Selfishness

They wanted me to go back to the town, but I didn't want to, so they took me to the rear city camp.The soldiers surrounded me and waited for them.

Soon, I heard the sound of fighting, and the flames on the city wall flickered, and the sergeants around me became more and more nervous.There were repeated killing sounds, and the originally pitch-black night was already stained with blood.It was bright, but it was blood red.How long it took to kill, I don't know.I can only feel the bloody smell getting stronger and stronger, and I can clearly smell death in the rear.To run only now, but I don't want to.Maybe the human heart is locked with animal nature.Like the people around me, they all seem to be infected by the atmosphere, and they are like wild animals, staring straight ahead.As long as someone appears, they will rush up like a leopard and tear the enemy apart.Me too, with a bit of dread, but with a tinge of strange anticipation.

"They broke through the front gate and entered the Urn City! Shoot the arrows!" I heard Qin Ling's roar.The steps on the city wall were heavy and not as orderly as before.The fighting sound became louder and louder, and the friction sound from the arrows could be heard, feeling that the battle was getting more and more urgent.I don't know how long it took, I thought I couldn't stay here any longer, I had to go or go up the city wall.

"Let's go up too! It's more dangerous here." I ignored the soldiers around me and headed towards the city wall with luck.

"Little Mo! Really! What are you doing here!"

"Can I run away! They've all entered the Urn City!" Looking at the enemies pouring in from the bottom of the city, the bloody aura wafted unscrupulously, the screams from the bottom of the city, the screams from the top of the city, the whole checkpoint seemed to be shaking.The orderly shouts of the enemies crashing into the city gate below made us more and more nervous.It's too late to run now "Have you ever killed someone!" Qin Ling asked me calmly after thinking for a while.

"No."

She gave me a bow and said: "See the people below? Draw the bow and shoot the arrow!"

I listened to her instructions and did as she said without doubting him.With a pop, he shot an enemy.I don't know why, even though it was so far away, I still heard the sound of the arrow shooting into the flesh.There was a burst of nausea in my heart.I took a few steps back and covered my mouth.Trying to hold back the feeling of vomiting.

"Little Mo, it doesn't feel good to kill people." Qin Ling looked at me, then called in another sergeant, saying that she would send me away.

It was indeed difficult for me to recover, and I was carried out by the soldiers in a daze.But just a few steps away, I heard a heavy sound-the door downstairs was broken.

The enemy rushed into the checkpoint and rode straight from the horse path to the city wall.

"Xiao Mo, be careful!"

With a "ding", the sound of the collision of weapons sounded like an explosion in my ears.This sound really woke me up, and I finally saw everything in front of me clearly.Blood was sprayed everywhere around me, and my body was also covered in bright red unknowingly.Death is so close.

"Little Mo! Pull up your weapon!" Qin Ling came to me and leaned against me and said, "Remember what I told you! You can't die!"

Enemies kept coming around me, and I was a little afraid and repelled by the previous discomfort, so I always took the method of knocking people down instead of killing them.

As a child, I quickly became exhausted. I felt dizzy, but my body still moved on its own.Consciousness is dissipating bit by bit, and I am also being swallowed up by the atmosphere of the battlefield bit by bit.I kill people, but I don't know, I just swing my weapon mechanically and without reason.The weapon cut the throat of the enemy, and the blood pierced my eyes, and I didn't know it.When I really came back to my senses, we had already retreated to the town, guarding the last line of defense.There were far fewer people around her, and Qin Ling's face was all red with blood.

"Xiaomo, are you okay?"

"Okay." I replied reflexively.Obviously the fact is not like that, my hands are shaking all the time, I have the guilt of murder and the fear of death, and it is more physical exhaustion.Even if the child's body has been practicing martial arts and has the support of internal strength, it is almost overdrawn.

"Little Mo, listen to me." Qin Ling turned my blank face and said, "This is war. Only you live and die, and there is no guilt or kindness. If you want to go to the battlefield and become a general, you have to understand your responsibilities What is it? Killing is not our duty, protection is. But for protection, we have to kill. So don't hesitate! If those people don't die, our family members behind us must die!"

I understood what she said, but when I actually sat up, I still panicked.In modern times, we are far away from wars, and killing people is considered an extremely sinful thing.I'm just a very ordinary person, and killing people is still so unacceptable to me.But I also know that I have to accept it, which is why I don't leave.

"I know. But I have to take my time."

"You still have a little time to slow down." Qin Ling said with a light smile.

Because of our desperate resistance, their attack is not going well.Now we are retreating back to the town, guarding the last pass.So they began to regroup the army, boost morale, and prepared to wipe us out and occupy Youguan.On our side, the morale can't be said to be low, but it is indeed very dignified.The reinforcements that were supposed to arrive hadn't arrived yet, so something must have happened on the way.We all here know that if the reinforcements don't come, we won't be able to sustain it.

"Little Mo, you've performed quite well today." Qin Ling leaned against the city wall and said to me, "The first time I went up, I just vomited. blood, I spray food."

The rest of the people also laughed when they heard Qin Ling's narration, and so did I.Because the picture of the brain is really funny.The enemy sprayed blood on her face, and she sprayed vomit back on others.Really sick of those enemies.

"Hey! I said Xiao Zhang, don't laugh! Don't think I don't know about your pants peeing." Qin Ling pointed to a soldier opposite.

Everyone on the city wall talked about the first time they went to the battlefield, and they didn't even talk about peeing their pants.There are also those who ran to the wrong place nervously and ended up in the enemy's rear, and those who stared at the enemy for a long time.For a while, the city wall was full of laughter and laughter, and the laughter became louder and louder.The enemy army under the city must be wondering.

"Woo—" The enemy downstairs blew the horn, and it seemed that they were about to attack.

"Little Mo, if you can't do it, don't do it. If you knock me out, I'll kill you." Qin Ling leaned on me and said.

Thinking of my unconscious killing just now, I was a little panicked.I held the urinal tightly and told Qin Ling, I will do my best.

The enemies downstairs started crashing against the gate, and we used up all our arrows.The enemies downstairs are still like locusts, they can't be killed.There are more and more ladders, and they keep going upwards along the ladders.There are no stones or wood to throw, so we can only stop them with knives and guns.The people around him fell one by one, and more and more enemies stood on the city wall.There was more and more blood on Qin Ling's body, mixed with other people's and her own.There are more and more wounds on my body, but I don't feel any pain.We stood back to back, killing the enemies who surrounded us--and the red-eyed enemies.

"Reinforcements are here! Soldiers! Hold on!" Qin Ling roared, conveying hope to us.

There was a roar in the distance, and it was indeed the arrival of reinforcements.The enemies on the city wall panicked a little.The battlefield is all about fighting for momentum, and at this time, knowing that the reinforcements have arrived, my heart is full of hope, and I have the confidence to kill the enemy.

Soon, we saw reinforcements, and they had reached the town.When I saw Xiao Han coming galloping on horseback, I was relieved.Seeing the arrival of reinforcements, the enemy was weaker than our army in momentum, so they retreated steadily and began to evacuate.

The sound of hopeful fighting on the city wall continued one after another.We held the checkpoint, and it was false to say that we were not proud, but we couldn't hide our sadness - looking at the corpses all over the ground, our friends and enemies.

Modern values ​​make me always value life.But here, human life is really worthless and unimportant.This is what war brings to people—life doesn't matter anymore.