Stop loss

When Qin Ge entered the room, he held a dozen aluminum cans of beer in one hand and a guitar in the other.

He thought so.He has been in touch with Zhao Zhuo without telling Chen Qiye, this matter is really delicate and a bit unclear, but he silently helped Chen Qiye teach those vocational high school students, and occasionally chatted with Zhao Zhuo a few words, Zhao Zhuo never said anything again Find someone to make trouble for Chen Qiye.

Thinking about it this way, he was a little annoyed. He didn't do anything to hurt Chen Qiye, so why did he become the guilty party in a daze.

When he pushed open the door, Chen Xiye sat on the bed with legs curled up, and didn't turn his head when he heard the movement, just like a puppet without strings.Qin Ge sat on the edge of the bed opposite him, not knowing what to say as a starting point for the topic.He put down his guitar and beer, his hands were empty, he groped casually on the white bedding, and found the envelope under the pillow, which was a gift Chen Xiye had prepared for him.

This is indeed a gift that Qin Ge would like. He doesn't lack anything that can be bought with money. He needs someone to devote time and energy to himself, write a letter to himself, hold his hand, and babble in his sleep own name.

He wants to have the kind of love that the little prince waters the roses on b612--the accumulation of materials cannot create uniqueness, but love can.

He decided to open the envelope first, wanting to see what Chen Qiye had written.Chen Qiye was fascinated by staring at Qin Ge's back. In his imagination, Qin Ge would ask him over and over again what the Russian words above meant, but he would never mention it.

And in order to know the answer, Qin Ge would definitely make trouble with him, scratch his armpit, hold him in his arms and rub the flesh on his stomach, and then kiss his lips that kept laughing... Just now he was waiting in the room alone When I was in bed, I opened the bedside table, and there were lubricants and condoms in it.

It was selfish for Qin Ge to pick him up for this party, and he agreed tacitly and willingly. The postcard was just the icing on the cake. Even if the two had a relationship, he didn't want Qin Ge to be burdened. Go abroad as soon as he goes abroad, and break up with himself as soon as he wants to. He already has a good memory, and his only wish is the last line of that poem: "May God bless, another person loves you as much as I do."

It would be a good night, if Qin Ge hadn't received that call, if Chen Qiye hadn't heard that call.

Qin Ge sat on the bed opposite Chen Qiye, with his mouth tensed, holding the postcard in his hand.

Chen Qiye hugged his knees, looked at him and said, "I think we need to talk."

Qin Ge didn't look up, but still stared at the short Russian poem, and said, "I think so too."

His tone was not very good. Normally, Chen Qiye would have coaxed him softly. He liked Qin Ge so much. He was happy with his happiness and sad with his sadness.

Chen Qiye tried his best to make his voice sound more calm and stable: "Zhao Zhuo is your friend?"

Chen Qiye had met Zhao Zhuo before, and knew that this person would not be able to say a good word about him, so his worst plan was that Qin Ge was really his friend, and he agreed to be with him only to avenge his friend and to play with himself.

But Qin Ge said, it doesn't count.

Qin Ge was cooperative and told Chen Qiye how he contacted Zhao Zhuo, but he didn't say how those vocational high school students were taught by the people Lu Chong asked. It sounded more like Qin Ge took over their jobs.

But this possibility is actually very low, and Qin Ge is not short of money, so there is no need to help Zhao Zhuo monitor Chen Qiye.

Chen Qiye asked again: "Then why did he call you?"

"You heard it too, his father, that is, Zhao Yunhe is missing." The term "missing" is actually not accurate. Zhao Yunhe just suddenly resigned from his teaching job at Hangcheng Middle School, and refused to contact his ex-wife after the division of property. Tian didn't even answer his son's phone call, and he didn't know where he went.

There was a silence.Chen Qiye roughly guessed why Zhao Zhuo called Qin Ge. He must have suspected that Zhao Yunhe had come to find him.

"Then he did find the wrong person." Chen Qiye was talking about Zhao Zhuo. After leaving Hangzhou, he and Mr. Zhao went on a stranger's road and had no contact with him.

"Oh." Qin Ge showed no expression, "I told him that too, and you heard it too." The atmosphere gradually changed from subtle to embarrassing, making Chen Qiye weak and confused, and he couldn't figure out whether Qin Ge believed him or not.

"Then why... call yourself my food stamp." Chen Xiye's breathing was a little short, he pushed the new mobile phone aside, and said, "I never asked you what you want."

"Well, I know." Qin Ge looked up at him, "I believe you."

Chen Qiye blinked: "Then why didn't you tell me?"

Qin Ge didn't even raise his eyelids: "You didn't tell me how you helped Zhao Yunhe in the study that day."

Chen Qiye panicked and stammered, "What, what, what did you say?"

He was so frightened that he didn't have the agility to do math problems.He should first ask what Zhao Zhuo said, but he couldn't ask because of his sensitive and crumbling self-esteem.

Zhao Yunhe had been cowardly for most of his life, and the reason why he dared to take a chance on Chen Qiye was probably because he saw this.After the accident, Chen Qiye did not report it to anyone. Instead, he left Hangzhou, changing from the victim to the one who bears the consequences.

His heart was not strong enough to defend the trampled dignity, so he silently picked up the trampled dignity and transferred to another school.

He is more eager to escape and forget than to confront.Zhao Yunhe's concern for him is real, and the motive for trying to seduce him is also real. The two irrelevant identities of "father" and the perpetrator overlapped on Zhao Yunhe's body. He was seduced by someone he once trusted so much, how could he not collapse after he woke up, and felt that he was dirty and dirty for the rest of his life.

But he still wanted to live.

He tried every means to be self-consistent, and he did not hesitate to whitewash Zhao Yunhe's selfish desires as pursuit of the truth, and his cowardice as help.The words he said on the eve of the game were full of loopholes, but he was also braver than ever before. When Qin Ge was the one who listened and accompanied him, he at least dared to tell all the indescribable filth.

However, Qin Ge didn't express any opinions that night, but now he suddenly said that he actually cared all along.

"It's not what you think, no, anyway... nothing happened! Then Zhao Zhuo came in, and then, and then I cooperated with the transfer, and I didn't contact him or his father anymore."

Qin Ge's calmness was in stark contrast to Chen Xiye's panic. He said without hesitation, "You don't have to be so nervous. I will believe everything you say."

Qin Ge smiled mischievously: "Anyway, I'm not there."

Chen Qiye didn't blink his eyes, but froze.

They seemed to be at the two ends of the balance, and the one standing at the commanding heights unknowingly became Qin Ge.

"That's the kind of person you are," Qin Ge understood Chen Qiye, "You can't refuse anyone who treats you well, and you can give that person everything."

Chen Qiye wanted to say that was not the case, but in fact... it seemed to be the case.

"Then do it with me." Qin Ge immediately stood up and took off his coat, as if he was in a hurry to complete some task.Chen Qiye was stunned, and only thought of struggling after being pushed down by Qin Ge. After all, he is a man, so it is impossible for him to be powerless. Qin Ge held his wrists and shouted: "If you come today, you will fuck me!" ?!"

Chen Qiye froze, Qin Ge turned him over while he was in a daze, Chen Qiye tried to grab Qin Ge's hand pulling his pants, Qin Ge simply cut his hands back and tore off Chen Qiye's trouser string Wrapped around his wrist twice.

There was a cry in Chen Xiye's begging for mercy. Qin Ge didn't continue to tie him up when he heard it, but instead held Chen Xiye's swaying shoulders. Chen Qiye was really about to cry in pain, and he said aggrievedly, "You said no." will hit me.

Qin Ge violently pressed it again, and then let go completely.

He paced irritably on the empty path between the two beds. Chen Qiye was at a loss as to why things had developed to this point. When Qin Ge leaned over, his eyes were red and bloodshot.

"Are you here to show off to me?" Qin Ge smiled, as if he had been cheated, "I always thought you didn't know."

"what are you saying?"

"I can't pretend anymore? You can give me anything and you won't refuse me?" Qin Ge held the postcard in front of Chen Qiye, so close that he wanted to poke the sharp corner of the cardboard into his eyes, "I'm in vain I thought you really liked me, but it turns out that you just want to take revenge."

"What do you want to do, huh?" Qin Ge grabbed Chen Xiye's collar with the other hand, his eyes turned red, "I know what you want to do, you want to pull me down too, right, just like your father back then Seduce my dad like that, and you want me to be unable to refuse you."

Chen Qiye opened his eyes wide, his pupils gradually dilated as if he lost his life, and his heart stopped beating.

"It's fun, isn't it? If I haven't read the postcard Chen Wang sent to my house from Russia, is your next step planning to persuade me to go to Russia with you?" It turned out that Qin Ge used this tone when he mocked people, " Don’t change the place, what is there in Russia? Does Chen Wang just teach you these? I still think that Qin Siyuan will fall into this trap, and I will fall into it too.”

Chen Qiye still looked lost, flashing back to a certain night when Chen Wang packed his luggage when he was a child.He asked where Chen Wang was going, Chen Wang said Russia, and he asked who he was with, when Chen Wang put an oversized shirt in the box, he had a sweet smile on his face, and when he turned to himself, he was mean and impatient, saying no his business.

Qin Ge's hands clenched tighter and tighter, as if pinching Chen Qiye's neck, depriving him of his breath bit by bit.

Chen Qiye began to cough uncontrollably. As soon as Qin Ge let go of his hand, he fell lightly onto the bed, arched his waist to protect his red neck and continued to cough.

There were many tears in his eyes, and he looked very pitiful, but Qin Ge was unmoved. Standing in front of him, he tore the postcard into several pieces and threw it into the air at random, saying indifferently, "Why are you so confident, Chen Wang?" I have been ignorant of Qin Siyuan for nearly ten years, and I know you—”

Qin Ge paused.

Because he suddenly realized that if they really counted from the birthday party when they were five years old, they had known each other longer than their parents.

The room finally fell into silence again, only two people breathing without blending, and Chen Qiye burst into tears like that day under the persimmon tree. At this time, he still couldn't cry, only tears.

He propped himself up and sat up from the bed. There were still pieces of postcards on his lap. He picked them up, rubbed them in his hands, and said incoherently with his already thin back bent: "I really don't know... my dad and your dad ...I just...before I came here, I asked Chen Wang what gift to give to the person he likes, so he...he didn't know that I was in a relationship with you, he didn't know that you were Qin Siyuan's son, I never mentioned it to him You and I went to the same school, he should not know, I don't know, I don't know..."

Chen Xiye panted heavily, and gradually spoke, with the desire to vomit welling up in his throat.Instead, he knelt on the bed and kept kowtowing to Qin Ge, as if he wanted to apologize to Qin Ge instead of Chen Wang.Qin Ge gradually calmed down, and also found that there was something wrong with Chen Qiye's mood and behavior.

His heart softened, and he couldn't help but excuse Chen Xiye. Chen Wang is a male fox who thinks very carefully, and it is not impossible to keep Chen Xiye in the dark and play tricks on him.

And why didn't he hope that what Chen Qiye gave him was sincerity.If love is a game that needs to be played, every player hopes that he is the final winner.

He couldn't let Chen Xiye kowtow here all the time, reaching out to pull him up, but as soon as his fingertips touched the other's shoulder, Chen Xiye would hide and fall off the bed.

As soon as Qin Ge heard the dull collision, he ran over to help him without hesitation, but Chen Qiye still hid, moving his limbs and huddling in the right angle formed by the bed and the cabinet.

Qin Ge sat slumped two or three meters in front of Chen Qiye.He is a reasonable person, after a long period of calmness, he asked Chen Qiye: "You really don't know?"

Chen Qiye shook his body, shrank back into the corner where he couldn't retreat, and said dryly, "I know..."

Qin Ge's brows were furrowed tightly, wishing to give himself a hammer to wake up his mind, Chen Qiye said again: "...You don't have to do it with me."

Qin Ge was startled.

Chen Qiye seemed to ignore his existence, and babbled: "You just want to have a relationship, you can be with anyone."

Qin Ge saw another mark on Chen Qiye's tear-stained face.Chen Qiye closed his eyes in a state of exhaustion. He couldn't remember when he saw through Qin Ge's real plan.Qin Ge has never been entangled in sexual orientation, because he just wanted to establish a relationship with another person from the beginning to the end. During the period, the person who confessed was a girl, and Qin Ge was heterosexual; if the person who confessed happened to be Chen Qiye, Qin Ge Ge is gay.

Chen Qiye knew that this love was a dream that would wake up sooner or later, and he was willing to take the bait and give everything when they were together. Once Qin Ge wanted to break up, he would never break up.

He naively thought that he was the best candidate for Qin Ge, but only now did he realize that he was guilty of original sin.

He shouldn't be qualified, but why... why Qin Ge knows everything, but hates his father for destroying other people's families, and still...

On the verge of collapse and guilt, he asked Qin Ge in a back-to-basics tone inexplicably, "Then why...why do you still kiss me?"

At that moment, Qin Ge was dragged off from the high ground by Chen Qiye, and fell into the abyss through the golden lover's slope in autumn. There was no desire to play in the darkness, but his cowardice and moved sincerity.

He was afraid of losing, so he didn't dare to face his seriousness about this relationship.

And if he didn't really like it, why would he be afraid of losing?