gray love

Summer trees are lush and lush.

The summer birds came to my window and sang, and then flew away; the boundless desert pursued the love of a green grass, but she shook her head and flew away with a smile.Yes, all gone.I couldn't understand Tagore's poems before, but now every line of his poems, every sentence seems to flow in my blood.

I ran on the road, sweating profusely.

The sun was just right, the morning joggers retreated steadily, and the radio on the roadside faded away, but the refreshing and good time here was torn up in my rampage without any sense of disobedience.

Finally, I saw the rickety door.

I didn't knock on the door, I knew she was no longer inside.I laughed out loud, and slapped myself twice. I was self-righteous and thought that I had touched her, and I was so smart that we would walk together. It turned out that everything was my utopia and my fantasy!I really deserve it!

The phone rang, it was her, I connected.

"Hui Hao," her voice was apologetic. I didn't want to hear this tone, because after hearing it, my heart was inexplicably torn apart, as if being nailed to the wall by steel nails.

"Your call is really timely, and I will tear down your house a little later."

"Sorry…"

"Can I not apologize?" I lowered my head to hold back my tears, "I deserve it..."

"Don't say that..."

"Are you in Shanghai?" I interrupted her, "I'm going to find you now."

I hung up the phone, went to Lao San's car dealership to pick up my motorcycle, filled up the gas, put on my helmet and rode towards Shanghai.

I drove the car to the bank of the Huangpu River, and it was already scorching sun in the sky. Under the scorching sun, I called her.

She picked it up quickly.

"Hui Hao, where are you? I call you and you don't answer, I'm worried about you." Her tone was urgent.

"I've arrived in Shanghai, I'm sorry to make you worry." I said coldly.

"You wait for me, I'll go find you."

I looked at the sky, and the sky seemed to understand my mind at this time, and thick altocumulus clouds drifted over to block the fiery sun.

The cloudy sky enveloped the wind-blown roof, I stood where I lost my first kiss that night, and recited: Tomorrow is separated by mountains, and the world is boundless.

The cement floor rubs against her shoes, the wind blows her breath to my nostrils, she comes to see my scarred heart.

"Hui Hao."

"Yu Xiao," I said, looking at the bustling and luxurious Shanghai Bund, "I want to chase you, and I will not give you up to anyone from now on."

"What am I? Telling you to come and go?" She said, I didn't see her expression.

"I choose to leave in this way, it is cruel to you, but... I also have my life, my choice, so I can only be sorry to you."

I turned around and stared at her sharply: "Whatever you want, you can go anywhere, but listen to Yu Xiao, I won't give up on you again, unless I die!"

Her tears that were blown away by the wind were like pearls scattered all over the ground, and her hair danced, clinging to the air miserably: "We can't..."

"What you once said 'I will not give up on you', now I will give it back to you." I interrupted her, my stubbornness burned the whole roof, I couldn't hear any word "no", I only had her in my eyes , only to get her.

"No, you don't know, Hui Hao," she shook her head, continuing her denial, "I'm not the good teacher you imagined, I'm not."

She hesitated to speak, and I had a bad premonition that what she said next would cast an indelible shadow on my heart with black ink.

"I can ignore yours, I can abandon yours, but... because of the contract with your parents, I have to do that." The first time I saw her tears were endless like a fountain, but I was like a dry Dried in the wind like a pool.

"I follow your Weibo and pay close attention to you. If you cause trouble, I will go to you, take the initiative to build a good relationship with you, and what I said, Huihao, are all fake and hypocritical, all because of me and you There was an agreement between the parents - to teach you well no matter what."

I lowered my head and didn't speak.

"I wear a mask, too." She could barely speak, tears streaming down her face.

"Don't force me to leave you." I said softly and palely.

"You better leave me, I don't deserve your love."

"I said, unless I die." I backed away abruptly, "But, if I upset you, I'd rather die than die, so..."

I continued to back away, and behind me was the edge of the roof.

I have never heard the sound of my head exploding, but I can imagine the scene of brains splattering, blood claws and claws desperately fleeing from my body, as well as my open skull, the track of my heartbeat that I can no longer find, and I My soul would stand over me and look at my corpse, laughing at my ugliness and unrecognizable appearance.Then she, whom I will never see again, will have no more worries.

One more step, I felt the precariousness, I felt the call of the god of death earnestly.

Xiao opened her frightened eyes and shouted loudly.

"No one will bother you anymore, Xiao." I said, eyes wide open.

"Okay, then I'll come first!" Xiao suddenly rushed to the rooftop, and suddenly realized that she was not joking, her feet were almost hanging in the air, my scalp felt like it was exploding, my heart was in a ball, and I rushed forward and hugged her .

When she reached a safe place, she suddenly turned around and slapped me hard.

There was blood on the corner of my mouth, and the slap made my head buzz.

"This slap is from me for your parents!" Then, she slapped me again, "This slap is from me to you!"

I held the blood in my mouth, the sweet blood, and looked at her.

"I'm sorry." I lowered my head, this time she undoubtedly woke me up.

"But," I raised my head, continuing my stubbornness, "Since I can't die, even if you take off the mask, Xiao, I still love you."

Her eyes trembled like a flash in the pan, but the feelings she wanted to conceal were betrayed by her trembling body.

"Just now you said that you are not worthy of me, now, how can my childish behavior make me worthy of you? So let me chase you, whether you agree or not, I will chase you." I suddenly hugged her, ruthlessly He hugged her hard.

"Teacher, Yu Xiao, I can't live without you in this life." My dry lacrimal glands finally spewed hot tears, soaking her shoulders.

When I got off the roof, the sky was already overcast.

"It's going to rain," I said, "it should be raining at this time."

"Hungry?" she said, looking at my crusted lips.

"A little bit." I smiled, pulling the corner of my mouth.

We sat down at a pan fried shop, she went to a nearby pharmacy to buy some medicine, I ordered a meal and waited obediently for her.She came, sat down beside me, gently wiped off the blood scab around my mouth with a wet towel, and then carefully applied it with lotion.

Her eyes were red and swollen, and I said distressedly, "I made you cry again."

"Don't talk." She scolded, "What if you get the medicine in your mouth?"

I obediently shut up.

"You have to take good care of yourself and don't play petty temper." She said to me suddenly while eating.

"Yeah." I silently agreed.

"Your boyfriend, he finally changed you." After a while, I said dully.

She froze for a moment, put down her chopsticks, and a cloud of melancholy rose in her eyes again.

"Originally, I thought... I would be the first person to change you... But... I'm always so arrogant." I smiled wryly, laughed, and dodged my eyes.

"If I were a man, would you be with me?" I looked up at her, eager for her answer.

She didn't speak, picked up the chopsticks again, and put a piece of fried rice in the bowl in front of me.

"If there is no if, even if there is, I am still your teacher."

"Not anymore," I said, looking at her. "Did you ever love me?"

She looked at me suddenly, my shadow flickered in her pupils, and then her long eyelashes drooped again and said, "No."

As if I already knew the answer, I smiled and said, "Let's eat."

She looked at me in a panic and said, "Why are you laughing, really not."

"I will look for you anytime, Xiao." I smiled, a smile as if I had realized something.

"I'll be back in two days. I'm just here to report. When everything is settled, I'll be back..."

"Move." I said for her without looking at her.

She was silent, and I suddenly said as if remembering something: "That boyfriend of yours...has he ever hit you?"

She looked at me in surprise and said, "No."

I let out a breath and asked again: "Then...does he eat soft food?"

She thought for a while and said, "Actually...we don't spend a lot of time together, most of them are in different places, and we eat soft meals..."

She hesitated for a while and suddenly changed her tone and said, "But he loves money."

"You really love money?" I was shocked.

"What's wrong?" she asked suspiciously.

I shook my head and said, "Nothing, nothing."

I thought of a question that had been buried in my heart, but it was hard to say it out. I leaned on the backrest and hesitated for a while, and finally got up the courage to say: "Have you... had that with him?"

She opened her eyes suddenly and said angrily, "What are you talking about, you little bastard!"

"If you don't answer, it's a default." I took a sip of soy milk as if nothing had happened.

"How could...we...how could it be...we're not married yet..." She blushed, and finally she was speechless and kicked my leg hard.

"Then will you get married?" I asked sternly, but she looked at me, just sighed and didn't answer.

I don't know if they will marry, but I know I will never let them marry.