. On the way back to the dormitory at night, Chen Qiye returned the packaged chocolate to Qin Ge.

Qin Ge refused to answer, and said innocently, "I didn't stuff this in your drawer."

Chen Qiye asked: "How do you know I found it in a drawer?"

Qin Ge: "..."

Qin Ge still didn't answer, Chen Qiye emphasized: "I don't want your things."

Qin Ge really took Chen Qiye seriously on this point, and pointed to the trash can next to him: "Then you throw it away."

"You—" Chen Xiye was really distraught, the hunger caused by poverty had left a deep imprint on his heart, and he was reluctant to waste anything, let alone food.

Chen Xiye could only put away the chocolate first.On the second day, chocolates popped out of his drawer again, one more than yesterday, three on the third day, and a golden paper box on the fourth day, not exquisite, but full of wedding feeling , there are four Ferrero's inside...Chen Qiye tried to leave the classroom very late at night and enter the classroom first in the morning. Qin Ge, who lives outside the school and has no curfew, can always find a time to put one more Ferrero under his desk than yesterday The fact that he was given a gift by a mysterious person also became a fire that could not be wrapped in paper and spread quietly in the class, and some people even made a fuss about going to the monitoring room to tune the video to see who is so persistent in showing affection .

Chen Qiye panicked. Fortunately, that classmate was just talking about it. Apart from Zuo Zewen and Du Xinyi, Chen Qiye had no sense of presence in the circle of other classmates. However, he heard two people behind him while queuing for lunch. A girl whispers about her name and covers the brightness of the screen with her hands to prevent people from discovering her phone.

It was only then that Chen Qiye knew that there was a group of cp posts in the Wenzhong post bar. He checked it with Zuo Zewen's mobile phone and found that there was an option for Qin Ge*Chen Qiye in the post. The number of votes was as high as that of hired water soldiers So much so that in the replies, many people asked who Chen Qiye was, what grade he was in, and if he had any photos.

It was December 2015, and the online post bar was completely a place for the students without interference from the school. Even if the teachers heard something from the students, "Under Brokeback Mountain, lilies bloom", they would just shake their heads and not understand the current girls. Why is there such a vicious taste, and the rejection of puppy love still has to start between men and women.

But Chen Qiye was still in a cold sweat. An anonymous person sent a few photos of him eating. From the point of view, it should be taken by Ma Sirui.He felt a sense of panic that his privacy was exposed, and he couldn't wait until the end of the night self-study. He took the initiative to stand at the back door of class (1) after the last class in the afternoon.

He waited for Qin Ge there.

Different from Chen Qiye's staggered peak dining, Qin Ge was always the one to run away, and he was always at the front of the line at the window. When he saw Chen Qiye, he retracted his long legs.

The two stood in the corridor, surrounded by people, all wearing the same school uniforms, rushing towards the same staircase, but their time seemed to stand still.

Then Qin Ge held Chen Xiye's hand, and the two walked against the flow of people in the opposite direction as if they were running away. The destination was the rooftop that he hadn't visited before. The students were bullying, time passed, and a camera was installed at the foot of the mountain.

That rooftop was like Qin Ge's secret base.If there was no episode in the resort, Qin Ge might have brought him to this place long ago.No matter how embarrassing Chen Qiye was, at Qin Ge's instigation, he would leave their names on the wall like the seniors and sisters before, and write down the date under the persimmon tree at the bottom. There was no deadline behind the short horizontal line, It seems that if such a stroke leaves a trace, they will really not be separated.

Unfortunately, they live in reality.

The sunset ended in Tanzhou at five o'clock, the lanterns had not yet been lit, and the sky and the earth were dark, only the outline of the person in front of him was clear and not blurred.

The wind picked up, but Chen Qiye's face was no longer buried in his collar.He may be one of the few in this school who wears a turtleneck sweater. The style of this sweater is too outdated. Most of the students want to be graceful and not warm. If they feel cold, they wear scarves.

Chen Qiye said, "It's wrong to do this."

There was no preamble to his words, but Qin Ge knew exactly which question he was answering.

"Isn't it just a post bar voting? It's all a joke of other students in private." Qin Ge evaded the topic and picked up the topic lightly.He leaned against the half-person-high railing on the roof, stretched his arms to both sides just to rest on the railing, and looked at Chen Qiye as if silently asking for a hug, but Chen Qiye, who was two steps away from him, didn't step forward.

Qin Ge realized that Chen Qiye had become cautious and was no longer as generous as before.If feelings could be borrowed, Chen Qiye from before was like Qin Ge's ATM, not to mention the interest, he didn't even need to return the principal.

Chen Qiye now refuses to pay the money.

And Chen Xiye didn't know what to say.When he left the chaotic grass that shattered his dreams overnight and returned to his real home, the dilapidated old house in the ancient streets and alleys was not his eternal harbor.If he didn't come back suddenly, he might have to wait until the excavator drove to the door to know that Nanyang Street was about to be demolished, instead of hiding at the stairs and listening to the director of the street arguing with his mother, hoping that she would sign the demolition agreement quickly.

But the compensation in Chen Yue's contract was completely different from that of others. She couldn't get a resettlement house, and the money she could get was pitifully small, not enough to find another house.Chen Yue can't speak and has no other relatives, so she can only count on her husband in name to give her some help.That's why Chen Wang, who is not a local, came to Tanzhou.

But no matter how eloquent Chen Wang is, he can only deal with the relevant personnel for the time being and not sign. Every time the director comes, he always insists that Chen Yue and Chen Wang are already married, and that the daughter's family will marry her husband and follow her husband, and they will live together on the street again. Nothing to do.

Chen Wang was also justified, and told the director: "But after my son was admitted to Hangcheng Middle School and did not need a local hukou, we divorced."

The director showed embarrassment, and had only one sentence with Xi Nidi: "But her household registration has moved to Hangzhou with you, and it has nothing to do with our street."

"It's not because your street is obstructing her from moving back." Chen Wang dared to get angry with the director, wishing to ask his fathers and villagers to judge him, "Everyone said that you have money in Tanzhou, why don't you have any money now! Just bullying their orphans and widowed mothers... You, a director, must know how high the housing prices in Tanzhou are now, and the little money in the contract can't even buy one bedroom and one living room in the old building next door."

The dispute in the room continued, and Chen Qiye also continued to sit in the dark corridor, turning on the sensor light without making a movement.Ask yourself, if the person in the room is not Chen Wang but himself, he will definitely not be able to say a word, and he doesn't know how to deal with those high-ranking officials.

He also thought he was ridiculous.After a lapse of 12 years, he finally understood why when Qin Ge came to find him on that rainy day, he was so vicious as if he wanted to kill someone.After he learned the truth about the past, he also had the urge to kill Chen Wang, so he took it as revenge for Qin Ge, but if it wasn't for Chen Wang, he might have to sleep with his mother on the street again.

This is not the first time Chen Qiye has experienced the powerlessness and insignificance brought about by poverty, but before that, he would use his status as a student to comfort and encourage himself.

He thought he still had time, so he would talk about that relationship, and he didn't worry about the rankings falling in a mess, and he followed Qin Ge to the resort that he definitely couldn't pay for by himself... Even if he didn't leave early, he definitely wouldn't be able to visit After finishing that huge resort, the chaotic plants next to the villa are more expensive than his small home, and the children there are carefree, and the college entrance examination is not the only way out for them, but just a choice.

Chen Qiye finally left in the dark, pretending that he had never been here before.He spent that night next to a 24-hour ATM. The card used to receive the scholarship had only three digits left. Before he had time to heal his emotional injuries, he had to face the huge difference in reality. Besides material money there is class.

Chen Qiye is extremely sensitive to numbers, not to mention university tuition fees, next year's Trinity and self-enrollment will need money, he didn't get a competition scholarship and he doesn't want to spend his mother's meager salary, so he must plan ahead.

Chen Qiye shook his head, and said to Qin Ge firmly, "I don't want to be distracted anymore."

Qin Ge was selfish. He took the initiative to approach, put his head on Chen Qiye's shoulder and slowly closed his eyes.

Chen Qiye almost softened his heart again, and said unrestrainedly in a hurry: "My father is Chen Wang."

Qin Ge opened his eyes keenly, no longer in the snuggling position, but changed his face and stared at Chen Qiye warily.Chen Qiye's nails almost sank into the palm of his hand, and he continued to provoke him: "I'm cheating on your father—"

Qin Ge took a step forward and grabbed Chen Xiye's sweater collar. His movements and strength were not much gentler than that night, and the corners of his slightly puckered mouth were even more indifferent, as if the paranoia and affection he had just a moment ago were all feigned. The middle and the back show their true colors.

Chen Qiye pushed back two steps unsteadily, and his hands had already involuntarily held Qin Ge's wrist.He was far from having difficulty breathing and needing to cough. He asked Qin Ge softly, "Could it be possible...do you really like me?"

There was still some expectation in that voice, as if as long as Qin Ge answered "yes", they could start over from scratch in the next second.

He still has the bargaining chip to seduce, because Chen Qiye is willing to believe everything he says.Even at this moment, Qin Ge was still favored by Chen Qiye.

Qin Ge pursed his lips and did not speak for a long time.Chen Qiye stared at his squirming Adam's apple, not knowing whether to thank Qin Ge for his conscientious discovery, or to feel sad.

Relief and loss intertwined into mixed feelings, Qin Ge let go, Chen Qiye straightened his neckline, lowered his head slightly and restrained: "I'm going back to do my homework."

As soon as he finished speaking, Chen Qiye turned around and left, in Qin Ge's eyes, he seemed to be fleeing in a hurry.

But only Chen Qiye knows it well, even if what Qin Ge wants is to let the trickle of love wash away loneliness instead of converging into a cluster, his liking for Qin Ge can't stand a second of hesitation .