sad li bai

An Ling sank into the soft sofa. The sex exchange around him was full of hormones, which made him feel a little sticky. The scent of powder was accompanied by the faces that were so smeared that he couldn't see the initial expression clearly. He missed Xu Ning's clean face face.Rather than spending his time among these monsters and ghosts, he is more eager to find a quiet place with Xu Ning, even if he doesn't say or do anything, just let him take a good look at the person he has missed for a long time. This is strong.But Xu Ning still had to go to class, and he couldn't suddenly withdraw from the circle he was in before, they all needed time, just wait a few more months.

He was holding a beer bottle in one hand, and his two long legs were curled up casually. Even if he didn't pay attention to this occasion, he still occupied the eyes of most people in the field.Even though everyone has never met An Ling's family, from An Ling's usual expenses and the attitude of the people in the school's teaching office towards his mistakes, everyone knows that An Ling's family has some background.Those beautiful girls are the youngest and most attractive group in this school. They rely on this to find their future, cherish them and wantonly exchange them for things they like.Their eyes always fell on An Ling from time to time.

And the masculine boys around them, intertwined with these girls, masking their blatant desires.

An Ling used to like this kind of unscrupulous occasions very much. The people here are all crazy men and women who have fun without getting involved and having a good time.But now he feels indifferent, he just thinks that passing the time, Xu Ning's class time is really difficult.He looked at the implication of those intimate actions, seeking some shared nights and excitement, he just found it extremely interesting.When he was with Xu Ning, even without the closest physical contact, he still felt that his heart had found a place to belong.Warm and safe.

"Who are you thinking about? Smiling so happily?" Wen Wen came to An Ling holding a glass of colorful flavored wine, and the men and women around An Ling automatically and consciously stepped aside to give Wen Wen their seats.

Wen Wen is considered a well-known girl in this circle. She has long legs and a thin waist, and she has a good temperament. There is always an elegant atmosphere on her body who studies art. Even if she has a good time, she is liked by many people. type.

An Ling was quite indifferent to this type of girl before, and had no impression of her. He only noticed her after he got together with Xu Ning. She is very caring.The nomination was commended several times.

But An Ling thought that he was not familiar with this girl, so he raised the corners of his lips, looked at the girl sitting next to him, and didn't say a word.But Wen Wen is not like ordinary girls, she felt embarrassed, she didn't seem to care, she took a sip of the wine, the sweet and slightly spicy liquid flushed her face as soon as it entered her throat, her face was rosy, and there was something wrong with it. There is a little girly charm in it.

An Ling didn't know what was going on, but suddenly thought of Yan Shu. It stands to reason that he didn't apply to as many schools as himself, so he should have returned earlier, and he was still on the way when he asked why.He was absent from him, and his interest was obviously no longer in this room. Wen Wen didn't know where her thoughts went. She could meet this man again and again, and he had a particularly memorable appearance.

"What's the matter, I'm not your type." Wen Wen saw that An Ling didn't seem to be very interested in her, but she was not the kind of girl who retreated easily. The deputy does not make it clear that you will not let go of your posture.

"I've got a date, so don't do it." An Ling didn't turn to her, and didn't look at her while talking. He just turned his phone, absent-mindedly, as if he didn't pay attention to her.Wen Wen was fascinated by this feeling, she never liked the kind of clingy boys.She opened her mouth, just about to speak.

A boy from the basketball team came over, put his arm around An Ling's shoulder, and joked: "Stop messing around, An Ling, who doesn't know that you have never guarded your partner before, let alone this time... "..., ummm" An Ling suddenly put the wine bottle in his hand directly into the speaker's mouth, interrupting what he was saying, he sat up straight, restrained his idleness, and returned to that aggressive expression in an instant. To the expression that makes people feel fierce,

"So many words, drink your bar."

An Ling doesn't mind at all that others know about his and Xu Ning's affairs, but it's not right now, the exam is in more than 100 days, and there are everyone in this room, once it gets out, it will definitely affect Xu Ning Yes, he glanced at the boy vaguely from the corner of his eye, and the other party sensibly stopped mentioning the matter. He got up and left with the wine bottle that An Ling put into his mouth, and looked back at An Ling frequently. expression.

Wen Wen is a very smart girl, she remembered Xu Ning who she met with An Ling in the hotel, she was curious at that time, Xu Ning's schoolwork should be very busy, and no matter how you look at it, she is not with An Ling. How can people who Ling can play together appear together.She raised a smile that was inevitable, and looked at An Ling provocatively.

"I didn't expect you to like that kind of taste, An Ling, is it too greasy for you to eat, do you want to change it?"

"Whether I change my taste or not has nothing to do with you. Don't talk nonsense. I never care about men and women." An Ling stretched out her hand and grabbed Wen Wen's wrist. She was shocked and spilled the wine on both of them. Ling's thigh was stained with dark alcohol, he didn't care at all, his voice was kept low, and his eyes were fixed on Wen Wen.

"This is my new dress, An Ling, it's useless to threaten me. I just need to say a word, and I'll rush at the people in this room. The whole school will know about it tomorrow. Do you think you'll still have the mood and energy to talk to me then?" Wen said. There was a red mark on Wen's grasped wrist. With a slight force, she broke free from An Ling's hand, and wiped off the alcohol with a tissue.

"First of all, you have to pay me for a dress." She looked at An Ling with a smile and said.

An Ling looked at the time on his phone, it was almost nine o'clock, Xu Ning finished class at nine twenty, and he had to go back.Wen Wen is still trying on skirts one by one with great interest. In winter, she just puts on leather boots with her two big white legs exposed.He ran up to An Ling over and over again and asked him if he looked good.

An Ling became a little impatient. Seeing that it was almost time for Xu Ning to leave school, he sat up from the waiting chair, stood outside the fitting room, and faced Wen who had entered with four or five skirts in his arms. Wen, shouted,

"Wen Wen, don't push yourself too hard, it's endless."

"I stayed for less than an hour. You are too impatient. Look at which girl buys clothes so fast." Wen Wen came out of the fitting room wearing a short white denim skirt. V-neck oversized sweater.Accompanied by a white denim skirt and a face full of youthful collagen, she is cute and delicate. She always feels that she is very beautiful, not the kind of public beauty, but a beauty with a personality in it, but Ann Ling turned a blind eye to this, he just became more impatient, frowning tightly,

"When did I say I would buy clothes with you? Find out the dress you wore before, and I'll buy you a new one. There are so many things." He flipped through Xu Ning's photos on his phone, The last time Xu Ning went to find him, he took a sneak shot when Xu Ning was asleep. He didn't use any beauty software, and it wasn't as vivid as the girl in front of him now, but he just couldn't bear to take his eyes away, so he put away his phone , without even looking at Wen Wen, "I'm in a hurry, if you don't buy it, go away, I don't have time to spend here with you."

"Stingy, how can a girl buy two of the same dress, let's wear this one." Wen Wen glared at him, then turned and went into the fitting room, took it off and gave it to An Ling.

When An Ling turned to pay, he saw the store's new model wearing a dark gray woolen jacket with a long suit collar and black jeans underneath, which looked elegant and casual. He looked down at his Pants, dark blue denim with a wet spot at the base of the thighs, it doesn't look very elegant, he glanced at the woolen coat and found that there is also a beige one, hanging on the shelf, he thinks that Xu Ning is very suitable for this One style, bought two.One for myself and one for Xu Ning, it looks like a couple outfit.Thinking of Xu Ning's surprised and happy expression when he received the gift, he felt that the irritability of being forced to buy clothes with Wen Wen has calmed down a lot.

When Xu Ning finished class, he followed the crowd out of the school gate. He stood behind the stone lion at the school gate and called An Ling.After the phone rang a few times, An Ling answered it. He didn't sound very happy, and there was a little impatience in his voice. "Ningning, where are you? Why didn't I look at you at the store opposite the school."

Hearing this, Xu Ning raised his head and looked across the road. He saw An Ling standing by the light sign at the entrance of the supermarket at a glance. After a while, he changed his clothes again, wearing a long dark gray woolen coat, The pants have also become black straight-leg pants, and white sneakers are worn on the feet.He looked handsome and fashionable, just as Xu Ning was about to say hello, he saw a girl standing next to An Ling, with long wavy hair and a pretty smiling face, wearing a white coat. She was carrying the same bag as An Ling's in one hand , put the other hand on An Ling's arm, An Ling lowered his head to watch her speak, and turned his face to Xu Ning,

"Ning Ning, Ning Ning, have you come out?" An Ling didn't hear the voice for a long time, so he asked again. He looked at Wen Wen who was holding his arm, and his expression was extremely impatient. The girl insisted on going with him Back to school, he didn't leave when he arrived, and kept dragging him to talk, An Ling didn't even have the strength to roll his eyes.

"An Ling, don't you say you don't know Wen Wen?" Xu Ning's voice was very soft, showing exhaustion. He felt that just standing here was more tiring than reading for hours, so he just Can stand there, motionless.

Don't you mean a dinner party?Why did I go shopping? I bought something from a family, and I still carried the same bag without any disguise.The distrust in his heart finally laughed out of the hole in his heart, pierced the vulnerable membrane covering that hole, and then crawled out like a poisonous snake living in that hole, Coiled and bitten in his heart.

"What, I don't know her at all, she's crazy. Stop making trouble, where are you?" An Ling glanced at Wen Wen, without the slightest emotion, just tired of her entanglement, he didn't intend to talk to this girl at all. The girl had a relationship, and he looked around for Xu Ning's figure, but found nothing.

"An Ling, I'm so tired, I'm really tired." Xu Ning squatted down, and the heavy and huge stone lion completely blocked his figure. He felt tired and even disgusted with himself who was so cautious, dark and jealous, and didn't dare to cry out. When other people saw his expression now, he felt that it must be extremely ugly. In the first 18 years of his life, there had never been someone or something that he wanted so much and was so afraid of losing. He never knew that one day he would worry about gain and loss And became so unbearable and vicious, full of the darkest and most obscene thoughts in his mind, he couldn't control himself.

Perhaps it was Xu Ning's tired voice that finally made An Ling realize that things might be different from what he had always thought, and that Xu Ning's uneasiness might be much more serious than he thought.

"Xu Ning, where the hell are you?" An Ling shook off Wen Wen who was still hanging on him, and strode towards the school gate.He was afraid that Xu Ning would say something he didn't want to hear, so he felt very uneasy, and he just wanted to find Xu Ning immediately.

"An Ling, are you staying with Wen Wen tonight, that's why I can't go?" Xu Ning was still squatting on the ground, leaning against the stone lion. Even though the wind hadn't blown yet, he actually felt a little cold.

"It's a fart, Xu Ning, don't think about it, I only like you now. Where the hell are you? Let's make it clear in person. You can't lose your temper by yourself."

An Ling angrily squeezed through the crowd who was the opposite of him, and walked to the school gate. In front of the gate were people rushing out of the school, shoulder to shoulder. They hurried past An Ling and squeezed An Ling. The body keeps leaning back.It was extremely difficult to find Xu Ning.And Xu Ning was right behind him, watching him go against the crowd and walk into the school.He straightened up, the numbness in his legs made him stagger a bit when he stood up, but he still supported the stone lion to stand up.

"I can't lose my temper in front of you, An Ling. When I meet you, I have no principles at all."

"Then tell me where you are quickly? Don't make trouble, baby, I like you the most."

"I don't doubt at all that you like me, An Ling, but there are too many people in your heart."

Xu Ning hung up the phone, he walked across the road and came to the door of the store, Wen Wen was still standing there, the girl's face looked moist and translucent in the night, Wen Wen looked at him with a smile, not at all Don't feel embarrassed.

"Xu Ning, do you want it again? Just like the No.1 of Meite."

"I'm just curious if you like An Ling or pick up my things?" Xu Ning was expressionless, but his heart was filled with disgust. The first time he saw Wen Wen in the hotel, An Ling lowered his head and opened the door of the room , Wen Wen looked straight at An Ling, her eyes filled with certainty.Since then, he has been extremely worried that this beautiful girl is a temptation that An Ling cannot refuse.

"Xu Ning, you said that he stayed with me all night and bought me a dress. When will he think of looking for you next time?" Wen Wen brought up the beautiful paper bag, and held it with An Ling. The same, with bright eyes.

"Xu Ning, you are not the same kind of person as he is, leave him sooner, and reincarnate sooner."

Wen Wen suppressed the smile on her lips, looked at Xu Ning, and gave him a serious warning.Just like Wen Wen knew that Xu Ning and An Ling would take the initiative to show affection to An Ling when they knew that Xu Ning and An Ling were together.Because his basic thinking concept is different.

An Ling and the others are all people who are used to playing around, and they are used to not taking it seriously, but Xu Ning is not good, he is still looking forward to a pure and beautiful love.There is no room for a little sand in his eyes, not to mention, Wen Wen knows that he is still so proud.She once witnessed that he turned over and over again because one of his paintings was approved by the teacher. In the studio near dawn in the second half of the night, he drew the paintings again and again until the teacher approved them.Such a person who is unwilling to go too far, even has such strict requirements on himself, it is not suitable to be with An Ling.

Not the same kind of person, heh, Yan Shu also said the same, it seems that all of An Ling's teammates think the same way, even if they don't say it, they always ignore him intentionally or unintentionally, everyone thinks so, Xu Ning himself I also know, but what to do, he likes this pair of shoes so much that he stepped on them even after he cut off his toes, and danced with the pain but was reluctant to take them off until the owner of these shoes came and said to him, Hey, your feet are bleeding, these shoes don't fit you.

Xu Ning's phone vibrated, he glanced at it, and hung up the phone.He couldn't answer An Ling's call at all right now, because he was afraid that after jealousy took over what he said, if he said something irrationally, he would not be able to bear the consequences.

He turned around and walked towards the dormitory, walking faster and faster, for fear of bumping into An Ling.Finally, he ran quickly and rushed into the dormitory.

When Xu Ning returned to the dormitory, Fang Hua just came out of the bathroom. He looked at Xu Ning who was running out of breath, and jokingly said, "There are wolves chasing you, you are running so fast."

Xu Ning didn't speak, his face was pale, he had lost a lot of weight recently, his palm-sized face didn't have any excess flesh, and he looked weak and delicate.

"Are you not feeling well?" Fang Hua walked over, trying to reach out to support him, Xu Ning looked as if he would faint at any moment.

"It's okay, I'm fine." Xu Ning staggered Fang Hua's arms and lay on the bed without even taking off his schoolbag.

Fang Hua walked to Xu Ning's bed and was about to speak when An Ling suddenly barged in.

An Ling's expression was cold and hard. He had a sharp look, and when he was angry, he pressed his face, looking cold and scary.As soon as he rushed in and saw Xu Ning lying on the bed, he walked over and grabbed Xu Ning's arm. Fang Hua reacted and quickly grabbed An Ling's arm. "Xu Ning is a little uncomfortable, if you have anything to do, we can talk to him tomorrow."

"Get out of here, don't worry about our affairs." An Ling waved Fang Hua's hand away, turned his head, and stared at Xu Ning, his eyes were full of suppressed anger. The first time someone hung up on the phone unclearly, and then he couldn't find anyone. He felt that he needed to have a good talk with Xu Ning.He can accept Xu Ning losing his temper because of anxiety, but it's not good if he keeps talking to himself and can't listen to other people's words at all.

"An Ling, I don't want to talk today." Xu Ning followed An Ling to grab his arm, but didn't try to resist at all. An Ling's hand has been practicing for a long time, and he can't help but use a lot of force when grabbing things. The scratching hurt him very much. He used to think that this kind of pain was nothing, but now he feels that it hurts badly.He staggered An Ling's gaze that was staring at him closely.He looked like he didn't want to talk.

An Ling still grabbed him.He looked back at Fang Hua, "Give me 10 minutes, please go out."

Fang Hua's eyes widened in surprise. An Ling acted confidently as if this was his and Xu Ning's dormitory. He glanced at Xu Ning. Although he didn't know their relationship, he vaguely guessed it. After thinking about it, he felt that This kind of thing is estimated to have to be resolved by themselves.

"No matter what, you must not do anything, Xu Ning has been uncomfortable recently."

"I know, I won't." An Ling pointed to the door impatiently, Fang Hua sighed, opened the door and went out, closing the door behind her.

As soon as the door was closed, An Ling let go of Xu Ning's hand, and he let Xu Ning fall on the bed again, turning sideways to face him.He kicked off his shoes and stepped on the bed.He pressed Xu Ning's shoulders to flatten him, making him face him, straddling him, kneeling on both sides of him with his legs apart, looking down at Xu Ning's face condescendingly, Xu Ning didn't want to be seen by An Ling With his own frustrated expression, he raised his arms and covered his eyes.

"Xu Ning, you can't keep losing your temper for no reason like this." An Ling didn't open Xu Ning's hand, his voice was cold and hard, he never understood Xu Ning's thoughts, he thought that he only needed to be sure that Xu Ning liked him, and the rest It would be okay, but in fact it is not.Xu Ning's inexplicable performance always made him feel helpless and at a loss, and he didn't even know where Xu Ning was offended.

"An Ling, I'm so scared. I like you so much that I'm scared." Xu Ning's voice trembled, his eyes felt moist with his hands, and he also knew that his unreasonable appearance was more than that of a girl It was annoying, but he didn't know how to release the depression and anxiety that would worry him about being abandoned at any time.

"Xu Ning, you can't condemn me because of my past, I know I used to play crazy, but now I really want to be with you." An Ling felt powerless, he didn't know how Xu Ning would be like this Minding the things that he was unable to change before, he didn't know how to make Xu Ning feel at ease.

"An Ling, please give me some time, let me think about it." Xu Ning's tears flowed down his cheeks, falling into the pillow without making a sound.

"What do you think, what do you do after thinking about it?" An Ling grabbed Xu Ning's arm, not wanting him to dodge again.But suddenly saw Xu Ning's red eyes.He panicked for a moment and let go of Xu Ning's arm.

Xu Ning simply closed his eyes, the tears sticking to his thick eyelashes fluttered slightly with his breathing, and then fell down, An Ling suddenly felt powerless, he thought that being with Xu Ning was a happy thing for both of them, How could the proud and indifferent Xu Ning be forced into this state.

"Just because of Wen Wen, did you become like this?" An Ling suddenly lost the strength to pursue Xu Ning. His purpose was to get together with Xu Ning well. If Xu Ning was unhappy, he did it. Everything just doesn't make any sense.

Xu Ning didn't speak.He closed his eyes, silently rejecting the exchange.

An Ling glanced at him, he got up from Xu Ning, got off the bed, put on his shoes, opened the door and went out.Fang Hua was leaning against the door. When he saw An Ling open the door, he left without looking back.Just turned around and entered the house.Xu Ning was still lying on the bed in that position.There was a clothes bag on the ground, and inside it was a beige woolen dress.

He thought for a long time and felt that the fabric was very familiar.But can't remember where I saw it.He suddenly remembered that when An Ling passed by him, the clothes he took with strides to get off work were also woolen, dark gray.

After a while, he opened his mouth. "Ningning, did An Ling buy the clothes in the bag on the ground for you?"

Xu Ning opened his eyes, and saw the half-fallen bag on the ground, which was thrown aside, with beige wool exposed inside. He stretched out his hand and pulled it out. It was a men's long bag that was the same as An Ling's. The woolen coat and black jeans inside looked like the one An Ling changed tonight. He opened the collar and saw the size on the label, which was the same as what he usually wears, so he hugged the clothes in his arms , stop talking