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The guitar stopped abruptly after a noise, the bass and the electronic organ were still trying to save the rehearsal, but Lin Kee, who was playing the drum set, put away the drumsticks and was so depressed that he held his head in his hands, and couldn't help complaining: "Brother , you can’t do it, can you?”

It was Qin Ge who was called "Big Brother" by Lin Kee standing in the middle of the music classroom. As the lead singer and guitarist, Qin Ge either forgot the words or played the wrong chords at noon, which led to their rehearsal until now and even a complete performance None of them showed up, and the other classmates who came to watch the rehearsal gradually lost their original expectations. If it weren't for Lin Ji's sudden sentence to make the audience laugh, the atmosphere in the music classroom would only be more embarrassing.

Men are the ones who are most tabooed to say no. In normal times, Qin Ge would definitely play around and fight Lin Ji, but he is still a little out of his wits now, so he just said sorry to say it again.

"No, you're fine, I'm not good enough." Lin Ji raised his sore hands from beating the drums in a gesture of surrender, indicating that he was tired and didn't want to continue the meaningless practice with Qin Ge who was in poor condition. .

The others gradually dispersed. Qin Ge looked at the time and saw that there were still about twenty minutes before the first class in the afternoon, so he stayed in the music classroom to practice for a while.He was sitting on a table, and Lin Ji stood in front of him lazily beating the drum stick and asked with concern: "What's the matter with you?"

Qin Ge said it as if he didn't say it, and his eyes fell on the fingers that plucked the guitar strings: "It's okay."

Lin Ji sighed, and his hands holding the drumsticks hung down on both sides of his waist. Although he was helpless, he did not leave.

"Talk to my buddies." He didn't give up, but still hoped that Qin Ge could open up the conversation with him, "I'm your CP!"

Qin Ge's plucking hand paused, and he raised his eyes to look at Lin Ji who was slapping his chest: "..."

Qin Ge finally had a smile on his face. Seeing that there was something going on, Lin Ji sat next to him.Speaking of which, after returning from the resort last week, Qin Ge has calmed down a lot. He is kind to both his classmates and teachers, and he is no longer noisy and jumpy like before. Growing up, but Lin Ji has known him for so many years, and he can clearly see the indifference and alienation behind Qin Ge's politeness.

Lin Ji will never forget that last Sunday morning, when they were waiting in the living room on the first floor to take pictures in the chaotic grass, Qin Ge and Chen Qiye did not go downstairs. Lin Ji knocked on the door, but no one responded. When I entered the room, I could smell the lingering smell of alcohol, and the crumpled aluminum cans of beer were scattered on the floor, all of which were empty without a drop left.

Qin Ge was the only one in the room.

Lin Ji woke up the hangover birthday star and asked him where Chen Xiye was. Qin Ge said that Chen Xiye had gone back last night, and then turned on his side and continued to sleep.

The second monk Lin Jizhang couldn't figure it out. He wanted to know why he and Chen Qiye broke up. Qin Ge simply got into bed and said in a muffled voice, "He wants to leave by himself."

The voice was nasal, as if Chen Qiye would never come back again.In the end, no one got rid of the soon-to-be-withered pink chaotic grass. Chen Qiye didn't take the iPhone 6 that Qin Ge gave him, and the SIM card that had been used for many years could not be put back into the Nokia brick machine after being cut. Chen Qiye didn't want it either. up.

After the two returned to school, they were also strangers. At night, Qin Ge obediently stayed in the classroom to do his homework instead of going to the lecture theater, and he would not accompany Chen Qiye back to the dormitory after the evening self-study.

"What's going on with you two..." Lin Ji couldn't hold back, hesitantly asked, "Separated again?"

Qin Ge didn't show much surprise, and continued to pluck the strings: "What do you mean by 'again'? It sounds like you've reunited many times."

Lin Ji muttered: "It's not many times."

Qin Ge always thought that he hid this relationship well: "When do you think I was with him?"

Lin Ji shrugged: "I don't know, anyway, when he picked up that Ferrero and returned it to you, your eyes were different."

Qin Ge's hand playing the guitar was hanging in the air again. After a long time, he asked, "Is it so obvious?"

"I didn't discover it first." Lin Ji mentioned Ma Sirui's magical little camera, which captured countless daily moments of teachers and classmates in the class. He would ask Ma Sirui to send him photos of Chen Xiaoya every once in a while. , the reason given was to make an emoticon pack for Chen Xiaoya, but his eyes betrayed his true intentions.

Ma Sirui told Lin Ji privately that when Qin Ge and Chen Qiye were together, there was also a duplicity of liking in their eyes.

Qin Ge looked Lin Ji up and down, as if he wanted to get to know this friend again: "Are you really a straight man? How do you know more than me?!"

Lin Ji deliberately moved his butt to the side, and the 1.9-meter tall tall man put his hands on his chest and said helplessly: "Of course I am, hey..."

Lin Ji's reaction was beyond Qin Ge's expectation. Lin Ji said in a serious manner: "The times have changed, and now real men want to fuck men!"

Qin Ge: "???"

"Crazy." Qin Ge kicked Lin Ji lightly, and Lin Ji continued to "sigh": "Then stop playing "Miss Dong", I'm not your classmate Chen, don't be gay, brother... "

Hearing his mention, Qin Ge suddenly realized what the melody he was playing repeatedly just now. He knew it so well that he had muscle memory by reflex.

The two then went back to the classroom together. Lin Ji sighed. He didn't think Qin Ge looked like the stereotyped homosexual. Qin Ge passed by the corridor of class (2), and from the corner of his eyes, he saw Chen Xiye with his back upright among the students who were sleeping on their stomachs. Zhong Fen wrote quickly, not saying that he didn't know it, but that he only had feelings for Chen Qiye, whether he was gay or not.

Qin Ge was extremely diligent during this time, completing all the Chinese homework on time, and his reputation in the class changed from "Qin Ge is a pigeon" to "No pigeon". After the bell rang, the others rushed to the cafeteria. He was still sitting in his seat doing the questions, and when his classmates came back in twos and threes after dinner, he went to dinner at the wrong peak. He repeatedly checked the correctness of a certain answer in his mind all the way, and always felt that the score in front of π should not be so complicated. There must be a step that went wrong, which made it impossible to simplify.

He was wearing a hooded sweater in his school uniform. It got dark early in winter in Tanzhou, and there was a lot of drizzle. When he went out, the rain just stopped, so he didn't bring an umbrella. He avoided the puddle all the way to the second floor of the small cafeteria.

Tanzhou was damp and cold. Qin Ge didn't have much appetite today. He just came here to drink a bowl of hot soup. He never expected that the best-selling mutton soup on weekdays was not sold out.Even though he wasn't hungry, he still ordered a bowl, and when the plate was served, he thought he was lucky. As soon as he walked to the next door, he saw the person sitting at the end of the dining area.

Then Qin Ge stood where he was, which was the entrance of the dining area.This is a cubicle with eight tables for four on each side. When the traffic is heavy, it can accommodate more than 40 students at a time, but now most of the people have finished eating, and there are only him and Chen Qiye in the cubicle.

Chen Qiye looked up, his eyes turned from the note on the table to Qin Ge who was not far away.Qin Ge glanced at the waffles in his hand. The cafeteria on the second floor had some pastries besides beef and mutton soup. He wanted to eat something sweet at first, but his aunt said that the freshly made ones were sold out, and only cold ones were available.

Chen Qiye slowly chewed the food in his mouth, looking down, there was only a note on the table, without any hot soup or drink.

Qin Ge had the urge to go over and sit next to Chen Qiye, but when he sat on the table closest to the entrance with his back to Chen Qiye, he realized that he hadn't left the bowl and chopsticks and fled, which was considered courageous Great.

He opened his mouth and let out a breath, blended with the rising heat of the mutton soup, and drifted out into the humid air. In the already dark world, all the building plants lost their color, and even the umbrellas of various colors in the distance were dim. dull.

Qin Ge poured hot soup into his body, thinking that winter in Tanzhou is really cold.

He also thought of the figure of Chen Xiye who left that night, just like Chen Xiye is looking at his back now; Dropped all the beer that was brought into the house.

The first person to leave in the compartment was Qin Ge. After eating a few more hastily, he poured out the bowl of beef soup and went downstairs.Chen Qiye got up about 2 minutes later, and silently recited words and formulas over and over again to drive away distracting thoughts. After he went downstairs, he saw Qin Ge under the eaves of the cafeteria.

He was almost doomed, thinking that Qin Ge was waiting for him, but he quickly denied this possibility, because Qin Ge, who was wearing a hat, was looking ahead, and what he was really waiting for was the haze after the drizzle.

Chen Qiye opened the umbrella.

Qin Ge heard the reputation and looked over. Chen Qiye was standing five meters away from him. He had already opened his umbrella, but instead of leaving immediately, he stretched out his other hand to catch a few drops of rain.

The temperature of his palm might be as cold as rainwater, and the air exhaled from his mouth and nose was too cold to condense into a mist.His umbrella slanted between the two of them to cover each other's faces, and only then did they complete a look at each other that the other would never notice.

Chen Qiye wanted to ask Qin Ge if he wanted to hold an umbrella together, as a kind stranger.Just as he was about to speak, someone shouted from the side of the cafeteria, "Ge Zi!"

The voice was quite energetic. Chen Xiye held the umbrella upright, and saw a boy he didn't know generously grab Qin Ge's shoulders and gave half of his big black umbrella to Qin Ge.The boy and Qin Ge were chatting and laughing. When Qin Ge answered the conversation, he looked sideways at the man with a very natural expression and tone.

Chen Qiye realized later that the man must be a friend of Qin Ge's.

Qin Ge has many friends.

Chen Qiye only took a step after he could not see or hear Qin Ge, and went back to the teaching building alone under the umbrella.After the evening reading, Shi Xinyi passed a small note to him, asking him what happened the past two days. Chen Qiye wrote on the note, saying that the final exam would be coming soon, and he wanted to study hard.

It was only after Chen Qiye passed the note back that he realized that he would lie without changing his face. Shi Xinyi should have believed it, and the note sent back read: Don't stress too much.

Chen Qiye folded the note and put it in the pencil case, and continued to do the tasks that needed to be done at night.After the evening self-study, he stayed in the classroom for about 10 minutes. Originally, he planned to study for another 10 minutes, but the rain outside became heavier and heavier, so he had to take the test paper handouts back to the dormitory. The cement road from the teaching building to the dormitory building There is a lot of water, and several places are paved with small square bricks. It looks very pleasing to the eye during the day and on a sunny day. When it rains, at night, you never know if the next brick you step on will sink and splash muddy water.

Chen Qiye's shoes were already wet, and he seemed to be focused on the road under his feet. The oncoming car with its headlights on was about to drive in front of him, and he stood as if he hadn't heard the horn and might be hit by a car to the place.Fortunately, the speed of the vehicles on the campus was all lower than 15 yards. What's more, someone pulled him. Chen Qiye almost dropped his umbrella and turned around unexpectedly. Qin Ge protected his body and dragged him onto the curb , the rain splashed by the tires only touched one person's trousers.

In that hug, Chen Qiye felt a brief, dusty peace, and the raindrops falling on his face and clothes forced him to face the reality again.

After the car drove away, Chen Qiye distanced himself from Qin Ge. Both of them had umbrellas, and they were both wet to varying degrees. Chen Qiye walked towards the dormitory without even saying "thank you", his attitude restrained for a while, But I can't be strangers for the rest of my life.

Qin Ge began to follow behind Chen Qiye every night, and finally watched him enter the dormitory.

Chen Qiye should feel terrified. The two of them had no communication of any kind along the way. He was the last person to leave the classroom every time. There were hardly any other people on the road. Qin Ge's nature was like a majestic stalker. But he didn't feel scared, but greedily beautified Qin Ge's pursuit as some kind of companionship. As long as he was willing to continue to deceive himself, Qin Ge was his dark knight.

But he is no longer the old Chen Qiye.

He stopped on another rainy night and asked Qin Ge without looking back, "What are we doing like this?"

Qin Ge walked up to him slowly, closed the umbrella and got under his umbrella, Chen Qiye turned his face to the side, not letting Qin Ge's kiss fall.

Chen Qiye put it another way: "What do you want from me?"

He was so succinct and concise that it was hard for people to associate him with the silent and reserved Chen Qiye. Qin Ge didn't exchange pleasantries with him, and directly wrapped his palm around his umbrella hand.

That hand was as cold as his breath.

Qin Ge tried to warm up and said, "I want to start over with you."