Selfishness

We rushed down the tower to join the reinforcements below, and together we drove the last of the enemies out.Fighting all the way, Xiao Han and Qin Ling, I, standing at the gate of Youguan, watching the defeated enemy army and the soldiers chasing after the victory, breathed a sigh of relief and felt the victory.

When Xiao Han was planning to withdraw his troops, so that the soldiers would no longer pursue him.There was a howling sound and Qin Ling's shout from behind: "Be careful!"

If I want to say what I feel, I can only say that the most intuitive thing is pain.At first, I didn't realize what was going on, I just felt very painful. When I knew that the arrow shot by the enemy had hit me, fear spread in my heart.In the previous battle, he was close to death, but now he is already in death.Compared with the previous fears - the fear of killing, the fear of blood, the fear of dying at any time, the fear now is the fear brought about by the real experience of death.I was breathing quickly, looking at the wound that was bleeding continuously, I seemed to see life passing by.What is strong and brave is fart, at this moment I just want not to die!Fear of death!Even if I came to this world through time travel, even if I might wake up again—in another dream.But at this moment I still feel like I will never wake up again.I regret my impulsiveness and self-righteousness, not only the body of a ten-year-old is too thin, and his reactions are slow due to exhaustion of all physical strength.What's more, I underestimated the horror of the ancient cold weapon battlefield, and also underestimated the pain of killing people.So now I'm paying the price for my ignorance.

Qin Ling and Xiao Han pressed on my wound anxiously and kept shouting for the doctor to come over.Because the wound is on the chest, according to my personality, I should make fun of their pressing position at this time.But I really couldn't say anything, I held Xiao Han tremblingly.I don't need to think about it to know how deep the fear is in my eyes.

"Shui Sheng, don't be afraid, the doctor will be here soon."

Xiao Han kept stroking my head, I knew she was comforting me, trying to stabilize my emotions.Qin Ling, who kept pressing my wound, kept talking. She seemed to be telling me interesting stories about her injury. I don't know if it was her talking intermittently or my listening intermittently. Anyway, I didn't understand a word.

Looking at Qin Ling, I needed to look sideways. I felt tired, so I looked straight ahead.Xiao Han's face was right in front of my line of sight.She frowned tightly, and put her palm on my cheek, supporting my face.She said something don't be afraid, or something.There was so much noise around, I couldn't really hear what she was saying.But I can still see her appearance very clearly. The first time I posted it so closely, she really looks very good-looking.The blood stains on her face didn't make her look cruel, but soft.That's weird, blood softens people?But I really think it's soft, the light seems to be furry, and her face is clear and blurred.I tried my best to open my eyes, trying to see if it was dawn.

But it was still dark and getting darker.

I felt my body lighten, as if being lifted up.I couldn't see my surroundings, and I couldn't hear their words clearly, it was so noisy.But my thoughts still remain, am I really going to die?Up to now, after being hit by the arrow for a while, I seem to have accepted death, or rather, I feel that I am already dead, so I am no longer so afraid.At least before I completely lost consciousness, I just thought, it's a pity, if it ends like this.

Location: In the military tent of Youguan

"Military doctor! Take a look at her!" Qin Ling anxiously pulled the doctor who was covered in blood.

"She must be cured! Or deal with it according to military regulations!" Xiao Han clenched his fists and gave orders.This order seemed to frighten the military doctor, so she hurriedly took care of Mo Xu.Qin Ling on the side was also frightened, the Xiao Han she knew would never give such an order.

"General, who is she? You wouldn't say that before." Qin Ling stood beside Xiao Han and asked in a low voice.

Xiao Han glanced at Qin Ling and said, "Princess friend. I promise the princess to take good care of her. If something happens to her, the princess will definitely blame her."

"The princess thinks so much about Xiao Mo?" Qin Ling scratched her cheek and said, "Although Xiao Mo is really interesting and good at kung fu, she doesn't feel like a guy who is controlled by others. Can the princess recruit her?"

"What do you and I say about the princess?"

Qin Ling was silent and didn't ask any more questions.Although she usually talks to Xiao Han, she is not too big or small, but the princess is different, so she can't offend her.

The doctor cut off Mo Xu's clothes and carefully pulled out the arrow.After the comatose Mo Xu let out a muffled snort, he became silent again.Looking at the large and small wounds on her body, and the fatal arrow wound, Qin Ling and Xiao Han were very worried.

"Why did you let her stay in the prison and not let her go?" Xiao Han looked at Qin Ling angrily and asked.

"The general has been wronged! I told her to leave, but she didn't want to! She insisted on going up the city wall. I planned to tie her up and leave, but the enemy invaded and couldn't leave." Qin Ling whispered more and more, and she also I know, it was my dereliction of duty.She should have been kidnapped from the very beginning, and she should not have been left behind.

"Don't you know how to tie her away earlier?" Xiao Han poked Qin Ling's forehead and said.

"It's not that you don't know, I never like to force others. She is so determined, I think she is a person with backbone, just...just..."

"Just what!"

"Just let her try to kill someone."

"You even instigated her to kill!"

"Don't do it, General! It's not like that! I hope she knows it's hard to kill people, and it doesn't feel good. I hope she quits."

"How can you teach a child the way you teach soldiers! She is only ten years old!"

"Hey! I don't know that she's only ten years old." Qin Ling said with an aggrieved expression.But she suddenly thought of something, looked at Xiao Han and said in surprise: "She is only ten years old? You didn't lie to me?"

They were kicked out by the doctor because their conversation was too loud.

"Why did I lie to you! You idiot!" Xiao Han gave her a smack on the forehead in disgust.

"I thought she was 34 and [-]! How does she look like a child? She is taller than a ten-year-old child, and she posted it when she saw the war! She doesn't speak so innocently like a child!" Qin Ling patted regretfully said the leg, "She is so small! How could I let her go to war! Oh! I should have kidnapped her!"

"Forget it." Xiao Han sighed and said, "Shui Sheng is indeed precocious, and I don't care about you. I just hope she is safe and well."

"Be safe! Queen Mother, Empress, Jade Emperor! Please! Otherwise, I can only apologize with death!" Qin Ling squatted on the ground muttering and begging, her face full of remorse.

"It will be fine." Xiao Han whispered, "It will be fine, she must have such luck."

As soon as the doctor came out of the military tent, Qin Ling and Xiao Han nervously went over to ask.The doctor also said nervously: "I'm still in a coma, if I survive today, I should be fine."

Qin Ling and Xiao Han opened the curtain and rushed in, and saw Mo Xu lying on the bed like a rag doll, motionless.

"Xiao Mo, you must wake up! You have helped me so much, but I still hurt you. I am really sorry for you." Qin Ling said with tears in her eyes.

"Stop making trouble! Go out and deal with the secluded affairs! Don't disturb her rest." Xiao Han directly pushed Qin Ling out, regardless of her objection.

After Qin Ling left, Xiao Han sat by the bed, looking at the pale Mo Xu, feeling an indescribable feeling in his heart.A few days ago, I was still chatting with her in the study, with an expression that I didn't value anything, and I didn't care about anything, "pointing out the country".Today, he fell here, lying lifeless.Xiao Han missed that night a little bit, she said: "It's better for you to look at everything with a disdainful face, instead of losing your liveliness like this."

Xiao Han gently stroked Mo Xu's face, feeling guilty and sad in his heart.If it wasn't for me not paying attention, how could the thieves take advantage of it and even hurt Mo Xu.Xiao Han knocked on his thigh angrily, his teeth itched with hatred for those thieves, "Such a thing! Never happen again." Xiao Han silently swore in his heart.

The author has something to say:

The second half is not from Mo Xu's perspective.

I hope it's not too abrupt or inexplicable