lonely lonely

Deliberately suppressed thoughts became uncontrollable, and they were so full that they were about to overflow my heart.

Chen Yuyang repeatedly rang the doorbell, eager to convey his love and miss to that person, paranoid and enthusiastic.But the sky failed, and Lu Xin was not at home.So the courage that mustered dissipated in an instant, and the restless mood calmed down instead.Chen Yuyang sat at the door, like a child who forgot to bring his keys, quietly and patiently waiting for Lu Xin to come back.While waiting, Chen Yuyang thought a lot, but he was in a mess and had no direction. It felt like he was lost in the desert, surrounded by the same scenery, and he didn't know where to go.It was already dark, and the corridor was completely dark. Recalling what Lu Xin said, many of them were strikingly similar to Mo Ziye. Panic crept into his heart, and Chen Yuyang suddenly felt that there was something missing between him and Lu Xin. What, there is no way to start.

Chen Yuyang rang the doorbell opposite, Zhuo Fan opened the door and saw him slightly surprised, "Why are you here at this time?"

"I passed by."

Passing by your head, this reason is too bad, go back and make another one, Zhuo Fan does not welcome Chen Yuyang's visit, and said: "Lu Xin is not with me, you go back."

Chen Yuyang hesitated when he heard the words, pushed Zhuo Fan away and rushed in.There was no one there, only a few steaming dishes on the table, which seemed to be freshly cooked.

"I said he wasn't here."

Chen Yuyang stared at him and said, "Did I say he was there?"

"..."

"Since your girlfriend is cooking, I won't bother you." But as soon as Chen Yuyang arrived at the door, Lu Xin came out of the kitchen with a bowl of soup.

Being cheated by his cousin obviously made Chen Yuyang very angry, but Chen Yuyang looked at Lu Xin with a flat expression, as if he knew in advance that he would appear.Lu Xin didn't make much trouble, and said to Zhuo Fan: "The food is ready, you all come over to eat together."

"You" includes Chen Yuyang.

Zhuo Fan said: "Chen Yuyang and I went to get the bowls and chopsticks." Without any explanation, he dragged Chen Yuyang into the kitchen.

"Why are you here, kid? Didn't you and Lu Xin already agree not to meet each other?"

"Lu Xin told you?"

Zhuo Fan grabbed the chopsticks and stuffed them into Chen Yuyang's hands, "When Lu Xin came over today, I casually asked about you and him, and he told me that you would never see each other again, what's the matter?"

Chen Yuyang avoided Zhuo Fan's question, "You asked Lu Xin to come over and cook for you? Cousin, I have never seen someone as shameless as you."

Zhuo Fan couldn't hold the bowl firmly, "What are you talking about? You, Lu Xin's grandma went to visit relatives, and he is the only one at home. Can I ask him to come over for dinner?"

Chen Yuyang said coldly: "You'd better not let me find out that you use him as a coolie again."

"Why do you say it so ugly..."

After the meal was served, Lu Xin picked out her favorite dish and ate it slowly, as if Chen Yuyang didn't exist.Zhuo Fan was caught between the two of them in a dilemma, it was rare for the family to have a partner, and he couldn't even taste the food.Chen Yuyang was very excited to taste the food made by Lu Xin himself, and he tasted it carefully, and got a small sense of satisfaction.

After eating, Lu Xin was about to clean up the dining table. Chen Yuyang kicked Zhuo Fan's leg vigorously under the table. Zhuo Fan immediately said aggrievedly: "Lu Xin, let me do it." The dirty dishes were washed in the kitchen.

Chen Yuyang and Lu Xin were left alone in the dining room.

Chen Yuyang said: "The dishes you cook are delicious."

Lu Xin said, "Thank you."

"Who taught you this?"

"Grandma. When I was young, there was often no one at home, so I had to do it myself."

Chen Yuyang snorted, and then the two of them lost their conversation.

Caught off by an ear-piercing bang, it should be that Zhuo Fan broke the plate in the kitchen.Lu Xin stood up and wanted to go in to help, but Chen Yuyang said, "Don't help him, I can't even wash the dishes after living alone for so long."

Lu Xin sat back, pursed her lips, expressionless.The fluorescent lamp illuminated Lu Xin's skin white and translucent, and against the pitch-black hair, his appearance made one's heart flutter, so beautiful that one wanted to get close to touch him, but felt that he was cold and lifeless like a dummy.

I don't know whether Zhuo Fan was born a housework idiot or deliberately created opportunities for them, so he hid in the kitchen and didn't come out for a long time.Lu Xin waited for a while and said, "I'll go back first."

Chen Yuyang watched Lu Xin change his shoes and go out, choked up with sobs and couldn't speak the words he had planned to confess.

Zhuo Fan finally appeared, "Where's Lu Xin?"

"gone."

"Going away? Did you say anything?"

"No."

Zhuo Fan pushed Chen Yuyang, "Damn it, I washed my hands in the kitchen until my hands rotted, and you didn't say anything?"

Chen Yuyang murmured: "Cousin, Lu Xin doesn't seem to want to like me at all."

"What nonsense are you talking about... What do you mean you don't want to like you?"

Chen Yuyang lowered his eyes and thought for a while, "I'll go to Lu Xin's."

Seeing his dazed look, Zhuo Fan was a little worried, "You can find him, but if you get angry after a quarrel, don't force it."

Chen Yuyang cast a disdainful glance at Zhuo Fan, walked past him, and stepped on him viciously.

Lu Xin was not surprised that Chen Yuyang came to look for him, and asked politely, "What's the matter?"

"May I come inside?"

I thought Lu Xin would refuse, but he nodded and walked into the room.Chen Yuyang froze for a moment, immediately closed the door and followed inside.Simple and clean room, empty with a little deserted smell.Lu Xin poured him a glass of water, "Tell me."

But Chen Yuyang didn't know what to say, so he started abruptly, and Chen Yuyang said, "Zhao Cheng is quite happy now." This topic was very unnatural, and Lu Xin just hummed in response.

"Our agreement...does it count?" Chen Yuyang asked.

Lu Xin asked back: "You have already come to my house, do you think it counts?"

Chen Yuyang only felt that Lu Xin was very strange today.The two fell silent again, the ticking sound of the wall clock was very clear, and it seemed unusually empty.In the ambiguous atmosphere, Chen Yuyang slowly approached Lu Xin, supported his face and kissed him.Breathing became chaotic, Lu Xin stretched out her arms to hug Chen Yuyang, trying to respond to him.When they parted, Lu Xin's lips were slightly red, but she still had no expression on her face. Chen Yuyang held him in his arms like a dream.

Then Lu Xin said, "How about we?"

Chen Yuyang couldn't react, "What's the matter?"

"One day, you will leave me, and then I will be the only one left. It's better not to be together."

Chen Yuyang hugged him tightly, and said, "Nonsense."

Lu Xin asked: "Chen Yuyang, will you leave me?"

"will not."

"forever?"

Forever is too far away, Chen Yuyang dare not guarantee the future, they still have such a long way to go, who knows what will happen?

Chen Yuyang asked: "Is such a promise necessary?"

But Lu Xin didn't let it go: "It's necessary, it's very necessary. I just want forever, even if I lose even one minute."

This is a bit unreasonable, Chen Yuyang said: "Lu Xin, you can't act like a baby."

"I'm not being coquettish."

After saying this, Lu Xin put her arms around Chen Yuyang's neck and rested her head on his shoulder.Chen Yuyang thought that Lu Xin was having a tantrum with him, so he couldn't help laughing, suddenly felt a burst of warm wetness on his shoulders, Chen Yuyang hurriedly turned Lu Xin's face, and was immediately startled, "What's wrong?"

Lu Xin's face was wet a lot, and the tears were still flowing out, Chen Yuyang wiped them off for him, and they flowed down again, wetting the whole palm of his hand.Chen Yuyang panicked completely, "Lu Xin, talk to me..."

Lu Xin shed tears, opened her mouth but failed to make a sound, and shook her head weakly.

"Then cry loudly, don't hold back..."

Lu Xin still shook her head, and kept crying with half-opened eyes until she couldn't cry anymore, closed her eyes and passed out.Chen Yuyang carried him into the room and covered him with a quilt, and went to say hello to Zhuo Fan: "I won't be going home today."

Zhuo Fan turned pale with shock, "Are you going to spend the night with Lu Xin?"

Chen Yuyang was not in the mood to argue with him, "Lu Xin fell asleep crying, I will accompany him."

As a result, Zhuo Fan's expression seemed to swallow a cockroach, "What?! You bullied him like that! Chen Yuyang, you are going to die!!! I told you not to force it!"

Chen Yuyang ignored it this time and walked back directly.