gray love

I opened my eyes, but a bottle of 46-degree vodka made my brain more and more awake.

I lay on the floor, tears scorching the cold floor, my vision blurred.

The music in my ears was beating on my eardrums, and I still had my blood-red eyes open, breathing the erosion of alcohol, lying there sprawled like a dead man.

The music stopped suddenly. I thought the CD was finished, so I fumbled for my CD player. When I saw the CD in the CD player was still spinning tirelessly, I realized that my headset was missing.

I put down the CD player, and I saw her figure under the dim standing lamp. She was holding my headset in her left hand and stroking my face with her right hand. Can bear the power of this bottle of spirits, so I fell down again.

Later, I could only be at her mercy. I watched her put me on the bed, take off my shoes and my coat, and then wipe my face.

I stopped crying. In front of her, I suddenly had no tears. I looked at the ceiling silently and couldn't say a word.

I had a splitting headache, but when I saw her, my heart began to ache again.

I feel sorry for her, I feel sorry for her busy figure, and I feel sorry for her sad expression.

Xiao, tell me, how can I smooth your frown?

She didn't answer, of course she didn't, because she didn't know what I was thinking, and I, I already knew her from her minutiae.

"Is it better?" Xiao sat in front of the chair she brought, looking at my dark pupils and said.

I feel like I'm drunk because my throat can't make a sound, but my brain is so clear, I want to talk, I want to tell her I'm fine, I've always been fine, but I don't even have a mouth Open up.

I look into her eyes and she looks at me.

There were some ripples in her amber pupils. At this moment, in the shadow of the light, I could clearly see that she was crying.

I am surprised, but I have no expression.I wanted to reach out and wipe away her tears, but I was still powerless and indifferent.

I just let her cry like this, did I scare her?Why is she crying?I guessed, I pondered, I, who had always claimed to know her well, suddenly lost this "superpower" that I was secretly proud of.

She held my hand, like a lover who is about to leave, holding her hand and looking at her tearful eyes, she was speechless and choked.

She guarded by my bed, sat by my bed, held my hand, she was tired, and fell asleep on the back of my hand.I opened my eyes, I hadn't slept all this time, I held my alcohol, finally, I felt the cells in my whole body were awake, I sat up slowly, and gently removed the pillow under her warm The back of the hand on the hot head, I smiled, laughing at her cuteness, I stroked the hair on her face, and looked at her still sad face with distress.

I got out of bed, put on my shoes, leaned over and picked her up, and gently put her on the bed, she suddenly opened her sleepy eyes and looked at me, I was stunned, but she closed them safely again, asleep.

Maybe it was the trust in me, she was so peaceful, I smiled slightly, covered her with a quilt, turned off the light, and exited the room.

After returning from Shanghai, the relationship between Xiao and I suddenly became wonderful, and her enthusiasm for me caught me off guard.Sometimes she will take the initiative to ask for a ride, and then ask a lot of questions about my life and study, and also take the initiative to give me some advice. Whenever she gives me some advice on life, I will say badly : "It's quite lenient, do you want to be my wife intern?" She was taken aback for a moment, and when she realized it, she bashfully tapped my head.

However, I met her more than once in the piano room. She was sitting blankly in front of the piano. I stood outside the window and could see clearly. There was gloom, hesitation and endless sadness in her eyes, but when When I stood in front of her and called her to wake her up, she raised her head and saw me, suddenly all her worries were swept away, her expression was relaxed and light, and she smiled like a different person: "You are here, sit down."

Her exuberance made me wonder if I had just misread her melancholy.

In the past, the place I hated the most in the entire H city was school, but now I am looking forward to going to school every day, looking forward to seeing her, looking forward to her angelic smile and the subtle feeling when I meet her eyes.Now she is taking the initiative to send me good night. I used to send her messages on time and on time, and then she would reply to me. Now her "throwing in her arms" made me suddenly feel that she also loves me. The feeling of being tempted.

On the night of June [-]th, Xiyu Wei'an sent me a message on Weibo: late self-study after school, downstairs of the teaching building, old place, see you there *^o^*

I smiled complacently, hehe, you finally revealed your true face of Lushan, Xiyu Wei'an is you, Yu Xiao.

After self-study and school in the evening, I ran to the teaching building where I often stopped her. Unexpectedly, she was already waiting there. She saw me and waved to me cutely. I rushed through the crowd Standing in front of her, he smiled mischievously at her.

"Xi Yu Wei An."

We looked at each other and smiled, a perfect match, a tacit understanding.

"Let's go." She said, and we walked side by side. Then, one of her actions made me dumbfounded. She raised her right hand and gently wrapped my left arm. At that time, we were all wearing short sleeves, which belonged to couples. The skin-to-skin contact between them once again awakened the little deer in my heart.

"Are you going to martial arts class?" Xiao asked.

I shook my head: "I won't go, I'll finish the first stage of classes, and I'll go again during the summer vacation."

"Oh, let's go together then."

"Why are you so happy?" I asked.

"Is there?" She walked in front of me and turned around and said, "I think you are the same as me."

Sitting in the back seat of the tram, she chattered non-stop, but most of them were advice on how to review the college entrance examination and diet and daily life.

I turned my head and said loudly: "Teacher, don't talk about it. There is still more than a year to go to the third year of high school. I have forgotten to say it now. Then you will teach me by hand."

"Can you still forget what I said?" She patted me on the back lightly.

"By the way," she said as if she had remembered something, "you haven't forgotten what you promised me, have you?"

I slammed the brakes of the tram and stopped the car.

She got out of the car, and I put the car on the side of the road and said to her: "I remember every word and expression of yours."

"Are you going to confess again?" She looked at me meaningfully.

"I love you." I said, in the passing crowd, beside the neon-filled streets, in the wind-blown summer, my affection bombarded the whole city.

She looked at me, and there was a flash of emotion in her shy expression, but her lowered eyes seemed to be stained with sadness for a moment.

"In the barbecue restaurant, I promised you that I would be a unique and sunny me, and I have not forgotten. On the rooftop, I promised you that I would always maintain the current positive energy, and I have not forgotten either." My gentle Laughing, she nodded in satisfaction.

When I got downstairs to her house, I found out that she went back empty-handed. I was puzzled and said, "Huh? Where's your bag? You won't be working overtime today?"

"Take a break once in a while," she said, looking at me.

I touched my face and said, "Is there something else on my face? You keep looking at me."

"No, see if you can't do it." She was angry, but her eyes didn't move away from my face.

We were silent, but she still had no intention of leaving. I asked strangely, "Teacher, do you... have something to say to me?"

She lowered her head, and I couldn't see her face clearly under the dim light. When I walked in, she suddenly raised her head and smiled: "Goodbye."

She turned and walked into the corridor without looking back.

"Going so fast." I muttered in dissatisfaction, and then I laughed, I laughed at her cuteness, and the relationship between us is deepening subtly, who said that fish can't love seabirds, who said that water and fire must not be related Rong, I looked up at her lighted window and said, "But you have to trust me, trust me...Pampas grass is as tough as silk, and a rock cannot be shifted."

When I got home, I turned up the home stereo to the maximum, and the rumbling rock filled the room. I went to the kitchen and poured a glass of whiskey with ice to celebrate the love I was about to reap.

I always smile inexplicably, that night, when I said good night to her, I smiled, and then I got up from the bed, went to the bathroom and took a shower, I looked at the water on my fingers Wen, laughing, I walked out of the bathroom and sat on the empty sofa, laughing.I didn't fall asleep smiling until three o'clock in the morning.

The next day, I got up on time and showed up at the gate of her community on time, but I didn't meet her. I lamented my bad luck helplessly and walked away.

When I was running in the morning, I was looking for a lot of teachers standing on the playground, and I was surprised to find that she was not there. What happened?She is sick?asked for leave?I had a very bad premonition choking me, until a strange teacher stood on the podium, I suddenly understood.

"Students, I am your new head teacher. Your old head teacher, Mr. Yu, is very honored to be admitted to a high school in Shanghai..."

I stood up with a bang and rushed out through the back door.

I finally understood that the "goodbye" you said was really goodbye.Yu Shenyan Yao Tianya Road, you still left me, leaving my shell in this cold and warm city that knows itself.You took my heart away, and I was like a dried-up corpse, waiting for the storm, waiting for my headshot by a gun, waiting for my body to stink and rot, but you still left without looking back.