Peeping at the ex-boyfriend next door who suddenly returned to China every day

Yi maintained the tearful eyes and smile just now, turned his head in puzzlement and said.

As soon as he turned his head, his smile froze, and his heart trembled a few times—it was really Du Meisha's gaze, which made him unable to move, and would shatter into thousands of pieces.

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The time was turned back to five years ago again, the living room was not turned on in the evening, it was dark and hot, and the mountain rain was about to come, and the wind that occasionally blows into the room was also damp and greasy.

Zhong Yi knelt on the hard tiles. It has been the fifth hour. His knees have long been numb and lost consciousness. The place where the ground touches the skin is scalded by body heat, and the texture is soaked by sweat and dust on the floor. Sticky and dirty.

The mobile phone was not far away, and the screen was smashed by his father. He moved and tried to pick up his poor mobile phone. After thinking about it, he gave up - there was no one to call, and he and Ling Xuan were still in a cold war.

The wound on the back had just stopped the bleeding, and the burning pain began again during the movement and pulling. His father didn't know how hard he used, and a stool leg that his father took off was broken.

How on earth did father know?Zhong Yi was puzzled, he had always been very careful, every time he went home to call Ling Xuan, he had to go downstairs, and there was nothing suspicious about him.

Now that the parents know, will they notify Ling Xuan's parents?I just had a quarrel with Ling Xuan, why did all the bad things come together at this juncture?

"How did I give birth to you, you bastard! You have completely disgraced me! Why are you killing people and setting fires? You want to like men? It's really shameless! Are you disgusting? If you are not disgusting, I will be disgusting for you! I gave birth to you What is it for? I might as well raise a dog! You hurry up and go abroad for me, and don’t embarrass yourself here!”

His father was heartbroken and he grabbed his collar and cursed loudly again. His mother, who had always loved him the most, didn't say a word, and sat on the other side of the sofa, sighing and wiping away tears.

The aunt who came to visit by chance today witnessed everything. She crossed her legs and pressed the TV remote control, and said in a casual way: "Zhong Yi was so cute when he was young, why did he suddenly become gay? You should change it quickly. Hey, it's a pity, I'm really afraid that you will ruin our Weiwei!"

Can sexual orientation be changed?Is it okay to pretend not to love someone?

Hearing these heart-wrenching words, Zhong Yi lowered his head and said nothing. The sweat on his forehead flowed down his browbones and cheeks to his chapped lips. His face was still stained with his father's saliva. He was very thirsty and wanted to sneer , I don't bother to explain anything, anyway, no matter what I say, I am a monster in their eyes.

That night, the lamps and shadows fluttered, and finally there was an overwhelming rainstorm. The thick raindrops hit the glass windows, and the wind sounded like weeping, as if swaying full of resentment and helplessness.

The door of the room was locked with an iron chain from the outside, the network cable of the computer was cut, the WIFI was also turned off, and the mobile phone and IPAD were smashed to pieces by the father.

The light was not turned on in the room, and the rice brought in by his mother had not been touched, and it was already completely cold. The injury on his back was still aching, so he could not lie down flat, so he could only lie on the mat.Just silently looking at the sky that was splashed by the inkstone, letting the rain rest on the railing—as if he had returned to the age when human beings drank blood overnight, and he was isolated from the world.

That, outside of Ling Xuan's world.

He didn't want to escape, and he wasn't in a hurry to tell others about all this. Up to now, these results are all self-inflicted after indulgence. He misses his lover who doesn't know where he is and what he is doing, but he is also concerned about their relationship that is about to be broken. Be passive.

Ling Xuan had expressed his dissatisfaction with the fact that he was about to go abroad a long time ago. He was a year younger than Zhong Yi, so it was impossible for him to leave together immediately.But before they dated, Zhong Yi was preparing for language exams abroad, and he also made it clear that it was impossible to delay his studies because of love. As time approached, the pressure was like an invisible wall between them, so quarrels and cold wars became more frequent.

One time, while Ling Xuan was taking a shower, Zhong Yi nervously flipped through his cell phone and found that he had signed up for a same-sex dating app. It still made his sensitive nerves tense like a bowstring about to break.

"You're in a hurry to download the software and find someone else before I leave?" Waiting for Ling Xuan to come out, he raised his phone pretending to be a joke and asked.

"Why do you check my phone? If you want to see it, you can ask me face to face. In fact, you don't trust me at all, right?" Ling Xuan was angry because Zhong Yi peeped at his privacy, and the war between the two was on the verge of breaking out.

Zhong Yi was particularly wronged that day. He is usually not good at words, but that time he insisted and refused to give in: "If you Ling Xuan have a clear conscience, I'll just take a look. Why are you so nervous?"

The two argued for a few words, and Ling Xuan didn't bother to explain any more. He put on his clothes and was about to go out. When he walked to the door, he suddenly turned around and said, "Actually, you're just blaming me for breaking you and making you unable to be a normal person." , you want to go abroad quickly to get rid of all this, get rid of me, you want to restore your so-called normal life before, don’t you? No wonder you always cover up in front of people, you are afraid, you are afraid that others will know our relationship, you are afraid I blocked you from finding a girlfriend! I delayed you, I'm not good, you go, you can live a good life when you go."

Zhong Yi heard this, and looked up at him in disbelief. Seeing Ling Xuan's indifferent face, he became even more angry: "You are so fucking stupid! Do you know what you are talking about? I think low-key is Is it for me? Is it for both of us? What about you? What is your so-called high-profile so-called showing off? Do you think homosexuality is particularly glorious? Or is it to let others know that you are gay? When I leave, you So hurry up and find the next one?"

"Oh, what exactly is honor? Homosexuality is not honorable? I know that's what you think all the time. I owe you for bending you. You look down on yourself and our relationship, right?"

Seeing the corners of the teenagers' mouths raised sarcastically, Zhong Yi couldn't control his emotions anymore, and raised his hand to slap Ling Xuan's ears.

"You're still talking about this now??! I really misunderstood you, Ling Xuan! If I really couldn't get over this hurdle, I wouldn't have been with you at all!!" Zhong Yi roared.

"Hit me, you can hit me a few more times, yes, lest I feel ashamed of you." Ling Xuan sneered, paused, and said, "Have you hit me enough? I'll go out when I'm done." .” After finishing speaking, he closed the door with a snap.

Zhong Yi stood in the room in a daze, his chest heaving violently, his brain whistling with the blood in his eardrums, and after a long time, he sat down helplessly leaning against the wall.

Ling Xuan is as wonderful as fire and song as the rising sun, but as for himself, he is timid, sensitive, and autistic, neither can compare with the other party's brilliance, nor does he have the self-confidence to persevere in resisting his parents.

Probably they were not suitable in the first place, but they insisted on being together without believing in evil or fate, and they wanted to be together even if they knocked each other's edges and corners.

Is such persistence really correct?

There is no answer, love is an instinctive impulse, how can one calculate a standard answer.I like him so much that I am afraid that I will be the last one to be left behind, so I can only leave early alone.It is better to leave a back that is not stained with wind and dust than to reach out and beg in the dust.

The saliva splashed on his face by his father and the words cursed by his family members were like a tube of huge poison, spraying on Zhong Yi's body.He turned his head sideways, gently touched the ring hidden in his pocket, and a tear dripped silently on the pillow.

It was the first tear he shed after kneeling for five hours.

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Two weeks later, Zhong Yi went back to school to go through the relevant procedures for leaving school. It was almost the end of the semester, and except for the last week of exams, the school was mostly empty for the rest of the time. Walking on the road felt deserted. The hot summer sun, as always, makes people's scalp ache.

At this time in previous years, Ling Xuan had already returned to his father's company for an internship. He never thought that he would meet him, but he also vaguely expected to meet him.

Although it is an established fact that he wants to study abroad, he does not have the qualifications and courage to say "wait for me to come back" to his lover, he just wants to say goodbye to him.

Surprisingly, Ling Xuan didn't see her, but received a call from Ling Xuan's mother.

"Zhong Yi, I am Ling Xuan's mother. Yes, I have already talked with your parents. I heard that you are going abroad soon. I also want to meet you." Zhong Yi was powerless to resist a woman of this age, so he had no choice but to accept it.

In the coffee shop in front of the school, a well-maintained middle-aged beautiful woman was sitting opposite Zhong Yi, seeing his embarrassed look, she smiled faintly.

"Ling Xuan has gone home, have you been in touch recently?"

Zhong Yi hesitated for a moment, shook his head and said, "No."

"This is the best, and don't contact me in the future. This is good for both of you. I think you are a very sensible young man. I guess you are just young and ignorant, just for fun. For Xuanxuan, his future We have made arrangements for him, and we can't make mistakes just because we like a man of the same age, do you understand?"

Ling Xuan's mother has a greasy complexion and delicate makeup, without any trace of fatigue and oldness of her peers. She is a completely different type from her own mother.Her voice was very soft and soft, and her tone seemed sensible and considerate, but it was actually cold and bone-chilling.

Zhong Yi lowered his head, pinching the legs of the table with his hands, his knuckles turned white because of too much force.

he turned his head