if you serious you lose

The night after coming out to my parents and getting spanked, it was surprisingly easy to fall asleep.

However, Xiao Yun had a long, long dream. In the dream, he reviewed his 30 years of life so far. Many people and things that he thought he could not remember for a long time. The choices replay in your mind one by one.

Among them, there was a person who appeared more often than the others, and it gave Xiao Yun the deepest feeling. In the dream, the gentle man was pale and looked like he was about to cry at any time, which finally made him feel sour. opened his eyes.

The morning sun shone through the thin curtains on the soft quilt, Xiao Yun hugged his head and let out a low cry, then lay back down again.

The last scene in the dream was a memory that he deliberately forgot.

Perhaps it was after the last night of his graduation tour in Taiwan that he avoided Qin Jie intentionally or unintentionally. For this reason, he even violated the previous agreement and applied for universities in other cities without authorization. Since then, his memories It seems that I can no longer search for that sunny and warm smiling face, and it is always replaced by a bitter and forbearing face.

Ever since he confirmed that he has a stronger physical desire for men than women, Qin Jie has often appeared in his dreams. Those seductive scenes always made him both excited and dissatisfied, but until yesterday he saw it with his own eyes again. After coming to Qin Jie, he had such a dream, and he remembered the past that he had kept dusty for many years, and this only made him feel frustrated, because he couldn't imagine what such a cruel rejection would do to Qin Jie. kind of shadow.

The current Xiao Yun is still unable to explain that night, facing the long-awaited skin-to-skin date, how could he run away? At that time, he didn't even dare to look directly at Qin Jie's body...

But Qin Jie is braver than him.

Xiao Yun felt powerless for his cowardice back then. Even though he found that he could not accept a male body physically, out of self-esteem and selfishness, he took advantage of Qin Jie's trust and doting on him, and stripped him of his last love. A coat.

And in the next second, Xiao Yun made a move that he would regret for the rest of his life—closed his eyes and turned his back to Qin Jie, and then said the words that extinguished the last hope in his lover's psychology: "Qin Jie, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for the man... ...you put your pants on."

The air was frozen for more than ten seconds. After a while of silence, there was a rustling sound behind him. Xiao Yun was hesitating whether to turn around when he heard Qin Jie's "I understand" voice. A certain emotion made him quickly turn his head to explain something, but when his eyes touched Qin Jie's sad and desolate expression, he became speechless again.

So, that night, he and Qin Jie were still the same as the previous few nights, sleeping in two separate beds, and nothing happened, but everyone knew that there was a gap between the two of them, and for the next year or so In this case, he chose to bury it, but Qin Jie chose to ignore it, which only proved to be two people's self-deception in the end.

At this moment many years later, Xiao Yun, who has overcome sexual fear, feels that rejecting Qin Jie at that time was because he was too young and too timid, leaving such unpleasant memories for himself and Qin Jie.

If he had been stronger and braver at that time, and tried a few more times, Qin Jie and him would not have drifted away like that, and Qin Jie would have become his first man, and he would truly have Qin Jie.

Thinking of this, Xiao Yun sat up in shock. In the office yesterday, Qin Jie personally said that he has a lover, and he still needs to verify this matter.

After taking a shower in a panic, Qin Jie opened the door after some simple cleaning, but saw Xiao Xu who was about to knock on the door.

"Good morning, Young Master Xiao! The commander asked me to pick you up to the training room, where he will wait for you."

The standard salute, straight standing posture, and loud and clear voice instantly reminded him of what his father said last night, and he also knew that there was a more urgent problem waiting for him to solve.

"Okay, let's go."

After finishing speaking, Xiao Yun went downstairs first. On the contrary, Xiao Xu was a little uncomfortable with Xiao Yun's calm reaction, but he quickly followed the pace and went downstairs.

In the living room, Mrs. Xiao was sitting on the sofa, and she sighed when she saw her son.

"Your dad went out after six o'clock. He didn't snore a single one last night, so he must have not slept well."

Xiao Yun, who took the initiative to step forward, gave his mother a hug, and said helplessly, "I remember so clearly, you must have rested too."

"Let's not talk about this, you hurry up and eat something." Patting his son's arm, Mrs. Xiao pointed in the direction of the kitchen, "Aunt Wang has cooked breakfast, so you can't be on an empty stomach, Xiao Xu, you can eat something together, I I will talk to your commander about the time."

Mrs. Xiao knew what her husband had told Xiao Xu, and was even more aware of the situation that might arise between the father and son in the future, so she only hoped that Xiao Yun could face it with enough energy.

And Xiao Xu couldn't refuse this simplest request from his mother. Although it was a bit exaggerated, sending Xiao Yun to see the commander today really meant sending him to the "execution ground". Although Commander Xiao was over fifty years old, But under the life of the army and the strict requirements on himself, he has a strong body, stronger than those young people who lack exercise.

Coupled with the Commander's good grasping and fighting skills, even Xiao Xu himself may not be sure that he can win every time. Look at Xiao Yun, even if he has the habit of exercising, but when he meets the Commander who is on fire, a single-minded Lao Tzu, who wanted to teach his son a lesson, could only be beaten and injured. Thinking of the horrific marks on his legs and arms when he helped Xiao Yun apply medicine last night, Xiao Xu couldn't help feeling sympathetic to the commander.

In the end, they arrived at the training ground before eight o'clock and watched Xiao Yun enter the field. Xiao Xu didn't leave immediately, but stayed outside the field...

The shirtless Commander Xiao has already gone through a round of warm-up and training. The fighters who practiced with him have already left. In the huge training ground, only two father and son are left standing in the center of one of the boxing rings.

"Xiao Yun, I'll give you one last chance to tell me that what you said yesterday was bullshit!"

As soon as his father opened his mouth, the hope that remained in Xiao Yun's heart disappeared. He knew that his liking for men would not be recognized by his family after all.

"Dad, I didn't come out to get your approval, but to state an unchangeable fact. As a son, I know that I am not filial, but I have my own life, and I don't want to harm other people's lives, uh..."

Before he finished speaking, Xiao Yun saw a black figure, and then felt a sharp pain in his abdomen, and flew backwards by himself.

With a sound of "touch", Xiao Yun bumped into the guardrail, and hung on it in a state of embarrassment. Just as he was about to prop himself up with his hands, a shadow over his head made his dizzy brain even more uncomfortable.

"Stand up, you're so vulnerable, what kind of man is he? I beat you up a lot since I was a child, that's why I got used to that kind of low-brow thing. Why do you like men! I gave birth to you not to let you Treat yourself like a woman!"

Feeling cold for a while, Xiao Yun mustered all his strength and stood up, facing his father whose eyes were spitting fire.

"A man or a woman, if it is measured by the standard you said, then I don't care what gender I am. Even if I were killed, I would still be a deadly gay. The kind of thing you said!"

From last night to now, even though he was dizzy from the beating, Xiao Yun never really had a verbal conflict with his father. In his bones, he really feared his father and was afraid of his mother's sadness.

But his father's speech just now made him unable to bear it silently anymore. The pain in his body and a catalyst instantly aroused his emotions, and he shouted words that would drive his father even more crazy.

"You bastard! The Xiao family doesn't have a son like you!"

"Okay, Commander Xiao, I won't distort your family tradition. I can't bear the status of your son! I'll move out today!"

Dragging his body, Xiao Yun stubbornly wiped his face, turned around and jumped off the boxing ring while pressing the guardrail. His center of gravity was unstable and he fell down again, but he still got up immediately and walked towards the entrance of the training ground step by step.

The fire in Commander Xiao's eyes was frozen into icicles, the corners of his mouth trembled, his fists were clenched tightly, and he just watched Xiao Yun leave tremblingly and in embarrassment.

Xiao Xu, who had been standing outside, helped Xiao Yun who was lying at the door, carried him back to the car, and was about to drive to the infirmary, but he heard Xiao Yun say: "Send me out, if it's not convenient for you, send me to the door , I will take a taxi myself."

"Young Master Xiao, you should take a look at your injuries first, Madam will be very worried."

Moving out of his mother, it is difficult for Xiao Yun to refuse on weekdays, but the confrontation with his father left him with only anger and impulsiveness in his mind at the moment, and the cruel words he said just now made him have no choice but to put aside his feelings for his mother. Reluctant, I just hope to leave quickly.

"You don't need to worry about this, I can handle it myself. Hmph, don't worry, as long as you don't tell my mother, your commander won't take the initiative to tell her about my situation to provoke her."

"Young Master Xiao, where are you going, I'll see you off."

It's useless to talk too much, the commander probably played out Xiao Shao's temper, Xiao Xu directly asked the address and drove out of the military compound.

The old and new wounds in multiple parts of the body all bared their teeth and claws to show their presence. Xiao Yun frowned and closed his eyes to rest his mind. He didn't want to think about anything, he just wanted to go back to the apartment and sleep.

Just as the vehicle drove out of the gate and was driving on the tree-lined road leading to the urban avenue, Xiao Xu sensitively felt that something was wrong. From the moment they left the gate, there was a military off-road vehicle coming out behind them. The spacious avenue clearly could It is really suspicious to overtake easily, but follow behind at a constant distance, and this clumsy tracking method is definitely not for performing any important task. Looking at the person in the rearview mirror, Xiao Xu sighed silently tone.

Soon, Xiao Xu's conjecture was confirmed.

When he was about to turn into the intersection of urban streets, the off-road vehicle behind suddenly accelerated and overtook, and blocked the intersection with lightning speed. Xiao Xu slammed on the brakes, and Xiao Yun in the back seat also woke up from his light sleep. He stared at the two soldiers who jumped out of the ill-intentioned car.

Ten minutes after Xiao Yun's plan to leave home was implemented, he was taken out of Xiao Xu's car by his father's soldiers, and transported back to the place where he had lived for more than 10 years. It lasted two months.