gray love

The furthest distance in the world is to be infatuated with love, but not be able to say I love you.

Two weeks later, I played my part as a good student, without causing big storms or making the sky dark. I still look forward to those three hours every night, and I still have insomnia at night.

She didn't have the slightest awareness, and I disguised it very well.

However, I will draw blood from the ordinary stare at her, I will feel pain when I see the textbook preparation book full of her, I will peek when she turns around, and after she says goodbye to me, I will say: "I love you, you know that?"

do you know?

The autumn rain came as promised, and I looked at the wet sky outside the window, feeling a little worried.The driver went to pick her up, but I was inexplicably flustered. I was afraid that the driver would not be able to take good care of her. I was afraid that she would not wear enough clothes. I was afraid that a drop of rain would chill her body.

I was pacing in the study, distracted.

There was a light knock on the door, and I opened the door in a panic, only to see Uncle Wu standing at the door.

"Miss." Uncle Wu nodded politely at me.

"Uncle Wu, where's the teacher?" I asked eagerly.

"Teacher Yu has something to do at home, and I'm going to ask for leave these days."

"What's the matter? What's the matter? What happened to her?" My heart was in a ball, and all kinds of bad pictures appeared in my mind, sick?fell?Or... Married?

These can drive me crazy.

Seeing that my expression was wrong, Uncle Wu hurriedly said: "She is fine, she is her family member, she is sick and hospitalized, and needs to be taken care of."

I let out a breath, but I was still worried.

"Do you know which hospital it is in?" I asked Uncle Wu.

Uncle Wu said blankly, "I don't know about that."

I frowned and sat in front of the desk in a daze. After Wu Bo left, I shut myself in the room.

She must be very busy now, she is alone, and she is in a state of desperation... Thinking of this, my heart feels like being burned, I took out my phone and fixed the contact on her name.

No, my heart suddenly skipped a beat, she still has her boyfriend...

I leaned on the back, as if my soul had been sucked out of my body, my eyes fell on the desk, where there were my neatly arranged books and the steaming hot tea I had prepared in advance.

I can't just stand still like this. Even ordinary students have an obligation to care about their teachers. This idea gave me a lot of courage, so I pressed the dial button.

"Hey?"

When I got connected, my ups and downs made me incomplete.

"Hey... old, teacher, where are you...?"

After being silent for a while, she suddenly realized: "Ah, it's Huihao, the teacher has something to do these two days, so I can't make up lessons for you. Don't miss your homework..."

The eagerness of the "teacher" made me interrupt her, "teacher, where are you?"

"Oh... I'm in the hospital."

"Which hospital?" I pressed, hoping she would tell me.

"What? Why do you ask so clearly?" The teacher said mischievously. Even though she is very worried now, she is still very optimistic in front of the students, but how can such a disguise deceive me?

"Oh, teacher, just tell me." I almost used a coquettish tone, which surprised me that I could make such a voice.

The teacher may also be stunned, and the microphone was quiet for two or three seconds.

"You have to know?"

"Well, I have to know." I said firmly.

"Okay then, I'm in H Affiliated Hospital."

I hung up the phone, ran to the bedroom, found a coat and went out.

Because my home is in a villa area in the suburbs, it is impossible for taxis to come and go, so I went to the garage of my home and rode a motorcycle.

I was shivering in the cold along the way, and the pattering rain scrambled to get into my neck and cuffs, but I couldn't control that much, and I pushed the accelerator to the maximum. I only hoped that I could see my teacher as soon as possible. --my sweetheart.

When I rode to the affiliated hospital, I suddenly remembered that I had to bring something to see a patient, so I staggered to a nearby store and bought some supplements.When I came to the hospital again, I found that I forgot to ask the teacher which department and which ward, so I cursed myself and called the teacher again to ask the specific ward.

When the teacher saw me, she was carrying a thermos to fetch water, and I appeared in front of her wet.

"Why are you wet?" The teacher put down the kettle and reached out to wipe the rain off my face.

"How did you come here? Could it be..."

"Motor..."

"Are you sick?!" The teacher was furious and her cheeks were flushed. I saw her angry and cute look and thought it was funny, so I lowered my head.

"Hurry up and get me into the room!" The teacher dragged me into the ward.

Her parents looked at us in surprise. As soon as I saw them, I immediately put on a big smile and said enthusiastically, "Uncle and aunt, I'm here to see you."

I put the supplements I bought next to her, and Teacher Yu was stunned, probably startled by my enthusiastic loud voice just now.

"Come on, come on, and bring so many things," the aunt complained, "Oh, look, you're still wet."

"Mom, I'll take her out to change clothes first." Saying that, Teacher Yu pulled me to go out.

"Yes, yes, go and change clothes, don't freeze this young man."

Three black lines grew on my head, and they thought I was a man.

I didn't have time to explain, so I was pulled out by the teacher.

"I didn't tell you which hospital I told you earlier?" The teacher was nagging beside me.

"It doesn't matter if you don't tell me, I can look for them one by one." I said cheerfully.

There was a severe pain in her left arm, and I knew that she had started to enforce the law violently again.

"I'm going, it hurts!" I screamed in pain, and everyone around me looked at us.

"It deserves it." The teacher gave me a blank look and quickened his pace.I hurriedly followed, although it was painful, but I wanted her to treat me like this every day because of the "badness" in my heart.

We went to a shopping mall nearby, and when I entered the mall, I went straight to the men's clothing section, which made her disgusted and said that I would not find a partner in the future, and I said, I will, I will one day.

I will make you my object one day.

It was almost eight o'clock when I returned to the ward. I chatted with her parents for a while, introduced myself, corrected my gender, and cared about their bodies.

Uncle Yu is a retired train driver. Because of his stomach problems from eating irregularly when he was young, they have relapsed now, causing them to seek medical treatment everywhere. They heard that the affiliated hospital in City H has specialists for treating stomach problems, so they came here from City K Irregular treatment, Teacher Yu is the only daughter in the family, so she naturally shoulders the burden of taking care of her father by herself.

With me now, whether you have him or not, I can't let you bear it alone.

When it was time to say goodbye, my uncles and aunts still reluctantly let me go, hehe, who made me sweet, I was secretly narcissistic.But it was really too late and I was afraid of affecting their rest, so I said goodbye to them after a few pleasantries.

Teacher Yu is going home too, so let's go along the way.She still has two classes tomorrow, and she has to buy vegetables and cook after class.Of course, I've already figured it out, I can't help her in class, I can't do it for her, but I can still do the grocery shopping. I hope the reply I receive tomorrow is not her rejection.

It's just the two of us in the elevator.

This space allows me to have short-term enjoyment.

I stood behind her and looked at her fair neck under the ponytail, and said:

"teacher…"

"Huh?" She turned to look at me.

I looked into her eyes and said with some melancholy: "I thought... you asked for leave to get married."

The teacher laughed, and said shyly, "You really want to drink wedding wine?"

"I don't want to drink." I pouted and muttered coldly.

She looked at me in surprise, and the atmosphere was a little awkward.

"You invited me to a wedding wine when you got married? It's too hasty, I'm very picky." I joked pretending to be arrogant.

"Stinky boy! Court your death!" Teacher Yu stretched out his hand and tapped lightly on my forehead.

"Hey, teachers can't be so violent." I said to her seriously.

"It's undeniable to deal with a problem like yours, and students occasionally have a little violence." The teacher smiled mischievously at me, and the elevator door opened, and she turned and walked out.

"I am a problem student in your heart." I murmured behind her.

"Come out soon? What are you doing in a daze?" She turned around again, with a hint of reproach in her eyes, but the corners of her mouth turned up in a gentle smile.

The eyebrows are green and the mountains are green, and the eyes are cut with water.

I walked out of the elevator and said with a smirk, "Has anyone ever told you that you look like Park Shin Hye?"

"Ah? Is there? Isn't it? My face is so big..."

When I walked out of the hospital, the rain outside had stopped, and the driver waiting outside waved to me.

I made a gesture in response, and then made a gesture of invitation to Teacher Yu: "Miss Yu, it's not easy to take a taxi at this time, let the students take you, please—"

"You are the lady!" Teacher Yu glared at me and walked towards the car.

I shrugged and looked at her back enviously.

When I got home, I took a shower and lay down on the bed.There was an unread text message on my phone. I opened it and it was from Teacher Yu. I was so excited that I jumped out of bed.

"Brat, are you home yet?"

I quickly replied: "I've arrived a long time ago, I just saw the text message, don't read it."

Soon I received another reply, "Go to bed early, good night."

"Good night"

How can I have a good night...

Another complete insomnia, thoughts rolling over my nerves over and over again, burning my body.

I get up and get out of bed, and do push-ups on my stomach.

I didn't know how many times I did it, I was sweating profusely, but the longing for her did not evaporate with the sweat, but became more and more serious and profound.

At 23:[-] in the morning, I wandered into the study room with my eyes open, and the piano in front of the French windows hadn’t been moved for a long time. Fortunately, someone cleaned it every day, otherwise it would have been covered with a layer of dust.

I lifted the cover of the piano and touched the keys lightly with my fingers. The loud piano sound sounded. I listened carefully, but several notes were out of tune. I searched through boxes and chests to find my tuning kit and adjusted it carefully.

At 36:[-], I finally finished the adjustment, but I still didn't feel sleepy.

I sat by the piano, imagining the scene of me and Yu Xiao being together in my mind, I thought that if I could see her every day, and be happy with her every day, I would die.

I stared at the black and white keys, my eyes glazed over.

Suddenly, a thought aroused my nerves, I stood up, walked to the computer, and quickly wrote an email and sent it to my dad.Still the same as last time, he replied very quickly. After reading his reply, I smiled, and a burst of drowsiness hit me. I collapsed on the floor and fell asleep.

I slept soundly and didn't even have any dreams.

The phone buzzed, and I opened my sleepy eyes cursingly, took out the phone and connected the call.

"Who is it?" I said angrily.

"Who are you talking about? Your teacher!" The other party said angrily

When I heard it was Yu Xiao, I bounced off the floor as if being electrocuted.

"Ah, it's the teacher... Teacher... I'm sorry, I just woke up." I nodded and bowed to the phone, as if she was in front of me.

"What time is it? Sorry, you have to be late for class again later?"

"Ah, I'm getting up now..." She didn't know how late I was going to bed because I missed her.

"Also!" Teacher Yu's voice raised another octave, "Are you sick? Why did you send someone to deliver so many things to me?"

"what?…"

"Ah what... How should I collect so much chicken, duck and fish? Aren't you embarrassing your teacher?"

This sentence made me hear the distance, but I have already practiced invulnerability, and I am used to her talking like this.

"The uncle who buys at home has to go to the market every two or three days, so I'll let him take it for you by the way. It won't take much trouble." I explained.

"But…"

"You don't have to be embarrassed, you can retire, but that uncle may be about to lose his job." I said in a cold tone.

"You..." The teacher was at a loss for words for a while, and didn't speak for a long time.

"I hope you don't do this next time." Teacher Yu hung up the phone after finishing speaking.

I can hear it, she is angry, but... what can I do, since I can't say I love you in a rampage, then I will care about you vigorously, even if it is your boredom and hatred, but as long as The result is good for you, what else do I care about?

Disturb your worries, worry about your worries, if the ending does not have our happiness, then at least, you can have a steady stream of happiness.