gray love

When filling out the papers for arts and sciences, I chose liberal arts without hesitation. I always feel that truly wise people will understand those obscure and awkward words, and then close their eyes to enjoy the pleasure of tacit understanding with the soul in the words. The one who is so cocky that he thinks he's an incomparably smart guy.

Because I chose liberal arts, my mother called me to ask me what I thought, and I said to her: "You and the elders are both reasonable, but you don't take it for granted that my happiness value is increasing day by day like an increasing function, so I I won’t make the same mistakes as you, I choose Wen, and I may go to the University of Political Science and Law in the future, I decide my own future, so you two can do your scientific research with peace of mind.”

Mom didn't speak, and after two or three seconds she suddenly said: "You girl, you don't know how to fall in love, do you?"

I lowered my head and smiled and said: "I didn't talk about it, but there is someone who is unforgettable to me and needs me to wait. Hey, don't you know about this? Mom, I know that even if I escape to the ends of the earth, you will treat me The situation is well known, not to mention that we have been so close in the past few months."

Mom didn't speak, and after a long while she suddenly said: "We can't control your emotional affairs, whoever you like is fine, your dad and I just hope that you are well, don't hurt yourself too much, we Distressed..."

I hung up the phone with my mother, and my tears couldn't stop flowing. The fashionable Ms. Cui (mother) who used to wear the same skirt every day is now wearing the same work clothes and a silver frame In the scientific research room, the glasses pouted and stared at the computer to calculate the data. Does she have gray hair? , Mr. Hui (dad) has it?Or did Mr. Hui get a white beard?I... well, I don't even know.

Regarding choosing to study law, this is what I have thought about for a long time. I always feel that one day I will use it, and it is at a moment of life and death. It has become my goal. Homosexuals are not allowed to marry in China, and the law does not allow it. But if I become a political and legal person, I think I will fight for the legalization of homosexuality every day and every second.

Who says dreams are out of reach, people who don't take the first step don't talk about dreams at all, and now I have taken the first step for my dream, and I will take every step in a solid manner in the future.

It was a holiday, and Xiao also came back. I rode a motorcycle to pick her up at the North Railway Station. After seeing her, she looked very preoccupied. I asked her what was wrong, and she said that her boyfriend did not agree to break up.

My chin almost hit my feet, and I asked with a stunned expression, "Why...you want to break up with him?"

She pouted in confusion: "What's the matter? Break up...Is it not possible?"

"Why? Didn't you go to...Shanghai to get along with him?"

"What," she looked at the crowd, "Who did you hear that I went to Shanghai just for him?"

"The rumors are all..."

Xiao stretched out his hand and patted my head: "Stinky boy, you have done a lot of homework for this in private, right?"

I embarrassedly scratched my head.

"Before I met you, I started to get admitted to that school in Shanghai, but now, I got admitted." She smiled, looked at me suddenly with intriguing eyes and said, "Actually, it's all thanks to you. "

"Me?" I pointed to myself in surprise.

"That's right, who made me teach the champion of the National Composition Competition, and I became the national excellent instructor naturally, you are my excellent grades, did I owe you a blessing?" She suddenly held out I squeezed the flesh on my face with one hand, and said while pinching, "You are so smart, is it made of meat?"

"Hey, it hurts..." I grinned away from her hand and rubbed my face.

"Then why did you break up with her?"

She suppressed her smile and frowned slightly and said: "We are not in the same channel, let alone in the same world. I even find it inexplicable what he did, so we must break up."

Her eyes were extremely firm, which made me suddenly relieved, and finally broke up. My expression did not fluctuate much, but my heart was already decorated with lights and festoons, double dragons playing with pearls, and firecrackers going off.

"But he didn't agree no matter what. Before I came, he was still pestering me and wanted to talk to me."

We walked over to my motorcycle.

"What is there to talk about?" She muttered dissatisfied.

I got on the motorcycle, handed her the helmet and said nonchalantly, "Actually, we have nothing to talk about."

"Huh?" she asked in surprise.

"Except being in love," I added, with a smirk.

She glared at me, put on her helmet, sat in the back seat, and put her arm around my waist.

"Set off."

The handsome humming of the engine, I was driving smoothly, and she pressed her body tightly to my back, which made me feel refreshed and imaginative.

When we got to her house, we cleaned up the house together.

"Come and live at my house for the next two days. You pay the rent and return the house." I stepped on the bench on the table and laboriously repaired the lamp on the ceiling of the hall. Xiao was helping me below, reminding me to be careful from time to time. .

"We're not close enough to live under the same roof, are we?" she said.

"But, it's summer vacation now, other teachers have gone home, this building is almost empty, how can I rest assured that you are here?" I handed her the tool and carefully got off the table, went to the switch and pressed the switch , the light turned on, Xiao smiled and said: "It's okay, it's just one day, I'll go home tomorrow."

"Then I'll stay here." I said beggingly.

Xiao looked at me helplessly: "I'm not a child anymore, besides...you are here, I can rest assured?"

She avoids my eyes and puts away the tools.

"Why... can't I reassure you?" I said aggrievedly.

"Go and wash your hands."

In the end she didn't come with me, and I wasn't allowed to stay.After we cleaned up the house, she did the cooking and I watched the news in the living room.

Hearing the sound of cooking, I got up and went to the kitchen. Looking at her busy back, I suddenly felt very kind and familiar. I saw this scene half a year ago with my weak eyes. At that time, she and Now she is still as graceful as a dragon swimming, as graceful as a frightened bird.

I really want to hug her from behind.

But I held back, after all, she is not my woman yet, and I haven't become the person she can rely on.I want to control my blood Fang Yong like a gentleman, that is my self-esteem and respect for her.

After dinner, we sat on the sofa and watched TV for a while. It really felt like living a life, but happiness is always short-lived. At ten o'clock, she yawned and asked me to go home. I dawdled and begged her She showed mercy and allowed me to stay overnight, but in the end, she kicked me out of the house.

I lingered in front of her door for a while, and left helplessly. When I got to the second floor, I saw two or three cigarette butts. I didn't care and went straight downstairs to her house, standing in the dark neighborhood. , looking up at the window where only her house was still lit, she refused to leave for a long time.

The phone rang and I connected.

"Why don't you leave?" She said harshly.

"I miss you, I can't go away." I said affectionately.

"Go back quickly, we will meet tomorrow, go back and have a good rest, okay?"

"I want to stay with you." I turned on the coquettish mode again, so that I also got goose bumps all over my body.

"Disobedient, right? If you are disobedient, don't come to see me." She seemed angry, and I quickly gave up: "Okay, okay, I'll go, don't be angry, I'll go now."

After hanging up the phone, I looked at her window sill reluctantly, hesitated for a while, and finally left.

I will never forgive myself for leaving that day.

At around five o'clock in the morning, my cell phone rang suddenly, neighing abruptly in the room.

I connected, and it was a miserable cry.

My pupils were almost dilated, and when I woke up, the desk lamp had been smashed by me.

I smashed open her door like crazy, the chaotic room was full of shards of glass, the items in the room were in a mess, I had one bare foot, and the shoe was lost somewhere.I stepped on shards of glass, and blood spread across the transparent shards, bloody footprints burning on the floor.

I went into the bedroom, my stomach churning with rage, my heart pounding hard on my chest.

I saw the messy bed and... blindingly mottled blood.

Xiao, leaning against the wall under the window sill, the glass window was shattered, the curtains were blown by the wind, desperately trying to escape from its grip.

She looked at the floor in despair. Glass shards and tears cut off my arteries one by one.

"Xiao..." I followed the shards of glass and walked in front of her, half-kneeling, with my knees pressed hard against the sharp edge. She was holding the phone in her hand, barefoot, her hair was messy, and the corners of her mouth were bruised.

"Teacher..." My voice trembled, but she didn't respond and still looked blank.

My eyes were red, I wanted to pull her soul back, but I don't know if her soul is still in this huge room.

I was full of remorse, gathered all the anger and regret on my fist and slammed it on the floor, the glass shards pierced into my flesh and blood, and my fingers fell into a pool of blood.

"You're bleeding." She said suddenly, with a desolate expression on her pale face.

"Xiao," I looked at her nervously, "Come on, let's get out of here."

She nodded, the light in her eyes seemed to have gone out.

I put my coat over her and carried her out of the house.

That man, whom she once relied on, insulted her.

Last night, as soon as I left, he knocked on her door, Xiao saw through the cat's eyes that it was him, and opened the door without much precaution.

They quarreled again, he hit her, Xiao rushed out of the door, but he was pulled back abruptly, and then insulted her on her bed.

Xiao's tears soaked the sheets, and he left. At three o'clock in the morning, she finally regained her strength, staggered to the bathroom to take a shower, then picked up the stool and smashed the mirrors, windows, and photo frames at home.

She couldn't see her shadow, she turned off the light and curled up in a corner of the bedroom.

She suddenly thought of me, big drops of tears fell instantly, and bloomed sadly on the floor.

She was frantically looking for her phone, her hands were shaking, her tears were dripping on the phone screen, one second, two seconds, three seconds, she heard my voice.

She finally wailed, and when the dawn came, she said: "He fucked me."

She fell asleep peacefully on my bed.

I watched her bruises all over her body, her teeth were biting fiercely, her lips were blue, the blood in my fingernails, flesh, and soles of my feet was slowly drying up, her chest was heaving, and the fierce light in her eyes split the sunlight that was desperately trying to escape.

She woke up, and I crouched by her bed and held her hand.

"You're hurt." Tears welled up in her eyes, her face was frighteningly pale.

"I'm fine, Xiao, I'm sorry." Tears filled my eyes, "I didn't protect you well."

I choked up, and she reached out to wipe away my tears: "No, you're not wrong, I'm too stupid, I didn't expect this man..."

She also choked up, and I suddenly raised my head and said harshly, "Xiao, don't worry, I won't make it easy for him!"

"No!" She looked at me in panic and begged, "Don't let anything happen to you."

"Don't worry, I promised you that I won't be violent again, and I won't this time either."

She smiled desolately, and closed her eyes in reassurance.

I will not be violent, but I will take revenge.

Xiao stayed at my house for three days, and I returned her house. She said that she once decorated the house with the man who hurt her. She didn't like the original windows, so he changed them for her. He didn't like the original mirror, so he changed it for her, and he also bought that bed for her and put it away.

That's why she destroyed them all.

I set that bed on fire, and I called my second child to get me two steel pipes.

After sending Xiao off, I set off for Shanghai.

After a few days of squatting, I figured out the routine of that bastard Liu Chaofeng. On July 7th, I put on the courier clothes I had prepared, put the steel pipe on my back, took the pre-sealed package, put on a baseball cap, and walked to the employee community of his unit.

At 55:[-], I lit a cigarette and took a deep puff opposite his neighborhood. I raised my head and spit out bursts of smoke towards the sky. The weak sunlight shone weakly on my eyes full of hatred.

At eight o'clock, I threw the cigarette on the ground, stomped it out, and walked to the opposite side.

I rang his doorbell, and the brown door stood still, with my head down, my baseball cap covering my eyes, and I waited quietly for a response from inside.

I rang his doorbell again, and this time there was finally movement in the house.

"Who?"

He opened the door, shirtless, and he seemed to have just woken up, I smiled, just right, I hit hard.

"Hello, your courier." I handed him the package in my hand, "Please sign for inspection."

"Express? I still have express?" He unwrapped the package unpreparedly, and a wicked smile appeared on the corner of my mouth.

"What is this?" He took out a piece of written paper from the package and read, "In 30 seconds, you will break 12 ribs, plus an arm and a leg."

"This...this is..."

I raised my head and stared at him gloomily. He saw the expression under my baseball cap and reacted suddenly, but it was too late. I kicked him into the room hard.

I walked into the house, locked the door with my backhand, pulled out the steel pipe from behind, took out the timer from my pocket and pressed start, the time started to go backwards from 30 seconds, I slammed the timer on the shoe cabinet next to me, walked to Next to him who was about to get up, I mercilessly hit his ribs with all my strength.

He fell to the ground violently, screaming and begging for mercy in pain. I threw the steel pipe at his ribs again, and he blocked it with his arms reflexively. He covered his arms and screamed again. I stuffed the cloth ball in my pocket into his mouth, pulled out the other steel pipe, and beat him hard.

The timer rang, and 30 seconds had elapsed. I smashed the timer with a steel pipe, and turned around to stand in front of him. At this time, he was dying, with tears all over his face.

"I'm sorry, I broke one more by mistake." I removed the cloth from his mouth with a dark and terrifying smile, "You'd better not move, or your ribs will pierce your lungs, your spleen , your intestines."

He said weakly: "Who... are you? Why... hit me?"

I put away my smile and revealed a fierce look in my eyes: "Because you are a beast!"

I pulled his hair violently, he wailed in pain, and I said word by word: "If you dare to touch her again, I will definitely collect your body properly!"

His eyes had already started to blur, I shook his head violently and raised his head towards me: "Remember my face, if you want to take revenge, please do it as soon as possible."

I slammed his head to the floor, and he didn't move, probably fainted.

I got up and hid the steel pipe, put on my hat, opened the door, and went out.

I opened my blood-colored eyes, exposed to the sun, and hatred filled me. I knew that I had stepped on a wrong road, but ten thousand deaths of such a beast would not be able to relieve the hatred. Even if I spend the rest of my life in After spending time in prison, I don’t regret beating him like today, because I understand how heartbroken it would be for a woman to be brutally deprived of the most important things. Give it back to him!