so called love

On March 4st, a customary school day came.There are two printed A[-] papers in black and white on the door of each senior grade, announcing who is assigned to this class.In this way, at a glance, the class is divided.

There must be someone who is not happy not to be assigned to the same class as the person they like.Not being assigned to the same class as the person you like means that you cannot be with him for 8 hours.

Xiao Xia lives in a dormitory by herself.Zhang Xixi lived off campus, which was planned last semester.They are not in the same class, nor in the same dormitory.

In April, a certain satellite TV held a singing competition, and Ding Mu resolutely participated with a guitar on his back.Stumbling all the way from the audition to the national finals with original songs, there was nothing to sing.Singing her own songs repeatedly will be suspected of lack of talent, and she hopes to give the audience a sense of freshness. She thinks that they will not feel fresh when they listen to her songs for the second time.Choose someone else's song from the vast sea of ​​songs and know that you will definitely not have someone else's shadow when you sing someone else's song, because it will definitely be out of tune.She could only sing songs they hadn't heard before.She thought of Zhang Xixi, and the song that was used to express her love.So, she asked Tui Wubo and Zhang Xixi for a song.

Then, on the day when the first round of the national finals began, "Maybe there will never be that day" was released, and on TV, the author of the lyrics and music was unknown.

Because this song is no longer used to express love, it has been restored to the way it was at the beginning.This song helped Ding Mu break into the top ten in the country.

The game was on and off.The second game, the third game, the fourth game of the national finals... Ding Mu was not eliminated, she herself was tired.In these competitions, Zhang Xixi's songs were sung, such as "Dear", "I'm Not Fuel Saving", "Missing Attractions", "Lemon Green Tea" and so on.On TV, the lyrics and composition are signed by Zhang Xixi.Fortunately, Zhang Xixi has composed eleven or twelve songs during the few months of learning guitar, otherwise it seems that the supply will be in short supply.

Because the words "Zhang Xixi" appeared too frequently on TV, people began to wonder who Zhang Xixi was, and his relationship with Ding Mu.

Ding Mu competed on that side. Because of his outstanding results, the school began to pay attention to this side, and even wrote a special article to report it at the flag-raising ceremony on a Monday.For a while, Ding Mu was famous in the whole school, the kind of fame that everyone in the school knew.

Immediately afterwards, at another flag-raising ceremony on Monday, Zhang Xixi was also notified unexpectedly. The little girl who presided over the flag-raising ceremony also read out the "essence" part of Zhang Xixi's lyrics in a whiny voice, "Attractions Now we used to have no pastimes together, the miss is forever, the scenery is always seductive, let me think about you now" "The lemon green tea by the basketball court is full of your thoughts, every time a game is played , I'll drink it like I'm kissing you" and so on.

For a while, Zhang Xixi became famous in the whole school, including the kind that Xiao Xia also knew.

Ding Mu finally won the championship. It was the first time that an original singer won the championship in the years since the competition was held.Maybe it has something to do with the fact that this term is a referendum for PK.Logically, Ding Mu signed with the agency behind the game.She became famous.

On the day when she went back to school to go through the formalities of leaving school and tidy up her things, she found Xiao Xia and offered him an olive branch.

"From the time I met you to the present, I have always liked you, and now I am finally able to support you. 'Nurture' just expresses my feelings towards you, 'I am afraid of melting in my mouth, afraid of falling when I hold it in my hand', and May I go?" Ding Mu asked.She used to look at Su Mei and was dissatisfied in her heart, especially after Su Mei and Xiao Xia fell in love.Now she can finally say something like that without being laughed at.

"In the beginning, I would probably go with you, but now it's different, my view of love has changed." Xiao Xia stated flatly.

"What has changed?"

"Before, maybe it was just for fun, for fun, physically. Now, I start to pay attention to my inner feelings, and I will never be with someone I don't think I love anymore."

In fact, it was the "severe pain" that had an effect, through the sequelae.Xiao Xia felt that the side that had been in severe pain was weaker than the other side. When taking a bath, it hurt even when it was hit by the strong water line from the shower, and it hurt when it was hit by the slightly alkaline water. It hurts even when the soap scum is covered. This kind of pain is occasionally a little bit heavier, which weakens his animal nature in love. He has unconsciously broken away from the vulgar taste of "thinking about love with his lower body", I really don't know Whether it's a good thing or a bad thing, his thinking about love has risen to the heart and mind, and he only goes to bed with this person when he thinks that a person is good, because he can no longer get a smooth pleasure just by relying on pure physical reactions, because accompanied by A little bit of pain always distracted him.He needs some mental work to be in high spirits and flourish.So if he really likes someone, he won't feel impotent.

Well, he will save himself only if he really likes someone.

"Will Zhang Xixi be taken away by you?" Xiao Xia continued.

"No, but we will cooperate with him on songs in the future, so his future life will not be bad." Ding Mu said with firm eyes, "Why do you ask like that?"

"Ask whatever you want."

"Ask again. With me, you will be pampered and pampered in the future, and I will give you a chance to show your face. With your appearance, you will definitely be popular. Then, think about your future development. You can imagine, do you want to go with me?"

"No." Xiao Xia replied in a solid voice.At this moment, he thought to himself, Zhang Xixi is also a potential stock, why should he go with you?But just a passing thought.

Ding Mu now understands a truth, how talented you are, how rich and powerful you will be in the future, maybe the person you love but doesn’t love you will still not love you. After all, the first step to falling into talent starts with appearance, or , after all, some people don't care about these things.

Not long after, a foreign English teacher came to the school. He was a tall and compact handsome guy, but he was not as handsome as Xiao Xia. It was impossible to guess that because of her strong English listening and speaking skills, she took over the scene. In the aesthetics of foreigners, she also It became beautiful, you talked to me, and gradually, the two fell in love secretly.

Time progresses like this, feeling that every minute and every second is irrelevant, but after a period of time, maybe a few hours, maybe a few days, maybe a few months, maybe a few years, most people will feel Wasted time.

Zhang Xixi has lived here for almost a year.So far, he has not spent more than 1 minute with Xiao Xia in a year. Occasionally, he happened to meet in the corridor and it was just a meeting. Before Xiao Xia didn't take the initiative, he took the initiative, but now Xiao Xia doesn't take the initiative, he He doesn't take the initiative anymore, he is already well-known in school, he doesn't lack followers, he may be a little arrogant, but he knows that he still misses Xiao Xia, as long as Xiao Xia takes the initiative, he will obey and be interested Chong Chong, but Xiao Xia may not take the initiative in the rest of high school when they still have the opportunity to "meet each other". After going to college, they go their separate ways. If there is no fate, this person will only appear in his nostalgia Alright.

The place where I live is near the school. The downstairs is a restaurant that sells boxed lunches, Mala Tang, hot and sour noodles, Dandan noodles, etc. At noon, the student union comes here to eat. The upstairs is divided into several rooms by non-soundproof wooden boards.Zhang Xixi lives in a room by himself, and he dresses it up poetically, he is indeed a clean kid, slender and kind.In the second semester of the second year of high school, that is, now, he finally couldn't study anymore. He took the route of an art specialty student and chose music to counteract his [-]-[-]% drop in grades compared to before.Ding Mu had never approached him to cooperate before this, but because his name had appeared several times on TV, not long ago, an unknown brokerage company wanted to hire him to write lyrics for some third- and fourth-rate singers in Xiaolaixiao. He went to the commercial performance to sing, but he politely declined.He felt that the songs he wrote should be sung by himself, and he couldn't bear to sing the words alive to others, especially to those who only relied on a broken voice and had no feelings in their hearts. At that time, he loved himself in music better than himself. Music in love.Ding Mu made an exception because he was his first guitar teacher and he had a close relationship with his classmates, but he didn’t regret it. It was too late for him to thank Ding Mu. It was through Ding Mu’s medium that he spread his original songs. Another reason for going out is that he is already very confident about the future, and he is not missing this humble opportunity. Besides, it may not be a good thing to invest himself in a dedicated field prematurely. The most important thing is One thing is, Xiao Xia is still here, Xiao Xia is still here!

I don't know whether such a choice is mature or immature, but I can be sure that he believes in too many things in his heart, which is too whimsical. This is a factor that easily makes people immature.