gray love

I slept until noon, and I didn't go to school. Maybe that chaotic school will say goodbye to me forever.I looked at my phone and there was no text message or phone call. I laughed at myself. It is impossible for her to contact me. What am I expecting?Expect to be lost?

But I still waited, cut constantly, and waited in chaos.

I got up to wash up, and went downstairs to have some lunch. My mother actually called and said that I hadn’t made any movement for a while and was afraid that something might happen to me. After asking about my situation, I hung up in a hurry. I suddenly remembered a sentence: I married a daughter-in-law and forgot my mother. It’s true. These days, I miss Xiao even more than I miss my parents. Naturally, I won’t cause trouble. Maybe, I found a daughter-in-law who can calm me down, I was flirting and smiling foolishly.

Since she was angry, she should apologize. I felt a little relieved, so I picked up the car and rode to the hospital.

She has no classes in the afternoon and must be in the hospital now.

I bought some apples, yogurt, etc. I remember she said she likes apples and yogurt.

Maybe it's because I bought too much, and my fingers turned white from being strangled by plastic bags, but my mood is as bright and warm as today's sunshine.

I saw a golden retriever on the road. I stopped and teased it for a while, and suddenly found that I had changed. I was no longer a prison and self-enclosed. At least now I have a pursuit, at least I see the sun.

Because of her, Yu Xiao.

I have already thought of [-] ways to apologize to her, and if she doesn't forgive me today, I have to forgive.I stood in the elevator with a smile, feeling extremely excited. I feel that I am not going to apologize now, but to propose a marriage.

I pursed my lips, staring at her surprised expression when she saw me, imagining her moving eyes after I delivered the "speech", and couldn't help laughing out loud for a while, the people around me looked at me with crazy eyes, I quickly lowered my head in embarrassment.

The door of the elevator opened, and I grinned and walked towards the ward. As I got closer, my heart was beating fast, and my palms were sweating.

The door was ajar, I stretched my head to look inside, and a figure made me feel as if I had been struck by lightning.

A strange man was standing with Yu Xiao, and his aunt and uncle were talking with them, their spirits shining.

The way they looked at him was different from when they received me yesterday, and the way Yu Xiao looked at him was different from when he looked at me.

I know, I know what this look is, this is the look of a family...

They are family.

I stepped back and leaned against the wall next to me blankly.

"Hehe" I wish I could slap myself twice!

Turning around, I left, there was a trash can next to me, and I threw away the messy things in my hand.There are too many things, standing on the trash can, mocking me sarcastically.

It seems to hear someone calling my name, hehe, who will remember my name mercifully.

I climbed onto the roof of the hospital where no one could laugh at me.

But there are strange voices coming from my ears

"She doesn't love you, you're an idiot."

I took out a cigarette, put it on my mouth, and didn't light it. I was afraid that the flame would jump around and laugh at me, right in front of my eyes.

I dare not shed tears, I am afraid that the tears will wriggle and mock me in front of my eyes.

My world is still gray and white.

No, I don't even dare to hope that I can have any world.

Without the love of my parents, how could I shamelessly ask others to love me!

What am I doing, just have fun...

My eyes were red, I was smoking a cigarette, and I didn't know where to hide my hands, even I was afraid that the sun would be dirty.

Maybe the sun is also avoiding me, she has no choice but to fall on me, the air is also, she is helplessly sucked into my lungs...

Sorry, sunshine, air...

For several days, I didn’t go to school. The old school didn’t have my student status, and I didn’t want to go to the new school. I hid at home every day. I refused when the second and third children invited me to the stadium. I was listless when I took the documents at home. My mother asked me if I was sick, and I smiled and said no, how could I be sick.

I just got my soul taken away.

Without a soul, where is the disease?

Uncle Yu went home from the hospital, and Teacher Yu resumed evening tutoring, but I was not in the mood.

At [-]:[-] in the afternoon, the driver had already picked her up, and I stood in front of the French window of the study in a daze.

The phone rang suddenly, it belonged to the fifth child, and it was very noisy on the opposite side. It turned out that the bar she and her daughter-in-law opened was about to open, and I was asked to add to the fun. I readily agreed, even if I put aside the brotherhood, I would I don't want to feel the heartache of seeing her again later, why not... hide away.

I whizzed my motorcycle and came to the bar of the young master, the fifth. When I first arrived, my eyes lit up. It turned out that she opened a gay-themed bar. It was so fucking cool. The fifth was very courageous, so I went in excitedly. up the bar.

The grotesque and flickering lights, the deafening, loud and sharp music, the trendy beauties, the toasts and the wine are flying.This is the feeling I want. When I saw the second child surrounded by beauties, it seemed like they were reborn.

Because I was the last one, they forced me to blow a bottle. I didn't refuse. There is nothing like wine at this time.

After a bottle of wine, I was still sober. They pulled me next to the beauties. I have always been indifferent to women except Yu Xiao, but today I suddenly want to play with them. I want to know, these women, what are you doing? what do you want.

But every time I want to hug them, Yu Xiao pops up in my mind, Yu Xiao is different from them, I emphasize silently in my heart.

I picked up a bottle of wine and drank it down, maybe, maybe alcohol can make me forget her.

Three bottles, four bottles, five bottles, I can still see her when I open my eyes.

I'm not drunk yet.

The fifth child and the others saw that something was wrong with my drinking and began to persuade me to drink less.

I was half-drunk and half-awake and said, "I'm happy today, and I don't want to persuade you to drink. Fifth, if you don't want to ruin your brand, let your elder brother drink enough."

"Brother, you are poisoned by alcohol, we don't care about you, just drink." The fourth child provoked me, but it was useless, I kicked her and continued to drink.

Finally, she was gone in front of my eyes. I smirked and chatted up the pretty girl next to me, but of course my hands were not honest.

"Hui Hao!"

She was no longer in front of him, but her voice could be heard in his ears.

"Fuck! It's not over!" I jumped up, grabbed a wine bottle and threw it on the ground.

There was no sound around except music, I looked up and saw a broken wine bottle landed at a person's feet.

It's her, why is it her again!

"It's you again," I shook and looked at her, picked up another bottle of wine and watched her drink.

When is there no more you in front of me, when will I stop again.

Snapped!She reached out and knocked down my wine bottle, wow, this time it was so real.

I looked at her and she looked at me angrily.

No, this is not a hallucination, she is here...

She did come, but...so what...

I laughed, the laughter was horrible, I staggered and almost crawled out of the bar, I don't want to see her, I don't want her to know how much I miss her, I don't want her to see the empty space in my heart Look, I don't want her to sting me from head to toe again, I don't want, I don't want her to know how much I want to be with her, even for a day, no, an hour, a minute.

The remaining rationality pulled me to the street, farther and farther away from the bar, I felt relieved, and finally, I fell down.

In the dark, my stomach felt uncomfortable like drinking sulfuric acid. I swallowed my saliva and opened my heavy eyes.

The bright white around me hurt my eyes, I blinked for a while to get used to it, and saw the surroundings clearly.

This is a hospital, I sat up with difficulty, I had a splitting headache, and the smell of alcohol in my nasal cavity was still strong.

"Miss, you're awake." Uncle Wu asked with concern.

I glanced at Uncle Wu and reached out to hammer the hammer head: "Why am I in the hospital?"

"Teacher Yu sent you here. She stayed here all night. She has to go to class this morning. She contacted me, so I came here." Uncle Wu said.

"Oh." I replied blankly, got up and put on my coat, "Let's go."

It was this affiliated hospital again. I looked at the hospital hall where I had walked side by side with her, and I suddenly wanted to cry.

Tears gushing from the bottom of my heart, like a fountain, dilute the surrounding air...

When I got home, it was [-]:[-], it was time for her to get off work, and just as she was thinking, her phone rang.

It's Yu Xiao.

i got the call

"Hey…"

"Hi, are you feeling better?" Her voice was calm and a little...cautious.

"I'm fine, I'm fine." I said without a tone.

"Well, that's good." She was silent for a while and said, "Don't drink so much next time."

"Are you my teacher?" I asked back.

"Ah...?" She asked confusedly, "What?"

"You are just my teacher and not my parents, why do you care about me so much." I said coldly.

There was no sound from the microphone for a while,

"I like to take care of you." She said this suddenly, I don't know if I was annoyed or moved.

"Oh," I smiled, "It's ok, don't you like to control me? I will do as you wish."

I hung up the phone and sat on the floor.

I don't want to entertain myself in this game, since you like it, then I will pull you to play together.