Two little nonsense guesses

【36】

Zhao Mianmian left, but her mother didn't follow her. Instead, she found someone to accompany her. After that, Su Ran and Mu Keming tacitly didn't talk much about their relationship. On the night of Mu Keming's birthday, they drank wine and lay on Su Ran's bed, their lips touched lightly, and their hearts beat violently. The words Su Ran said that they like, no one loves them. Dare to mention it again.

Although the school forbids rumors about the affair between Zhao Mianmian and Du Ke, Fangmin's mouth is stronger than Fangchuan's. The more rumors spread, the more outrageous the rumors are, and the words about homosexuality are disgusting and perverted from Mu Keming's ears to Su Ran's ears every day. Here, they tried their best to control the doubts and fears in their hearts, restrained these emotions, and took the college entrance examination.It's just that when filling out the application, Su Ran didn't fill in a university as agreed. She didn't know why she sat like that. She overheard Teacher Mu chatting to Mu Keming, "If you are gay, I will definitely interrupt you." Did she see Mu Keming's fear?Su Ran didn't know, and Su Ran was also afraid. In August, when Mu Keming saw her admission notice, her face was so red that she couldn't speak a word.What about those who agreed to go to the same university?

Su Ran scratched her head, she was sitting in that park, the summer was hot, August, it was midsummer, fortunately in the evening, there was some cool breeze, Mu Keming and her were sitting in the gazebo, there was a couple not far away Young lovers, knocking melon seeds and peeling oranges.

"When are you leaving?" Su Ran took a breath, pretending to be nonchalant.

"What does it have to do with you?" Mu Keming was so angry that her heart was about to explode. Although she was afraid, she didn't know how to deal with the relationship between her and Su Ran, but she knew that she liked Su Ran. She didn't understand She and Su Ran are both girls, how could there be such a liking, but since Zhao Mianmian also likes Du Ke, they are not unique, when did it start?Mu Keming didn't know, but the real feeling was different. It was because Su Ran kissed her in the woods. She would never forget the feeling of heartbeat, but she never thought that she would be separated from Su Ran after graduation. alright?How could Po Su Ran secretly change his will?Mu Keming was so angry that she burst into tears, she couldn't control it, she had never cried in front of Su Ran, she didn't want to cry in front of Su Ran, but she couldn't help it, how could Su Ran do this?Tell her now?After she finished the exam, she pulled Su Ran over, faced the answers together, and asked how Su Ran did in the exam. The two roughly calculated the score, and Su Ran was probably [-] points higher. When the admission score came out, she was relieved. Both she and Su Ran should be able to get in. She was still looking forward to the start of school. She and Su Ran were in the same university again. She was looking forward to college life. High school was too hard. She After finally making it through and being able to stay away from her parents, she was very happy in her heart. Although those fears were still there, she would never have thought of Su Ran's move. Mu Keming held Su Ran's hand tightly. Facing the artificial lake in the park, her tears were like broken beads. It was the first time she was embarrassed. Su Ran gritted her teeth and smiled at her, "Mu Keming, you are ugly when you cry. Look at this." Her face is distorted." Mu Keming got up angrily, threw her admission letter to her, and was about to leave.Su Ran didn't stop her. Mu Keming took two steps and then stopped. She suddenly remembered that in a few days, they would really separate. It's not like taking two steps casually and turning back. Mu Keming was very sad, and Su Ran was so sad. Mu Keming froze there, and Su Ran said, "Mu Keming, go and buy two ice creams, it's too hot." Su Ran Ran gave her the steps, she bought two cones and came back, Su Ran wiped away the tears on her face, the two of them sat there quietly, the weather was too hot, the ice cream melted quickly, dripping cream on the On Su Ran's clothes, Mu Keming wiped them clean with a tissue.Mu Keming felt a little sad after thinking about it, and threw the tissue on the ground annoyed, Su Ran was speechless, slapped her face and threw the tissue into the trash can beside her, before turning around, she heard With the sound of sobbing, Su Ran didn't dare to look back for a moment. The atmosphere of graduation was really sad. After the exam, everyone ate, drank, and hugged each other. There were always so many differences. Well, that was Mu Keming's worst loss of composure. It may be that Su Ran's decision was too sudden, and she couldn't slow down at all.

Not only did Su Ran and Mu Keming go to different universities, they didn't even live in the same city. At first Su Ran was afraid of their separation, but in the end, it was Mu Keming who was most reluctant.

I don’t know if everyone’s youth has their own secrets, those hidden in the bottom of my heart, the past that I think will gradually fade away with the passage of time, Mu Keming is sitting in her own home, and her home is full of people. The family likes to get together, and Mu Keming's family is a very typical traditional family. When she was in high school, the matter of Du Ke and Zhao Mianmian became a topic of conversation at her house for a while. Mu Guoliang and Li Lihua took advantage of it She was doing her homework in the study and chatting quietly. It was nothing more than a pity for Xiao Du, a girl. She had no deep taboos about homosexuality. Mu Keming had always been very careful. In my heart, when I was in college, the two had more contact, but later, gradually, Su Ran and her contact became less and less. Gradually, Mu Keming felt that Su Ran was alienating her. She always looked for Su Ran, which would become Su Ran's burden. What's more, why did she always ask her to look for Su Ran? Once, she Angry, it took Su Ran a long time to call her back, and asked her what she was doing, she said bluntly, she was dating her boyfriend, Su Ran was silent for a while, and then said with a smile, Mu Keming, you are promising, all I have a boyfriend, what does it look like?handsome or not?Where are you from?Take pictures and show me.

Mu Keming scolded at the other end of the phone, "What are you looking at? What's interesting? Why did my boyfriend show you? He's so handsome, so handsome." Then he hung up the phone angrily. After that, Su Ran didn't contact her for a longer time.

"Hey, let me show you this, the anesthesiologist at the Second Hospital." Li Lihua handed the phone in front of Mu Keming. She had a headache. It was a good National Day, and Mu Keming wanted to go back after dinner.

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In the past, Mu Keming could bear it and understand the feelings of her parents. In such a big environment, at her age of trial marriage, except for Longhua at the beginning, she never brought a boy home after that. Parents are worried about studying. When I went to college, when I was in junior or senior year, Li Lihua only mentioned a few words occasionally, and didn't take it seriously. Quan Dang Mu Keming was still young, but after 25 years old, see Mu Ke Ming hadn't moved yet, but he was a little anxious, and it got worse in the past two years. Wherever he went, he asked about your boyfriend. Mu Keming was very depressed, but he was not as irritable as today. The whole family had dinner in the evening , Mu Keming originally planned to stay at her parents' house for one night, but she didn't want to stay anymore. She made an excuse, saying that she had something to do tomorrow, and she was leaving. Before leaving, Li Lihua sent her a photo of the anesthesiologist on WeChat. "Isn't it settled yet? Why did you leave? Didn't you agree to stay at home tonight?"

"I have something to do tomorrow." Mu Keming put on his shoes in the hallway.

"It's a holiday these few days. You have something to do tomorrow, so take some time to meet with me the day after tomorrow. Don't try to shirk it every time you tell you about it. You're already 27 this year. Don't be too careless. Did you hear me?"

"Got it." Mu Keming took the bag, greeted everyone in the family, and left. She was not in a hurry to go back. Su Ran also said that she had something to do. I don't know if she was at home. Mu Keming was there After walking on the road for a while, she felt a little depressed, and the marriage urging made her irritable. In all these years, she didn't seem to be attracted to any man, because she was afraid, because she was not sure, and she really didn't have any interest in blind dates. , rather waste your time.

She was a little tired, the lights were turned on at home, the TV was on, and Su Ran was lying on the sofa. Mu Keming went around and took a look. The man seemed to be asleep on the sofa, with one leg curled up on the other. A head was pressed under the pillow, and Mu Keming gently removed it for her, revealing a palm-sized face with red lips, white teeth, clear eyebrows, and eyelashes lying there quietly. She looked at it quietly for a while, thinking How is this different from Su Ran when she was a child, huh?More style?Look better?More mature?Mu Keming didn't know, but felt that fate was playing tricks on people. Su Ran should be just an ordinary tablemate when she was a teenager. How could she occupy so many positions in her life.

Su Ran was in a light sleep, hummed twice, and was about to wake up, Mu Keming hurriedly shifted her gaze to the TV.

"You? Why are you back?" Su Ran just woke up, her voice was hoarse, she moved her body and sat up.

Looking at the bag of instant noodles on the coffee table, Mu Keming knew that she hadn't eaten well at night.

"It was too noisy at home, so I came back. This is what you ate at night? Why didn't you order takeaway?"

"I'm too lazy to call, I'll starve to death while waiting. Ah, yes, I should have given it to you in the morning, I forgot." Su Ran got up and took out a wad of money from her wallet, "Repay you, previous."

Mu Keming looked at the bright red RMB, thinking about her relationship with Su Ran, if only she could borrow and pay back as simple as money.

Mu Keming put it away, and asked about Zhao Mianmian by the way, Su Ran only briefly said, saying that Zhao Mianmian was jet-lagged and slept soundly in the hotel.

"Since you're back, go and get me something to eat. The instant noodles are terrible." Su Ran seemed to wake up from sleep, got up and pulled Mu Keming up, and pushed her into the kitchen.

"It's so late, don't eat, it's past ten o'clock."

"Do it, I haven't eaten well this night, and I feel very uncomfortable."

Mu Keming sighed, Su Ran had already tied her apron graciously, and her fingers were around her waist. At that moment, Mu Keming expected Su Ran to stick it up from behind, and that expectation was at that moment , It was on and off, but unfortunately there was nothing behind her, Su Ran stood beside her and handed her the eggs in the refrigerator, "What's wrong?"

Mu Keming was preoccupied. After receiving the egg, she lowered her head, "It's nothing. I'm sorry for my life. What time is it? I still have to make dinner for you."

Su Ran was shameless, her hands suddenly came out from behind, and gently hugged her, "You are the best, Mu Keming is the best person in the world." There was a sudden shake of the gun, and the egg hit the outside of the bowl. She was upset and made Su Ran roll, and closed the kitchen door, but her face was brighter than the fire on the stove, and her heart was like a wave, rippling. , Swaying, she was so annoyed, she poured the eggs in the bowl into the sink, Mu Keming put her hands on the glazed table, and cursed Su Ran why she was so annoying, she wasted 4 eggs in total, In the end, I brought it out to Su Ran, simple noodles with tomatoes, like pigs, at eleven o'clock, and supper.

Su Ran was very satisfied with the food, the chopped green onion stuck to her mouth, Mu Keming didn't bother to look at it, so she said, "Clean up and wash the dishes by yourself" and went to take a shower.

After washing, I found Su Ran lying on the yoga mat, twisting her body and splitting her arms. Halfway through the split, she couldn't do it. Her face was twisted so badly that she kept yelling that she couldn't do it, it hurt, and she called for Mu Keming to help her. Wrapping her hair with a towel, she hurriedly supported the man with one hand. Su Ran was so fussy, her head hurt, "If you can't cut it down, don't cut it hard. Do you still think you are young?" Mu Ke Ming couldn't help but said.

"I'm a young girl, why am I not young?" Su Ran borrowed her strength to stand up and rubbed her sore legs.

"You're 27, you're so shy about the flower season, what about the rainy season? Forget about the mildew season."

Su Ran pushed her, "I never heard a good word from you."

Mu Keming gave her a white look, and Su Ran gnashed her teeth behind her, "You have been so annoying since you were a child." Hearing the sound of Mu Keming's bedroom door closing, he never thought about it, and the door opened again after a while, "A You are so grateful to the person who has hated you since you were a child and cooks you noodles in the middle of the night."

Su Ran was so angry that she wanted to rush over, but Mu Keming closed the door again with a "bang", Su Ran was so angry that she kicked the door a few times.

The next day, Su Ran thought that Zhao Mianmian would look for her, but he didn't. Presumably, this person was still jet-lagged. Mu Keming had originally arranged to stay at her parents' house on the 2nd, but didn't she come back early?This day was also free, but to my surprise, Mu Keming slept until eleven o'clock and didn't hear any movement outside the door. She was wandering in the living room in her pajamas, secretly thinking that this Su Ran ran out again, Washing up alone, feeling a bit hungry after finishing, and getting some food in the kitchen, when I inadvertently saw a figure with disheveled hair floating across the corridor, "Are you at home? You're so scared to death." Mu Keming frightened There was a big jump, but Su Ran didn't respond, and saw that person floated into the second bedroom again. Mu Keming felt that something was wrong, turned off the fire, and stood in front of the door, "What's wrong? Today?"

Su Ran squirmed under the blanket, but didn't say a word, Mu Keming looked at the bedside, why did she look pale, "Are you sick?"

"Uncomfortable." Su Ran said without opening her eyes.

Mu Keming touched her forehead, only to realize that she had a fever.

【38】

Such lukewarm weather, why do you have a fever?Mu Keming also didn't understand, "Is it hard?"

Su Ran didn't have the energy to care about her at all, turned over, and curled up again, Mu Keming stood in front of the bed with a frown, stood for a while, then went out to pour water for her, "Go to the hospital?" Mu Keming Ke Ming handed the water glass in front of her, Su Ran was very emaciated, she licked her dry lips, and drank some from Mu Keming's hand, she just wanted to lie down, unable to move, Mu Keming touched it For her forehead, she found some medicine in the medicine box for Su Ran to take.The cold medicine caused drowsiness, and after a while, I heard the man's heavy breathing, as if he was not breathing very well. Mu Keming stood in the room at a loss, she gently closed the door, went out to buy vegetables, and was in the kitchen. Watching over the soup, as if he had no master, he went to the bedroom to see Su Ran after a while, and saw that the man was still asleep, and his heart was in a state of agitation, for no reason, why did he suddenly fall ill?

That day, the sky was gloomy, and in the middle of the afternoon, it began to rain. The autumn rain was not heavy and thin, and it fell in a fluttering manner. The porridge was warming in the kitchen. Mu Keming stood in front of the window of the second bedroom in a daze. People are only so quiet when they are asleep.I don’t know if she’s hungry or not, and if she’s better after taking the medicine once, looking at the pale face on the bed, Mu Keming’s heart is in chaos, like a river flooding, it must be the rain outside the window at this moment The rain is always annoying, and what makes her most uneasy is that she thought that after so many years, Su Ran is no longer important to her, but once Su Ran appeared in front of her, she still I want to carry her on my back and hold her in my arms. She likes to stay with Su Ran. In the past few years without Su Ran, she has lived too lonely, too lonely.

"Mu Keming?" Su Ran woke up for a while, and saw Mu Keming standing in front of the window without moving.

"Wake up? Drink water? Is it better? Are you still uncomfortable?"

Su Ran frowned. Of course it was uncomfortable, and it wasn't a magic medicine. How could it be enough to take it once? She braced herself, but her voice became hoarse, "What time is it?"

"It's past four o'clock."

"I've been sleeping for so long?" Su Ran sat up, and Mu Keming asked her if she was hungry. She had no appetite at all, but she still drank some porridge and took medicine again, and she was in a daze the whole day , lying on the bed weakly, unable to tell whether it was day or night, she sweated a little in her sleep, felt cold again, and had a nightmare, dreaming that Qin Jian was shot, she was watching from the Internet, crying Mu Keming was trying to pick her up, but she couldn't get her out. She said to Mu Keming in her dream, "Mu Keming, I don't have a mother anymore." Mu Keming kept taking pictures. Her face, "You still have me, Su Ran, Su Ran, you still have me."

Su Ran woke up from the nightmare. She woke up in a state of panic. She didn't know where she was. Tonight and Hexi, there was no sign of Mu Keming in her eyes. She cried inexplicably. It slipped from her shoulders to her chest, she is used to sleeping naked, half of the quilt collapsed, revealing smooth skin, she didn't realize it, indulged in the loss in her dream, Mu Keming seemed to hear the movement, hurried into the room, saw this white man It was a vast expanse, her heart seemed to be cut by glass, she couldn't help but look away, and couldn't help but glance at Su Ran's chest, and when she got closer, she realized that Su Ran's face was full of tears, she couldn't care less about what was in front of her eyes That piece of spring, pulled the quilt up for her, covering her whole body, "What's wrong?"

Su Ran raised her tearful eyes and choked up, "I dreamed that my mother was gone, and you said you were still there in the dream, but when you woke up, you weren't there either..."

Mu Keming coughed in embarrassment, "I saw you fell asleep, and you were making things in the kitchen."

I don't know why, hearing Mu Keming's voice, Su Ran only felt sadder. The pressure of family changes, and the past with Mu Keming who seemed to have no relationship with Mu Keming, she cried very sadly. When the accident happened, she never cried like this. At that time, she was busy solving the problem. After the dust settled, she was left in a daze for a long time. People are dumb, just like no one saw your wound , you won't feel much pain, but as long as someone cares, you can't help but cry while holding your scar.

Mu Keming couldn't bear it, her heart was itchy and sour, and she couldn't help hugging her. She half supported her body, hugged her from behind, and patted gently, "That's just a dream. Yes, your mother is fine, three years will pass soon."

Su Ran couldn't speak much anymore, so she let Mu Keming hold her and lay on her shoulders. From the initial crying to choking, and finally to silence, the room became quiet all of a sudden. There was no sound from the TV, only the sound of The sound of fine rain, pattering, the autumn rain has wetted the whole city. The city where Su Ran and Mu Keming grew up, seems to have been turned on with a faucet, dripping continuously. As soon as the autumn rain falls, It was getting cold, Mu Keming took a thin quilt to wrap Su Ran's body, thinking that her body under the quilt was a bit uncomfortable, but Su Ran didn't intend to let her go.

"Cold." Su Ran burrowed into her arms again.

Mu Keming instinctively hugged her tightly, but through the thin blanket she could still feel the hotness of Su Ran's body, Mu Keming felt a little uncomfortable, "Then lie down well, and I'll get you another quilt. "Put Su Ran to lie flat, just about to get up, but was hooked by Su Ran's neck, Su Ran's eyes were also brightened by the fever, transparent, as if they could be broken with a poke, maybe because she just cried , those deep eyes seem to be able to clearly reflect Mu Keming's desire, that suppressed and restrained desire that is about to burst out.

"Don't go." Su Ran, who was weak only in front of Mu Keming's eyes, turned into a puddle of mud, looking for her attachment, she must have been burned out, and asked, "You were so scared at the beginning, but now Are you not afraid?"

Mu Keming was hooked around her neck by her, her attractive face was close at hand, her lips were a little dry due to illness, her long eyelashes, and her smooth skin, Mu Keming was a little short of breath, holding on to Su Ran The hands on both sides of the body are a little weak.

"What are you talking about? Confused?"

"Mu Keming, I have pretended to be confused for almost ten years. You were afraid of falling in love with me back then, but are you not afraid of falling in love with Chen Jun now? Isn't she a woman?"