gray love

Outside the elevator stood a bewildered mother, and two or three other people followed her.

"Mom..." I looked at her in surprise and fear.

"Why are you here?" Mom asked, but her eyes quickly passed me and looked at Xiao. After she recognized the teacher, her attitude suddenly became very kind, "Hey, the teacher is here too."

I turned my head to look at Xiao, she and my mother smiled and nodded.

"You... come here..." Mom was a little confused, "Did Hao Hao cause trouble for the teacher recently?"

"Mom," I complained, "I came to Shanghai to participate in the competition and brought my teacher to play."

Xiao snorted lightly, I knew what she meant, she was here to play an hour ago, but now...

I lowered my head with a guilty conscience, my mother looked at us, and said enthusiastically after being dazed: "Go home, your father is also at home, let's get together."

"My dad is here?" I showed the expression of hearing the arrival of aliens, "Why is he back when he is free?"

"Let's go home and talk about it. I'm planning to go back now." After finishing speaking, my mother said to Xiao politely, "Teacher, would you like to stay in the Bishe for a night?"

I didn't look at Xiao, I really didn't have the face to face her.

After several refusals, Xiao finally agreed that my mother was willing to go back with us.

The hotel's luggage was picked up by the secretary, and we shared a car. Along the way, my mother and Xiao chatted very happily. Of course, most of the topics were about me, about my study and performance in school.

When I got home, dinner was ready. Dad was looking at the documents in the living room. I coughed. He looked at me and said, "I'm back."

"It should be I who told you back." There was something in my words, but he ignored me and greeted Xiao directly.

At the dinner table they had a great chat with Xiao, and Xiao mercilessly revealed all the bad things I had done, of course I didn't care, she just held her breath in her heart and let her do it, but then she also praised me Quite a few, it made me feel guilty in my heart.

How perfect would dinner tonight be without my urge.

Dad saw that I was silent, knocked on the table and said, "Boy, I just know how to eat, and toast your teacher."

I looked at him in astonishment. Dad stared at me seriously with commanding eyes. I looked at the valuable red wine in front of me and picked it up helplessly.

"No, you don't need to be so polite..." Xiao hurriedly declined, and his father smiled and said, "Haohao corrected the evil and returned to the right, you deserve a toast."

"Father, I didn't kill and set fire, but I repented."

My dad stared at me and said, "Which murderer and arsonist have you seen that can make the whole city of H have a police force like the day you dragged your car!"

I had nothing to say, and turned to face Xiao, she looked at me, but I didn't dare to look at her, I lowered my head, leaned over and poured the crystal clear red wine into the goblet in front of me, then picked up the glass and pointed at Xiao Said: "Teacher, thank you for your painstaking efforts in cultivating me in the past few months, making me, an ignorant dude, put down the butcher knife and correct my evil ways. I will be grateful for your great kindness, and I will never forget it..."

"How about you recite your lines? You speak in a different way." Dad glared.

"I drink and drink... Teacher, I respect you." I quickly drank the wine in the glass, looked at my father in awe, and sat down.

"Drinking so strong will hurt your stomach." My mother still cares about me.

"Next semester, we are going to send you to a martial arts class to learn martial arts." Dad took a sip of his wine.

"Learning martial arts again?" I realized that it was not good, "But I study very hard."

"Study can be put on hold, but martial arts must be learned."

I let out a breath and smiled, "Have you started researching again? Will I become a victim of your research one day."

Xiao looked at me suspiciously and then at my parents.

"You have to learn to protect yourself." Dad said sternly.

Seeing the tense atmosphere, my mother quickly changed the subject: "Stop chatting, the food is getting cold, eat quickly. Teacher, eat too, don't be too polite, treat it as your own home here..."

After dinner, I came to Dad's study alone.

"dad."

He raised his head from a large pile of data files, saw me, and his eyes regained a trace of kindness.

"Sit down." He took off his glasses and pinched his temples.

"Are you going to study again?" I said gloomily.

"Yeah." He nodded, "I came back this time because I was afraid that our technology would be leaked to those foreign devils."

"Are we going to flee again?"

"No, son, now that Mom and Dad have made their career bigger, no one dares to threaten us anymore." Dad vowed.

"But why do you still let me learn martial arts?" I raised my eyes and looked at him questioningly.

He was silent, took out a cigarette and lit it and said, "Didn't I explain it, you have to learn to protect yourself."

"Isn't it okay not to do research? We don't need money now." I begged.

"It's not a matter of money or not. What our country lacks is our own technology, especially in the IT industry..."

"I don't want to hear any big reasons, I just want to know when we can eat and chat like today every day." I said with red eyes.

He took a sharp drag on his cigarette, and then spit out as if with all his strength:

"You are my child, what your mother and I can sacrifice, you must sacrifice too."

...

I squeezed my empty palm and dragged my heavy feet as I walked along the empty corridor. The guest room where Xiao lived was lit and the door was ajar. I reached out and covered the carved doorknob with my hand, and tears blurred my eyes. Put your hand down, turn around, and leave.

I pushed her away myself, I said, but my voice choked up.

I came to the balcony, looking at the dry swimming pool downstairs, in a daze.

I took out a cigarette, held it in my mouth like my dad did, and then didn't light it.

She doesn't like me smoking, I laugh, laughing so haggard.

For a long time, I heard a murmur in my ear,

"Hui Hao..."

I opened my eyes wide and turned my head in surprise. Xiao was standing next to me holding my coat.

"Old...teacher..."

I almost cried out, the primitive feelings buried in the bottom of my heart were ready to come out in my eyes.

"It's so cold outside, why don't you even wear a coat?" She handed me the coat in her hand, and I took it gratefully.

She looked at me and said, "Do you want a fire?"

I shook my head helplessly and took the cigarette out of my mouth.

Putting on the coat, warmth enveloped me in an instant.

"Teacher, I'm sorry." It was the same apology.

She turned around and looked into the distance with empty eyes: "It's useless how many 'sorry' you say, whether you forgive you or not, things have already happened."

"I don't ask for your forgiveness, I just hope that you don't hate me, and you don't treat me as a frivolous person." The mist I spit out rhythmically spread out, and scattered in our ears.

She smiled and said, "No, you are still a child."

child?I'm not, I used to be stubborn to argue with her, but now I'm exhausted and speechless.

I was silent, and she was silent, and the silence made me feel bad.

"Why did you go to freshman year of high school at the age of 17?" She finally broke the silence, but she hit the nail on the head.

That's something I don't want to mention.

"Isn't it because I can't keep up with my intelligence?" She smiled, but I didn't.

Seeing that my expression was not right, she put away her smile and frowned and asked, "Is there... something wrong?"

"I didn't go to school when I was seven years old, and I didn't resume school until I was nine years old." I dug out that painful memory and spread it out in front of the person I love the most.

"When I was seven years old, my parents and their team finally made a breakthrough on the topic they were studying when they were students. Ha ha, actually, I also know that it has nothing to do with the IT industry they are working in now. It is just a cover. They really The research is on a certain chip technology, the first domestically produced, to curb the monopoly of foreigners, so guess how much it is worth?" I looked at the confused Xiao and continued, "It's worth so much, the gangsters are after us."

Xiao looked at me in shock, and I continued: "In those two years, we kept receiving all kinds of threats, even blatant attacks, so we ran away, we wandered, and finally two years later their research was The world recognizes that the company they started became famous overnight, and we became rich overnight.”

"It was also that year that I started to practice Taekwondo. The purpose was to fear that I would be killed one day."

I paused to sort out my emotions: "Now, they let me learn martial arts again, oh, maybe, maybe I will live that kind of ups and downs again in the near future, thank God for allowing me to live another day."

"No." She shook her head and said with red eyes, "Now... now your family is not like before, so it is impossible to be like before."

Her voice was trembling, maybe she was also doubting her words, but, seeing her moist eyes again, I suddenly wanted to... comfort her.

"Teacher," I said, "I believe in you."

If there was no kiss two hours ago, I think I would hug her, and she would hug me, but now, we can only comfort each other with our eyes.

"Although your parents live in two places, they still seem to be in a good relationship." She said, and I suddenly guessed what was on her mind. She and her boyfriend also lived in two places, but from her words, it can be seen that Their relationship may not be as good as imagined.

"Have you ever heard of intellectual sex?" I said looking at the sky.

"Sapiosexual." Suddenly her eyes lit up, "I see."

We looked at each other and smiled. At this moment, I suddenly felt how elegant and elegant the writing of "Hearts and Sympathies" is. Maybe she also had a momentary intellectual love for me, just like the day when we were talking about poetry together, I clearly felt it. When it comes to the emotions she wants to hide, but now, when we all jumped out of the beautiful and prosperous circle that day, there is still a barrenness in front of my eyes.

My parents and their values ​​match, and the intellectual wrestling in love is also at the same level, so they are attracted by each other's intelligence, and they walk together, and it is impossible to separate.

Thanks to the fact that they are men and women, if they were replaced by Boya and Ziqi, Sherlock and Watson, they would not be as lucky as they are now.

What about us?I looked at the starless night sky, held the cold railing, looked into her eyes that I couldn't figure out, and said softly: "So... what about us?"