you were a boy

At the end of January, Shen Jie came again and did another three hours of psychological counseling, then told Sun Yuanjun that his condition was under control, and then prescribed a list of medicines.

Sun Yuanjun went to the hospital to prescribe medicine carefully as if holding an imperial decree.Now that he has no agent or assistant, he has to do everything by himself, and of course he still has to wear a mask.Although sooner or later he will be forgotten, for a while, there is no possibility that people will forget him.

But in the corridor of the hospital, he saw a familiar face - Li Si.

Li Sibi was a little fatter when he was young, and at this time he was supporting a pregnant woman for a check-up.

When the four eyes met, they were a little embarrassed for each other, and then they all smiled-it was a smile that was relieved after many years.

Li Si ran over and gave him a big, manly hug.

In the Starbucks cafe, Li Si chatted with her pregnant wives Du Mei and Sun Yuanjun.

Sun Yuanjun: "Congratulations, you are going to be a father!"

Li Si pointed to his wife's belly, "Unexpectedly, don't think she has a big belly, she still has twins! If she is born soon, I will give you one."

Sun Yuanjun smiled: "I have no problem, can your wife agree?"

Du Mei slapped him as a gesture, and then said to Sun Yuanjun nympho: "Every time I saw you on TV, he said he was your classmate, and I always said he was bragging, but I didn't expect it to be true. "

Li Si made an expression, and it seemed that he had the confidence to sing as a turned serf.

Sun Yuanjun took a sip of his coffee and said affirmatively, "Not only a classmate, but also a best friend, there is no one like that."

Li Si looked at Sun Yuanjun, perhaps recalling the past, with complicated eyes.

Sun Yuanjun turned to Du Mei and asked, "Does he still play musical instruments?"

Du Mei shook her head and asked, "Fatty, can you still play musical instruments? What kind of musical instrument do you play?"

Sun Yuanjun said: "Bass. I haven't seen anyone who plays Bass better than him in all these years."

Du Mei looked at Li Si with an expression as if she didn't know this person. After a while, Li Si said nonchalantly, "Quit."

He told Sun Yuanjun what he had done during the years when he had no contact with each other.

At the beginning, his family insisted on letting him take the civil service exam. He didn't expect that he passed the written exam after taking the exam twice. His family spent a lot of money and got him into the Finance Bureau. He became a well-known fat job.He worked for a year and a half, but couldn't adapt to the rigid life in the system, so he resigned. His father was so angry that he almost vomited blood.

Then he went to the south, made a fortune by speculating in stocks, and then bought a house. The housing price has skyrocketed in recent years, and has doubled several times. After selling the house and returning to T City, he even has the money to buy a villa.Now he is a successful businessman. When he got married last year, he already owned several properties, several bookstores and cafes. Even the Starbucks where they drink coffee now has his investment.

Sun Yuanjun listened to him for a long time, and felt that he had said a lot, but he didn't say a word about his favorite music.

I have to admit that Sun Yuanjun was a little sad at that moment.Everyone has become the kind of person they hated the most when they were young.What made them change?

He felt sorry for the self who had worked so hard to practice guitar.In the memory of the radiant and youthful years that exuded the radiance of the Secondary School, the sharpness of the past has been ruthlessly polished by the years, what is left?

They are all under 30 years old, but they have become the kind of middle-aged people who care about gains and losses in everything, and talk about houses and money.

In front of Li Si, apart from his facial features somewhat resembling the boy from before, there was no trace of the once high-spirited boy anymore.

Sun Yuanjun said sorry to him in his heart, and said it very solemnly.

If there was regret medicine in life, if he could travel back in time, would he still leave behind their unsustainable sex band and act in those idol dramas that bored him?

In the end, Li Si's change should be blamed on himself.He was the one who deviated from his original intention first.

When Du Mei went to the bathroom, Li Si suddenly asked, "Where is Song Yu? Why didn't you see him?"

Sun Yuanjun frowned and asked, "Have you still been in touch these years?"

"No, because if we contact you, we can't avoid your topic, and everyone will be embarrassed."

"You all hate me so much?"

Li Si smiled magnanimously. Maybe he would still mind this two years ago, and would not sit and eat and chat with this traitor who once betrayed the band, but now he is about to become a father, and this newly added identity gives him the whole His worldview brings an unprecedented sense of open-mindedness.He understands the world better than before.

"I didn't expect him to come to Yuan Fei's wedding that day. I think he probably figured it out."

"What do you figure out?"

"Either agree with my love for you, or I don't love you anymore. In short, I can accept myself. But when I saw that you and him walked together, I almost understood. How is he now?"

Sun Yuanjun showed him the list made by Shen Jie.

Li Si was not very surprised after seeing it, but just asked: "Is he sick again?"

The word "you" was used strangely, Sun Yuanjun said: "How do you know he was sick before?"

Li Si: "When he fell ill six years ago, I was the one who sent him to the hospital."

"At that time, his parents always quarreled, probably because his father had a mistress outside, and then her mother became depressed. Song Yu always felt that her mother's death was due to her own reasons, so she felt very guilty."

"Why does he think so? How can his father have an affair with him?"

"Because it was Song Yu who committed suicide after she came out to his mother. It's really hard for people to accept that the father is like this and the son is gay!"

"Then do you know why he wants to come out?"

"I don't know about that. But I think that mental illnesses like depression are mostly hereditary. He fell ill not long after sending his mother to the funeral."

"What kind of illness?"

"At that time, I had already returned to T City and was preparing for the civil service exam. One day, a person who claimed to be Song Yu's roommate called me and asked me to take a leave of absence for him. I also asked him how he found me, and he said Song Yu Yu's only guardian is his father, but he will go crazy when he sees his father, and you are the person who has the most contacts on the mobile phone, but your phone is almost impossible to get through, and then you find me."

Sun Yuanjun thought, that period of time should be the stage when he desperately took on the drama. It is indeed a common thing to live in the deep mountains and old forests for a few months without a mobile phone signal.

"Then I lived with him for a few months. The state at the beginning was really scary. He didn't talk or sleep all day and night, and he didn't know how hungry. He was as thin as skin and bones. After a period of treatment , can eat, but he often talks to himself. But it can be seen that he misses you very much, and is often talking to you. "

Sun Yuanjun hit Li Si: "Why don't you contact me? You will always have a way to contact me."

"To be honest, I really thought about it. But Song Yu always told me that he didn't want to be with you anymore when he was sober."

"Did you say why?"

"That's not true. However, I can guess some from my understanding."

Sun Yuanjun looked into Li Si's eyes, and suddenly asked without thinking: "Do you also think that I am a particularly unqualified lover?"

Li thought for a while, and said: "Whether a person is a good person, or whether he is qualified as a lover, there is no established standard for such things. In matters such as falling in love, one is willing to fight and one is willing to suffer. Others watch It’s hard work, but if it really falls on me, maybe he’s happy with it. But one person is always at a disadvantage, and there are too many backlogs, so this kind of relationship can’t last long. Haven’t you acted so many emotional dramas these years? Do you still want to ask me such a thing?"

Sun Yuanjun smiled wryly and said: "No wonder for so many years, as soon as I acted in emotional scenes, I started to lose the chain, probably because I don't know how to fall in love."

"No way, you have been in the entertainment industry for so many years, and you have been surrounded by handsome men and beautiful women every day. You really haven't talked about it again?" Li Si said in surprise: "I see that everyone on the Internet thinks you are a playboy. Where's the big carrot!"

……

To be honest, Sun Yuanjun has indeed met many beauties who are astonishing in the hearts of ordinary people these years, but it may be because most of the people with such looks have high self-esteem. Sun Yuanjun has been spoiled by Song Yu's initiative over the years Now, his personality has always been indifferent, and you will know it after a few days of getting along. No one can stand his temper. It is better to be with a person who is not so perfect in appearance than to be with such a person who will never know what he thinks. But people who can know the cold and the hot are together.Besides, most of the people in the entertainment industry are good-looking, and these people are very conceited. Who would love you for so many years like Song Yu?

So Sun Yuanjun has been single.The irony is that there are a lot of scandals, most of which are hyped by the company, and Sun Yuanjun doesn't bother to clarify anything. For a long time, the media has acquiesced in his image of being a playboy.

After staying in the circle for a long time, you will understand, what is the truth?The national husband who shows affection every day and shows off his son, one second he was wishing his wife a happy birthday on Weibo, and the next second he might be having sex on the bed of a female fan.

And the truth may be that the most "playful" popular niche in the entertainment industry, the so-called rich and wonderful "sex life" is actually spent with his left and right hands.

Sometimes even Sun Yuanjun himself doesn't believe it, let alone the public.He didn't deliberately want to keep his innocence or something, but he wanted to protect himself like a jade for whom.The truth is that he has no desire for anyone other than Song Yu, no matter how beautiful a man or woman is.

Sun Yuanjun himself was shocked when he found out about this.This reason was both artistic and hypocritical, he couldn't share it with others, and he didn't even want to tell Song Yu.

Later, when Sun Yuanjun was a little older, he explained to himself that maybe everyone is destined to have a nemesis.

He didn't expect that he was really Song Yu's nemesis.If Song Yu had never met him in this life, with his cheerful and lively personality, he might not be able to bend, and life might not be so hard.

"Based on your experience, what do you think I should do to make Song Yu feel better? Do you know? His psychiatrist told me to stay away from him, but I really don't want to. Maybe he is annoyed when he sees me now, has he? Like someone else maybe?"

"How is that possible? Don't look at Song Yu looking stupid, but he is actually high-spirited. He talked to you, who else could he fall in love with?"

Sun Yuanjun looked at Li Si with a confused expression.

Li Si took a detour in his mind and understood a little bit. Sun Yuanjun has been a master since he was a child. He has never chased anyone, and he doesn't know how to treat a person well.He wanted to make amends to Song Yuhao, but he didn't know how to do it.

If he and Sun Yuanjun hadn't grown up together, ordinary people would probably never understand the troubles of this kind of fairy who has been living in the clouds.

Looking at Sun Yuanjun's expectant eyes, Li Si smiled and said: "It's never too late to change. Your brother and I have no other skills, but we are very good at picking up girls. Although Song Yu is not a woman, as long as it is love , should be fine."

Then he told Sun Yuanjun how to deal with his current wife in detail.

When Du Mei came back, the two were still chatting happily.

Then as soon as she sat down, the two immediately tacitly said nothing.

That night, Sun Yuanjun began to search for his own news online.There is a post on Tianya that has been picking up his hype and gossip since the year he debuted, and has already accumulated more than 100 million followers, and now there are still netizens following and commenting on the post every day.Sun Yuanjun browsed through it roughly, and mentioned that there were about seven people who were rumored to be named and surnamed.Among them were three men and four women.The funniest thing is that Sun Yuanjun, a man and a woman, have never worked together and don't know each other.Sometimes, they just follow each other on Weibo, or they happen to wear a certain dress of the same style, which can provide imagination space for netizens' obscenity, and forcefully match it.

Sun Yuanjun really couldn't help but smile bitterly.How boring are the people in this world? If you don’t fall in love yourself, how interesting is it to pay attention to these gossips?

But when he thought that Song Yu might be one of them, he felt a little distressed for no reason.

After all, during the days when they lived together, Sun Yuanjun often found that Song Yu would search the Internet for news related to him, but even when he saw the most convincing scandal, he never questioned him.